THE CLEARWATER'S
CHAPTER 43
SAVANNAH P.O.V
I caved in. I couldn't hold off anymore. The boys were asleep soundly in the tent while Seth had me in the trunk of the car. I was on top of him, holding my boobs, trying not to make any noise as I sunk down on him and he thrust up to meet me.
"I hope the hot tub is worth it." I whispered as he chuckled grabbing handfuls of my butt.
"Oh baby, it will be." He sucked on my nipples that had been so sensitive, which really gave him the advantage. Which is how we ended up in this situation. He couldn't keep his hands to himself while I was trying to organize the car, rubbing up against me and running his hands over my boobs. He does everything on purpose to get me turned on. He sat up a little to help his thrusts.
"Wait." I whispered staying still listening to the noise outside the car. We were being quiet but had the door open so we could hear if either of the boys stirred. He stayed still listening to what I was hearing.
"It's miles away, babe." I could hear howling. And not being close to home, it was not comforting. I knew that Seth would never let anything happen to me or the boys but things can change in one second and I didn't feel comfortable. We were in the middle of some dessert to get some sleep and I wasn't going to risk anything.
I quickly got off of him, pulling my pants on and standing outside the car listening.
"Babe, c'mon." He whined kissing my neck and pulling me into him. The mood had shifted so quick and I knew that he was going to be angry about it but there was no way I was going to leave my boys out there while we were doing the dirty to be attacked by some kind of animal. "Want me to phase and scare them away?" He asked.
"No. They could take it as a threat and come closer." I was quickly shoving all the food into the car and closing the doors.
"Babe." Seth was right behind me, still naked. "We're fine. They're not going to come over here." He tried to reassure me but I knew just how dangerous animals were. They could maul all of us in 5 seconds flat. But I think he could tell just how I nervous I was not being right next to the boys so he got dressed and helped me into the tent. Both of them were still sleeping but I wrapped my arms around both of them. "Can I still get a hot tub?" Seth asked from behind me as he wrapped an arm around me and rested it on my belly.
"You can still get a hot tub." I chuckled. I was nervous all night, barely sleeping. I fell asleep for about three hours before Tayenn decided that she was hungry. When I sat up to wake Seth, he was already gone and so was Kuba. I heard a happy little shriek from outside the tent. I moved to open the zipper looking out to see Seth running around, with Kuba right by his side, chasing lizards. I watched them for a while, totally forgetting that I was hungry.
It was a reminder of why we were taking this trip in the first place. There was so much of this world to explore and I wanted our boys to experience it. I love La Push. I never saw us moving out of La Push, but I was going to push my children to explore the world. There was so much of this world that I hadn't seen. Of course I married young and had kids young, that's the life I wanted but I always wondered that if Seth hadn't imprinted, would I have the life I have now?
I loved my life. I loved being married to Seth, I was proud of call him my husband. I loved being a mom. I loved waking up to their faces every single day. I wouldn't trade this for anything, but I knew that if I wasn't married to Seth, I would have traveled the world.
Tayenn kicked me and got me moving. Takoda was still sleeping with his face smashed into the blowup mattress. I stumble out of the tent. distracting Kuba who smiled and giggled, pointing to the lizards.
"What is it?" I asked running slowly after them. I quickly kissed Seth as he stopped in front of me. "Kuba, say lizard?" I asked squatting to his level. "Lizard." I had noticed that he was reading lips a lot more than normal.
"Li." He nodded at me before running off to chase it.
"I think he needs a hearing evaluation."
"Why?" Seth asked as we moved over to the sit in the chairs we brought. I knew that he was difficult for Seth to get his diagnosis. But I also knew that there was no one better on this planet to parent him than us. Of course we had our families who were rallying around us in support.
"He's trying to read lips. Maybe he can't hear us when we talk." It wasn't something that I had really paid attention to before. Before his diagnosis I just thought he was quiet because Koda was so loud. "I'm not concerned I just want to make sure he can hear us."
"I'm not saying we won't get him tested but he's probably looking at your lips to see how you're pronouncing words." He shrugged as he poured himself a bowl of cereal.
"Can you get me one?" I asked. He started pouring one for me. "I just want to rule it out."
"We will get him tested. I promise." He leaned over to kiss me. Kuba came to stand in front of me, holding my leg and holding his mouth open so I would give him a spoonful of cereal.
"Can you say please?" I asked. Again, he was looking at my lips but I knew he knew that word.
"Please." He smiled at me. I scooped some into his mouth before wiping his chin from the milk that spilled over. He stayed with us, sitting in the blazing heat while we ate. We started packing up the car before I woke up Koda. Tonight we would finally be in Arizona. We would be getting a hotel room for the next few nights before we started our drive home.
