AN: this is part of a personal challenge/project filling all the prompts of past Kadam weeks, and posting one every day from March 28 to May 8th, 7 prompts per year 5 previous rounds (2013, 2014, 2015, 2016, 2017 last two managed by vcg73) the first week of May 2-8 will present to you the offering for the Kadam Week 2021 you can search for more on tumblr
This is the offering to Kadam Week 2014 prompt 3: Wonderland
Sometimes I just stay here in bed looking at you, and I get surprised and amazed that you're even in here with me after so long.
Back when we first met I found myself attracted to you in ways that it was probably too much and too soon, but I couldn't stop myself.
I can still remember that first afternoon we moved forward our relationship, when we went started a more hands on approach to our time together. You had set it up to be as perfect as it could be… Your roommates out of the way, no work or other distraction to get in the way, just us and the empty loft all for ourselves for many hours to come.
I remember walking in, to find scented candles and a dinner made of finger food, you had such an attractive blush colouring your porcelain skin. You appeared to me like the most wonderful artwork, totally worth of praise and admiration, and to my immense pleasure, unlike an artwork that is meant only to be seen and never touched, you were there and willing to let me explore you, adore you like a marvel that you still are.
And I remember thinking to myself that there was only one thing left to do… Allow you to discover me as I was discovering you.
I never kept it secret how attractive I've always found you.
Even when you didn't fully believe me, because talk is cheap but from that afternoon on you got hard evidence of just how much you affect me.
There was nothing else that could have made that day more memorable for me, on that first afternoon alone together, I was allowed to use my hands to show you how much of a wonder you are for me. And I don't think you even realise how lucky I feel that from that moment on, you never stopped allowing me that privilege.
Oh, I still recall how surprised you were about the fact that I was more than happy, actually rather ecstatic if I'm to be completely honest with you my love, to just lay there in your bed with our shirts off.
I could see it in your face, just how much you couldn't understand how I was able to see soo much progress in something so deceptively simple. You never quite got how for me, every inch of exposed skin you allowed me to see, to touch to kiss, felt like a mile of progress.
I had noticed from the very first times I saw you, how your clothes were your armour. Stop looking at me like that love, it's not an accusation, you've said so even a few hours ago, when you were picking our suit, how good clothes can make a good person great.
Come here, let me kiss that pout away, you know I loved you when you wore all sharp clothes with many layers and scarves, and I've loved you completely naked in my arms. You are always handsome and attractive to me. And you still will be attractive when we're both so old, we'll spend our days living at the Lexington Home hoping new actors will feel about us like we feel about our own elders.
Stop trying to hide your smile you goof, it's not like I don't know you. Or, I don't know, like we haven't spent the past twenty years together.
But let me go back to the first time you took me to wonderland…
You looked so good that it did hurt sometimes, because you seemed unable to see yourself without those thick biased glasses on…
And no you cheeky minx, the fact that I do wear glasses doesn't enter into the equation at all.
Because I was able back then, and I can still see perfectly well now, what you kept on ignoring for a very long time.
You are a wonder and your body was a wonderland… It was adorable how you had no idea of what it did to me when you allowed me to take my time exploring it, discovering your secrets.
I was allowed to worship you with my hands and with my lips, and love I've never stopped loving the way your blush creeps from your face up to the tip of your ears, and then descends down your neck reaching your chest…
I used to find terribly charming, how you didn't seem able to see, that as much as I could touch you, you were more than welcome to touch me in return…
Yeah, yeah, it was even more than great when you caught on the program.
Do I even need to tell you just how much I still enjoy you leading? If last night wasn't enough, you're more than welcome to get a practical example right now…
Hey, come on, you can't blame me for trying… It's not like we don't have enough time to get ready.
What? Come here Da'ling, you know how I feel, your body was a wonder back then, and it still is, every moment spent with you feels like being in wonderland.
Your eyes grew so impossibly large when you felt for the first time exactly the effect you have on me
Nothing to be so shy about, It was the reason I always feel gratified if I manage to make you blush… Especially now that it has become so hard doing it.
You know it broke my heart when I discovered that the idiotic wanker that was your ex, actually never took the time to let you know how attractive and sexy you are as a whole.
Not just your personality, though please love never fret I do love you and your quirkiness, you sass and bitchiness. You know some of your high school friends commented and gave me the thumbs up for that? In fact, I've been reliably informed that those sides resurfaced only after we got together.
You don't seem to know just how much I love the fire that burns bright in your eyes when you… Wait, what was the expression you used? Throw shades…? Is that right? Ya know back home we would have called it being a sassy smart ass…
And believe me, I love how smart your ass can be…
Heeeey, come on that was uncalled for… I feel huuuurt love, you hitting me that way… You know I am in love with every side of you, your front side, your backside…
Awww when did my smothering look stopped working on you? Wuuut? That went right through my heart, all this time and you never told me you were just amusing me… Lies... I can't believe so...
