I had biology today, so sat in my usual seat, trying to put on a feasible show of normalcy. I must have failed, though.

We were asked to work in pairs on a project about molecular genetics that we must finish out of class and submit next week, before the summer break begins. I took my copies of the handouts and tried to fill in my parts, avoiding her gaze. And then...

"Edward"

She spoke my name. I had never heard her say it before. It was the most beautiful sound I have ever heard. I could not help it, my breath hitched and my eyes shot up to meet hers before I remembered myself and pulled my gaze away.

Something pained in my expression must have troubled her, for she reached across and touched my forearm then said "Are you ok?" I nodded and grimaced, then doubled down on my attempts to seem alive and serene.

As the class drew to a close she spoke again and said "I know you don't feel like talking, you're always really quiet, but you look so heartbroken since you came back to school. Why don't you email me and we can do the project that way when you're feeling up to it? It seems like you've got enough on your plate already today." After I managed a forlorn nod, she wrote down her email on a post it and left it on the desk between us. I carried on with my worksheets until the bell sounded and took the post-it before I left.

I must have looked so pathetic. Well, I am, but I should have hidden it better. I am putting us all at risk, her included. It is inexcusable.

After school I sent her a message thanking her for being so kind and apologising for my sulking. She assured me whatever is bothering me couldn't be that bad. Ha! What cruel irony.

I must find a way to fool her better. To fool them all better. It is the only way to limit the damage I cause just by existing.

A/N: Please leave a review! Oh! Bella touched his sleeve! Does this signal the return of Bonerward? No. No it doesn't. not yet. He's really in love now, not just in lust.

Just a reminder that Edward cannot continue being so atrocious to everyone indefinitely. It is time he ate some humble pie. He will come back to you in his trademark Bonerward/Prudeward style, but he needs to have a difficult adolescence first. Thanks for bearing with him.

I plan on uploading the chapters without comedy in batches so that those who are here for the laughs aren't too alienated by the tonal change and can whizz through them. I sincerely hope you will fall in love with him on the other side of all of this. The only way out is through.

Thanks to the creative, kind and funny wh1teow1 for being the best beta for this story please show some love and read Moirai, a reimagining of Twilight for the new decade!