Pairing: Clark Kent/Buffy Summers
Warnings: Brief Description of Torture, Mention of Character Death, Bad Language, Sexual Tension, Eventual Smut
Summary: Takes place during Man of Steel. When Buffy discovers the U.S Military trying to keep quiet about an object buried in a twenty thousand year old glacier, she immediately thinks the worst. However, when a surprise visit to the Canadian Arctic puts her in the path of a mysterious stranger her whole world is changed forever.
Authors Notes: I should first say that this takes place about eight and a half years after the first arc of the Season 8 Buffy Comics, however I'm only using aspects of cannon. The back story will not follow the comics as you will be able to see pretty quickly in this chapter. Secondly, I actually really do love Lois so please don't bash me for being self-indulgent by wanting to see my two favorite Superheroes get together. I can promise you all that there will be no Lois bashing in this fic. Thirdly, as far as Clark's story goes it follows Man Of Steel so if you've seen the movie you know his story. Thanks for giving this a chance I hope you all enjoy reading.
Disclaimer: All publicly recognizable characters, settings, etc. are the property of their respective owners. The original characters and plot are the property of the author. The author is in no way associated with the owners, creators, or producers of any media franchise. No copyright infringement is intended.
Chapter One
Buffy lurched as the helicopter made touchdown onto the ice. She closed her eyes briefly, mentally preparing herself for what was sure to be a battle of wills between her and one Colonel Hardy. She hadn't had the pleasure of meeting him yet, but just by his photo she could tell he was going to be a pain in the ass. There wasn't much love lost between the W.C. and the U.S military. Not since Maggie Walsh and the Initiative, and certainly not since General Voll. The Governments of the world as a whole always seemed to have a really bad habit of sticking their noses in things they just didn't understand, hence why she was here in the freezing Canadian Arctic in the first place.
Willow had created a program that had been monitoring all military chatter since Voll decided to commandeer Amy and a skinlessly resurrected Warren to attack the W.C. Headquarters in Scotland. That had been almost ten years ago, and since then Buffy had been dealing with countless other countries attempting to harness power or create weapons out of a force that they just didn't seem to understand could never be controlled.
The U.S however, had managed to keep their noses pretty clean since General Voll, even going as far as to work with her and ask for her help when needed. That's why it was such a surprise to find out that they had found something buried in the snow that predated civilization and were trying to keep it under wraps. Especially from the W.C. And to make matter worse she was just coming off a week-long mission from hell.
Just last week she caught Russia restarting their subspecies research facility and when the shit had finally hit the fan, she had been forced to send in a team resulting in the deaths of two of her girls. After that, her and Wesley had spent the next day getting a hold of the girl's families, which of course left her holding a big-ol-bag of guilt and the nightmares and sleepless nights to go along with it. So, to say she was cranky and pissed to hear about the U.S. keeping stuff from her would have been an understatement. She was furious! However, she was also willing to give them the benefit of the doubt that maybe this actually wasn't her jurisdiction.
The Helicopter door slid open pulling her from her mental preparation and she blinked when her eyes met a pair of startlingly brilliant blues, surrounded by a handsomely rugged face, and scruffy beard. A green baseball hat adorned his head, hiding what she assumed from the few strands that were messily poking out of the brim was hair so brown it was almost black. He was probably somewhere in his mid-twenties, though on second inspection his eyes held the maturity of someone closer to her age.
"Here let me help you." He said loudly, so his voice could be heard over the whirling of the propeller and the grind of the engine.
He held out a large gloved hand as she undid her seat belt and stood on unsteady legs. Her own gloved hand reaching for the strangers. As soon as her hand touched his however, she gasped, almost recoiling in fear, her inner Slayer rearing her head at the sudden sensation of power. And wow, was it powerful. She had never sensed anything like what was behind this man's strong grip in all her years of slaying. It didn't feel mystical in nature and it certainly wasn't demonic. It was almost foreign, as if it didn't belong here.
Strength knew strength however, no matter where it originated from and her Slayer sensed him with a voraciousness that she had never experienced before. She felt a bit light headed and weak kneed by the sensation, and she had to shake her head to clear it of the roaring in her ears. Her eyes shot to his, widening in bewilderment and for a split second he had the look of a dear caught in the headlights. It was gone the next instant though, and a mask of a charmingly shy and unassuming guy replaced it. 'Quick reflexes then, and someone who's used to hiding in plain sight.' The look worked well on him and she admired the quick cover. Only someone who had been living a double life could pull off a cover like that.
