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CHAPTER 52
Nunca sera lo mismo otra vez
Daya entered inside Abhijeet's room with his discharge papers found him already sitting on the side of the bed with his legs dangling, wearing a t shirt Well worn soft jeans
Daya announced: Chalo
He didn't come nearer but was looking at Abhijeet in full alertness that if he needed help while standing he will be there to provide it. But it was not needed
Abhijeet got up and turn towards Daya with: tum
Daya didn't respond but said: chalein?
They both came out towards the parking lot. Daya opened the passenger side door of the qualis. Abhijeet looked at Daya with questioning eyes which Daya didn't want to understand and didn't try to understand. They move back to home
...
Entering inside Abhijeet immediately move towards his room but stopped at the door and turned towards Daya who was peeping inside the fridge and said
Tum….ja rahey ho?
Daya turned to Abhijeet with calm look and asked: rehna cahiye?
Say Something,
I Would've Followed You
I'll Be The One, If You Want Me To
Abhijeet gulped but didn't answer anything and moved inside his room
He sat down on the bed looking extremely tired
Nai…rehna bhi nahi chahiye…(exhaled a breath)aik khooni ke sath…jis ne itni sari ghalti ki…jindegi bhar sirf ghalat karta raha…me bhi to mukti hi dena chahta tha…sab chor ke jana chahta tha…goli lagne ke baad us neend se uthna hi nahi chahta tha…per bhagwan ne mujhe wo moqa bhi nahi diya...shayad yehi meri saza hai…mujh mein himmat nahi hai ke me khud ko khatam karne ki koshish bhi kar paun….sab ko kehta aya aaj tak ke darpak log suicide kartey hain…per nahi wo bhi himmat waley hotey hain…mujh se nahi ho ga…koshish karney bhi jaun to tera hi chehra aa jata hai saamney…or tu ne permission bhi to nahi di na phir me kese…per tujhe me khud se mukti de dun ga...
He Would Not Show That He Was Afraid
But
He Could Barely Carry On
He sighed closed his eyes attaching his head on the headrest of the bed
After few minutes he felt a touch on his shoulder, opened his eyes and found Daya forwarding a bowl with
Ye soup pi lo…
He look towards Daya and then again at the bowl
Daya clarified: Aditya bana ke gaya hai…me ne nahi kiya…pi lo
He tried with: me baad mein…
But he heard a monotonus "Pi lo…"
Abhijeet nodded with; haan me baad mein
Pi lo…
Abhijeet just sighed and took the bowl
Daya sat on the chair present there silently looking at Abhijeet
Abhijeet looked at Daya, tried to say something but then concentrated on the soup
…..
Days passed both seem to be angry with each other. Actually this is not anger, its scare which is engulfing both minds
Abhijeet was trying to ignore Daya and Daya is feeling like a pendulum between his anger, his care and Dr Manjula's suggestion.
He wants to shout, he wants to cry but he feels scare that may be his this action will push his brother over the edge, may be it will be the last drop. But still he is trying, he tries to show his anger, may be due to his anger Abhijeet will react something.
Wherever You Are
And Wherever You've Been
He wants to cry out and just hide himself in that secure shell. But he is not getting any green signal from the person opposite to him and his heart is also not permitting him. He is scared that if he does so, his brother will be shattered in many pieces and he will not be able to glue those parts together again
I Don't Care At All
I Just Miss My Friend
After the first exam and the first loss of Abhijeet's life, his life becomes a long training, but at that time he got a very strong, infact a strongest support, his mentor named ACP Pradyuman.
But this time a surprise test had taken away his mentor but destiny didn't stop there it continues testing him, it continues demanding him to prove himself more and more as the best student of late ACP. But in due process all his strength ended up and like any other student he too wants a long rest
I Know I'm Sinking Deep
I Can't Hold Back My Tears
Nearly three days have passed since Abhijeet came back home, but he didn't react to anything. When Daya asked him to eat, he had eaten, other times he remain shut in his room. But Daya noticed one thing. Sometimes he had looked at Daya in surprise
That night when Abhijeet came back home, Daya felt someone's presence at his room's door. But when he opened his eyes, the room door was vacant but it was opened ajar and Daya remembered clearly that he had closed the door. Daya can guess from Abhijeet's behavior that he is still not sure that why Daya is here. But he is not confident enough to ask it
Mein Tum Tak Aaun Kaise
Lagta Hai Ab To Aise
Yug Yug Ki Hai Duri
…
Today Abhijeet has his appointment with the doctor and Aditya has called Daya that he is joining them at home then they will go to the hospital together. Daya too was waiting for this checkup; at least he will get to know that his brother is fit physically. But Rajat called and requested him to come to bureau, because some old case hearing is there and Rajat is really not getting the head and tail of the case as he was not present during that. So, Daya is waiting for Aditya to come up.
