"Are you sure this isn't too much?" Lexa asked Raven who was fixing one of her tablets trying to get it to work.
"Relax commander heart eyes, she'll love it."
Today was Clarke and Lexa's 8th anniversary and Lexa had big plans for the blonde, the last year hasn't been the easiest for either of them so tonight would be exactly what they needed. Winter had come and gone, and they were still mourning the loss of their baby, but they were doing it together. It took a few months for them to tell their family and once they did everyone was overwhelmingly supportive.
They did talk about trying again but right now both of them were happy, they had their daughters and family and that's all they needed. Reign was almost 8 and Madi 15 which was crazy. They had a teenager! Lucky for them Madi wasn't the attitude talk back kind of teenage, so it made things easier.
"Do you think I need more candles?" Lexa asked insecurely looking at the room around her,
"God no!" Raven exclaimed, "You might burn this place down, stop being so nervous."
"I just want her to love this." Lexa sighed,
"She will Lex, now go get changed everyone's waiting."
Lexa quickly changed into her red silk dress and let her hair loose from the restricting braids. She used some of the lip balm Clarke made for them using berries to give her lips a tint then her medallion on her head. When she was ready, she went back into the Livingroom where an impatient Raven was waiting.
"About time." Raven rolled her eyes, she herself had a dark red dress on. The first time she seen Lexa in her red dresses she claimed her style was rubbing off on her.
"You remember the plan, right?"
"Yes commander, we went over it like 20 times." Raven groaned, "Come on."
They made their way through the woods just as the sun was setting. It was a beautiful night especially for the festivities taking place.
The citizens of Polis demanded to throw Lexa and Clarke a feast and who was she to refuse them.
"This is crazy." Raven commented,
The square was filled with decorations and people playing instruments, children running around and most important people smiling. They clearly spared no expense for this and its warmed Lexa's heart that her people did all of this for them. In the beginning not everyone supported Clarke and Lexa being together so it's refreshing to see them celebrating their union.
"There you are!" Clarke walked up to her wife, she was dressed in a short blue dress that hugged her curves perfectly, "When you said you had a meeting, I didn't think it would mean you'd be late."
"Moba, niron. It took longer than expected." Lexa grabbed the blondes hand kissing it before bringing her in for a kiss, "Am I forgiven?"
"Maybe." She smiled stealing a kiss,
"You look beautiful tonight."
"So, do you." Clarke smirked,
"Nomon!" Reign joined the group running up to her mom, the girl was only 7 but she was growing so fast "Can we dance?"
"I'd like that!" Lexa smiled allowing the girl to drag her onto the pavement with the other citizens.
Lexa was very good at dancing in fact most of the grounders where, Clarke was pretty surprised to learn how many traditional dances they had. Lexa had taught her a few but she felt silly each time she did them, Reign on the other hand loved to dance. It was something her and Lexa could do together that wasn't training, and Clarke was happy about that.
She stood by with a smile as she watched her girls dance, she even caught Madi dancing with Aden. She didn't know their situation and she didn't ask, she figured she would tell them when she was ready. But it was very clear something romantic was brewing.
"Why aren't you dancing?" Raven asks the blonde,
"Why aren't you?"
"I'm not the one they threw the party for."
"Fair enough I guess." Clarke shrugged, "I'd rather drink than dance."
"I like how you think." Raven smirked, "Let's find the alcohol!"
"Thanks for the dance nomon." Reign hugged her mom,
"It was a pleasure, maybe I can get your mama to dance tonight." She smiled,
"Mama can't dance she's not very good!" Reign laughed,
"You're right, then I'll have to dance with you all night."
"I can't I'm going to be dancing with my boyfriend."
"YOUR WHAT?" Lexa yelled, she was sure she almost had a heart attack,
"My boyfriend." Reign repeated, "He's right over there." She smiled pointing to a little boy maybe one year older than her.
"Reign you don't have a boyfriend; you are too young."
"But Madi has a boyfriend." She pouted,
"What?" what is happening tonight? "Madi does not have a boyfriend."
"Aden is her boyfriend."
This was too much, neither of them needed a boyfriend and she was sure she was going to kill someone. She scanned the area finally landing on Madi who was laughing at something Aden was saying. Could they really be dating and Madi didn't tell her? Madi always tells her everything.