Regardless of her admiration though, she needed to know if this guy was a threat or not. Especially with the way her Slayer was chomping at the bit and her heart pounding in her ears. So, she squeezed his hand slightly harder than she'd ever dare on someone human, just to let him know he wasn't the only one standing there that was something other.
It had the desired effect, though the fact that he didn't wince was a little unnerving. His eyes shot to hers as she passed him, an innocent mixture of awe, curiosity, and fear burning in his irises. She knew then. He was no threat to her. The eyes were the windows to the soul and there was no doubt this man or whatever he was, had one. Plus, there was no way anyone could pull off a look that full of innocents if they had nefarious intentions.
She removed her hand, breaking the overstimulation to her senses. She tried her best to cover what she had just felt by giving him a brilliant smile and winking conspiratorially. "Normally I would be worried about anyone carrying my bags considering how heavy they are, but something tells me it's not gonna be a problem with you."
"Buffy Summers?" A new voice asked, distracting her from her assessment of Mr. Tall, Dark, and Muscular.
She turned to meet the kind eyes of another man not much older than herself. "Hi." She said in greeting, reaching her hand out to shake.
"Jed Eubanks, Arctic Cargo, nice to finally meet you, Miss Summers."
Buffy raised an eyebrow in surprise, side eyeing Mr. Powerful for any reaction. "You heard of me?" She asked, watching the stranger's reaction. When all she got was a look of curiosity and befuddlement her hackles finally lowered enough to completely believe that whatever or whoever he was didn't have to do with her being here.
Eubanks grinned, commanding her full attention as he said, "Little more than that, I was stationed in Afghanistan about five years ago. My chopper went down near Baghaln."
Buffy winced. "I remember that, a terrorist organization had commissioned hellhounds and were feeding their hostages to them."
"Saw you fighting that day." He nodded. "Never seen anything like it in my life." He paused, almost as if he was gathering up the courage to continue. "I was next in line you know, if it wasn't for you and yours, I'd have been dog chow. I never got the chance to thank you for saving my life Miss Summers."
Buffy smiled softly at the man. It had been a while since she'd been thanked so sincerely. She linked her arm with his. "Call me Buffy, I'm sure I'm gonna have Miss Summers shouted at me enough today to give me flashbacks of high school."
Eubanks laughed. "Well, least you know you got one person rooting for you."
Buffy's eyes traveled back to the mysterious stranger, who had been watching them with rapt attention. Questions, fear, and confusion still simmering in his eyes. She imagined it was very much similar to the look she was giving him, curiosity brimming over like an over flowing stream. She gave him a small nod of acknowledgment, hoping he understood it was her way of saying they would speak later, before she turned back to Jed and plastered on a huge smile.
"Now show me where this camp is. The sooner I get this over with, the happier I'll be."
****S**S****
Clark watched the young blonde woman walk away with Jed, his heart galloping in his chest. She knew. Somehow, she was able to sense he was different. Part of him was horrified at the prospect of her walking into the basecamp below and announcing to the entire camp what and who he was. It was an old fear, one that had guided him and comforted him on cold lonely nights. If he just kept disappearing, no one would ever know the truth. Another part of him however, was beyond curious about her. How could she sense him like that, was she an alien too? When she squeezed his hand earlier it hadn't hurt, but had he been a normal man it very well may have fractured a bone or two, and he doubted she just went around breaking people's bones for the fun of it. No, she had definitely been testing his strength, which begged the question, how did she get hers?
The military seemed to know her pretty well however, and even Jed himself had encountered her five years ago in Afghanistan. Which almost seemed impossible, because she really didn't look much older than twenty-two. God, she was beautiful though, with those bright green eyes that looked older and far more tired than someone her age should be allowed to be. She was just the kind of girl he would have only dreamed of asking out when he was younger. He shook his head, finally forcing his eyes away from her retreating form, but keeping his hearing locked on her until he was sure he wouldn't have to make a sudden and quick exit.
