Soulmate AU - Rate: T

Summary: Since the time he realized they didn't share soul marks, he felt disappointed.

He was 12 years when the so-called soul mark appeared on his palm, a medium-sized and messy cross that looked like a healed deep wound

At first, he couldn't care less even if he tried, for him, relationships and commitment had the lowest priority in his life right now, he was still young and free after all

He didn't want to waste his time chasing someone who probably didn't meet yet, let alone wasting it in a relationship, he didn't even understand why people would go along with it, it felt so wrong, but he couldn't point out why

- What happened to your hand, Eren? Did you get into a fight again? - Once she saw him looking sternly at his hand for too long, she reached it, taking it with her own soft ones, tracing the digits of her fingers along the mark

He pushed them away before they could get a reaction of him, a bashful expression embodied in his face - It's supposed to be my "soul mark"- Not bothering in elaborate more, he closed his hand into a fist and started with his lunch

- Oh - She said, retreating her hands to her lap - That's actually great, congratulations - a soft smile directed at him this time - I hope I get my own mark soon -

- I hope not - The thought took his mind before he actually acknowledges it, wondering why

- Yeah, thanks - Was the last thing he said before the conversation eventually died.

-Eren! look!- she said with happiness only seen when they went to the beach for the first time together, (along with Armin of course) showing him her wrist -Pretty, isn't it?-

-Yeah, it looks good on you-

-Thank you- there it is again, the smile that always caught him off guard -I can't wait to meet him-

They were 15 years old when she finally got her own soul mark, a little A encircled and made out of swords

It was the same time he realized why it felt so wrong, it was the time he realized his feelings for her and the time he realized that the fucking life itself will at some point take her away from him, and he couldn't do anything about it

Getting together with someone else than the one you shared a mark with was forbidden and deemed selfish since the other half that never gets together with their fated partner is sentenced to a lonely life that most of the time doesn't end so well

He felt bad for that, he really did, he didn't want to harm people at all, but he couldn't do it, he couldn't live a life he didn't want with someone he didn't know at all just because of fate or a higher being or whatever you believe in, that goes against the freedom he always defended

But at the same time, he can't bring himself to be selfish, at least not selfish enough to make Mikasa take the hard path along with him, not when she's happy with it after all

And so he decided to forget it, to bury deep within him the feelings of sorrow and disappointment he felt when he realized they weren't mean to be together and the feelings he held for her

Or at least, that was the plan

It was when he became 17 years old when everything went downhill

Well actually, it was a year ago that everything went downhill since that was the time where Mikasa finally met her soulmate, a jerk with shit-colored hair and a smug grin that wants to punch so fucking much

Not that he really tried to because he avoided them as soon as he saw that he got the same mark as her

Ever since then things have been awkward, now they don't meet as much as before, the long conversations they used to have now ends in 5 sentences at most, and it just doesn't feel right to be with her now that his hearts burns every time he sees them interact

It was on his 17th birthday when she finally had enough

-What the fuck is your problem, Eren?- She said with a harsh and loud voice that practically sends little bolts of electricity through his spine, things get nasty when she had to swear, it's even worse when he was the reason why

-The hell are you talking about?- He tried his best to play it cool, but knowing her she wouldn't buy it at all - As I see it you are the only one with a problem here, since you are yelling and all-

-That's because of you, idiot- Now with her finger pointed at him she hit his chest -You are acting so fucking weird that it makes wonder if you are getting insane-

-I'm mentally good if that's what is bothering you- Great, now he's sweating, he had to end this conversation now -Now if you exc-

-I already know that- She cut him immediately, not giving him any chance of retort -What I don't know is why do you avoid me like the plague, why don't you acknowledge my existence even when I am literally in front of you or why you didn't even look in my direction when I handed you your gift, so explain, what's wrong with you?-

The silence was the only thing that filled the air, the music and the voices of the people very far away

-Did I do something that bothered you?- She asked again, now with a lower voice

-No- He answered way quicker than he intended

-Then what is it? Why are you acting like this, ever since that he appeared you...- Now she cut herself, and he was able to see how the gears in her made connected all the dots

-What did he do to you?-

-Nothing- Now he really had to get out of this conversation

-You can't fool me, Eren, I already know what is happening, so spit it out, now.-

-He didn't do anything! I swear! - Now his fingernails practically bleed his fists by the sheer force he is putting on them, not knowing how much pressure he could stand

-We are not getting anywhere unless you tell me what is wrong! So you better explain-

-You don't want to know it, Mikasa, trust me- He could feel how hot his face feels right

