Chapter. I Had Forgot To Forget
Jacob Black Pov -
Laying on the couch, of Leah's psychopathic-wizard cousin.
The big screen TV on the sports channel, only made me miss my flat-screen back in La'push.
My house was not a mansion, but I added on a few extra acres to keep Leah from trying to search for a bigger home elsewhere.
"You ok?" Leah say, sliding her noisy slippers across the living room floor to sit next to me.
"Yeah, thought you were sleep." I say.
"I was, until i realized you weren't beside me. What's wrong?" She ask, running her fingers through her long black hair.
I sighed. She looked breathtaking, even when tired.
"Nothing." I say, putting my focus to the TV screen.
"No. It's something. It's half-passed one in the morning, officially November eighth, Sarah birthday, and you haven't came upstairs... at all."
Wow. How the hell did i forget that?
Sarah's seventeen years old... soon she'll be living on her own, married to Embry and forgetting to call us on holidays.
"Jacob?" Leah say, putting her hand in my hair and I leaned my head into her touch.
Glaring up at the sky blue and creme ceiling. "I forgot."
"It happens, tomorrow Harry and his family are throwing her a birthday party." Leah says.
"How kind." I muttered rolling my eyes.
"Please stop. First Caleb, not you too. I need these mood swings to be gone by sun rise." She says.
"I'm over feeling like a caged animal, Why are we still here? Time to break free."
"Are you serious?" She says, and i sat up, turning to face her.
"Bad guys are dead. Good time as any to leave. We don't belong here."
"Yeah, and I'm sure the leeches would say we don't belong on our own land either. We belong wherever the hell we want to be." She says, offensively.
"Well I don't want to be here." I stated.
"Then go home, go home and take your moody damn son with you." She say, getting ready to get up and I pulled her back down.
"Come on, Leah. Don't do this-"
"Have you even took a second to ask yourself what Sarah wanted? Or, What I could be feeling? And, What leaving could do to Henry?" She shook my grip off of her arm. "Look, I know you've been so burned by people, that you stopped giving people the benefit of the doubt... but I like Harry, i like his friends and i like his family. Here, for Sarah and Henry is home. Did you also forget that he imprinted? Or, Do you expect everyone to have the ability to break their Imprint-bond like you had?"
I growled. I didn't want to fight about this.
"No. I just want you to for once want to go where I go. Even if it's back home to our mundane-muggle life. You don't need the glitz and the glam of a famous life."
"Who says, I want that Jacob? I certainly didn't say that. You believe what you believe and be angry that it's not the truth. You always call me selfish, as that maybe be true at times, but at least i can for once think of someone besides myself." She yells.
I sighed, "If I'm so selfish, Why is it you whose always pulling us apart?" I say back. "Your always running.. running away to college, running away to publishing, running away for your stupid book tour; while I'm constantly left behind to mend and deal with each broken piece." I practically yell back and Leah flinched as if i said something foul.
"Are you serious? Blaming me for moving forward? Blaming me for living?" She says, much calmer.
I exhaled, shaking my head. "You always want to leave, Leah. I'm always alone wondering if it's me you're truly running from." I said much calmer.
"What?" She say, in a whisper. "How can you think that? I... I always want you with me, Jacob. Your the only person in this world that does it for me, no one, nothing will ever compare to you. Not a vacation, not a mansion, no amount of money... any thing else that's temporary will never be... this." She says, putting my face in her warm hands.
Feeling abandon is far more worse then actually being abandon. No matter how many years pass... the scars will remain.
I didn't say another word, and Leah didn't protest as I slowly removed her hands from my face.
"I'm going back home, after tomorrow. Stay if you want, I'll live with it...like I always do." I say, getting up from the couch.
"Jacob.." She calls after me.
i ignored her.
Moving towards the staircase, just before walking up, I look to find everyone in the house awakened, staring down at me in their pajamas.
I pause, there already knowing they heard Leah and I fighting.
Sarah, stood from the top step came down first.
"Can we... cut my cake?" She asked.
I sighed, rubbing the bridge of my nose. No point in saying no.
it was officially her born-day.
Sarah, received a letter from a school that she hasn't yet talked about.
Hogwarts? College? I don't know what she'll chose.
"Sure." I say.
She grinned, and it was like she was already moving away for college.. wanting one little last happily-goodbye- moment.
I can hear the footsteps of Henry, Hazel, Caleb, Daniel, Joshua and Embry.
Lauren was most likely, with Taylor. Though, also No sign of Rebecca.
"I'll grab the ice cream cake." Embry says.