"Did Madi say Aden was her boyfriend?" Lexa asked calmly,
"No, but I saw him kiss her." Reign smirked,
"I think I'm going to pass out." Lexa murmured, "Listen Reign Madi is older than you and although I don't think she should have a boyfriend she's old enough to make that choice. You on the other shouldn't be kissing anyone ok?"
"Kissing is gross nomon!"
"That's right." Lexa smiled, "Now who is this boy do I have to interrogate him?"
"No nomon!"
"Fine but tell him Heda said to be nice to you and if he kisses you, I'll throw him in a cell."
"Ok nomon." Reign laughed before walking over to her 'boyfriend'
Where the hell is Clarke, she thought
"Ok Griffin, one more shot!" Raven pushed the small glass to the blonde.
"I think one shot is enough." She was still recovering from the first, "I want something sweet."
"Fine." Raven groaned pouring her a different drink, "Here."
"This is better." She could still taste the alcohol, but the fruit juice added flavor,
"Have you seen O and Lincoln?" Clarke asks,
"I think they're still at home, the baby was probably being fussy."
Octavia had given birth to a beautiful baby girl just a few months ago and she was the cutest thing ever. They decided to name her Aurora after her mom, but they all mostly called her Rori.
At first it was hard seeing Octavia pregnant because it had just reminded her of what she lost. But after a while the pain faded, and she remember all the amazing things she did have. Her wife and her two daughters and if that was all she was meant to have then it is enough.
"I'm sure they'll be here soon though." Raven reassured, "Meanwhile your wife looks pissed and I'm trying to figure out if I should run or not."
Clarke turned around and Lexa indeed headed their way looking very upset, she can't imagine what could've happened in the span of 15 minutes, but she was about to find out.
"Clarke." Lexa said her name with urgency, and she could see Raven trying to sneak away,
"Lexa." Clarke replied calmly
"You too." Lexa said without even looking at Raven and the girl sighed,
"What did I do?" Raven whined,
"Did you know Madi had a boyfriend?" Lexa asks the two women,
"No?" Clarke said, I mean technically she didn't know for a fact,
"I don't know anything." Raven held her hands up,
"Well Reign who by the way also apparently has a boyfriend just told me she saw Madi and Aden kiss!"
"Wait, Reign has a boyfriend?" Clarke asks, "She's 7."
"Madi had her first kiss!" Raven cheered earning glares from both women,
"I can't believe she didn't tell me." Clarke murmurs,
"You? She didn't tell me anything, she's supposed to tell me everything!" Lexa sighs,
"She's 15 Lexa, I know it's not an ideal age to start dating but you were 15 when you met Costia." Lexa shuddered at the name,
"That's not the same."
"Why?" Clarke asks,
"Because I said it's not!"
"Do you really want to fight with me on our Anniversary?"
"No." Lexa mumbles, "But I need to talk to Madi."
"No." Clarke grabbed the girl's hand, "Let her be for the night and let's enjoy our time together."
Lexa couldn't refuse, Clarke was giving her puppy dog eyes and it was a known weakness in their family.
"But-."
"Nope." Clarke interrupted the girl with a kiss, "Tomorrow's problem."
"Fine." Lexa pouted,
"A shot?" Raven offered the girl the small glass,
"Absolutely not." Lexa hated SkaiKru alcohol, it tasted like fuel and it made her do and say stupid things.
"Boring."
"I'm up for a shot!" Elena grabbed the glass from Raven before Lexa could say anything,
"Elena!"
"This is awful." The girl coughed, the taste catching her off guard
"You shouldn't have drunk it." Lexa scolded,
"I'm almost 17 Lexa." The girl rolled her eyes, "I didn't come over here to be scolded Heda, I came to hug my favorite person ever." The girl wrapped her arms around Clarke who returned the sentiment.
The two had remained close over the years, Elena was growing into an amazing young women and Clarke was proud.
"I still remember walking with you down the isle of your ceremony." Elena smiled, "I was so excited you were going to be my family."