…..
Aditya entered inside and found Daya already ready in formals
Arey tum ready bhi ho gaye…Abhijeet kahan hai
Apney kamrey mein ho ga…me ne us ko time bata diya tha appointment ka…wo bhi ready hi ho ga…per Adi…me nahi jar aha hun
Kia matlab…tum nahi ja rahey ho
Muje bureau jana hai…
Kia matlab…tum to chutti per ho na?
Haan…per Rajat ko zarurat hai to..
Haan to appointment k baad chaley jana…
Daya noticed a shadow in front of Abhijeet's room door and said
Nahi Adi…shayad koi chahta bhi nahi hai ke me jaun…
Haan?
Haan…tum to ja rahey ho na…tum baat kar lena doctor se…me bureau hi jata hun…
And he left leaving behind the befuddled Adi
Kia bol ke gaya….(he shook his head in frustration) is ko samjhna mere bas ki baat nahi hai
He was about to move towards Abhijeet's room when found him coming out, looking more thin quite clearly
Aditya was about to say something regarding that matter but stopped himself and said
Chalein?
Abhijeet said while looking down ; Me akela ja sakta hun…tum…
His tone doesn't reflect the usual confidence like before
Aditya clearly remembers, in this type of situation he heard an annoying sentence
Baat suno…mujhe chot payer per nahi lagi…paun salamat hain mere…to itna kasht karney ki zarurat nahi hai…me ja sakta hun akela…tum apney kaam per lago ja ke
Adi said: me ne kab kaha tum akele nahi ja saktey
Phir tum kiun aye ho?
Tumhe le jaaney ke liye
Abhijeet looked at Aditya with a irritated look but didn't say anything and moved out.
Adi looked at his back and grinned wickedly
Bachhu….aaj se nahi…bachpan se tang karta aa raha hun…tumharey Daya se thora to zada practice aur skill hai tumhein sataney ka…
He shook his head smilingly and move towards the door
…
Abhijeet got the fitness certificate from the doctor who said that he still had very high blood pressure and have to take regular medicine and his heart beat is also irregular . but apart from these two problems he is quite fit and fine physically.
On the way back towards the house Aditya started with: jab doctor Mishra tumhara check up kar rahey they…meri Dr Manjula se mulaqaat hui
Abhijeet didn't react so Adi continued
Abhijeet mujhe pata hai tum pareshan ho…per apne liye na sahi apne bhai ke liye wapis aney ki koshish karo
Abhijeet looked at Aditya once but then looked out through the window
His mind saying as: wapis…zinda to hun us ke liye…or kitna wapis aaun…mujhe har baar wapsi ki rah to sir ne dikhaii thi…jab khud ko kho kar cid chor raha tha…tab sir wapis laye…jab khud ko khooni maan kar bhag raha tha…tab sir wapis laye…rastey mein para tha...shayad mar hi jata agar sir wapis na bulatey….ab wapis aney ki rah nahi dikh rahi mujhe…koi ye baat kiun nahi samjh raha
I'm Sinking Deep
I'm Struggling To Breathe
He closed his eyes tiredly . Adi was gazing at him from the corner of his eyes said
Shayad tumhare aas pass sirf andhera dikh raha hai tumhein…per aik roshni hai…zara dhundne ki koshish karna
He dropped him in front of his house with
Me nikalta hun…
And went away without any more words
Abhijeet moved inside the house silently. The silence is again seems disturbing. The silence is engulfing him. He feels the same old panic arising in his chest
He started pacing up and down then stopped and turned on the TV with a loud volume but he can't stay at one place and continued his pacing when heard
"or ab hum aap ko le ke chelein ge…CID Mumbai ke late ACP Pradyuman ke samman mein hui aik ceremony ki tarf "
Abhijeet sat on the sofa immediately with his glaze fixed on the TV
They are saying many things about ACP sir and all good things like how truthfully he served his nation his homeland, how much devotion he had always showed. He is the one of his kind. The vacuum which was created from his demise will never be filled again
The reporter ended his report with
Shayad itney achey intelligence officer or itney achey insaan ki kami kabhi bhi puri nahi ho sakey gi…
Ab Yadon Ki Kante
Is Dil Mey Chubte Hey
Abhijeet who was silently looking at the screen without any expression on his face, now shook his head with
Uhun…ye log jaantey kia hain sir k barey mein…ye to sab acha acha keh rahey hain….sir achey nahi they…(he felt a lump in his throat and shook his head brutally with )bilkul bhi achey nahi they wo…agar utne achey hotey to hum sab ko aise chor ke na jatey…nahi…aap burey hain sir..bohat burey…
Na Dard Therta Hey
Na Ansu Rukte Hey
And he stood up hurriedly and ran to his room without turning off the TV which was still noising in loud volume
He sat on his bed with a thud and looked around
He felt all four walls coming close to him and he is suffocating between them. He can see ACP sir pleading in front of him. He can see Rohit turning to him after hearing his warning. He remembers the horrified look on his face. He can see Rohit turning again to go towards the road. He can see himself removing the safety catch of his gun and loading it for fire. He can hear the fire and can see Rohit bending down. He can see a child asking for his father
He clearly remembers that innocent question
jab kisi ke papa gum jatey hain to aap la dete ho na...mere papa ko la do ge?