He reached for the two duffle bags she brought with her, the first one pretty light and obviously full of clothes and toiletries. The second one however, was quite heavy and when he heard the sound of metal clanging against metal, he did a quick scan of the items in her bag and almost recoiled in shock. It was like a medieval arsenal in there, three sharp looking swords, a wicked looking red and silver axe, six daggers, four sharp looking wooden stakes, two flasks filled with some type of fluid, a cross, two pistols, a shotgun, and a pair of night vision goggles.
'Who is this girl!'
****S**S****
"Colonel Hardy I presume." Buffy said with a saccharine smile, holding out her hand to shake. Not at all surprised when he didn't return the greeting. She then turned to the elderly gentlemen to his right. Her smile softening in recognition. "Dr. Hamilton, how many times do we have to run into each other before I can convince you to ditch these macho elitists and come work for me."
"Miss Summers, always a pleasure." He said with an amused smile, side eyeing Hardy's annoyed frown.
"I wasn't aware that you had clearance for this project?" Colonel Hardy said a little too arrogantly.
Buffy's smile grew, oh she was going to love putting this man in his place. "Oh, you wouldn't, orders went through about," She looked at her watch. "thirty minutes ago. You should probably be getting a call from General Swanwick any minute now."
Just as predicted, a young soldier came through the door the next second and Buffy couldn't help the smug smile that crossed her lips. "Sir, General Swanwick is on SATCOM."
It was immediate. The look of self-assurance morphed into pure annoyance within the span of mere seconds, and it was worth every bit of discomfort she was sure to receive in the next few days of her stay.
Sure enough, Hardy did not disappoint. He excused himself and as he passed the officer he said, "Please ready Miss Summers accommodations and make sure they're as sparce as possible."
Buffy chuckled in amusement, looking at Dr. Hamilton with a conspiratorial twinkle. "If he thinks making me crap in a bucket is gonna offend my delicate sensibility, he's mistaken."
The Doctor chuckled, "I wasn't aware you had a delicate bone in your body Miss Summers."
She snorted, "I hide it well." Her eyes then traveled to the scientific equipment obviously used for monitoring the anomaly. "So why don't you bring me up to speed on this find of yours, before Hardy comes back and attempts to make my life a living hell."
Dr. Hamilton shook his head, leading her over to a computer screen with what looked to be a satellite image. "You do seem to enjoy ruffling their feathers."
"Well, what can I say, never been much of a fan of authoritarianism. Also, not exactly easy to trust an entity that's tried to have you killed more than once." Buffy said, as she leaned over to get a better look at the dark blob like shape covered by layers of snow and ice. "So, what am I looking at? An Old Ones sarcophagus?"
"We don't believe its demonic in origin." Dr. Hamilton stated.
Buffy frowned in confusion, "But weren't the samples of ice taken around the object more than twenty thousand years old? If it's not demonic, what the hell do you think it is?"
"A vessel Miss Summers," Colonel Hardy said, walking back in the room. "A vessel not of this world."
Buffy blinked and turned around. "When you say not of this world, I'm assuming you mean…"
Hardy's smirk was patronizing. "That's right Miss Summers, extraterrestrials. A spaceship. A topic I might add, that you know absolutely nothing about."
Buffy rolled her eyes, "Oh, as if you do."
"I know more than you Miss Summers." Hardy responded indignantly.
Buffy snorted in derision, her lip curling at this man's stupidity. "So, what happens if you dig this thing up and you got a violent alien that's been sleeping in stasis for the last twenty thousand years?" Buffy shook her head. "Furthermore, I've seen Alien. What if the aliens inside crash landed on earth because a giant fucking Xenomorph is inside?"
"I can assure you Miss Summers we're taking every…"
Buffy threw her arms in the air. Finally losing her patience. It looked like she was the one who was actually going to be doing the yelling today. This was just so typical, as if she didn't have enough on her plate with Russia and Sudan creating their own Initiative-like secret facilities.
"The fuck you are!" She shouted. "See this is the problem with you guys," she pointed. "This is what happens, this is always what happens!" She started to pace, her fists clenched at her sides, uncaring of the sudden wary looks she was receiving by both Dr. and Colonel, as well as the few other scientists and soldiers in the room. "You discover something…for instance that demons and monsters exist, and instead of just killing it or leaving it the hell alone, you gotta study it, dissect it, see how it works, until eventually you're trying to harness its power for yourselves!" She shook her head in disgust, "And do you wanna know who always has to clean up the mess? Me," She pressed her fist against her chest, "It's always me."
