Originally, he planned to go to sleep, but seeing that the first snow is falling outside, Lin Ye decided not to hurry.
For him, watching the snow is a rare thing, and watching the snow with a beautiful girl is even rarer. It just so happened that he also had something to say to Pramanix. He took out two chairs from inside and then sat together with Pramanix.
Then he glanced at what she was wearing and thought,
Is she not cold?
So, he takes off his coat and wraps it around Pramanix leaving him with only his simple black turtleneck sweater. Before she can argue that she is fine he cut her off by asking a question with a smile on his face.
"How long have you left Kjerag?" Lin Ye asks.
"... It's been almost two years and thank you for the coat, but I'm used to cold already." Pramanix smiles,
"Even if you are used to it, you are still cold. Besides, I want to feel the cold breeze of Kjerag for the first time on my skin." he smiles back at her. This made her giggle and he laughs with her.
After they had a good laugh with each other, Pramanix continued on she was saying "I didn't know time would pass by so fast staying at Rhodes Island, I love staying there."
"What about Kjerag?"
"It's the same." Pramanix thought for a while and said, "But they are both completely to different lives that I have. In Rhodes Island, I'm just an ordinary medical staff, and in Kjerag..."
Lin Ye nods "I understand, in Kjerag, you are a younger sister."
Pramanix glances at Lin Ye with a smile.
"I'm kidding." Lin Ye smiles back, "Want to eat something? You didn't eat anything tonight."
She did not refuse, "Do you have anything to eat?" Lin Ye wanted to ask if she could eat cat food, but he felt that after asking, he might be driven out of this house. So, he decided not to do that and not die.
"Let me ask your family chef for you to make something, what do you want to eat?" Pramanix shakes her head: "Forget it then."
"It's not good to skip dinner."
"I'll go to the dining hall later," Pramanix says trying to not make him worry,
"Good"
Then she becomes serious "I already know what you said to that person at the dining hall. "She says suddenly, "I am very grateful for your willingness to stand up and speak for me. But it is not necessary. The relationship between me and him is impossible to repair, so let's not do such meaningless things."
He is a little surprised by how she knew that happened "How did you know? Didn't you stay in your room?"
After thinking about it, it suddenly dawned on him. "Oh, the butler came to see you, and told you what I said at that time."
Pramanix did not deny "You really like to take care of other people's private affairs, Dr. Lin Ye."
"You and your brother said exactly the same thing, and you said that you both weren't brothers and sisters!" he says jokingly.
"I have a close blood relationship with him. I have never denied his identity, I just don't want to admit it."
"It feels very confusing for you to say that. I kinda feel a bit confused by what you just said..."
"Doctor Lin." Pramanix interrupts Lin Ye, raises her hand, and points to the distance, "Look there."
"Hmm? Where?" Lin Ye follows the direction she is pointing.
He can't see anything, because it is already late at night, and it is late at night without a moon. The direction of where she is pointing should be at the mountains, but the mountains are not visible at the moment for him, no matter how hard he tries, he can only see the feather-like snowflakes slowly falling.
"What's there?" Lin Ye asks, "I can't see anything?"
"Can't you see it? Maybe that's because your eyesight is bad. I recommend you some eye exercises." Pramanix gives Lin Ye a demonstration, "First of all. Close your eyes and then open them, that's it." her smile is full of mischief.
Lin Ye's mouth twitches into a smile "Are you kidding me?"
"Hehe. But, I really think your eyesight is bad, I'm serious." Pramanix giggles, "Even if you said that I can't help it. Maybe because of how pure have bad eyesight compare to others race"
" I think that's true. Okay, there is a mountain there and up there is a temple"
"...There is a temple in the mountain?"
"Uhm." Pramanix nods, "There is a temple in the mountain."
Lin Ye sighed softly letting a cloud of mist appears "So, am I right to believe that you are one of the saintesses of the said temple,"
"You are correct to think so." She nods,
"Is there a younger saint in the mountain like you?" Lin Ye asks.
"There is no young saint up there," she says softly,
"There are just many, many dead people."
Lin Ye is taken aback by this. Pramanix raises her hand again and points to the vast darkness in front of them.
"There, the sacred mountain of Kjerag, the candidates of the saintesses of the past need to go there to listen to the will of God, and most of them died, some died halfway reaching to the top."
"... Why is that?" Lin Ye turns to look at her. Pramanix's flawless face is full of loneliness and pain.
"I have only nine toes." Pramanix says softly, "Because one of them was frozen, I missed the best treatment at the time. I had to cut it off. And this-." She then points to her left cat ear.
"Occasionally, I can't hear there." She continues. "When I cover the other ear, even if there is someone standing right in front of me I can't hear them, haha isn't it interesting? Sometimes when I encounter an annoying person, I will have used this method to deal with him. Sometimes when the medical department asks me to go to some boring meetings, I will be like this, just like this, cover one ear. Then the other ear can't hear, isn't it funny?"
