Writer's P.O.V

Clarke and Bellamy are lying in his bed saying absolutely nothing to each other, Bellamy is holding Clarke in his arms and unable to understand how Clarke could think that he would hate her, he could never hate her even if he tried. He loves her too much to hate her ever, she is everything to him and he with her, she wished that she could have been with him the first time he asked her to be with him but she wasn't ready and now he knows the whole story to why.

Clarke wrote Bellamy at least 10 different letters and he has only read the first one, he has a lot coming and she is scared to see his reaction to what she wrote in the other letters, she doesn't know what he will say about them. The only person who knows that Clarke wrote Bell letters is Lincoln and he promised to not tell O about them, she doesn't know what she would do if she found out about them, especially if she found out when she was writing them to him. She decided she would give Bellamy one letter to read after dinner everyday until there were no more letters and see what he thinks of each letter she wrote to him, she's scared but excited to do it. With the second one she has no idea what he will think about it, and she was mad at O when she wrote it so he might be mad at her or maybe not.

The next day Bellamy and Clarke start to look at apartments and see if they find one they like, Clarke doesn't start work until next week and so that's why they are looking now because the sooner they find one the sooner they can move into it and can live peacefully with each other. Bellamy is a bit saddened lately because he knows he won't get to see his little sister for a whole year but he is okay with it because she is with the man she loves and he has Clarke and that's all he needs fir now.

Hours go by and Bellamy and Clarke are both done looking for an apartment for the day, now his mother is starting to make dinner and Clarke knows that she will have to give Bellamy the second letter, she is kinda scared but she is a bit excited too. Clarke goes into the kitchen to see if she can help and she ends up helping cut veggies and then Aurora asks "so did you find a place to live yet?"

"We liked a few places but we are going to look some more tomorrow to see if we find anymore we like or like more then the ones we have our eyes on" Clarke replies to her.

"Well I hope you find one that you both love even though I don't want you guys to move out"

"Well I know and I hope we find one we both love as well and I know you don't want us to move out but we need to, it will make our relationship stronger and I am hoping one day we can move to the next step in our relationship"

"And what is the next step in your relationship?"

"You should know that answer to that"

After dinner was done (Clarke's P.O.V)

After I help finish dinner I go into Bellamy's...I mean our room and I see Bellamy half asleep on the bed, he looks so cute and I hate to wake him but he needs to eat because we didn't have lunch today because we were looking for apartments. I climbed on top of him and I kissed his forehead and then his eyes opened slowly, he smiled at me and kissed me with love and passion. "Hey, I love waking up like that," he says.

"I love waking you up like that, I didn't want to wake you though because you looked so peaceful, but dinner is ready and that also mean you get the second letter but I want to worn you about that one, I was very mad at Octavia and I did say somethings so please don't be mad at me about it" I say to him.

"I won't be mad, you were mad and I will understand that, okay?"

"Okay, come on let's go eat, your mom is waiting"

I was about to get off his lap but he takes my face and kisses me again, we sit there for about 2 minutes and then we get up and go eat. When we get to dining room his mother says to us "it's about time you guys got in here"

"Sorry mom" Bellamy says to her.

*after dinner*

After dinner we go into the living room and I am about to give Bell the second letter, I go into our room and grab the letter. I go back into the livingroom and Bellamy looks up at me and smiles and I couldn't help but blush when he did. "Are you sure you want to read this?" I asked him.

"Yes, now give me it" he says back.

I hand him the letter and walk out of the room because I can't be in the same room when he reads the note.

Bellamy's P.O.V

When dinner was over Clarke and I went to the living room and I sat down on the couch while she went into our room to get the note, she was scared that she was going to make me mad at her for something she wrote about O when she was mad. It was a while ago and she didn't mean it because her and O are still friends. She comes back into the living room and she asks "are you sure you want to read this?"

"Yes, now give me it" I say back to her.

She hands me the letter and then leaves the room, I start to read it and she was right, she was pissed at O when she wrote this.