Her voice softened then, a sigh whistling between her teeth as her eyes locked on both a flabbergasted Dr. Hamilton and Colonel Hardy. Okay, maybe she went a little to far there. It wasn't exactly fair to blame them for the previous week. "It's not…If I was only dealing with this kinda stuff once in a while I wouldn't be so cranky. I apologies for insinuating anything about anyone in this room." She shook her head. "It's just every single country on earth has their fingers in the demonic cesspool one way or another and I'm getting really sick of doing damage control on top of all my other Slayer duties, not to mention the lovely annual apocalypse that never really takes a vacation. Throw aliens in the mix now and the fact that I haven't slept very well in a week and yeah, Buffy's stress level just hit a new high."
Colonel Hardy's disposition seemed to soften slightly at her words and he stepped forward, "I heard about Russia and am very sorry for your loss." He sighed, "But we aren't them, Miss Summers. I'm willing to play ball. Please let me be the first to promise, if we find anything that could be deemed even slightly dangerous as far as alien lifeforms go, we will hand it over to you immediately, without question."
She chewed on his words for a moment, figuring this was the best she was going to get as far as cordial cooperation went, and figured she throw out an olive branch so he knew she really wasn't trying to step on his toes. "Yeah," Buffy agreed, sighing with a nod. "Yeah, okay. And if it's really just a ship I have no problem with giving you free rein on any alien technology you find. Just…just do me a favor, don't make me regret this by killing us all with it."
Hardy cracked a smile then, "Alright Miss Summers, I think I can agree to that." And surprisingly enough, he held out his hand to make it official.
****S**S****
Clark was more than impressed with the young woman who had pretty much wormed her way into his heart without her even knowing it. She was feisty as all hell; he'd heard her entire conversation and had been caught chuckling to himself a few times. Considering how quiet and reserved he normally was, the other guys on the crew were probably thinking he'd gone insane.
There were a few things that were talked about that confused him however. Like her speaking about demons and monsters like they exist. Though, considering the fact that he existed, he wasn't all that surprised there could be something out there that was possibly a greater threat than even himself. He was just surprised he'd never run into anything of the sort before, especially considering how long he'd been traveling. Then again, he never really actively sought out situations where he was a savior, those situations usually just kind of found him.
Buffy however, spoke as if she had been doing these types of things regularly for years. So much so, that not only was the military aware of her, but they had deemed her a threat on more than one occasion. He could certainly relate to that, for he knew if they had any ideas of what he could do, they would do everything in their power to either try and kill him or use him as a weapon. And that was something Clark absolutely refused to have happen. It not only would disgrace his father's memory, but it would spit on the very sacrifice John Kent made for him.
When he was younger, he always thought that the fear his father sometimes wore on his face was because his father was afraid of him. It was one of the things that lead to the words he used the day his dad died. He remembered how frustrated he was that day; his father was being so stubborn about letting him go to college. He remembered thinking it was because his dad wouldn't be able to keep an eye on him anymore. That he was so afraid of his son hurting someone…that he would never let him leave Smallville.
Then that tornado hit, tearing Clark's entire world to shreds and he was never able to tell his dad he didn't mean what he said. It was his father's sacrifice that finally made him realize that all that fear and distrust he saw etched in his dad's eyes was never directed at Clark at all. His father had always trusted him, it was mankind that he was so afraid of.
So, revealing himself to the world was absolutely out of the question. However, for the first time in Clark's entire life, he felt he might have someone else he could trust enough to confide in. The simple fact that she hadn't told anyone what she suspected about him was almost enough to make him trust her. The fact that she didn't want the military to get their hands on an alien, for fear of what they would use it for and the harm it could cause to the human race also helped greatly in making him want to trust her.
