A/N: I don't own Harry Potter or any other related characters.
This is for the QLFC round 4
Ballycastle Bats Keeper
Prompt: Asylum
Warning: mentions of murder, insanity, being locked away
Word Count: 1131
I'm not crazy, not mad.
Things happen around me,
things I can't explain.
The glass disappeared.
The jumper shrunk.
My hair grew back overnight.
Nothing explains these things,
nothing explains the strange dreams
I have at night.
The flying motorcycle,
the flash of green light.
Cars don't have green headlights.
Mum and Dad died in a car crash.
That's what I've been told.
I'm not crazy, not insane.
The letters keep showing,
and showing,
proving something more.
There are no letters they claim,
only blips in my mind,
only delusions.
The door flies open and he appears.
Built like a mountain,
bearded and tall,
with strong arms he whisks me away.
I'm not insane, not crazy,
they want me to confess,
want me to lie.
There's doors here, doors with locks.
I've a roommate now,
Ron who is also not mad.
He knows all the secrets of this place,
he knows who to trust, the right words
to say.
I'll never admit I'm crazy,
never tell them I'm mad.
It's all lies and she's helping them.
Correcting every little word
Ron and I say, she's a nightmare,
honestly.
The correct name for the pills is this,
not that, take them or lose privileges.
I do as I'm told, but I know I don't belong here.
I don't belong behind these locked doors,
behind these barred windows.
I'm not crazy, insane!
I'm a wizard, I scream and scream.
There's a word for what I can do,
there's a word for all the strange things
that happen around me.
Magic!
"I'm magic!" I want to scream from the top of my lungs.
I want them to know they're all wrong.
My aunt and uncle are wrong!
They're the ones who arranged for me
to be locked away.
I'm not mad. I'm not crazy!
This is a mistake and once they see,
I'll be allowed outside once again,
I'll be sent to a special school where
I will be seen as a savior, as
the Boy Who Lived! For I have lived
and I will survive this
attempt to destroy me!
I'm not crazy...
I'm not mad...
There was snake in the pipes,
I swear it was true.
A slithering snake with thick yellow fangs,
with glowing eyes.
Why won't someone believe me!
I didn't do it! I didn't hurt Ginny!
Please, it was the snake, the snake!
I'm not crazy, mad.
Locked away, padded room,
a danger to myself.
I keep hearing their whispers,
they say I controlled the snake,
that the snake was me.
They say I did it, I killed Ginny,
but I saved her! I saved her, don't they realize
the truth?
I'm not mad, insane, crazy.
There's a black dog following me now.
Down the halls, it's following me.
There's a werewolf howling, howling
in the night.
"All in my head," they keep telling me,
but they're wrong. It's real!
He's come to save me, to break
me free of this Muggle prison.
I'm not crazy, insane.
The new teacher is a Death Eater!
I can see through his disguise!
He used unforgivable curses on
us here, he's making us do things
against our wills!
I know the truth that no one else sees!
I know who he is!
I'm not mad, insane,
slowly things start to fall apart.
The best laid plans, everything
breaks, the center cannot hold
as I'm dragged away to the small room,
the padded room beneath the stairs.
Lightning flashes and images fly before
my eyes.
I'm not crazy, insane,
they think I'm cured, that I no longer believe.
I'll never admit to them, their lightning did nothing,
their pills can not make me forget the truth.
He's coming, he'll arrive and everyone, everyone
will realize I was right all along!
I'm not crazy, mad, insane.
I'm the only one who knows the truth.
They're dead, all dead, things went wrong,
but, but I know! He's back now, he's coming
for me! Locked away with the key vanished,
he will find me!
I'm the only one who can defeat him,
defeat the Dark Lord.
They can lock me away, throw me away
but it will happen, the prophecy
says so.
I'm not crazy, mad.
I know the darkest of things.
His soul's been split,
pieces of him torn asunder
pieces of him that need to be destroyed
before the whole can follow.
Piece by piece I search,
a stolen locket here,
an altered cup there.
Breaking into office after office,
they think I'm a lost cause,
but I will show them!
I will defeat him and save
the world!
I'm not crazy, insane,
locked away from the world,
the world that needs me more than
ever before.
I've destroyed them, one by one.
I've broken them one by one,
confronting the demons hiding inside.
The demons that make me
question if my quest is true.
I'm not mad, insane!
I've done it, destroyed the horcruxes,
the fragments of his broken soul.
The cup is gone.
The crown is demolished.
The snake is slaughtered.
The locket is crushed.
The diary, the diary I retrieved from
Ginny's possessions, the reason she died,
is mine!
I'm not crazy, insane.
I've kept up and done everything I needed to do.
I've found the ring, broke its ebony stone.
He should fall now, I've taken everything,
save the one small piece he still possesses.
My heart pounding as I destroy him,
falling into death myself,
I was the last piece, the accidental
splitting of his soul!
I'm not crazy, mad, insane,
I was him and he was me.
A link we shared now severed.
A link where there should have never been.
Spiraling, spiraling, I sink down, down, down.
Things change, shift, no longer making sense.
I've won haven't I? Haven't I?
I'm not crazy, insane,
these delusions fade slightly
the walls are no longer stone.
The stairs don't move on their own,
it's nothing but a trick of the light,
a boy longing to escape a home
where he is broken and bruised.
I'm not...
I am mad, insane,
broken from a young age,
slowly putting the pieces back together,
slowly admitting the truth.
Nothing I've confessed is real,
just illusions in my head, just
the mind's way of coping with something
it can't comprehend as slowly,
slowly, I fall into line.
I am crazy, insane.
They were right to have me taken away.
They were right to have me locked away.
I'm not special, my parents died in a car crash.
The dreams are nothing but dreams,
and the owl sitting outside my window,
with snowy white feathers,
she is nothing save a wild creature I
have come to add to my wildest dreams,
the story my mind created in hopes
of finding healing, of finding hope.
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