-Try me-

Another silence filled the room, this time a little bit short

-Ere-

-I love you- He spat out simply - Ever since we met that day when your family moved into my neighborhood I did fall in love with you- His breathing was becoming harder and faster - And just for that, I thought we were mean to be together, that we were soulmates - by the time he finished that line little tears made their way through his face - But I was so wrong, so, so fucking wrong that it hurts, you know?- his voice trembling with hurt and anger by now - And now that you are with him... I just couldn't stand even looking at you, I'm sorry-

Now it was her turn to be speechless, not believing what he was telling her, there was no way, it was just impossible to fall in love with someone else besides your fated partner

-You are just confused, that's all- Breathing in and out, she said calmly -It's not possible to be able to love someone that doesn't share your soul mark, you should already know that-

- Yes, I'm aware - With his hand, he erased the tears on his face - But I can't help it, okay? You were always there for me, for bad or worse, how do you expect me not to like you? - He let out a chuckle at his supposed-to-be joke - Sometimes you know me better than I do, and by the time I knew you better I thought that there was never going to be someone who could hold a single candle against you, not even the one that shares my mark-

- ... Why didn't you say anything about that before? - She asked, actually curious about all of this

- Because I knew nothing would change even if I did - New tears threatened to form in the corners of his eyes, he lowered his face - Because things would become unnecessarily awkward between us if I did, so I tried to forget it to remain being friends, but you know, it didn't work-

-I-i see...- She stuttered out with eyes a little bit wide, trying to process all the information -I-I'm sorry but, I really have to go-

-Wait- He wanted to say, but the sudden smack of the door closing cut him off, making him regret ever saying anything about being in love with her

- Maybe in the next life -Was the only thing he said to himself before feeling like crying until he fell asleep

It was 2 weeks after his birthday that they met again, once again in his house where it took place his birthday party

-I'm sorry for leaving like that... it was not ok...- She started saying in a soft tone and a guilty face, sitting in one of the seats that offer his dinner table, one hand over the other one

-Don't worry about it - he said awkwardly, not believing they are having this conversation - Leaving that aside... What brings you here?-

- I... I just thought that since you were honest enough to tell all those things back then... Maybe I could do the same as well-

He had to swallow the thick drool that was accumulating in his mouth at this, not knowing what is going to happen

- I'm not gonna lie to you, the thought of us being together as a couple has never crossed my mind, not when we got different marks and all that...-

Well, that hurt, very very much, but hey, at least now that he knows this he probably could get the resolve to move on

- I don't really know how can you love me or why did it happen in the first place, all this "soulmates" deal has always been a mystery for us- Breathing in and out, she decided to lock eyes with him -But if there is something that I know... Is that I wasn't happy at the time we were separated, not even when he was with me-

-...Huh?- He didn't want to get his hopes up, that was the last thing he needed right now, but right now he couldn't help it, because right now his heart started to go faster

- By the time you started avoiding me you never left my head, I always thought about what happened to us, why were you behaving like that, or why couldn't things be the way they were back when we were little kids, and no matter how much I tried to forget about it... It never worked, not even when he tried to help me-

Great, now he feels guilty, he tends to forget that she, like any other person, has feelings too

Still, there's something that caught his attention

-Not even when he tried to help you? What do you mean? I know that it could be hard but, it was not impossible to move on...-

-Yeah, I know, but it just didn't work, you know? - Now feeling bolder, she reached for his hand through the table, giving it a squeeze - What I'm trying to say is that... Maybe I got feelings for you too, but I just didn't realize them until now...-

No fucking way

- W-what!? How!? I mean, I'm happy as hell right now but, the marks and all that shit...- He said almost not being able to let out what he tried to say, too shocked with surprise

- I don't know, you tell me, you are the one that never was in love with his fated one for me after all- In a teasing matter she said, chuckling because of his reaction

Oh yeah, that's right, there are still things to clarify

- What about him though, like, does he know about this? Is he mad at you? - Here it goes the insecurity again

- Yeah, he knows... He was mad about it at first but, then he realized he couldn't do anything about it- She said finally with a soothing voice

Yeah, that's everything he needs to know right now

- So... Is it ok if I try to kiss you right now then...?- Leaving his seat, he reached her

- I wouldn't expect less from you, Eren~-

Before his mind could process what she said, he literally attacked her mouth with his own with a hunger a desire never seen before...

I'm very sure that this is not supposed how a Soulmate AU should usually go, but since I can do whatever a want because I'm FREE I decided to do a little twist to this first day of the EreMika Week

Also, I would like to say that English is not my mother language, so If you could point out which parts don't make sense or are messed up I would appreciate it

Funny Fact: I wrote this a day before chap 139 was leaked, and now that I see this again, It looks like I made a fic about Eren dealing with Mikasa having someone else, like in the actual manga, lmao

Anyways, see you tomorrow at the Royal AU