She was incredibly cautious about how they should go about unearthing the vessel and spoke of bringing in a witch friend of hers to put a ward around it in case there was something dangerous inside. It truly was a sound plan; it would let them be able to open the ship without accidentally releasing some deadly creature or virus by mistake. It's also the reason he was now changing his plans of waiting a few days before he went in search of the ship. He hadn't known magic existed until a few minutes ago and he had no idea if he was vulnerable to it or not. He didn't think so, but he sure as hell wasn't willing to stick around and find out. As much as he agreed with Buffy's plan and admired her caution, he knew in his gut that this might be his only opportunity to find out where he came from. Something deep inside of him told him that the answers he sought were on that ship.
He dropped the bags off at her trailer, noticing how sparce the accommodations were, just like Colonel Hardy had ordered. Just a cot, blanket, pillow, space heater, and sure enough in the corner was a bucket and a roll of toilet paper. He shook his head in amusement, apparently this was not the first time she was forced to rough it.
He could hear her and Colonel Hardy heading this way, discussing the ship and what other precautions might be taken to ensure that no one would get hurt. On an absolutely and unexpected whim, Clark pulled out the notepad he'd been keeping in the inside pocket of his jacket and wrote down the first thing that popped in his head. He didn't know what made him do it, and he hoped she didn't take it the wrong way. The poem was called "I am" by Ella Wheeler Wilcox, and he didn't really remember the entire thing, but the first verse had stuck with him. He quickly ripped the sheet of paper off the spiral, folding it, and tucking the sheet under her bag where just the edge could be seen. He stuffed the notepad and pen in his back pocket, getting to the door just as they were walking up.
Their eyes found each other's immediately, the intensity of her gaze sending an electric shock up his spine, his heart speeding up. God, those eyes of hers were like the color of the fields around the farm in spring. She raised an eyebrow in question at him but he just smiled politely and held the door open for her and the Colonel to pass as he slid by and down the steps. She followed his gaze and he found himself completely turning and walking backwards a few steps, before forcing himself to break contact and walk away. He was going to go talk to Jed, see if he could learn more about her. Plus, his shift was almost up and twilight was approaching. Soon it would be time.
****S**S****
When his gaze broke from hers it was like having a bucket of ice water doused on an over heated system. She stood there watching him walk away, her heart pounding in her chest, a loud rush of air she hadn't even realized she was holding breaking from her lungs. Her nerves still tingled from the heat she felt in his gaze, and she was startled to realize she hadn't had a reaction like that to the opposite sex in a very long time. Hell, she wasn't quite sure she ever had a reaction like that, at least not one she remembered. She shook her head, turning back to the Colonel, only to notice he hadn't missed the staring contest either.
She thought he looked amused, but wasn't quite sure. "Something I need to know about?"
Buffy rolled her eyes, "I'm a red-blooded female. I'm allowed to notice a good-looking man when I see one."
The Colonel hummed, his green eyes accusatorily sizing her up. "Seems like he noticed you too."
Buffy's eyebrow's shot up and she frowned. "What exactly are you implying, Hardy?"
"Just making sure you didn't send a spy in close to gather information." He answered seriously, eyeing her warily, as if she would do something like that so unnecessarily.
She rolled her eyes, laughing at the absurdity of that statement. "Colonel, if I were to do something like that it would only be if I felt I was in danger, and I can guarantee it would be another Slayer and not some well-built, redneck, with puppy eyes. No one but the W.C. and the General knew I was coming, why would I risk the little bit of leeway I knew I would gain by showing up unexpectedly, and ruin it by having a spy already in your midst's. Please do give me some credit."
Hardy shrugged unapologetically leaning against the wall, "I still don't understand how your people figured out about the find when we've only known about it for a week."
"Oh, so that's what this is." She said, raising an eyebrow and looked around the almost empty trailer.
He smirked, "That's what this is."
She shrugged, it didn't really matter to her if he knew or not. She wouldn't be sharing the technology no matter how much he tried to intimidate her. Not that she would actually be able to explain it anyway. "A friend of mine created a program that relies heavily on magic to monitor, decode, translate, and record when certain phrases or words are used in any and all military or government communication around the globe."
The Colonel's eyes sharpened and she watched as his jaw clenched, a vein popping out on his forehead. "And I don't suppose you'd be willing to share that little piece of technology would you."
Buffy shook her head, "Absolutely not. I'm not helping you war with other countries."
