My name is Kaoru Matsubara, 16 teen years old and my dream is to become a horror film director. My love of film blossomed at the beginning of summer before middle school. After watching so many cool shows on Netflix. I was so awestruck by the disturbing sound tracks to heighten suspense and terror. My favorite is the water phone, a slicing sound that sends a shiver down the spine. And of course the famous technique that is used in every horror movie, the jump scare. If you don't know it at that moment when the character feels like they're safe only to meet their demise in a few seconds by the monster. Then again, it could be the dopamine released from the brain becomes euphoric which basically means "hey, I'm terrified right now and I like it."

did I just discover that I'm an adrenaline junkie?

Anyway...Luckily for me, I had a neighbor who worked in the film industry. Teaching me everything I need to know like creative writing, producing, editing Etc. he was an amazing teacher and even gifted me with my film equipment.

I open my own YouTube channel called "grim station" earning over 600,000 subscribers. Opening my and have all social media accounts promoting "grim station."

I don't show my face on social media or write my name. I kept my identity safe. For privacy reasons. Instead, I created this allies, Buttercup, mistress of horror. Whenever I make an appearance, I would wear a bright green kimono with gold and white accents, gold heels, and put up her hair in a bun with Emerald bridal hair comb with Green crystal. In order to conceal my face, I would use a Green silk hand fan.

After middle school with the help of my pokemon, we made a short film to audition for the famous performing arts academy "Eiga high." and was accepted. My two best friends Momoko and Miyako were accepted. Momoko is in the art program. Her dream is to become a mangaka and Miyako is in the fashion program. Her dream is to become a fashion designer.

However, my home life is not perfect, my father lost his job. He was no longer the man with a bright fighting spirit; he's gone and replaced with a pathetic excuse of a man who lays around drinking all day and doing nothing productive. My mother divorced my father and took my brother's but left me behind.

I remember asking my mother why she didn't take me with her. She told me if I stay with my father I was enough motivation for him to continue working harder.

but it didn't…

Months passed and then I found out the truth. My mother remarried to a successful lawyer. That was the day when my heart broke. At first I thought finally I could escape my miserable life with my father and live a happy life with my mom and brother. But it turned out the lawyer only wanted sons and was proud to have two. My mother agreed, and staying having a daughter would be the worst thing that ever happened.

I ran away and broke into tears.

I couldn't believe my mother would face such a thing. However, I have to move on. I had to suppress all the pain. That was the day I force myself to get up and work. I didn't have time dealing with my emotions I was too worried about if there was going to be food on the table.

Thankfully, with my YouTube channel we could live a comfortable life. It isn't fair having to be the breadwinner while my father milk money out of me. Since I'm still underage, I'm unable to move out.

Kaoru pov.

After a warm shower, I felt great.

I quickly changed into a bright green kimono with colorful floral patterns, mustard yellow pumps, and put up my jet black hair in a messy bun.

Usually i would never put on makeup, but over time i have grown an interest and wouldn't mind the idea of presenting myself as a mature woman. Not because I have a crush on a boy who is the leader of the wrestling team, a heart of gold and a drop dead gorgeous body I want to ride until we both hit ecstasy.

Has it gotten hot in here?

According to Miyako, purple and green are perfect together. She was right. The lavender made my jade eyes pop. Especially with a black wing made me look sexy and dangerous. Once I finish applying red lipstick.

That's when I really felt my confidence level skyrocket.

Usually I would hate my body...

I remember at the beginning of high school. Puberty hit me hard. My flat chest was replaced with 2 watermelons, a tiny waist that miraculously didn't snap into two, wide hips and thick ass that jiggle every step I take. Every time I step outside.

I would always feel eyes all on me. I would hear the gossiping whisper from all the girls from school. Calling me either a whore or claiming I got work done.

But the boys were worse. It had gotten to where I know guys are undressing me with their eyes and creepy old men walk up to me. Offering money for "a good time."

Luckily, I have my pokemon to blast those disgusting bastards to OuterSpace.

But today I felt good…

I picked up my phone, unplugging the charger. Reading 6:48 am in bold red.

I quietly tiptoed to the kitchen, not to wake up my pathetic and useless father. First, I sliced up some berries and poured it into each bowl of pokefood.

"Okay everyone, it's time to eat." I whispered, the red flashing light soon faded. 6 pokemon appear gogoat, larvesta, golett, two zoroark, and zorua.

I wasn't in the mood to cook anything, so instead I poured myself a bowl of cereal. After breakfast I put all the dirty dishes away and returned all my pokemon back to their balls except for zorua and gogoat.

Strapping the thick brown leather belt on the gogoat. Making sure it is stable to hold the large luggage filled with expensive film equipment. I could not afford to break anything. If there is even one scratch on the camera lens, it's game over. I have a very busy schedule. It isn't easy being a youtuber.

I quickly grabbed my bag, zorua on my shoulder. "Ready to go!" i asked gogoat and both nodded in response and we left for school.