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Kurt do you know..? You are the wonder I never tire to discover. I could happily pass the rest of my life finding new sides of you, and enjoy every moment of it.
You said you used to be even more bitchy as you put it, but I have to say that I believe it simply was just a mix of confidence and the armour you needed to stay on top of all that happened back there in your hometown.
I confess that after hearing all the stories, if we never manage to set foot in there it would still be too soon. Yeah yeah, I know that you love your family, it is one of the things I admire about you, come on, doesn't the fact that our son Justin is in our life prove how much I trusted and loved your devotion to family?
I know, I know, you love those in your family who still live there too much for us to never go there, though you should already know that I will follow you to the end of earth and back.
Oh yesh I agree, though you should allow me to show exactly how irresistible I find you to be… How I consider it a privilege knowing just how high your voice can still get when you let go completely…
You sing like an angel, but when it's me making you sing a song of love, oh darling you have no idea just what that and you do to me.
If I seem like a fool to you for being so openly in love, well bab,y keep in mind that that's all your doing...
I hate the idea of one of us ever comparing each other to those who came before. But should that happen I so hope that I do come out as the best option you ever had, because I know you do for me, in all honesty for most things.
Now, now, love don't pout, we vowed to each other to be honest, and I will keep being honest to a fault with you.
We were not willing to play games back then and that hasn't changed at all, this is me being honest Love.
The one you cannot compete with, is by now a fantasy, it was the first boy I've ever been with, we were young and had many first times together.
No my dear, it's not because of that at all, plus I do think we had plenty of firsts together. Wouldn't you agree?
No, when I say that you can't compete with it, it's because it has become now nothing more than a dear but faded memory… I'm no longer the boy I was back then, I've seen and experienced much more and it did change me, and it wouldn't be fair even try to do that to you. You are the one I love and adore. You are the one I have chosen to share my life with.
When we met I no longer believed in fairytales, but I did believe in the chance of you and me.
You took me to wonderland, you showed me how inner strength could overcome difficulties. You showed me that no matter how many times life and people try to beat you down, you my wonderful husband are so breathtakingly fantastic that you kept raising back up, refusing to stay put down.
You still seem to not believe just how grateful I am you took a chance with me. How you allowed me into your life, how you trusted me with your big plans and permitted me to help you breaking them down into smaller more accessible steps.
Nah, you know that was not just me, you did the same when I got lost and felt like I was losing my head with worry and anxiety over some of the hurdles I had to overcome, you've been there for the good and the not so good. For the fun and for the hard work.
You didn't allow me to get lost into the sea of thoughts that threatened to cloud my view, instead you just dragged me into a sea of blankets, taking the lead and making your desires known you have no idea how arousing it was the first time you have taken control and took me to wonderland.
Stop rolling your eyes at me, I won't stop saying those words, even less stop associating them with you… Certainly not today...
It was your idea to spend the whole day chasing the spirit of wonderland to get in the mood. I'm simply adhering to the theme, we had movies and songs filling the time since we woke up, I'm just doing my share to add memories… You wanted us to be kept busy until we had to get ready for tonight awards and not taking the chance of getting nervous…
And you were the one refusing my offer to spend the time in bed…
Hey! I resent that, for one there's nothing wrong with having lazy days, especially when the kids are not around, and second, I'll have you know my plan included a lot of exercising…
So really, you can't blame me to let my mind wander to all the kind of wonderlands we've been to… It was what you asked after all Da'ling.
My sweet love don't look so affronted by my laugh, I beg of you, it was not meant as a way of teasing you, it was just an expression of pure joy, because you make me the happiest man in this world every single day.
I know I know that you were probably searching for sweet memories to recall and quip back at that annoying journalist you used to know in high school, Smythe right?
You two have the most amusing tendency of snarking at each other, it gets so entertaining that it's a miracle there haven't been any rumours yet about a secret affair. I know I wouldn't be the only scorned husband in that scenario…
I mean, I still stand by the fact that I prefer my own memories, but I agree it's not the kind we'd want to appear as public knowledge… Hmmm, how about the memories of skating at the ice rink of the Winter Wonderland back in 2025? I can still remember that couple of girls asking if you were prince charming from Disney on Ice, they were adorbs and you an absolute sweetheart.
Or what about that time we had been performing in Wondrous Wonderland back in 2018 you were the most perfect Alice that was ever casted, no one can convince me otherwise, and if I could say so myself I was the most intriguing Mad hatter they saw on that stage. It was a blast.
Though I stand my ground, I still believe you are the most wonderful wonderland you've ever taken me to.
And dear husband of mine, you're welcome and I actively encourage you to take me there any time you want.
I hope you know that no matter how confusing and ever changing times might be, there's nowhere else I'd rather be than by your side with your hand in mine.
So are you ready to jump into the rabbit hole?
There's a different kind of Wonderland waiting for us, full of mad mad people, but that's ok, we'll fit in just right, because we're all a little mad around here…
And that's a good thing because let me tell you something, all the best people usually are…