He remembers how Rajat cover up his sin saying
Rastey mein hi us ka accident ho gaya...hum...humare pass karney k liye kuch nahi tha..hum or kuch nahi kar sakey
He remembers that night when he decide to end all this and started typing his resignation but then stopped just after seeing ACP sir's photo.
He sighed and again looked towards that same photo and a complaining expression replaced by the tired and helpless expressions
Sun Raha Hey Na Tu..
Ro Raha Hu Mein
He just shook his head feeling a burning sensation in his eyes. He lied back attaching his head to the headrest and closed his eyes and unknowingly slept
He can see his mother waiting for him and he is going towards her to hide himself in the safest place…
What A Joyous Day This Will Be,
Once Again We'll Come Face To Face…
…
Oh What Wonderful Embrace
…
Knowing You're Never Far Away
Looking Over Me Always,
Each & Every Day
just then he heard a very well known voice
"Abhijeet ye tum kia kar rahey ho"
He turns and found ACP sir standing there
Don't Try To Reach Me
ACP said; tum ne mujh se jo wada kiya tha insaaf dilaaney ka…wo to pura kar liya…per aik wada jo tum ne in sab wadon se pehle kiya tha…apne dost ka sath nibhaney ka…us ne tumhara sath nibhaya tha…tum nahi nibhao ge…mere us bête ko aise hi akela chor do ge…phir muje shanti kese miley gi Abhijeet? Sirf insaaf milney se shaanti milti hai?
Abhijeet tries to protest with: sir me thak gaya hun…ap humesha sab ke barey mein sochtey hain mere barey mein kiun nahi…ap partiality kartey hain…mujh per zimmedariyan zada…mujh per shak zada…muje hi sochna hai dusron ka…kyun me bhi to thak sakta hun…mujhe nahi ab kisi ki zarurat..me bas aram karna chahta hun
Don't Need No Friends
Got All I Want
And I Don't Need To Pretend
ACP smiled softly and said: chahey tum formally ACP na bano…per mene to apni saari zimmedari tumhe saunpi thi….agar me beech rah thak jata to?agar me beech rah tum sab se moo mor leta to? Tum ne aaj tak mujhe maaf kiya…is baat per k me sab kuch chor chaar chala gaya…kiya tum ne mujhe maaf?
Abhijeet shook his head
ACP said: phir tum kese wohi ghalti kar saktey ho? Or kia tum itna thak gaye ke apney dost ki pukaar nahi sun paa rahey ho…
Abhijeet tried to protest but then he remembers moments spent with Daya….Aditya and his team
He heard ACP as: agar Salunkhe aise thak jata…to kya antidote nikal pata…agar Daya us din tumhare rawiye se thak jata to kya aaj tum mujh se ye sawal kar patey? Agar har koi thak ke aik dusrey ka sath chor de to zindagi kat sakti hai?
Abhijeet says in tired tone: per sir me sach mein thak gaya hun
ACP smiled softly: tumhi to kehte they k tumhari har aik thakan ki…har aik dard ki bas WOHI aik dawa hai….kya tum us rishtey se bhi thak gaye ho?
Abhijeet protest: nahi sir…us se me kabhi nahi thak sakta
Phir? Wo rishta pukaar raha hai tumhe…nahi jao ge?
Abhijeet feels a strange hollowness, but softly nods
Abhi Mujhmey Kahi Baki Thori Si Hey Jindegi
Jagi Dharkan Nayi
Jana Jinda Hu Mein To Abhie
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