Officially Girlfriends

So, I just wanted to give a quick trigger warning for mentions of rape. Like a lot of mentions of rape. Please be warned, I don't want to trigger anyone or anything. But I hope you enjoy another Bechloe one-shot, since I can't stop making them apparently. Oh, and, as usual, I swear a lot.

"Come on, Chloe." Beca purred. "One more kiss, please?"

"You've been asking for 'one more kiss' for the past hour." Chloe teased. "You gotta go back to your room and go to bed."

"Or…" Beca said mischievously. "Maybe tonight I sleep in here?"

"Beca, I'm way too tired to have sex tonight-"

"We don't have to have sex!" Beca assured her. "It'd just be nice to…ya know…fall asleep next to my…"

Chloe's eyes flashed. "Your what?"

Beca grinned bashfully. "My…girlfriend? If that's okay with you?"

Chloe jumped up immediately and wrapped Beca in her arms. "I'm so happy you said that first, I've been wanting to say that for weeks, but I've been too chickenshit."

"I am pretty brave." Beca bragged and Chloe laughed.

"Why don't you go get your stuff for tonight? I think spending the night with my girlfriend sounds fantastic." Chloe said. Beca beamed and ran to the room that Fat Amy and her shared.

"Well, don't you look happy!" Fat Amy noticed. "Because it's you, this makes me a bit suspicious."

"It's just…Chloe and I are officially girlfriends." Beca was unable to keep it in.

"Oh God, finally!" Fat Amy rolled her eyes. "You two were moving so slow the other girls were placing bets on how long it would take before you made it official. And looks like I just made ten dollars." She started fist bumping. "Suck it, Legacy!"

"I'm so happy I'm not even going to think about the fact that my friends were betting on my love life." Beca said, grabbing her pajamas and going to the closet to change. "Think you'll be okay by yourself for tonight?"

"Are you and ginger going to get it on?" Fat Amy asked, interested. "Because, you see, that's another bet…"

"Not letting it bother me!" Beca sang. "But no, we are just spending the night together in a really nauseatingly cute way."

"So…you're going to fall asleep there?" Fat Amy asked slowly.

"Keep up, Amy." Beca said, grabbing her charger and toiletries. "That's kinda what I've been trying to say."

"So…does Red know about…ya know…" Fat Amy said cautiously.

"About what?" Beca asked, worried about the serious look on Amy's face.

"You know, your nightmares." Fat Amy said.

"Oh, those." Beca said dismissively. "I mean, I haven't woken you up in a while, have I?" Beca asked.

"So, have you stopped having them?"

"Pretty much." Beca lied. Truth was she was having them about once a week; they just were fortunately not waking up her roommate anymore.

"You should probably tell Chloe about them just in case." Fat Amy suggested.

"Probably." Beca agreed, although she knew she was going to do no such thing. She couldn't let Chloe know about the nightmares. After how long it had taken her and Chloe to finally get together…what if she scared the girl off? What if this was too much baggage for her? No, Beca would just fight to keep them together tonight. She was sure she could do it.

It was just a matter of controlling herself, right?

(Break)

"Lucky you get your own room, huh?" Beca asked Chloe as they were laying together on her bed. Since Chloe was the oldest member of the group, it was decided that she could have her own room.

"Sometimes I wish I had someone to share it with." Chloe admitted. She grinned. "Maybe if this goes well, you can have a sleepover here more often.

"I'd love that." Beca gushed.

"Want to put on a show?" Chloe asked. "I know you don't like movies…"

"I can do shows. They're shorter so I can deal with them better." Beca laughed. "I mostly like stupid reality shows, especially if it's people acting like idiots."

"I. Have. The perfect show to watch." Chloe gasped and typed at her laptop. "Have you ever heard of the show Paris Hilton's My New BFF?"

"I'm sorry, what?" Beca asked as the theme music started playing.

"It's basically The Bachelor except…Paris Hilton is looking for a BFF."

"This cannot be a real show." Beca insisted but the episode continued playing. "Oh my God."

The girls cuddled up and before they knew it, they were five episodes in and painfully invested in whatever poor soul won the "prize" of being Paris Hilton's best friend.

"Beca?" Chloe asked, pausing the episode before it could start.

"Just one more episode. I need this Brittany chick to win, I love her!"

"Beca, it's one in the morning. We should go to bed." Chloe insisted. "Don't you have class at, like, 8?"

"Fine, fine." Beca grumbled and got under the covers. Chloe did the same then turned to her.

"Hey, Beca."

"What?" Beca turned towards her as well. Chloe quickly kissed Beca.

"Good night, beautiful."

Beca smiled. "Nah, you're the beautiful one. And I'm so happy I can call you my girlfriend now."

