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Coming here tonight was the wrong choice. I should have listened to Black Canary when she said that heroes had to be good to themselves first. I had been angry with my situation revolving around the Terran card. I had wanted to show my value and argue for better terms. My episode would be a stain on my perception by the league and Batman. He was Robin's father figure and I knew he had bias. I just hoped it would have gone better so he could warm up to me. Instead I had threatened his life with a chair and been placed in cuffs.

I was in the perfect place to vent about Batman ironically enough, but I did not want to give any impression I was giving them any attention. I did not actually wish to interact with anyone who Robin had fought in his past. I had been relieved he would only be fighting me instead of his past.

I knew it was a reflex when he turned on his escrimas. It was a mistake, but I had been bubbling with disappointment about my own mistake earlier. My moments of lapse and any mistakes I would make would be met with serious consequences where I always forgave him too quickly. If he had used those, if I had another seizure I would not know what could of happened.

I should of used my time wiser before we came, talked about exactly what had happened. Why my aversion to electricity was based upon a fear of losing myself. My body and brain could only handle so much without damage. I was not born with a tendency to experience seizures, but my time in captivity had left me prone when shocked too intensely. I still felt the shock in my teeth and had a lingering headache from Flash. It had scared me not to know where I was and what was going on. I recognized Robin and went into protection mode since I did not think my allies would harm me in such a way.

I understood after talking to Canary over tea, why he thought that way and their intent. They wanted to save me from my head, the gesture was sweet the action wrong. Shocking me had been his way to bring me back to consciousness. It had been his one idea since he had done it before. It just was dangerous to everyone. I could have had a worse reaction and people could have been seriously hurt. If I made a mistake then it would not have been forgiven.

Though I knew I needed to forgive Robin, soon would be better. Though my anger to how the whole day had passed mutated when he drew more electricity to strike me. I needed to tell him how dangerous that would be for me and him. It hurt, my heart and it would have been best not to put ourselves into this entire situation.

I wanted to hurt him now, and I needed that desire to fade. It was petty and horrible, but retribution was something my father and Lord Breva had managed to train into me. My brain flashed ideas of what I could say and do that would hurt him most. This made my heart hurt more, I should not crave his pain, I should not want to tear him down to my level. I should not be like my sister. The last thought sent icy spikes through my anger.

"Go home." I said trying to think of the best way to resolve this, but knowing I needed time to cool down all the way. He was agitated and extra jumpy with present company. I was myself and feeding off his energy. I had left him alone on the rafters since it had been making me even more anxious. He had fought, we had gotten a point, he was not likely going to be contacted for a visit to balcony tonight.

"I'm not going to leave you alone. Especially with everyone here." I had insisted this conversation in his mother tongue. He had already explained and apologized. I hadn't said I forgave him, but I said I understood. He was trained like I was, he was defending himself. It was reasonable, but it had been something I had taken care to ask. Though I knew he was uncomfortable leaving me in the den of his former foes.

"I will not be alone. I will not be far behind you, I already requested my meeting and now it is a matter of time." I had motioned to Red X since I knew his fight was still upcoming. He would be staying at least a little longer. "You want to be here less than I do, take your opening." I knew he would still fight, but he had left me alone when he was in Gotham. The situation was different, but I had been alright with just Red X for support.

"You want to leave right after your fight right?" I switched over to English to check my facts with Red X.

"Maybe even sooner. You need a ride?" He asked and I decided even if Robin didn't leave, going for a ride with Red X would likely clear my head. My anger was due to the situation we were in and not just his actions. Separation would help me resolve the anger that was not his fault. I also had been wanting a chance to interact with him outside of the stress and horror of the club.

"Yes. If the offer is still open as soon as I talk with her, I would like to be anywhere else." I said and decided even if Robin stayed this might be best for me. I had wanted to interact with Red X outside of the club and hopefully in a manner where I would not be crying all over him. I also did not want to go back to the tower. I did love Robin, but I did not want to get trapped in a fight or lecture or a net of his pity. I wanted to feel the breeze and freedom in wandering.

"I can do that, Cutie." He said though I felt like he was anxious to just bolt now.

"Please don't do this." Fallen said and if their wasn't modulation on his voice it might have changed my mind. It was easier to say no to this new suit, new face in front of me. If I was in my normal attire in the same situation I would be flying to Red Star, Kole, or Argent. I just needed a different energy, a friend to help me process my emotions to a human level. They had more patience and experience with humans even if two of them weren't completely.

"What are you afraid will happen?" I switched back out of English so he could answer honestly.

"You are not in the right headspace and last time we fought like this you and Stephanie happened." He was jealous and ignorant. I had exchanged lip contact to understand her better and she had talked me into forgiving Robin. She had recently ruined a relationship due to not being able to communicate and through tears and drinks she helped me want to speak again. He didn't know that part of the story.

"My love, I have not spent three years waiting for you only to dishonor you in days after. You just hurt me and I want to get away before I do the same."

"This will still hurt me." He said and that caused a jerk in my heart. "Just come home we can consider the night over and talk it out."