"You were so small back then." Clarke could feel the tears, usually she wasn't a very sentimental person but after having Reign she found herself crying at the little things. Like when Reign said her first word and took her first steps or when Madi won her first fight against one of the Natblida's. She cried over everything!
"Now look at me! I'm practically your age when you met Lexa."
"Not quite but 18 will sneak up on you."
"Maybe I'll find a mate then too." She smirked,
"Why must everyone have a romantic relationship!" Lexa groaned, "You're too young, Madi's too young everyone is too young!"
They all stared at the commander before Elena and Raven busted out in a laugh,
"It's too late for Mads." Elena smirked, "Aden's all-in love with her."
"LOVE?" Lexa yelled,
"Ok, I think we should dance." Clarke interrupted, "Dance with me heda."
"You don't like dancing." Lexa mumbled,
"It's a slow song we can sway." Clarke pulled the girl onto the floor with the rest on the people, wrapping her arms around her wife's neck."
"talk to me."
"Why do they have to do this to me." Lexa groaned,
"They're growing up Lex, soon enough they will all be adults who can make their own decisions."
"I don't want them to grow up."
"Me either." Clarke laughed, "But that's life, just promise me something."
"Of course."
"Don't attack Madi with questions about her and Aden, she's probably expecting that. And it's probably the reason she didn't come to us about it."
"I don't want her to date, no one is good enough for her. For any of them." Lexa confessed, "They deserve the best."
"You once believed in Aden to lead our people, why not this?"
"Because this is my daughter, and it means more to me than being Heda. And I know I'm not supposed to put anything before that, but I don't care." she sighed, "I don't trust anyone enough to take on protecting her heart."
"We have to trust Madi, we can save her from many things, but heartbreak isn't one of them."
"Doesn't mean I can't try." She smiled slightly,
"My mom tried to stop me from pursing someone once, someone she thought would break my heart." Clarke started, "She didn't think the person I loved was right for me and she couldn't have been more wrong. Eight years later my mom loves her as much as I do, and she was glad to be wrong about her."
Lexa knew she was right but that didn't mean she was ok with it, her Madi was growing up but it was too soon. She just got her and now soon she wouldn't need her anymore, it wasn't fair.
"Let's talk about something else tonight." Lexa sighed,
"Good idea." Clarke smiled, "You want to tell me why Reign is staying with Raven tonight?"
"I thought we could enjoy some alone time." Lexa smiled, "Madi will be at Alix's and I wanted you all to myself. Is that so bad?"
"Not at all, in fact I'm looking forward to it."
"Good because it's going to be a long night ai hodnes."
"Mama, nomon!" Reign called out for them running full speed,
"Slow down before you fall."
"I want to dance with you!"
"We're not dancing at all Reign, we are swaying." Lexa smiled, picking the girl up. "You're welcome to sway with us."
"Ok, look there's Mads." Reign pointed, "Madi come sway with us!"
Clarke gave her wife a pointed look before the other girl joined them.
"Sway?" Madi asked,
"Mama can't dance so we have to sway." Reign whispered yelled,
"Swaying is a form of dance I'll have you know." Clarke declared,
"Are you two having a nice time at tonight?" Lexa asks the girls as they swayed,
"It's fun, Indra told one of the people to let me play their drums." Reign said excitedly, "I made up a song."
"We'll have to hear it then." Clarke smiled, "How about you Mads?"
"It's nice, everyone seems very happy. Not that they usually aren't but feasts always makes everyone happier."
"We'll have to have more then." Lexa replied, she wanted to question her daughter about this boyfriend. But she promised Clarke she wouldn't so all she can do is wait.
"Yay! More feasts!" the younger girl cheered, "Mama looked Kas is here!" Reign wormed her way out of Lexa's arms and ran to her best friend.
"Sorry we're late." Octavia exclaimed, carrying her baby girl in blanket
"It's ok, let me hold my girl." Clarke excitedly reached for the baby,
"She's being mean today so beware." Octavia warned,
"She's an angel." The baby had beautiful curly dark hair with dark eyes and tanned skinned. She looked so much like Lincoln, but you could still see Octavia in her too. "I want to keep her."
"Be my guest." Octavia said,
"You know I'll watch her anytime you want." Clarke looked up at the girl, she looked tired and Clarke could sympathize with that. The first few months with Reign were hard and without Lexa she couldn't have survived them.