(Break)

Beca started to sense that something was wrong almost immediately. She wished she hadn't believed Peter when he said they were just going to his room to make out but, hey, it was her first college party, and she was a bit drunk. Not a crime. Beca decided to be upfront.

"Hey, Peter." She called out. No response, in fact Peter took that opportunity to stick his hand down her pants. "Hey, no! Peter!"

Peter finally looked up. "What the fuck are you going on about?"

"Get your goddamn hand out of my pants." The brunette snapped.

"Why are you being such a prude?" Peter asked and started to unbuckle his belt. Beca just stared in shock, was this really fucking happening? Did he really think-?

"You know what, I'm going to go." Beca tried to get up but everything was a little dizzy. Shit. She was more drunk than she had thought. Peter laughed and pushed her back on the bed.

"No, I saw you staring at me all night. I know you want this." He said, pulling his pants off. Beca laid frozen in fear.

"I'll scream." Beca warned him. Peter laughed.

"They won't hear shit over the music, baby." Peter pointed out. "Now why don't you be a good girl and get your fucking pants off?"

"Beca! Beca!" Beca stopped thrashing when she heard Chloe's voice.

"Chloe?" Beca asked as tears started to fall down her face. "Chloe was I…?"

"Baby, you were screaming in your sleep." Beca could hear the fear in Chloe's voice. Oh God. Was she judging her? Was this too much baggage for her to handle? Was this it?

"Oh, yeah, that." Beca tried to downplay it. "I was just…I guess sometimes I have nightmares but not often…this was just a freak thing…"

"Who's Peter?" Chloe asked and Beca froze.

"I…I don't know." She lied but the tears continued to fall as Beca started to shake. Chloe could tell she was lying.

"You don't have to tell me anything you don't want to." Chloe assured Beca. "But if someone hurt you-"

"There's nothing you can do!" Beca chocked out as her tears turned into sobs. "Nothing, it's too late, I lost the opportunity because I was scared and it's too late…" Beca's sobs turned into hyperventilating.

"Come here." Chloe whispered and gestured for Beca to sit in her lap. Chloe rubbed her back while Beca shook. "Shh…shh…shh…it's okay, it's okay."

"It…w-was my freshman year…" Beca struggled to choak out. "I-I was at a party that someone in my c-class invited me to. I didn't know…anyone so I was nervous, so I drank a lot and Peter was so charming and I thought-I thought we were just going to talk and make out but…" Beca buried her face into Chloe's shoulder.

"You don't have to finish if…" Chloe assured her.

"No. I want to. I need to." Beca insisted. "He took me upstairs and the fucker…the mother fucking cock sucking son of a bitch fucking raped me." Beca chocked out angrily. "And I couldn't turn him in because he told me all his friends would get me if I did and I believed him because he was popular and a football player and all that bullshit, so he just got away with that shit." Beca was furious. "He got away with all of it, and here I am, fucking three years later still having nightmares because of that…that fucking…"

"Baby dick shit head?" Chloe suggested. Beca paused for a second and then laughed despite herself.

"Yeah. Yeah. Exactly." Beca and Chloe laughed for a moment.

"Honey, I'm so sorry that happened to you." Chloe told her, pulling her into a hug. "The nightmares don't bother me though, I promise. You can wake up screaming every night, and I will just hold you until you fall back asleep. You are stronger than this fucker and you can get through it."

Beca looked up in surprise. "So, you're not like freaked out? You don't want to leave me now?"

Chloe smiled. "It'll take a whole lot more than this for me to leave my amazing girlfriend." She gave her a quick kiss. "Do you want some water?" Chloe asked.

Beca realized she did feel thirsty, so she nodded. Chloe left for a minute then returned with a bottle of water. Beca drank it quickly.

"How do you feel?" Chloe asked.

"Tired." Beca admitted.

"How about…" Chloe smiled. "How about I hold you while you fall asleep?"

Beca sighed. "I could really loose my cool rep if it gets around that I cuddled."

"Um, I think it will go up if you say you cuddled all night with a hot older woman." Chloe said slyly.

Beca shrugged and got into bed. Chloe got in bed next to her and wrapped her arms around her.

"Do you feel safe?" Chloe asked.

"I do now." Beca agreed.

"In the morning we should talk about maybe finding a person for you to talk about this with." Chloe suggested.

Beca sighed. "That's not a terrible idea."

"It won't be like this forever." Chloe promised her.

"I hope not." Beca sighed. Chloe gave her a tight squeeze.

"Oh, and Beca?"

"Yes?"

"If I ever see that guy who did this to you, I'm going to cut off his balls and put them in a blender." Chloe promised.

Beca laughed. "That's my slightly insane but totally hot girlfriend."

Chloe gave her girlfriend a kiss on the back of her head and both girls cuddled together until they fell asleep.