Letter #2

Dear Bellamy…

It's been 2 weeks since I wrote the first letter and today Octavia pissed me the fuck off, why doesn't she understand that I can't talk to you face to face and that I don't want to be set up on a date because there is only one person I want to be with. The last time she set me up with someone it didn't end well because I had one person on my mind that I could not have...you. I wish I could tell her, I wish I could tell you goddammit. Everything I have been through has all brought me to you and I had to go and ruin it because of what my ex did to me, I know you don't know the whole story but I had to say no, I wasn't ready. I want to be with you and I want to be able to tell Octavia how I feel about you but if she knew that I still had feelings for you she would go crazy because it's Octavia.

You are the one person I have wanted to be with for a long time and now I missed my chance and I hate that I did but I wish you a life full of happiness with whoever you will marry, she will be the luckiest woman in the world...even though I want it to be me.

Don't get me wrong I love O but she needs to stop butting into my love life when she is not welcome, I know she wants me to be happy but I can't be happy, I can't be happy with anyone but you and I shouldn't be saying this but I can't hold them back. I can't hold my feeling back anymore I have for to long and I wish I told you when I had the chance, when you told me you had feelings for me, and I wouldn't be surprised if you end up forgetting about me because who would remember the girl who broke their heart when they wanted to be with them.

Anyway with all the love Clarke.

After reading the letter I can't believe she thought I would forget her, I could never forget her and yeah it hurt when she said she couldn't be with me but I understand now and I don't blame her for doing that. I also don't blame her because we are together now and that's all I could ever ask for and to be honest I probably would have fucked it up if we were together before. "Clarke! You can come back in here" I yell so she can hear me.

She walks into the living room and starts to sit down next to me but I pulled her onto my lap before she could sit down on the couch. "Well?" she asks while trying to hide her face from me.

"How could you ever think I could forget you?" I ask her.

"I don't know, I figured back then you would meet someone and completely forget about me, because if I was you I probably would have" she says still trying to hide her face.

"I could never ever forget about you...Ever, you are the person I'll love forever and I knew that back in high school"

"You did?"

"Yes and I stick by it, now and forever, and the thing about O it wasn't that bad, you were just mad and that was one way you released some of that anger"

"Lets just not tell her about the letters at all"

"Of course, and I love you too so so much"

She smiles and I bring my lips up to hers and then she deepens the kiss and I then pick her up as I get off the couch and bring her to our bedroom.

*Smut warning*

Clarke's legs are wrapped around my waist and I lean her up against the door after I kick it shut, she giggles a little and my lips move from her lips to her neck and she lets out a small moan. I then move us to the bed and she sits down and tries to take my shirt off, she struggles at first until I help her, as I take my pants off she takes her top and leggings off. As this is all happening all I could think about was that I never stopped loving the woman right in front of me, she has always had a place in my heart and I couldn't imagine my life without her and I am kinda glad we did not go out back in high school because I most likely wouldn't have what I have now. As I'm kissing her neck I start to move down and I can't believe that this woman is in my life but I am glad she is, as I move down her she starts to moan and I'm glad I am making her do that. My hand makes it down to the edge of her underwear and I grab her hip to hold her in place, I slide down her underwear and it finds its place on the floor. She spreads her legs and I start rubbing her clit as I kiss from her belly button down, she starts to moan and then I start to go down on her and she gasps at first but as I suck and lick her she starts to close her legs because of reflex. And as I'm going down on her I start to put one of my fingers inside her and by the sound that came from her she was not expecting that at all, it made me smirk that I made that sound come out of her and I am so in love with her.

All of the sudden I felt the urge to feel myself inside of her and I knew she wanted me inside her by the sound of her voice. I move up and capture her lips with mine and she smiles in the middle of the kiss but then I aline myself with her entrance and I lock eyes with her, she smiles at me and then she pulls me to her and I ended up plunging myself into her and she moans with the sudden feeling of me inside her. I'm slow at first and then I hear her ask for me to quicken up so I slowly start to move quicker but not as fast as she wanted and I did this because I want to hear him beg, I love to hear her beg and say my name. "Bellamy...please, I need more," she says.

"Be pationant Princess" I say to her as I quicken the pace even more. Love is everything I have ever wanted and I am so glad that I found it with Clarke, she makes me happy and I don't know what I would do without her in my life.

*end of Smut*

We lay there breathing heavily and all I was doing was holding her in my arms and I know that she is it for me, there is no one else that could be for me ever. She is my life and there will never be anyone else for me, she is the one and no one will ever take her away from me.