Here an other Depressed!Ichigo/Yandere!Kisuke fic !
There is slight grooming, but not really in the story, Kidnapping and stockholm syndrome are silent tags, everyone is bit an asshole to Ichigo and the poor guy just takes it .
Hold Me Tight
- Chapter 1 -
Ichigo thought .. He really thought for the first five minutes he would be okay without his powers, that he will get used to it in no time and everything will fall back into it's place .
How horribly wrong he was .
Not even a week his friends became strangers to him .
They don't really talk to him about hollows, or the shinigami's that they see .. Hell Rukia or Renji did not even visit in the gigai he has to hear from others how they are doing if they don't notice him first .
They stopped hanging out after a few months, Ichigo did not really notice at first he has to catch up his school work and he tries to help Yuzu around the house because Karin doesn't bother being at home anymore .
He has a feeling where she could be .. And it hurts .
So when he did notice he has not hang out with his friends for a long time, he looked hurt when they told him they already had plans or whatever came up . He did notice Mizuiro and Keigo did try to take him with them a few times, he also notice Tatsuki giving him a death glare, or stomping Keigo's foot as he tries to greet him . Ichigo deep in his heart doesn't want his friends to fight so he distant himself from them, and before he knows it he was truly alone and the light starts to blur into a darkness around him .
He visits his mom resting place more and more ..
He doesn't really notice ..
He doesn't really notice the numbness, the cold or the rain harshly on his back ..
He did not even notice the hunger as he did get up and go home .
His father said nothing acting like everything is fine, and Ichigo will be okay .
Yuzu was worried but kept her mouth shut as Karin ignores what is happening .
He did not notice he barely spoke, if so it is nothing but a whisper, his scowl is not even on his face, neither is a smile or any other emotion .
8 months later from the winter war Karin snapped .
"Can you stop being so pathetic !" She shouted as she slams her rice bowl against the table .
The bowl cracked harshly as a dent appears on the wooden table .
"Karin !" Yuzu shouted back as she stood up to defend her brother ."No Yuzu ! It has to stop he has to stop being so .." But a look from her father made her mouth shut but Ichigo asked her anyway ."So what Karin ?" He asked as he looked up from his food .
"So worthless ." She hissed .
That hurts ..
Stings ..
His stomach makes turns ..
He wanted to cry and scream, apologize to her, to Yuzu, maybe to his father who looked lost himself .
But all he did was sigh and say ."Okay .." As he stood up not even bothering to finish eating, grabbing his school bag and left the house .
Before he even left shouting and fighting could be heard, his neighbour who was also just outside looked in surprise at the noise .
"Everything there okay child ?"
But she did not get an answer as Ichigo just walked away .
He did not go to school ..
He just walked to his mother's resting place, the only place he can be left alone .
The place where he should have died ..
Ichigo wonders why his mother never taken him with her .
Did she love him less ?
Did she wanted to be away from him also ?
Like his friends .. Family ?
The water infront of him looked so peaceful ..
Like it was calling him ..
Telling him he will be okay he gets in ..
Ichigo did not notice and he did not care when he did, as water surrounds him, filling his lungs more and more .
The water pulled him deeper and deeper ..
The suffocating was very welcoming, lulling him to sleep ..
He did wish he did not say his mother's crying face in his mind, when his vision starts to get black spots .
I'm sorry mom ...
Steady hands grabbed him under his arms and suddenly he got pulled up .
The air was cold and his lungs hurt from the fresh air .
He tried to spot the person who was holding him, but all he got was that he will be okay and then darkness swolled him whole .
Later he wakes up in a bed .
But it was not his room ..
The room looked nice and comfy .. But he knows he was nowhere familiar .
"Ah you are awake ." Ichigo looked at the person he did not see for an enter year .
"Urahara-san ?"
"Well hello there you really givin me a fright you know ." The man smiled it was gentle but it did not reach his eyes .
"Wha .. What happend ." But all Urahara did was give him a cup of thee, it was soothing and warm as it filled his chest with comfort .
"You can't leave me Kurosaki-kun .." Urahara said .
Ichigo looked up from the steamy cup ."You can't leave me .. Dying like that what where you thinking .."
"I .." Ichigo knows he was not thinking, Urahara knows that aswell the man was smart so how can Ichigo answer him .
"I waited for so long .. I planned things for .. For us for so long and you .." The man looked hurt and angry as he stared at Ichigo with intense eyes .
"I don't understand ."
"You don't get to leave me, I will hunt you down, I will make you stay .." Urahara leans close to him ."Please Ichigo .." The sudden name change give Ichigo a shiver, or was it that Urahara was so close that they could almost .. Kiss ?
"I need you stay with me or else I will become mad .."
"But I am worthless ."
"Who said that ."
Ichigo does not want to out his sister, not if Urahara looks like he could kill someone ."No matter .." The man sighs as he grabbed the cup and put it on the nightstand ."You are not worthless not to me, you are everything I wanted to have .. To own .." He pushed Ichigo on his back, as he sat on top of him .
"I need you Ichigo .. So don't leave me okay .."
"I .."
"I love you ."
As he leaned down and kissed Ichigo .
The boy's mind finally snapped at the words and the kiss, that makes him feel light headed, he felt hot and his whole mind went empty .
I will stay ...
(5 months later)
"I am really sorry Kurosaki-san I am sure he will be found ." Urahara said as he sipped his tea, with Kurosaki Isshin in the living room .
"I hope so .. I have not been a good father to him .. And now .. Karin still looks for him, Yuzu is so thin .. I can barely sleep .." The man did look tired, he looked barely alive, pale and dark circles under his eyes .
"And all that they found was his school bag in the river ?" He asked the fan and the hat covering his face, Isshin can't see the face he was making .
How the man was smiling the whole time, enjoying the hurt they feel ..
They deserve it after what they have done ..
"Yes .. But they did not found a body, and even if he died his soul is nowhere to found !"
Urahara was silent not saying a word, and Isshin aswell became silent .
As the man left he left as a broken man .
But Urahara felt being reborn as a stronger man .
A year has passed
Ichigo's death anniversary came and went, Urahara stood as a silent figure in the background, and he left before anyone saw him go .
But he did not go to the shop, it was closed for the day anyway .
No he went to his new home .
And as he went in the silence welcomes him, but he knows where the other was .
He smilled as he saw his beloved sleeping soundly in their bed, holding a pillow in his arms as he slept soundly .
Urahara took off his clothes quietly and slip under the sheets, holding the other's warm body close to him .
"Kisuke ?" A sleepy voice spoke as brown eyes slowly opens ."Go back to sleep love ."
"Okay .." And those eyes closed again but pushed his back more against Urahara's chest .
And those moments made Urahara feel more .. Human he suppose well either way ..
No matter what happens, I will hold you tight never let you go ..
You will stay with me .. Forever .
Right Ichigo-kun ?