Author's Note: So whenever I go back to Twilight I always find moments where characters start out acting normally in a situation and then just don't for the sake of moving the story in the direction Smeyer wanted it to go. One of those times is when Edward keeps saying Bella and him shouldn't be friends and is legit pissing Bella off right up to the point where they agree to be friends and she still goes through with it. to me how she acted in the end didn't make sense and then a related funny thought came to my head so I combined the two and here we are. Like my last story I just wrote out my feelings till I was done and haven't looked back so if there are any glaring mistakes sorry I guess lol.
"So, in plain English, are we friends now?"
"Friends…" he mused, dubious.
"Or not," I muttered.
He grinned. "Well, we can try, I suppose. But I'm warning you now that I'm not a good friend for you." Behind his smile, the warning was real.
"You say that a lot," I noted, trying to ignore the sudden trembling in my stomach and keep my voice even.
"Yes, because you're not listening to me. I'm still waiting for you to believe it. If you're smart, you'll avoid me."
"I think you've made your opinion on the subject of my intellect clear, too."
My eyes narrowed.
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He flashed me a crooked smile as I stared at him. Why does he keep doing this? What does he-oh.
Oh I get this stupid game now.
"It's not me who needs to smarten up." I gritted out.
Edwards eyebrows shot up as I continued. "I would avoid you actually if you ever gave me a chance to, but you seem to have some sort of obsession with sticking in my peripherals and blaming me for your constant presence."
"Bella that's-" I put my hand up as I interrupt him.
"Oh save it Edward call me crazy or stupid all you want, you said you're waiting for me to realize you won't be a good friend well here's my realization."
I stand up quickly, my chair scraping loudly as I do so. I can feel the eyes of my friends back at my table burning holes into the back of my head.
"Stay away from me Edward I'm not playing this stupid game of hot and cold anymore. Oh and forget about Seattle while we're at it."
With that I turn and walk back to my table leaving Edward looking dumbfounded. I can feel the sting of tears in my eyes and I desperately fight them off. God I can't cry now not in front of practically the whole school and most definitely not after taking such a dramatic leave from his table.
I sit back down next to Angela gripping my lemonade bottle tightly and willing the last of the urge to cry away as everyone looks expectantly for an explanation. One that I'm not sure I'm willing to give in front of everyone right now. I look pleadingly at Angela who thankfully takes the heat off me by talking about the upcoming beach trip. She gets the guys excited enough about boarding that the table, at least for now, have dropped their curiosity about what happened.
Jessica looks at me pointedly before joining in the change of subject as well. I suppose she'll be expecting an explanation later. As I think about it I think that maybe it wouldn't be so bad to talk to someone about this. Edward has had me so wound up since I got here, maybe it's time to unload.
I successfully ignore Edward as I muse over my new friends. It's nice to say that I have friends here. Back in Phoenix I never really had any, I just couldn't find my niche and figured I'd have the same problem here. But here I am herded into this group of friends. It might've started out just because I was the new girl but I'd been here for long enough now that if that was their only reason for befriending me I would've been dropped by now. But I haven't been, I have friends. Despite the aggravation Edward is currently putting me through I can smile at the fact that I have friends.
I wonder if that was a draw for Edward, I'm new so I'd be easy to isolate if that was part of his game plan. It certainly seemed like it with the presumptuous way he beckoned me over to his table alone.
I try to stop these musings through PE and pay attention. Not that that helps the lack of coordination much but I try. I dodge Mike's questions about Edward as best as I can until I can run to the safe haven of my truck and book it home. Well, book it as fast as the old beast can take me.
I get to my room and boot up my computer as I notice a draft from the window. It's slightly ajar so I latch it shut noticing that the latch is pretty loose and make a mental note to ask Charlie about getting a better window lock and possibly better insulated windows altogether.
I unpack my homework and plan out when I'm going to do everything while I wait for my computer to boot up. I needed to tell someone about what a crazy time I've been having here and while I've been making up a lot in my emails to my mom so far, she's still my best friend and I need to talk to someone about this.
"Mom" I pause as I try to figure out how to explain what's been going on.
"There's this guy (don't get excited this is going in the opposite of THAT direction) who just really sucks and I finally told him off today. He's been totally hot and cold the whole time we've interacted. He's always the one to come up to me first just so he can tell me we shouldn't be friends and he's insinuated I'm either crazy or stupid on more than one occasion. I finally caught on today that he was negging me this whole time and I feel kinda stupid for letting it go on for so long but at least I put a stop to it now. He shouldn't be bothering me anymore.
Anyway how are you and Phil, how's his baseball stuff going?
Love Bella"
I hoped that was juicy enough to placate her on emails for a little bit since other than this excitement I was running out of fake embellishments to add to my emails.
My emotional rollercoaster of a day continues as I start to feel restless like I'm being watched. I take a quick glance out my window and see no one but decide to go down to the kitchen anyway. My email didn't help as much as I hoped and I thought about how Jessica had looked at me at lunch. Maybe I could invite her over to talk about Edward. And Angela too, she's becoming a great close friend.