"And you call yourself some sort of hero." He said snidely, heavy condemnation in his voice. "Do you have any idea how much something like that could help us?"
Buffy froze, her back stiffening at his implications. She turned to him, her lips pursed and eyes as sharp as daggers. "It's my job Colonel, to protect humanity. All of it." She said, voice trembling just above a whisper in pure rage. "It is not my job to get involved with petty wars that mean very little when every year there's some demon who gets the idea in his head to destroy every single one of us." She pointed to the door, "I think its time for you to go now. Suns setting anyway, I hear it can get forty degrees below zero some nights."
Hardy frowned and opened his mouth as if to say more, but decided against it. Instead, he said, "Good night Miss Summers, will speak more about this tomorrow."
She stopped him with a hand on his arm, "No we really won't. Despite what you may think, I'm not trying to hoard technology so I can be some kinda all-knowing God and rain judgment down on everyone. It's the whole reason its only designed to pick out key words and phrases. I don't want to know everything, but magic in the wrong hands is the most dangerous thing on this planet. It's more dangerous than any demon I've ever faced or any God." She sighed, removing her hand. "Trust me when I say, science will get there, you don't need magic to move it along."
His frown deepened, before he seemed to sigh in defeat. He nodded once, then left her trailer without a word. Buffy sighed, hoping that was the end of that. She really didn't want to have to keep explaining herself.
She walked over and sunk down on the cot, reaching for the lighter of her bags and pulling out her satellite phone. She called Wesley first, knowing he would be waiting up for her to check in. She gave him a brief description of what had happened so far, leaving out the mystery man for fear of making him worry when he already had so much on his plate. Wesley agreed that Willow should be the one performing the warding spell around the ship, and agreed to make the necessary travel arrangements.
Her next phone call was to Willow herself, and she smiled at the cheery voice that picked up. "Is the Arctic as cold as they say?"
Buffy chuckled, "Yeah Wills, its pretty cold." Then added, "But don't worry, you'll be experiencing it soon enough."
She could hear the frown on the other end of the phone, before an irritated whine escaped her friend's lips. "But I don't wanna go to the Arctic, you know how much I hate the cold."
Buffy chuckled, "Yes, but apparently they think they found a spaceship and we need you and your magical-witchy-talents to make sure no hibernating Xenomorphs escape and raise havoc amongst the populous."
There was a long still silence, before the expected giddy meltdown on the other side of the phone. She heard a squeal of delight, before several vowels that sounded suspiciously like they should have been words.
Buffy chuckled, "Breath Willow, oxygen is of the good."
There were several panting breaths before, "Gods, Buffy do you know what a find like this could mean for us? The technology alone could help…"
"Hold your horses there, Wills." Buffy interrupted. "I already promised the U.S. that they could have the ship."
"Wait, what?" Willow protested. "Buffy if it hadn't been for Voll joining up with Amy and Warren, those two would have never gotten powerful enough to join up with…"
"I know Willow," Buffy said, cutting her off before that train of thought could even be realized.
"I'm just saying, why should we trust them when they've put us through so much?" Willow said, the pain and resentment clear in her voice.
Buffy, sighed. "I don't know Wills; guess I'm just getting more forgiving in my old age." She paused, hearing Willow sigh sadly and knowing exactly where Willow's thoughts were taking her.
They had all suffered the consequences of General Voll raising Amy and Warren up from annoying nuisances, to actual threat. When they inevitably betrayed him, because that's what happens when you align yourself with crazy. Amy and Warren had managed to gain enough clout to join up with a recently desouled Angelus, and together they had amassed an army of witches and demons alike. By the time anyone caught wind of what was going on it was already too late.
Giles had been the first casualty in the chaos. Buffy freezing up when it happened, unable to even react to what her eyes were processing. Spike had been the one to pull her out, and for months he had been the one to push her to keep going. He had been her rock in that time, an unwavering support system without any expectations on what could possibly be if they made it out alive.
Wesley and Illyria had joined the fold shortly after Spike's miraculous return, followed by a severely wounded Charles Gunn and an empath demon named Lorne. Buffy had offered Wesley the Head Watcher position, being too far gone in her grief of losing the man who was more like a father to her than her real dad ever was. However, it was losing Spike three months later that had fully pushed her over the edge. It was the only time in her life that she went completely dark, and it was Angelus who paid and then some.