"You know it's rude to have conversations in other languages in front of people without translating." Red X broke through and he had a point, but there was not a better option.

"I am sorry, I needed a break from English. I can switch over to something else if you prefer?" I was being a little rude and I needed to stop, but I wanted to keep my bravado a little longer.

"Ugh what passes for high school Spanish likely doesn't get me very far. Look I am not interested if this is just a petty ploy. I kinda graduated from that type of drama and don't want to get in the middle of something I shouldn't." He said and I was content he was laying boundaries for me in addition to annoyed he was accusing me. He was sensing the right energy, but I wanted to just be away from Robin and my terrible day. I wanted to be in a new environment.

"It is fine. I'll figure something else out." There was a part of this I knew was petty, but considering the level of petty I wanted to be it was minor. I was willing to jump in the ocean and swim for however long it took for the sun to rise and signal a new day.

"No." They said in synchrony.

"I just want to go for a ride to clear my head. I am not ready to go home and I am not ready to have a sensible discussion with you." I said the last point with some bite. "Please." I was taxed and restless and knew that Robin would take the brunt of my disappointment for how the day went if he opened up the dam holding my emotions at bay. I hadn't struck to hurt him besides our first meeting and I didn't want that to change.

"If you aren't in the right headspace, you shouldn't be left alone. I messed up, I'm sorry and don't want you getting in a bad situation because you're upset."

"I can handle a girl wanting to take a break. Ember we can go whenever you're ready, I'll be outside." He said and took out his pack of cigarettes from his belt.

"Thank you." I said and he sent me a salute though I knew his pace was quicker than normal. He was looking for an excuse to leave too.

"I don't like this." Robin said and I knew that was a fraction of what he wanted to say.

"I do not like how I am feeling and do not want you to bare it. Full disclosure is still in effect, I just need some time to process everything and fully alone isn't better. I've almost harmed you twice today and a third will just make it worse." I said and wrapped him against me before he could say anything else. I put my lips close to his ear and squeezed. "I love you, but I need space." I made sure he had a smidge of blue on his mask and released.

He caught my braid as I left and I was grateful he was wearing a mask. He did not tug, simply held until I pulled it from his grasp. I had yet to get my request to go up, but I started heading for the door that led to the balcony. I would rather wait than have my resolve dissolve under Robin's requests.

"Are you okay?" I was not expecting Control Freak to be the one to approach me from the events that transpired last week.

"Are you?" He was supporting part of his weight with a cane. I felt bad that I had hurt him more than intended.

"Just a flesh wound." He said it like a quote so I assumed it was. "But seriously are you okay? I wanted to approach you and apologize for last week, learning more about you, I realized that I may have fudged up." His eyes seemed genuine and he hadn't done anything today to piss me off so I sighed and decided I could answer.

"I am having a bad day, but it does not make the list. Thank you for asking, Control Freak, but I do not really want company. I am sorry for your ankle, I was going to injure you less, but my anger took over." That seemed to be the trend in humans apologies were mutually given and I did hurt him more than he deserved most of the time.

"I get it, Jinx kinda reemed me after hearing what I did. So sorry, Ember. I won't do something stupid like that again. I'm gonna start over, be more like someone Starfire could fall for." He had been doing well. Then of course he had to put his foot in his mouth.

"Shower more. I'm sure Tamaranians have sensitive noses and that would give you an advantage over most of your competition villain wise." This was good advice for anyone since he was one of the foes me and Beast Boy often could smell before seeing him. It was gross to have to question his hygiene while fighting. I was sure it was stunting his chances with human women as well.

"Harsh, but thanks. Have you started my list?" The Wizard of Oz had been on the list.

"Yes, I have. Control Freak, I do not really have the energy to be social tonight. Please mingle, I really just want to wait for my meeting, alone." I said that steady, but I really was not wanting to leave a string of casualties.

"Oh, okay. See you later, Ember." He hobbled off and I felt even worse than I did already. My patience was also wearing out and I would not be able to stand here for much longer. I used a column to protect my back and glared at the door wishing I could just melt it. Patience was my weakness.

"I was hoping to catch you." I heard a voice say from my left and this was someone I had actually hoped to interact with since she inspired some of the elements of my outfit. Catwoman was someone I had not seen earlier, but been ranked in the top five dangerous since she was likely more informed than anyone else here.

"You are successful." I wished I had more patience to hold a proper conversation. I had been curious about Catwoman before today since she had been a rare woman figure in Robin's earlier life. I also appreciated her cunning and costume choices. I could get some meaningful insight in young Robin and Batman, but I really just didn't want to speak to anyone else.

"You're taller than I pictured. Though I guess that makes sense, I was hoping we could chat? Not here, but another time and place. I heard from a little bird we have some mutual friends." Great Catwoman knew what was going on more so than the people I wanted to tell most. She knew what I was hiding, though she was looking at me with more curiosity than threat.

"I would appreciate being able to ask you some questions." I said in response though I knew my tone let out some of my nerves. I was really not interested in being here anymore maybe it was just best to leave without speaking to Miss Friday. It would be rude, but I was being short in my tone.

