p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;"Dear Nanase Riku,/p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;" I often wonder how you are doing. You didn't seem too well at IDOLiSH7's last concert. Did you get an asthma attack? Are you okay?br /I'm sorry that I'm asking you this many questions. It's really ironic, isn't it? I left you and yet I still am worried about you. span style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-weight: inherit; font-style: oblique; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: inherit; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;"It really is ironic.../span/p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;" "Do you ever hate me for going with Kujo?" I wonder that sometimes. I remember that day, you were crying and begging me not to go with Kujo. Despite that, I still went with him. How many nights did you spend crying for me? How many nights did you spend thinking about how I had left you for real?/p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;"strong style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-style: inherit; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: inherit; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" I'm sorry./strong/p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;" At the time, I thought that if I left, you would stop being so dependant on me. If I left and became an idol, I thought that you would too. Although, I'm glad that you strong style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-style: inherit; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: inherit; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;"did/strong become an idol and that you stopped being dependant on me, was... me leaving necessary? I often wonder if it really was. Should I have stayed with you instead? I'm often jealous of the IDOLiSH7 members. They have the chance to watch you grow as if you were their younger brother. span style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-weight: inherit; font-style: oblique; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: inherit; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;"I'm really jealous of them. /spanIt's really funny, right?/p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;" "If I stayed with you, I would have watched you grow too."/p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;"span style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-weight: inherit; font-style: oblique; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: inherit; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" Was it really a bad thing that I didn't listen to you and left with Kujo? /spanI always think about how you would be doing if I were still with you. What thing would we be doing? What would we talk about? We would spend so much time together./p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;" I often find myself thinking about the past. That wooden statue you put in my room once. I remember you being so happy because we were matching. One time I made you pancakes and burned my finger. It hurt a lot, but once I saw how much you were enjoying them, the pain went away. I remember when it snowed, I would make you a lot of snowmen and line them outside of your window since you couldn't play with me. Dad once gave me a used digital camera to play around with. I took many pictures of you on that camera. Believe it or not, I still have the digital copies of them. I look at them when I start to miss you a whole bunch, which happens a lot more often than you would think. I remember the girls at school always giving me two boxes of chocolates for Valentine's Day. They always said, "One is for you, and the other one is for Riku-kun since he is at the hospital!" I never gave you the chocolate because I was worried it would trigger an attack./p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;" Even though I think about how it would be if we were still together, but if I hadn't left, I wouldn't have been able to meet Ryunosuke nor Gaku. Who knows if TRIGGER would even exist. If I hadn't left, you would not have met IDOLiSH7. You wouldn't have even considered being an Idol. That's why I don't regret leaving at all. /p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;" Nanase Riku, I know I have hurt your feelings multiple times. I'm sorry for that. I've told you that we weren't family anymore and yet, I still want to think of you as strong style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-style: inherit; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: inherit; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;"my/strong family. I still want to be your older brother, but it's impossible. I know you'll never be able to read this, but I hope one day, we will be able to talk without any problems or misunderstandings. And when that day comes, I'll certainly be truly happy./p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;" align="right" Sincerely, Tenn./p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;" I often wonder how you are doing. You didn't seem too well at IDOLiSH7's last concert. Did you get an asthma attack? Are you okay?br /I'm sorry that I'm asking you this many questions. It's really ironic, isn't it? I left you and yet I still am worried about you. span style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-weight: inherit; font-style: oblique; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: inherit; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;"It really is ironic.../span/p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;" "Do you ever hate me for going with Kujo?" I wonder that sometimes. I remember that day, you were crying and begging me not to go with Kujo. Despite that, I still went with him. How many nights did you spend crying for me? How many nights did you spend thinking about how I had left you for real?/p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;"strong style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-style: inherit; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: inherit; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" I'm sorry./strong/p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;" At the time, I thought that if I left, you would stop being so dependant on me. If I left and became an idol, I thought that you would too. Although, I'm glad that you strong style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-style: inherit; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: inherit; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;"did/strong become an idol and that you stopped being dependant on me, was... me leaving necessary? I often wonder if it really was. Should I have stayed with you instead? I'm often jealous of the IDOLiSH7 members. They have the chance to watch you grow as if you were their younger brother. span style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-weight: inherit; font-style: oblique; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: inherit; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;"I'm really jealous of them. /spanIt's really funny, right?/p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;" "If I stayed with you, I would have watched you grow too."/p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;"span style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-weight: inherit; font-style: oblique; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: inherit; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;" Was it really a bad thing that I didn't listen to you and left with Kujo? /spanI always think about how you would be doing if I were still with you. What thing would we be doing? What would we talk about? We would spend so much time together./p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;" I often find myself thinking about the past. That wooden statue you put in my room once. I remember you being so happy because we were matching. One time I made you pancakes and burned my finger. It hurt a lot, but once I saw how much you were enjoying them, the pain went away. I remember when it snowed, I would make you a lot of snowmen and line them outside of your window since you couldn't play with me. Dad once gave me a used digital camera to play around with. I took many pictures of you on that camera. Believe it or not, I still have the digital copies of them. I look at them when I start to miss you a whole bunch, which happens a lot more often than you would think. I remember the girls at school always giving me two boxes of chocolates for Valentine's Day. They always said, "One is for you, and the other one is for Riku-kun since he is at the hospital!" I never gave you the chocolate because I was worried it would trigger an attack./p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;" Even though I think about how it would be if we were still together, but if I hadn't left, I wouldn't have been able to meet Ryunosuke nor Gaku. Who knows if TRIGGER would even exist. If I hadn't left, you would not have met IDOLiSH7. You wouldn't have even considered being an Idol. That's why I don't regret leaving at all. /p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;" Nanase Riku, I know I have hurt your feelings multiple times. I'm sorry for that. I've told you that we weren't family anymore and yet, I still want to think of you as strong style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-style: inherit; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: inherit; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 0px; padding: 0px;"my/strong family. I still want to be your older brother, but it's impossible. I know you'll never be able to read this, but I hope one day, we will be able to talk without any problems or misunderstandings. And when that day comes, I'll certainly be truly happy./p
p style="border: 0px; outline: 0px; font-size: 15.12px; font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; vertical-align: baseline; list-style: none; margin: 1.286em auto; padding: 0px; line-height: 1.5; color: #2a2a2a;" align="right" Sincerely, Tenn./p