A/N: I was listening to Drown by Bring Me To The Horizon yesterday and got this idea in my head.
Just getting this out of the way REAL quick.
I don't normally write anything suggestive usually- well not at all.
It's simply not my style of choice when it comes to writing fanfiction.
Originally, this was going to be a 6 part fanfiction, I tried and couldn't get anymore past chapter III so in order to keep this present I had to make it a short POV (Sorry Ty,)
I write drama and heartfelt stories, however it isn't anything too graphic.
With hours of study and reading, I came up with this written piece.
It's my 10th Fanfiction so yeah just a little something I whipped up for Tylida, Karen Hart is getting something as well. Enjoy Ty!
Drowning
"What is this sensation running through me, this- irresistible feeling?"
"Am I truly afraid of being so alone?"
These thoughts enter my mind as my long fingers scrap across the throne.
Me, feeling a pathetic emotion such as- loneliness?
How disgustingly weak of me, I shouldn't be feeling like this at all.
It truly is unusual though, this longing desire to be with you Rubedo despite what you've done to me. But I just keep begging and asking for more.
Perhaps it's your face when you yell at me, or when you violently grab me.
Or when you glare at me with those eyes filled with the utmost anger, to fuel yourself with enough rage to strike at me.
Our little poison is special isn't it Rubedo, such a powerful bloodlust that brings us together, It's built with our memories, these memories make the perfect bittersweet elixir, very much like our heated little arguments- the taste makes us come back for more- perhaps we crave this misery.
I guess it's a bond that only me and you share, it's an invisible thread that pulls me closer towards you.
But, what about you Rubedo, what are your thoughts about all this?
I'd love to know, what you think of me now-
Do you resent me, do you wish to rip apart and scream at the sins I've done?
Do you wish to kill me, do you feel that rage dormant inside? Does my red dragon feel that resonating sensation - coursing through your veins my précieux dragon?
I then laugh, as more memories begin to flow inside my mind.
"Of course you do, you can't deny it either Rubedo." Suddenly a grin escapes my lips,
"You and Nigredo both despise me, you both want to punish me- you both want to see me SUFFER.
How awfully sadistic of you, Rubedo."
It makes me wonder, what you're doing now? Are you repenting for your mistakes, repenting for what you've done Rubedo?
Or has that arrogant behavior of yours taken a liking to you, similar to the likes of the Executioner, slowly drip-feeding you that poison doesn't he?
He's the shadow that casts over you, the feeling of suffocation- that slowly suppresses your pathetic small lungs.
His words much like hemlock- it makes its way and seeps into your system, he's repulsive and so selfish.
Black, such a revolting color,
It's disgusting and vile compared to the likes of - Red.
Red, is simply delicious...
White and red go so well together wouldn't you agree?
But I see, I see shades of peach on our beautiful white canvas...
This disgusting shade of pink, clouding my view of my precious Red.
Who is this dreadful woman in your eyes?
I thought you got over that other pitiful girl from before, she died Rubedo- or hasn't it truly sunk in yet?
Don't fret Rubedo, I'll put Executioner in his place as well.
I shall come soon, and free you myself... and kindly remind you- who you belong to.