I fed Koda before getting the rest of the car packed, both boys changed and in the car. Kuba fell asleep about two hours into the drive while Koda watched movies on the ipad.
"I already ordered the hot tub. It'll be here in four weeks." I shook my head and chuckled. "I won."
"You didn't win. You had sex too."
"The bet was to see who would cave first. And you caved first." I rolled my eyes texting mom to update her of where we were. "Admit it. Say it. You caved first."
"You caved first." I nodded looking over at him. He shoved me a little while laughing. It was nice seeing him so happy and free. While he going to work everyday he seemed so stressed out and miserable. Now that he was home with us and traveling how we were, I could tell how relaxed he had become.
We crossed the border into Arizona and got as close to the Grand Canyon as we possibly could before stopping for food. Kuba had waken up about 20 minutes before we stopped and he was hangry.
I tried to calm him down with some goldfish crackers and juice but nothing was helping him. Seth finally pulled into a restaurant. I quickly got Kuba out and calmed him down just enough that we could go in and get a table. The waitress right away brought over bread. I set two pieces down in front of Kuba. He was sitting next to Seth in a high chair while Koda was sitting next to me coloring.
"What do you want to eat?" I asked him reading off what they had.
"Chicken fingers." He answered. As soon as our waitress came back to get our drink order, we put in the food. Seth kept Kuba entertained while we waited.
"So, we're gonna go get a hotel room. And then maybe we can go explore a little bit?" Seth said.
"Could we maybe take a nap?" I asked.
"We can try." Seth answered. Our food was placed in front of us and Kuba right away went at it with his hands. I ate just as quickly as Kuba did while Seth and Koda savored their food and ate slow.
After we ate we headed to the closest hotel and got a room. I right away laid on the bed and closed my eyes. Koda laid beside me, playing with my hair. I chuckled a little knowing that he learned it from Seth. I kicked off my shoes and turned on my side as my back started to hurt.
"She's pushing on everything." I whined. It was at the point in my pregnancy where I was always uncomfortable. I always had to pee. My feet were extremely sore. I felt Seth's warm hands rub my feet. "Thank you, baby." I smiled.
"You're welcome." Life couldn't get any better than having my son playing with my hair and my husband rubbing my feet. Now if only I could get Kuba to rub my back.
*RYDER P.O.V*
You would think the house was on fire with how loud Jett was screaming. Thankfully we didn't have any neighbors or someone might call the police on me. I tried juice. I tried milk. I changed his diaper. I tried bribing him with all sorts of foods. I tried rocking him and giving him a bath. So now we were just sitting in the living room while he screamed, tears streaming down his face, and I was just looking at him.
I didn't want to call my mom for help. I knew that she would come right over and help me calm him down but I would feel like a failure. He had been back with me full time for a few months now and I still felt like I had no idea what I was doing.
"Do you want to go lay in bed with me?" I calmly asked him. He crawled over and pulled himself up to stand between my legs. I held him against my chest, going to the kitchen to warm up some milk for him, before heading to my bedroom. I laid him in the bed, gave him the bottle and then turned the t.v on for him. I laid beside him. Keeping my chest against him. He was still crying but at least the screaming had stopped.
He finally calmed down about 20 minutes later. His bottle was empty and he seemed so exhausted. I held him closer to me, rubbing his back to keep him calm.
"Wanna go see Nana tomorrow?" I whispered. He nodded softly. I knew that he was missing it there. I knew that he had a great relationship with my parents and my siblings.
Of course I knew that Savannah was going to judge me saying that I couldn't be a father. She had gotten better but when I first came back she gave me a super hard time. She had every right to. I had pretty much hired vampires to kill her. Instead they hurt her baby. She was always in the princess in my parents eyes. I was always the annoying baby brother that was unplanned and came way too quickly after the big sister.
Admitting to anyone that I was jealous of her was something I probably would never do. I was jealous that she was the apple of my parents eyes. She was perfect. She graduated from high school. She got engaged, then married, then had a family. I got some random girl pregnant. And I knew they loved Jett but I also knew that they were cautious about me being back.
I stayed awake for way too long after Jett fell asleep. I knew that he would be up at the crack of dawn and I would be exhausted. I didn't realize how difficult being a parent was. How it really does take a village to raise these kids.
I had been exhausted from the minute that I came back and actually started being a parent. I couldn't imagine doing this from when he was a newborn. Of course my parents had said once I met a nice woman that I would settle down and have another baby.
But hell no, I'm stopping at one.