(note: this update was written in the context of my fic deja vu, but im too lazy to rewrite it for all my other fics so just keep that in mind not all my fics had 64k views)

here's an update after 5 years of silence, because i like inciting chaos like that

hi lol im rly sorry i completely abandoned my fics so if you were stupid and unfortunate enough to genuinely like them, then i apologise this is not a genuine plot update tbere is no plot development. unless youre talking about me then yes there is plenty of plot development gfjdjdhs

so yeah i am no longer some problematic and extremely worrying child who was inherently homophobic and knew way too many things about sex than i should have for my age. i have stopped liking divergent and moved onto other things, like anime (not sure if thats an improvement tbh). fun fact my homophobia was so bad that i actually made a canonical lesbian Str*ight for a fic that never made it out of drafts, and THANJ GOD FOR THAT i even wrote some stupid whiny author's note like "im sowwy i think wynn being a wesbian in divergent is okay but i dont wike the idea of her being a gay in my fic it makes me uncwomfy :((((( dont hate me pweas" bitch ill beat the homophobia out of your stupid 14 year old face

anyway . i am bisexual now

i will admit it was fun just writing and stuff as a kid but man ,,, i sucked everything i wrote was SO BAD why did people even like my shit . why did yall feed into my dumb 12-14 year old ego like that why did you encourage her. no stop that . like bro hello i just checked and this fic has 64 fucking thousand views. how yhe FUCK ? why would there be so many views on this thing this fic is SHIT and the 100+ favs and follows ? why. why would u do that to yourself. AND MY NSFW FIC WHY DID PEOPLE THINK IT WAS GOOD I HAD NEVER HAD SEX IN MY LIFE I WAS A LITERAL CHILD ? 45K VIEWS ON THAT THING AND IT WAS ON THE FRONT PAGE OF DIVERGENT M FICS FOR A PERIOD OF TIME IF YOU SORTED ACCORDING TO FAVOURITES ? pretty impressive for a 13 year old but omg pls ,,, i was THIRTEEN

lol for those who actually unironically liked deja vu, i actually had a plot ending in mind. like, full on plot skeleton, all the way from where i last left off to the very end. i think if i werent so swamped up by school stress and hadn't lost my passion for writing in the process, i might have actually completed it. that makes me feel really sad for what could have been, if im gonna be honest. yes this fic would have continued to suck, but i enjoyed doing it, yknow?

okay ill admit it, i owe huge thanks to those people out there who really enjoyed my stuff and encouraged me. they made it fun and gave me a reason to keep writing, even if it was a bit of a drag after a while. i might take these words back if i actually read my fics again, so im not going to. thank you for making some dumb 12-14 year old kid feel good about herself :) she kept going for almost 2 whole years wow

i love how im writing this as if anyone is still active and follows me on this godforsaken website. if you are still here, and still remember me "nyaning in the fear landscape" or whatever the hell it was god it was so obvious i was a 13 year old in here, do feel free to chat with me! :D you can ping me on instagram, user is (meg. uwu. mi), minus the spaces ugh i fucking hate ff's censoring mechanism on this i forgot how shitty it is. but please keep in mind that im like. Almost an adult now. dont expect me to be like "squee yaoi nosebleed xd" anymore, thank God. oh and i can actually legally talk about sex in the way i did when i was 12. seriously why did that not raise any red flags for anyone this was so concerning wtf

im still very much into fics, though more as a consumer than producer. im extremely active on ao3 now so you can find me there too! my user is meguwumi :) used to think ao3 was shit bc the interface and its content confused and deeply upset my 13 year old homophobic pea brain LMAO

ok goodbye forever im never logging into this accursed account ever again. rip divergent kitty she has nyaned her last nyan in the fear landscape. cause of death: lesbians