Chapter 1

Amanda Rollins was tough and she had been on her own since she was 14. She lived in Loganville, Georgia with her father Jim and mother Beth. Her father drank and gambled and would often come home when he lost and beat her mother. He never touched her though. Beth started doing heavy drugs and hated Amanda, because she didn't know how to handle her behavior. Amanda was smart and always did well on tests, but her home life caused her to act out and she was very undisciplined. She did what she wanted whenever she wanted.

Her father lost one night and lost big. The bookie, Hunter broke into their home, no one was there except Amanda. "Well, well, well they left you all alone." Amanda was in her bedroom and he pushed her on the bed. "Your dad owes me and I think I want you." Amanda didn't have fear and that wasn't a good thing. She looked him in the eye, "Then do what you came to do!" Amanda didn't care, her life was always fucked up. She didn't care what happened to her. Hunter laughed and got up to leave, "You know I can help. I learned from my dad, but I'm smarter and I'm not a drunk."

Amanda explained she could start taking bets with the rich kids at school. She would pay what her dad owed, but after that she wanted her cut. She made money, plenty of it. She left Georgia as soon as she had enough money. She paid her parents to sign over custody, it didn't take much, they didn't want her anyway. She left for New York. Her father had a sister named Kim Rollins, she was a drunk and did drugs, but all Amanda needed was a place to lay her head. "Aunt Kim, I need you straight enough to get me registered for school tomorrow." Amanda made her own and went to school from that point on.

She found a bookie and ran the same scheme. The NYPD had a program for teenagers in high school who wanted to be police officers. Her and her boyfriend, Dominick were both in the program. She thought it was true love and even lost her virginity to him. When she caught him fucking a cheerleader under the bleachers, she beat the shit out of both of them. It cost a week suspension and she was put out of the program.

Amanda stopped caring about friendships or relationships altogether. She finished high school and put herself through college majoring in forensic science and even had money saved. She kept legal from that point on. She finished Hudson University and enrolled in the police academy. She was smart, but when they would yell at her, she would lose it. She ended up running a lot of laps and doing a lot of push ups. Having a mouth costs her big time, but it also made her strong.

A month into the academy they had a guest speaker. The candidates were in a single file line and Amanda was the only one falling out. Rollins! Attention!" The line moved without her and she was looking eye to eye with her commanding officer getting her ass chewed out, when this tall brunette with shoulder length hair walked by. "Do you have a problem Rollins! Eyes front!" Sergeant Olivia Benson looked back and made eye contact, but opened the door to keep going.

When Amanda finally finished being yelled at she entered the auditorium to hear the speaker. Olivia hadn't started yet and smirked as Amanda had to sit all the way up front. Amanda made a mistake, she rolled her eyes at Olivia. Amanda never looked like she was even paying attention. Once Olivia was done, she quietly asked the Detective for a room to speak to the blonde.

Elliot Stabler worked with Olivia a long time ago in SVU. He was her partner, but he just wanted something else. He smiled, "Hey Liv! Oh Amanda Rollins! What did she do?" Olivia smirked, "Want to fill me in?" Stabler shook his head, "Smart. Really smart, aced every exam. Also a smart ass. She was strong when she came, but her wise ass mouth made her stronger. You know Detective Beck right?" Olivia did know her, but never liked her though, "Yeah!" Elliot laughed, "Amanda knows just how to get under her skin. Beck was pissed and tried to take her in a..." Elliot held his fingers in quotes "training exercise", "Amanda lit her up. She's tough, but under that toughness, something is going on."

Olivia shook her head, "Bring her in here." Elliot brought her in barking orders, "Thank you detective. I've got it from here." Amanda was never scared, but something about Sergeant Benson made her nervous. "Attention!" Rollins moved and swallowed hard. "Why did you roll your eyes at me?" Amanda simply said, "Because I felt like it." Elliot moved to light her up again, but Olivia held her hand up, "Ok! I feel like watching you wall sit."

Elliot knew what was happening. Amanda was about to break. They didn't do that exercise anymore. It was a strain on your entire body and was made more for punishment, not working out. "I don't know what that is." Olivia smirked, "Put your back flat against the wall and sit. They told me you were smart. Funny, I don't see it."

Amanda got pissed and quickly did it and proceeded to stare Olivia down. "Attention!" Olivia moved to her face, "Eyes front! Wall sit!" Amanda sat. 10 seconds passed. "Attention!" That forced Amanda to have to jump up from the position. "Wall sit!" Then 15 seconds passed. "Attention!" Amanda was getting mad, and she was slower to get up. "Wall sit!" Olivia looked and waited 20 seconds passed. Amanda looked at Olivia. Her eyes were pleading for help, but Olivia didn't break. Amanda felt burning through her legs, ass, and stomach. Amanda's voice became small, "I'm sorry Sergeant Benson."

Olivia gave her 10 more seconds to really think, "Attention!" Amanda had to use her hands to stand upright. She gave Elliot a nod and 10 seconds later he was on her ass. "Good! Now that your legs are warmed up go give me 4 laps and come back. She turned around and left without saying a word. They both watched her run around the indoor track. Elliot laughed, "She's gonna feel that for a couple of days." Olivia watched her run. She had a short but athletic body.

Olivia wasn't gay, but she liked who she liked. She had a thing for Brian Cassidy their first year at SVU. Even Elliot knew about them hooking all the time. They had fooled around on and off for twenty years now, even after he left SVU and moved on. They were more like fuck buddies. She also tried a thing with Alex. They became close after she was shot with Liv walking right by her side. She had taken a bullet meant for her. One night they even had a threesome with Brian. That was a wild time.

Alex didn't work out, they were better off friends. Olivia wanted all of the control and believed in spanking. Alex was afraid and also too obedient. Olivia needed someone tough. When she was with Brian, it was her "normal time", but being with another woman, she wanted all the control. Brian, Alex, Melinda, and Fin were her only friends that knew what she liked.

She tried to shake the feelings about Amanda off. She didn't know what it was, the tough exterior, but behind those bright blue eyes, something else was there. Amanda was a baby and Olivia had her by at least 20 years, but she was immediately attracted to her. "El, keep me posted on her will you?" He shook his head, "Sure thing, still recruiting for SVU huh?" She smiled not wanting to give herself away, "Yeah, some people just can't cut it."