"I intended to pay you and the littler bird a visit, he left by the way. As will I since I know better than to risk a scratch from a tired kitty." She said and I realized she had likely understood my body language.

"Goodnight." I said and hoped that I would not have such bluntness when I finally got invited up, but making me wait was not helping. I could break in, but I doubted that would be welcome again. Finally a faceless waiter waved at me and opened the door. I quickly ascended the stairs and found Miss Friday in a very pleasant mood with a pretty colored golden glass. She was dressed for a fancier event than what was occurring down below. Though she was alone.

"I see you liked my gift." She said and I remembered I had placed on the bangles attached to the champagne on my lower wrists.

"Thank you, they are quite elegant." I was not wanting to give out bad manners and too much knowledge. I was not confident in what she knew about me. I just did not want to give away more information freely.

"They are made from meteorites, it is quite incredible what strength and beauty can lie above." I did not find comfort in her choice of words.

"I will treasure such a rarity then. I wanted to talk with you before I left, I am ready to start my assignment." I decided that it was best to push past the small talk. I wanted to get out of here.

"Well I have to say your eagerness is appreciated, come here dusk Monday and we will ensure transport to the jobsite. Though I really wish you would stay and mingle. You've peaked some lively conversation and without you're handler I'm sure you could have more enjoyment out of the night." I was really not liking where this was going. I needed to get out before she said something to piss me off or threaten me.

"I apologize I have little interest in most of the crowd tonight. I am rather content with my current company." I was not sorry to be ignoring everyone, I had brief interactions with the Gotham villains I had curiosity about, Penguin and Clayface were not needed acquaintances.

"At least you are picky. Are you sure you cannot be convinced to stay? It seems like a wonderful opportunity to be off your leash." I was getting suspicious how much of a mistake asking Robin to leave was.

"I am poor company when I in my current mood. I do not believe I would inspire anything you hope to achieve." I was starting to feel trapped. The windows were tinted and I was not feeling like there was a way out without springing a trap.

"Well stay a moment at least with me, I assume you would like to discuss your payment." I took the glass she offered me against my better judgement, but I knew better than dash out and compromise my meeting.

"I honestly believe Fallen would be a better party for that." I said and appreciated the sudden opacity of the windows as they shifted.

"I would rather hear what you truly want, we are interested in your abilities not his." She had gotten closer to me as I peered down at the people below. The ring was empty and I had lost track of who was up next.

"I am happy with whatever he wants. I was under the impression you would like to see my usefulness before making an offer." I replied and hoped that would be satisfactory.

"There is no doubt in your usefulness, failure is the mother of success if it comes to the contrary. Are you truly happy with whatever he wants?" I hadn't realized my hand had a little shake of unease until she stilled it with her own. She was too close if I had a flare up. I took a deep breathe trying to swallow calmness into my core. "It appears he cares less about what you want when you ask." She knew too much of our conversation at the table.

"He understands what you could offer me better. I can say an amount of money and it would be wrong." I pulled my hand away and downed the glass as if the bitterness would bring strength.

"Money is not the only thing we offer, Miss Ember. You've seen what other gifts your peers have asked for, if you tell me what you truly want, you might get it." I decided to keep my eyes on the ring as I decided how to proceed. I wanted to leave right now. That was my short term want. Though I wanted to feel safe. I did not feel safe after everything had went down. I could not feel safety with Robin with how the night had progressed. Though there was not anything she could do to change my feelings.

"I'm afraid you cannot buy what I wish." I said and noticed with some alarm that the people entering the ring was a mech suit that had to be Gizmo and Red X following shortly behind. I had taken too much time.

"If you want him, I do believe you are mistaken. He can be bought." I knew she was referring to Red X and my heart went cold. I did not want him getting tangled again when he was thinking of leaving.

"He is not what I want." I said with a little bit of a tone. I needed her to not continue down that path and I hoped my vocal warning was enough. I did not a human bribed or bought for me. I would not accept such implications of slavery.

"His safety is. You put out a bold warning to the HIVE Five for his sake. Gizmo's original opponent was supposed to be you tonight, I doubt he will let all the amenities and upgrades designed for you go to waste." I saw her recoil before I felt the stem of my glass start to bend. I saw the fight commence and Gizmo truly had put effort into his traps. X had some success dodging, but he was hurt from his job this week and was noticeably slower. I felt fear for him.

"He will be fine." I said mostly to convince myself.

"Potentially. Though I would not offer bets on this round." I saw one of the adhesive tape nets hit target. Red X was trapped to the wall of the cage and his arms were not close enough to his belt. "Well maybe I would now." I set down the warped glass on the nearest table and looked at her.

"Gizmo values his life. I would bet on that." I said and doubted for a second. Though my pulse increase was for nothing since the buzzer rang and the fight ended. Gizmo won.

"How fortunate for him. I would like to speak more Monday, give some thought on what you truly want." Her emphasis on you was unsettling, but it was enough of a dismissal that I went for the door. I did not know what I wanted besides being elsewhere.