Pramanix said these things to Lin Ye, saying that it was funny, but Lin Ye can't laugh, or even a normal person can't laugh. The bitterness under her laughter really makes him feel uncomfortable.
"Why did you do this?" Lin Ye asks softly.
"Because he wanted a saintess."
"Why?"
"I must become a saintess so that he can go further. I must become a saintess, so he can regain the family honour. I have to become a saintess, his enemies have nothing to say or do." Pramanix says
Although she didn't explain, Lin Ye also knew that "he" here must refer to Silverash. This made him wonder what to say. After holding back for a long time, he finally asks her "What the hell is going on?"
"Don't ask so much, Dr. Lin Ye." Pramanix tilts her head. The snow on her hair falls one after another, "Actually, it's pretty good now, isn't it? Also, please don't tell Encia about the things I said tonight."
"Cliffheart doesn't know yet?"
"She knows that I am a saintess. But she still doesn't know what a saintess means, and I am also very careful not to show my whole body in front of her, otherwise, she will be a worry. She said that I and that man have done a lot. His dream to rejuvenate the family, but I don't have such ambition. The family name doesn't matter to me anymore."
She looks at the moon above them, "My only dream now is to let Encia live a fun and peaceful life. You said before that I was willing to return to Kjerag because of that man, but that was not the case. I just don't want Encia to have to follow my old path and become a new saintess after that man fell. That world is too cruel."
Lin Ye stays silent.
"Doctor Lin Ye, I actually envy Miss Nightingale."
He is surprised "Liz?"
"Yes, Miss Liz." She nods and says, "I know that Miss Liz has suffered a lot before. Before she was completely healed by you, her life can be said to be dark. But Even so, there are many people who are willing to stand next to Miss Liz. Before meeting you, Shining, Nearl, Lava, and Hibiscus from the same clan of Sarkaz. Miss Liz has many sincere hearts that want to save her. Many, many people are willing to stand next in front of her to shelter her from the wind and rain."
She fixes her air as the cold winter wind blows past them, "But. I didn't. I thought it had one. The old him did but now it's different. I heard Most of the Saintess candidates were not frozen to death or starved to death but lost their way in the blizzard. Then they found that they were alone and died in despair."
Lin Ye listens quietly. Her voice is very small, very light, but very powerful of emotion. Through Pramanix's description, it is not difficult for him to imagine such a scene.
On the holy road in the snow-capped mountains. A lonely and thin girl walks alone. Underfoot are the bones of countless predecessors. This is the same as the prison that trapped Liz in her childhood. Just imagine the scene that makes people feel desperate. Lin Ye couldn't help thinking, if the Pramanix has the same symptoms as Liz, then the holy road of the snow mountain is also her prison.
Thinking of this, he couldn't help but reach out his hand and held her hand in his. To give her some form of comfort. To give her warmth. To let her know that there is someone that is beside her.
"Dr-?" she blushes slightly from the touch
"Let's go together then."
"Huh?" She is stunned, looking at Lin Ye with confusion,
"I said, let's take that road again. But this time let me follow you." Lin Ye says with a smile, "This time, someone will be by your side this time. It will make the trip a lot more fun. So let me help."
Pramanix looks at Lin Ye in a daze, and then chuffs a laugh out "What's this? What are you saying? it's so strange."
The laughter of her calms Lin Ye and lightens up the mood around them so he joins in with her. Laughing with her. Then he realizes that her situation is far different from that of Liz. Liz was trapped, but Pramanix had already "come out". And Liz's dream demon is the prison itself, but if Pramanix had a dream demon, it would not be the holy road itself. It should be... the one who has sheltered her from wind and rain. In the end, she let go of the holy road.
She's so strong.
This is something that makes him feel her situation is far worse than Liz's.
"Okay, Dr. Lin, it's time to go back to sleep." Pramanix finally gets up slowly and Lin Ye lets go of her hand,
"Although I understand your concern you really don't need to do anything this time. Have fun in Kjerag, no matter what I said about this place, the scenery here is quite beautiful. it is most suitable for you, for one who has not seen the snow. Also, wear more clothes and socks so you'll not freeze your toes like me. And thanks for the coat. Here you go." she gives back his coat to him and he wears it back on him.
The last sentence of Pramanix is obviously a joke, but Lin Ye couldn't laugh. Watching her back disappear into the villa.
As she is walking to her room, she holds on to her hand that Lin Ye held. It still feels warm.
Why does it feel so familiar?She asks herself. Then she remembers a scene in her past.
She was cold, alone, and tired on the mountain. She was scared. Then when she thought all loss was gone, he came. Her older brother.
"Anya! Let me help!" So, carries her on her back from the mountain to their warm home.
Ah. He feels like how he used to feel.she holds on to her hand tighter.
With Lin Ye, he is still on the balcony, watching the snowfall in the dark night sky alone. He is holding a cup of tea in his hand, but he didn't seem to drink it.
This is because it is already too cold for him.
{Rhodes Island's Psychologist}
Draft by Jaq
Proofread by HierophantPurples
Edit by Jaq