I walked past Charlie to the phone and mentioned the window lock I needed and told him I was ordering pizza and inviting some friends. I called them over under the guise of homework help with the promise of pizza and they came over right away. After ordering the pizza the three of us rush upstairs to my room. Jess immediately hops onto my bed, books forgotten by the door, and turns to me.
"Okay spill what was that at lunch." She says staring at me intently.
Angela sits beside her looking rather curious as well. I sigh and sit with them.
"Okay so the short answer is," I take a breath to calm down, "Edward was negging me."
"Negging?" Angela asks. I couldn't decipher whether she wanted clarification on what negging was or how I knew he was doing it so I decided to explain his actions and hoped that would speak for itself.
"Well the first day he didn't talk to me at all but he acted like I was the worst thing to have ever happened to him. He made it very clear that it was me he took an issue with before he disappeared for the rest of my first week. Then he started this game of hot and cold. When he came back he was very interested in why I moved here and personal details about myself then suddenly he shut down and practically ran out of class when the bell rang. Then he saved me from the van but.." I paused here, he had some sort of secret and as curious as I was I would rather keep my distance right now and if keeping his secret kept him away from me I would do it, for now anyway.
"But?" Jess prodded a little impatiently. She looked really invested and I imagined from what I'd heard this was the most gossip anyone had ever gotten about any of the Cullens since they moved here.
"But when I asked about… why he was insisting I had hit my head harder than I did he was all cold. As if I was stupid and didn't know how my own body felt. On top of that he was constantly coming up to me just to tell me to stay away from him and how he's not someone I should be friends with. That was actually the last straw at lunch, he said it again right after apologizing for being rude and saying he wanted to be friends. I told him to stay away from me. Oh! And this morning he had asked if he could drive me to Seattle since he didn't think my truck could make it. Of course while offering me that he mentioned staying away from him yet again. Maybe it's not exactly negging but it's the best word I could think of for what he's doing. Ugh he's the first person to ever make me angry enough to want to hit something."
By the end of my rant I was panting with all the anger I had felt towards him since I got here coming at me all at once. Angela reached over and squeezed my knee sympathetically and I appreciated it. We were all startled by a loud bang outside that sounded like something big and heavy hit an old tree. Before we could worry about it too much Charlie yelled up to us that pizza was here. When we grabbed our pizza and got back to my room Jess spoke.
"I mean wow Bella that sure is something. I guess we all dodged a bullet with Edward if he's always been like that jeez." She took a thoughtful bite of pizza.
"Would you like me to switch seats with you in biology? He might try something again if you stay his partner." Angela asked and I was touched.
"Thanks but you don't have to do that I'll be okay." I assured her.
"If you change your mind let me know okay?" Angela asked and I nodded.
The rest of the night was spent on much lighter topics and my spirit was brightened immensely. I had all but forgotten the day's annoyances by the time Jess and Angela went home.
Charlie came up to me as I was putting the dishes away.
"I didn't mean to snoop Bells but I heard the Cullen's name, everything alright?" He asked, not quite accusingly but close.
I remembered what he had said about this small town not giving them a chance and how it annoyed him that they would judge without giving them a chance. I had given one of them a chance and he sucked but I figured I'd need more tact than that to explain this to Charlie.
"I… have one of the Cullens, Edward, as a biology partner." I started, Charlie just waited.
"I tried to befriend him but even when I was just being polite he brushed me off." That softened Charlie up a bit and gave me the assurance that I could continue without him jumping the gun.
"What we were talking about upstairs was how well, Edward had started to be nice to me but he'd flip between nice and rude and it felt like he was playing a game so I kind of told him off today about it and told him to stop talking to me if that's how he wanted to treat me."
I took a breath before remembering Charlie's speech about the Cullens the other day and adding in quickly, "I honestly tried to give him the benefit of the doubt he's just been doing this since I got here."
Charlie thought over what I said for a moment. "Alright kiddo," he said, putting his hand on my shoulder, "you know if he gives you any more trouble you let your old man know. I'll get him off your case if you need me too."
"Thanks dad." I said as we both looked at each other awkwardly. Neither of us was really used to expressing our feelings much so this was a lot for one night. After an awkward beat I excused myself to go to bed.
It had been a long day of expressing myself more than I had in one go probably ever and I was exhausted. But I was also content, it felt like I had gotten over something I was dreading and could move on now that I had dealt with Edward. Of course he could end up being difficult tomorrow but for now I was happy to revel in the cathartic feeling tonight brought and fall asleep without rain or wind or unsettling dreams disturbing me.
Author's note: So yeah the thought was what if Bella though Edward was negging her. I'm considering adding a Cullen pov with Alice getting a vision of this exchange and her visions of Bella being one of them changing and maybe how this Bella would react to figuring out they're vampires. For now though this stands as a one-shot. Thanks for reading let me know what you think!