"I know, as much as she drives me crazy, I still never want her to leave my arms."
"Lexa was the same." Clarke smiled, "She would never put Reign down, she always had to hold her."
"I miss her being a baby." Lexa confessed, "Now she doesn't need me, none of them need me!"
"Don't mind her she's having mama bear issues."
"They'll always need you Lexa."
Lexa turned around seeing Abby walking over to them,
"I know nomon, but they still need to stop growing." Lexa sighed, this night was slowly turning into a mourning session for Lexa's motherhood,
"I've learned that sometimes your kids will need you more as an adult." Abby replied, "They'll need your guidance and advice and you'll be here to give it to them."
Lexa had never thought of that, she always assumed once they were adults they would leave. It was like her brain had tricked her into thinking that, but she knows her daughters and even if they don't need her, they will always be around.
Tonight, wasn't the night to mourn anything or ruin the mood it was about Clarke and Lexa. It was about celebrating them as not only leaders but as mothers and a couple. So that's what they did, they danced and ate and laughed, Lexa even met Reigns 'boyfriend' who turns out is just her friend who is a boy. But in Lexa's defense she doesn't call Kas her boyfriend, so she freaked out appropriately. Soon the feast was ending, and Lexa was excited to take Clarke home.
"Ready to go Reign?" Raven asked the little girl,
"Yes! Can we make fireworks tonight Aunty Raven?"
"Shh, kid."
"Raven please don't make explosives with my child." Lexa sighed pinching the bridge of her nose,
"I would never." Raven replied, "Come on Reign before you get me killed."
Clarke and Lexa watched the two girls walk hand in hand to Raven's house, it wasn't a far walk she lived very close to them.
"Ok Commander, what now?" Clarke smiled,
"Now this!" Lexa pulled the blind fold from behind her back, it had become a thing for them years ago when Lexa blind folded Clarke whenever she wanted to surprise her,
"Of course, you have one of those handy." The girl smirked, "So do I get a hint of what this surprise is?"
"No, you just have to wait and see." Lexa snickered,
She led the girl through the trees carefully and back to their house, she slowly opened the door leading her in.
"Ok, ready?"
"Yes."
Lexa untied the blind fold revealing their bedroom, it was filled with lit candles and rose pedals scattered everywhere. Clarke looked around in awe wondering when Lexa had time to do all of this.
"Lexa, this is beautiful." The blonde almost wanted to cry,
"I had Raven come back and light the candles, I thought I probably shouldn't burn our house down."
"That's a good idea." She smiled leaning into the brunette, "I love you so much."
"I love you too Clarke."
Lexa leaned down capturing the blonde's soft lips in her own, she wanted to savor this moment. She was going to take her time kissing every inch of her wife's body.
She delicately laid the blonde down on the bed never breaking their kiss, slowly she kissed her way down her neck. Relishing in the soft gasps and moans the girl was making.
"Do you remember the first time we did this?" Lexa asked before returning to marking the girl's neck,
"Skaikru was being stupid and I had to leave." Clarke smiled, "But before I left, I had to see you."
"I remember feeling this inescapable dread when you said you were leaving. But then you kissed me, and I knew I never wanted to let you go."
"I wanted to choose you." Clarke confessed, "I know how selfish that sounds but I wanted to choose you over it all, but I couldn't."
"I know my love." Lexa kissed her way up to the girl's lips, "I spent endless nights thinking what our life could be like if we just left everything behind."
"But now we have this and it's better."
"Now I can't imagine life without my girls in it, so as hard as it was to get here, I'm so happy we did."
"Me too." The blonde smiled against her wife's lips,
"Eight years and i feel like there's still not enough ways to express how much I love you."
"I know a few ways we can try." The blonde smirked flipping them over so she was straddling her wife, pulling her into a heated kiss. There was no need to rush but Clarke needed her, she needed to feel her.
"You're already so wet." Lexa smiled against the blonde's lips,
"Just for you." The blonde gasps feeling Lexa's fingers fill her up,
Clarke set back and reveled in the pleasure her wife was giving her, kissing her favorite spots and hitting her favorite one's too.