She had never thought herself capable of torture before that moment. Figuring she wouldn't have the stomach for it, but she'd been so very wrong. She had given her Slayer full control, and by the time she was finished with him there had been very little to stake.
She remembered hating not just him in that moment, but Angel too. Years of pent-up emotional trauma caused by him bleeding out of her as she bled him dry. Hatred and rage boiling inside of her at the fairytale romance they'd so naively convinced each other they had. It was never a fairytale; it had been a nightmare from the start. Even soulless Spike on his worse day would have never tried to break her so thoroughly.
Angelus, in essence had succeeded in what he started so many years before. Except, instead of the broken pile of tears he expected would be the outcome of his mental torment, he got the broken primal force of the Slayer in full. He must have realized his mistake somewhere between her cutting out his tongue to shut him up and flaying his skin off the muscle, because when she got to his eyes, they were full of the most potent fear she'd ever seen on a creature such as him.
She remembered her Slayer purring in delight at the heady look of horror that was etched on his face, so unlike the arrogant knowingness he'd been giving her for hours. She remembered the feel of his sticky coagulated blood as it spurted onto her face when she slowly pushed the blade into the brown pupil. The same eyes she had once thought so beautiful. She remembered how it felt to twist the knife until there was nothing left. The only sound Angelus able to make was a gargling, choking, scream.
Buffy shook her head, banishing the gruesome memories to the back of her mind. She had disappeared for two years after that, running every few days to make sure no one could find her, too ashamed to face anyone. When Wesley finally found her in that broken-down abandoned hovel. Finally, too weak to keep running. He hadn't asked what happened, he'd simply taken her in his arms and held her. When she had finally broken-down sobbing dry tears, because she was to dehydrated to produce any, Wesley had stroked her back, hushing her. He never once asked what happened, but she suspected he already knew. There was a haunted look in his eyes that told her he had danced that fine line once himself.
"Buffy? Buffy are you there?" Willow asked, forcing Buffy out of her memories completely.
"Yeah," Buffy said, shaking her head and blinking several times. "Sorry, what?"
"I said, is there anything else I should know?" Willow huffed, a worried edge to her voice.
Buffy chewed on her lip for a minute, thinking of her handsome stranger. "Yeah," She said again. "There's definitely something else." She was quiet for a long moment, before finally saying. "Look, I didn't say anything to Wesley, because he's dealing with a lot right now, but there's this guy here and he's...well..." she paused, shivering slightly at the memory of his hand in hers. "He's like uber-powerful."
"You mean like Glory and Illyria powerful?" Willow asked, the worry in her voice unmistakable now.
"I mean, like take Glory and Illyria, put them in a pot, add a few other Old Ones, stir, and you got this guy."
Now Willow sounded downright frightened. "You're kidding? And he's working for the military?"
Buffy shook her head even though Willow couldn't see it. "No, he's actually working for the cargo company the military contracted."
"Huh?" Willow said in confusion.
"Yeah, and here's the thing, he doesn't feel like a demon, or even mystical. It's almost like..." and that's when it all began to click into place. Spaceship, uber-powerful guy working as a civilian near said recently discovered spaceship. Power that felt foreign to her, not other worldly, but out of world. She froze, her eyes landing on a piece of paper tucked under her weapons bag.
With a shaky hand she reached down and unfolded it, her eyes scanning the quickly scribbled words on the page.
"Willow, I... I gotta go." Buffy said, hanging up before she could hear her friend's protest.
She reached for her weapons bag, unzipping it and pulling out her Scythe. The words of the poem repeating in her head. She thought about changing into her suit, but decided against it. She wasn't sure how much time she had, but the sun had set a while ago and she had a feeling if she didn't leave now, she'd never see her handsome stranger again.
She donned her jacket and her beanie, throwing on a backpack already prepacked with survival supplies. She opened the door and ran full speed out into the night. The forgotten poem falling into the snow, the words bleeding out as the slush soaked the paper.
'I know not whence I came,
I know not whither I go
But the fact stands clear that I am here
In this world of pleasure and woe.
And out of the mist and murk,
Another truth shines plain.
It is in my power each day and hour
To add to its joy or its pain.'