Okay so I've decided to put all the Author Notes in this little section...
These "Chapter's" will be me giving information, ranting, explaining, and updating about stories and such...
I found that this seems easier then trying to add them into the stories themselves...
So Most likely this will be getting updated more then my stories...
xD
But anyway, about my stories...
The story I just finished Sick & Twisted Affair I've decided to re go through and fix the mistakes slowly...
1 Chapter at a time...
And I will go over said chapter multiple times once every 2-3 hours after saving...
If the chapter doesn't have any mistakes when I go through it say like 3rd or 4th time then it gets updated...
I'm currently on Chapter 6 of that one with the editing...
I've gone through it twice already so Hopefully when I go through again in the morning since I'm pretty beat right now there won't be any mistakes...
Why am I so focused on this story or all things?
Good question...
It's just the subjects that are in the story are still a big problem in the real world, something that no one really thinks about because they believe it's all in the movies and tv shows...
But it's not it's real...
Now this story is fictional to a point...
I added characters and scenes that make it fictional...
But besides making it into a smut story with with crime and pain, It's a true story...
Not my story, but a friend of mine, who was actually helping me through this entire thing which is why it got finished so fast...
I literally went through 5 tissue boxes writing that story...
She told me everything and wrote it down into a story...
I was going to make it a non-fiction story and keep the facts of it in it but she said no...
She didn't want people to totally hate the story so she told me to make it more fun...
To be honest I looked at her like she had lost her damn mind because this is serious matter why make it into something fun?
Her answer was simple, You should dwell on the past and you can't change anything that has happened to you, the best thing to do is to keep moving forward and always look on the bright side of things just to keep yourself and your mind from totally dying inside and making your life worst...
Never let horrible things that you lived through and Survived hold you back from living your life to the fullest...
Also it was her idea to make them semi-siblings in the story...
Weirdo...
It was similar in her life but she didn't have any type of brother, just a best friend that helped her in the end...
And yes they got married and had kids 4 to be exact...
Monsters I tell ya...
2 sets of twins...
The older set of Twins are now 6 and the younger set just turned 2...
I do not envy her with that...
But yes this story means a lot to both of us so I did my best to keep it on the subject it's about but also make it into, in my option, a totally fucked up good story...
The motorcycle club is a real one but she personally doesn't know any of them, I thought it would be fun to throw them in there since my friend's Dad is actually in the club and I've always enjoyed hearing the stories about them so I thought what hell throw them in there people are going to hate me for this story anyway I don't care...
But yeah when I'm done updating the story I'll post another one of these in here to let you know I'm done and never going have to touch it again...
Now onto updates and info on my LaLu stories...
Yeah, don't you hate when you can't get into writing something like that again after getting so far it's like your brain decided to go on vacation without telling you?
And is now leaving you high and dry on how to finish the stories?
Yeah, that's how I feel right now...
I'm not even getting into it by watching the anime or reading the Manga, I've found myself totally bored with it...
I HATE WHEN PEOPLE DO THAT!
And now I can't believe I'm doing it myself!
I'm such a horrible person!
I am working a little here and there on each story only writing a few lines here and there for each one and then getting bored and closing it out...
For some reason I'm stuck of these stories that I feel people should know more about how it could affect people and such...
Drugs, abuse, self harm, trafficking, weapons, slavery, all of these things exists and people just act like it doesn't mean anything and that it's not important because its never going to happen to them when, you don't know that...
Self harm I know more about than really any of the others, besides Drugs and abuse, I was a cutter way back when...
I have the scars to prove it...
Not proud of it, but you never know what your capable of when you feel like you can't control something and stress of a situation pushes you so hard you need to find something, anything to help soothe it and to help calm yourself down...
It helps your mind to focus on one thing, physical pain and you mind blocks everything else out to help you deal with the physical pain instead of the emotional and mental pain you're going through...
Once your calm though it's easier to think and then you realize your were stupid enough to hurt yourself just to calm your mind down to keep it from going insane...
But again it's not an excuse and it is a very bad habit to have...
Bi-polar is another issue I'm very well educated on...
Which could explain how I get bored and off track easily...
Well, I have Bi-polar, anxiety, OCD, ADHD, and some other issues that no one would have even guessed...
No I don't say it to use it as an excuse or to get people's pity, fuck that shit, I could care less what people think of me to be honest, I say it because I acknowledge it and I won't hide it from people in fear they'll judge me...
Judge me all you want, hate me all you want, I don't care...
It's better not to worry about what people think of you, if they're truly your friends they'll stick by you no matter what...
But anyway I'm doing my best to work of everything, I don't like leaving things unfinished...
It may take me some time but I will finish it...
Anyway thanks for reading the rant of the day...
Thanks for the support!