"Right there baby." Clarke moaned and Lexa sped up her thrusts, "I'm so close."
"Let go for me niron." Lexa whispered practically lulling the orgasm out of the blonde,
"Fuckkkk." Clarke felt herself unraveling and it was amazing Lexa was amazing and she was so in love with this woman, "That's was amazing baby."
"I'm not done with you yet Skai princess." Lexa smirked flipping them over,
"I hope not."
The next morning Clarke woke up to kisses being peppered down her color bone and neck. A lazy smile soon replaced her sleepy face as her wife cam into view, her curls were wild and the bruises on her neck a dark purple.
"Good morning." Lexa smiled kissing the girl's lips, "I ran a bath for you."
"You're not joining me?" Clarke pouted,
"I would love nothing more, but Raven and Reign are on there way over and she probably hasn't eaten so I'm going to make breakfast."
"I suppose that's a good reason, I'll still wish you were there though." She smirked sitting up in the bed, her legs were killing her she honestly wasn't sure if she would make it to the bathroom.
"Need some help?"
"Don't be smug." Clarke rolled her eyes, "This is your fault."
"I'm not," Lexa tried to hide her smile, "Come on."
Lexa picked the blonde up easily carrying her to the steamy tub that awaited her, she carefully placed her in the warm water a moan escaping her. A moan that almost made Lexa want to forget breakfast and lock all the doors.
"Thank you for this."
"Anything for you." Lexa leaned down giving the girl one last kiss before heading to the kitchen.
Over the years they have made a lot of adjustments to their home, the walls were now brick and insulated, the kitchen has a fire stove that Raven helped build after she established working electricity. It took a few years, but she successfully brought power to Polis and the near by villages. Their next step was to establish it in the other Clans which should be done by the end of the year.
They had come a long way mostly because of Skaikru tech but also largely because of Ravens mind. She did have help from others like Monty and Sinclair, but Raven was the visionary. Next was running water which was close to coming to fruition according to Raven all she needed to do was build a big enough filter and they could start trying.
Lexa liked all the improvements; she knew not all of trikru did, but she saw this as evolution. They deserved to have an easy life and that's what she was striving for. She hopes people could see the good that can come out of change, but she also understood the fear that came with technology, it did end the world after all.
"We're here!" Raven yelled as she busted through the door, Reign and Ash by her side. "And I smell food!"
"Good morning little one." Lexa smiled picking up her daughter and setting her on the counter,
"Nomon I'm not little anymore." The girl sighed,
"You'll always be little to me even when you're an adult. It's a mom thing." She shrugged, "Were you good for Aunt Raven?"
"Yes, we had fun." Reign smiled,
"Doing what? Nothing dangerous I hope." Lexa said eyeing Raven who smiled innocently,
"I helped Raven build her camera." Reign said excitedly, "She says it can take pictures like in the old world book, isn't that cool?"
"That does sound quite amazing."
"I still have to work some kinks out like film and printing but it's coming along." Raven explained, "Where's my second favorite blonde?"
"Bath."
"Ohh, I bet she's all sore from last night's activities!" Raven smirked and Lexa through her a glare.
"What did you and mama do last night?" Reign asked and Raven laughed, "Why is she sore?"
"We- uh well I was helping her train and she pulled a muscle, so she is sore today." This is not a conversation she planned on having with her 7-year-old daughter.
"Training, is that what the kids are calling it these days?"
"Enough Raven." Lexa demanded,
"Ohh, you got the commander voice." Reign snickered,
"Good morning." Madi who Lexa didn't hear come in said joining them in the kitchen, "What's going on?"
"Raven got commandered." Reign whispered,
"Ohh." Madi laughed,
Commandered had become a common phrase in their house, when Lexa was disciplining the kids or was trying to be serious, she tended to use her commander voice. Over the years the kids secretly thought it was funny because in reality their nomon was a softy, everyone knew the ruthless commander, but they knew Lexa.
"How was your night Madi?" Lexa asked in an attempt to change the subject, then she remembered this whole boyfriend fiasco.
"Fine." The girl shrugged,
"Did you have fun with your boyfriend?" Reign smirked,
"Reign!" Madi yelled,
"What?"
