Hello guys. I'm so sorry for leaving you with so little last time. I just didn't want anything to interrupt in the chapter where she finally met her parents. And it all ended up one of the shortest chapters ever with no author's notes.

Anyway, until today. At first I just wanted to say for all the long author's notes I've left lately. But you need to read this too. Until next chapter they shouldn't be all too long.

At first I just wanted to say that several- most of my stories are ending soon. This is one of them and except for this it's…

-The search for a family
-I won't go away
-I still love you
-The moment I needed the most
-Game on
-We're coming home
-What I did for hate
-A light in the dark
-When I returned
-For what is a human if she loses her best friend

And after all there'll be only riding on the wings of a dove and how they ended up in care left.

I have some oneshots as well. But at least they're only half as many as they were before.

As I'm writing this I finished the story the search for a family earlier today. As for the first story of all of these that have been finished.

"What happened?"

When I came out of the room where my biological parents to a reception there were Burt and Carole and Mrs. Gray were there while I shakily came over and Mrs. Gray asked the one question everyone- including me wanted the answer too.

"What happened?"

"I could only think about that they left me. And now they looked so… broken. So now I was thinking that I'd leave them… It only seems fair."

I tried not to look at Carole. She was the one person who I could remember having always been there for me even though she didn't have to. Now she just looked so sad and disapponted while I fought the tears away.

"Do you want to tell some more?" Mrs. Gray answered. "Maybe if we know more we could sort this out into something better for you."

And I thought, I really thought.

There really was only one thing…

"There are thousands of questions I always wanted to ask them… But only one I really want the answer for…"

The one question that had been spinning in my mind ever since I was old enough to understand what I'd been going through.

"I think I can imagine what sort of question that would be." Mrs. Gray said. "But at the same time, I know there's no way for me to understand everything you've been through."

I drew for a deep breath after all of the fast.

Ssomehow, when I realized everything that had to be done for Toby to get his punishment and for meeting these people I knew I'd have tto speak up even though it was hard. Force my voice out loud even though it felt quieter than ever.

"I just want to know why…. All the times I imagined meeting them and then just talking, talking, talking for hours… Now I can't even see myself lasting five minutes."

"Hmmm…" Mrs. Gray thought and rubbed her chin. "Cai… there's no one that will make you stay in there for hours. Or say or answer anything you don't want to. So there's no pressure. Okay?" I nodded slightly- it was the only thing I could think of doing. "If you just want to ask that one question. Or maybe just sit there and stare at them if that can give you anything…" Mrs. Gray paused. Do you want to make another try?"

I hesitated, then nodded slightly and followed Mrs. Gray as she led me back towards the door.

Jay and Kelly hadn't moved after I left the room. And even though I looked away from them I couldn't help but sense them staring at me.

I pulled for a deep breath, somehow I knew that this was way more important than anything else I had ever done. I needed to speak up.

If I didn't ask now I might never get the answers.

"I guess I just want to know why. Why did you decide to give one baby up like that? And why me in particular?"

I looked at Kelly, she held one hand shakily in her lap and the other one holding Jay's. Jay was less shaky but just as nervous from the look in his eyes.

"Don't blame him." Kelly said. "First I just want to say… this wasn't anyone else's fault. Not yours, not Jay's, not anyone of your siblings. Only mine… As for your question. Your quadraplets siblings are all born right after midnight. Their birthday is July the fifth while yours is July fourth. We just saw that as some reason of why you were not meant to be together."

Not meant to be together…

Every day, every second. Every moment that had passed for more than fourteen years of my life I hadn't known I had siblings out there, let alone several ones. Let alone those I had spent those first nine months only to be ripped apart from them.

I couldn't help but try and see in front of me what thinsg would have been like if they'd never given me up.

"But... They seemed like good parents. The two that came with you here today."

Seriously? How naïve was this woman?

"Have you been with them for long…"

"Since March…"

I knew what I had to say but I just couldn't raise my voice.

"And with one long break from when I was forced to live with Mrs. Jacobs…"

Everything had just been a agreat, big mess.

And the one to blame was the woman in front of me.

Not one word could I get out. The only thing I wanted to do was to yell that it was her fault I had been a part of all of these things that had happened.

"I think that might be enough for today."

Mrs. Gray said something before I could find my voice. I would say I agreed with her, but I couldn't find a single word that suited and only nodded slightly.

"Maybe, now we've met once. We can meet you again soon."

I slowly rose to my feet, one part of me wanted to run straight out of the room and never look back.

That part was a whole lot bigger than anything else when I, still staring at the both of my biological parents moved towards the door.

I wasn't actually aware that I moved at all,, but I must have because when Kelly said one last thing before we left.

"I hope there would be some way, like in your heart to forgive us."

I couldn't help but to only stare back on her.

After everything I had gone through during my whole life, now they were back and she did expect me to just change my mind, take everything away and I could come back to here like a puppy who came when she called.

Had she asked a couple of years ago this would be the only thing I wanted.

Now there was nothing I wanted less than to have to move.

But I just couldn't find any words, so instead of answering I got up and glared back on her before I finally turned around and went out the room. As soon as the door closed behind me when I came out in the reception of the building again I felt like either fainting or throwing up…

Nonetheless when I found Ellie there and seeing the look on her face.

Random fact

I couldn't saya any of this is easy to write or anything near it. But for them to just sitting and talking talking, talking like Cai said just didn't seem real.

I hope you liked it after all.