"I'll get the candles." Daniel stated.
"Here's the lighter gun." Hazel, plays with the fire.
Caleb stands by the kitchen doorway, as Josh place the table with silver plates. I open the counter top drawer for silverware.
I feel it might even be best to take Taylor back to La'push as well, that way if she needed to say good bye, to anyone she could... for whenever she's awaken.
As we all gathered around the table, Leah walked into the kitchen with her camera.
Sarah, in front of a pink and black color cake with a cat face on it. I placed the silverware right next to the plates and Hazel lit the candles as Caleb, turned of the lights.
The cake held seventeen number candles in front of Sarah, and I can only think...just last year Leah was pregnant with our fifth child... Olivia.. who died. There could have been another one of these seventeen birthday's to look forward to... but i guess it wasn't in God's plan. Perhaps Hazel and Henry will make up for those birthday's. No doubt they'll be living with Leah and I... or rather with Leah, if she does decide to move here permanently.
"Ok...on the count of three.. sing 'Happy Birthday.." Embry say, and Leah came to stand beside me. "One..two.. three..."
"Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to -Sarah.. Happy Birthday to you..." We all sung together.
"Ok, make a wish." Embry say, just when Leah grabbed my hand tight, and i linked my finger through her knuckles.
Her fears were my fears, and our number two.. was losing Sarah to Embry, even he lived down the road. Number, already had happened...
With a big huff, Sarah inhaled then blew out the candles.
As everyone clapped and cheered, I lend down kissing the top of Leah's head and she hugged me while continuing to record.
Caleb switched the lights back on, and Josh padded his little sister's head. "Welcome to- almost adulthood."
"Thanks Josh. Thank you, all." Sarah smiled, "Now, later today... more enthusiasm... I'll let it slide because it's like two in the morning." She say, and everybody including me laughed. "Let's eat cake!"
To put on a brave face for Sarah, I did not mind doing at all. I'm not mad, just tired.
"Alright. Who wants chocolate?" Daniel ask, and Leah slips from me towards the kitchen door, and Caleb looks after her as well as I. She had to be going back to bed.
"I'll take chocolate." Henry say.
"Yeah, me too." Joshua say. "And give me an extra one for Lauren, she's with Taylor.
"I want both, Sarah says.
"I'm with you." Hazel mumbled, and Daniel, neatly cut four slices of chocolate.
Soon as Henry got his, he devours it.
Somebody's eager." Hazel joked, and they all laughed.
"Alright, here's the vanilla slices." Daniel cut five slices, for Sarah, Caleb, Embry, and himself.
"Hey, cut a small piece for your mom. I'll take it to her." I say to Daniel.
"Guessing you don't want any." Daniel say to me. I shook my head.
"You guessed right." I stated. It was too late for Ice cream cake.
"So, Sarah... What do you want for your birthday?" Hazel ask.
"A car." Sarah replies.
Me and Embry laughed.
"Eh, It's all for you, this world can be yours... but a car...right now? No." Embry say.
"I rather only have you any." She whispered, kissing his cheek. "To be my taxi."
"Ew." Josh muttered.
"Ugh." Caleb groaned.
"I won't argue." Embry flirted.
i rolled my eyes. their lovey-dovey stage is sickening.
"Okay, What college did you decide on?" Hazel asked.
"Um..I prefer Embry come take me away in his cruiser, with me shouting obscenities then to keep looking." Sarah replies.
"I love ice cream cake." Henry moans grabbing a slice of vanilla.
"I was thinking...Stanford University, though." She mutters, eating cake.
Caleb laughed, sarcastically, "Good luck."
"Dad?" Sarah say, and i look to her now standing. Getting ready to hand me a piece of cake. "For mom."
"Ah, thanks." I say, taking it from her. "Happy Birthday..We love you," I kissed her cheek. "I'll take you shopping tomorrow." I say, rushing out of the kitchen pass the living room, then upstairs to Leah.
The sound of giggling made me look to the front door... when it closed shut.
Rebecca was holding hands with one of Potter's friends.. i forgot his name.
"Is that Dean Thomas with your sister?" Leah say, meeting me at the top of the stairs.
"At least she's finally getting over Adam." I say
"Agree. It's been too long for her." Leah say, and i look her directly in her brown eyes.
"I'm sorry." I say, handing her the piece of cake.
"Thank you, I'm sorry, too." She says, grabbing my hand. "Come on, let try and get some sleep. We'll work out a plan tomorrow." She say, and i followed her up to one of the creepy bedrooms.
End Of Chapter. I Had Forgot To Forget