"Why can't you just keep your mouth shut sometimes!" Madi stormed off to her room closing the door behind her leaving a shocked Lexa and Raven and a sad Reign.
"I didn't mean to make her mad." Reign mumbled,
"What the hell was that?" Clarke asked, "I heard yelling."
"Madi yelled at me."
"What? Why?" That wasn't like them, Reign and Madi never fought.
"Because I asked if she had fun with her boyfriend."
Clarke looked at Lexa who sighed before turning off the fire stove,
"Let's eat and give Mads some space, me and mama will talk to her later." Lexa grabbed the food handing some to Reign and Raven to carry to the table. She left a few slices of meat and bread for Ash in her bowl before joining them.
Breakfast was quiet everyone ate their food not saying much, Reign looked like a sad puppy and it broke Lexa's heart, Clarke looked confused and Raven just looked unsure.
"So, Clarke I'm making cameras." Raven said as an attempt to turn this breakfast around, "Soon you'll have pictures of your kids around here."
"Really?" Clarke asked,
"Yep and Reign helped build my first one."
"Did you?" Clarke smiled at the girl who nodded,
"Which means it's only fair that my first picture be of her." Raven said smiling, cheering the girl up proved to be harder than expected.
"That's sound's pretty cool, now I won't have to draw portraits of you ever year I can just snap a picture."
"I like the drawn pictures." Reign mumbled,
"Then we'll have both." Lexa said,
After breakfast Reign and Raven went out to the river while Clarke and Lexa took Madi some breakfast.
"Can we come in?" Lexa asked and after hearing a soft yes, they opened the door, "We brought you food."
"Thank you."
"Can we talk about why you yelled at Reign?" Clarke asked joining the girl on her bed, "If you think we are mad you have a boyfriend we're not Madi."
"I don't have a boyfriend." Madi sighed, "Aden kissed me, but I can't date him even if I wanted to. "
"Why not?" Clarke asked,
"Because how am I supposed to have my partner as my opponent in the Conclave?"
"Who says he will choose to compete?"
"He did. "Maid said, "It's bad enough it's possible I'll have to fight my own sister one day I can't fight him too."
"Do you love him?" Lexa asked finally saying something,
"I- it doesn't matter, love is weakness, right?"
Clarke could feel Lexa tensing up behind her, she had no doubt where Madi learned that lesson.
"Why would you say that?" Lexa asked,
"Because it's true, you both have lost people you loved because you were leaders. If I want to lead well, I can't have weaknesses."
"So, you think I am weak?"
"Of course, not nomon but I know you've lost a lot and I want to avoid that if I can."
Lexa sighed sitting down on the bed beside Clarke who grabbed her hand and squeezed it.
"You are right Madi, love is a weakness, and I did lose someone special because I loved them, but I also let myself fall into that saying so much so that I refused to care about anyone. If you don't care you can't be hurt but then I met someone who made me realize that isn't the way. Being commander will never be easy, even if there are no wars decisions still need to be made, hard ones. You need people to fall back on, you need people who love you it's the only way. As much as I believe in you there is also a chance you will never be commander, so you need to start thinking about what else you want in life. If you love Aden then you should let yourself, but you are also young, and first loves aren't always your last. I met your mom five years into being commander, don't close yourself off because you're afraid to lose them. That's no way to live."
"I still don't think I should be romantic with Aden."
"It's your choice, we just want you to know that we trust in whatever choice you choose to make." Clarke smiled,
"But I do prefer you not having a boyfriend until your at least 30." Lexa said seriously,
"Don't listen to her." Clarke smiled nudging her wife,
"Is Reign mad at me?" Madi asked sheepishly,
"I don't think so, just sad you two never fight."
"I know, I'll talk to her."
Lexa and Clarke nodded getting up from the girl's bed,
"Remember what I said Mads." Lexa said and the girl nodded,
"I will, I promise."
A few days later Lexa noticed Madi distancing herself from Aden during training, as much as she didn't want Madi to date she also didn't want her to break her own heart. She understood her being weary because of the conclave but clearly, they both had feelings for each other. All she could do was hope they figured it out on their own and maybe that means they'll be together or maybe they won't. That's up for them to decide.