"W-Wait, please! I don't want this! Don't go, Gonta!"

I cried this out in desperation. I.. I don't know what got into me. He was about to be executed. And it was all my fault. I manipulated him into killing Miu. This whole time, I've been trying to help. Miu was trying to kill me. If she would've succeeded, I wouldn't be here to stop this killing game. This whole time, I've been trying to stop their suffering. Because.. I really don't want this.

...What am I saying?

I gotta.. stop thinking like this. Yeah.

This killing game is fun. It's fun. Yeah. Fun. I've been having fun. Lots of fun.

..I've been telling myself this since it started. I've been lying to myself for so long. It's how I've been able to keep my sanity.

But it's getting so hard. Here I am, watching someone so innocent die before my very eyes, and it's all my fault. But.. I had to do it. It's all coming together. I'll finally stop the killing game. I'm gonna do it.

"Puhuhu! Surprised? What a twist, huh?" Monokuma said with a twisted smile.

Monokuma then left, while everyone mourned over Gonta. They then began asking me about what the secret of the outside world is.

Now's my chance.

"I don't.. want to.."

Shuichi looked at me with a curious look on his face.

Here I go.

"I don't want to, stupidhead!"

Shuichi gasped. "Kokichi?!"

I laughed. "Oh man, did you fall for all that fake crying? You're so dumb! I would never cry for Gonta! If I said the real truth back there, Gonta would've been reeeeal mad! That would've interfered with the game, so I simply lied to calm him down. As long as you lie for a good purpose, right?"

I'm doing great.

"I did it so the game wouldn't be boring. If I actually wanted to save him, I wouldn't have betrayed him like I did."

Shuichi looked shocked. "Then why would Gonta-"

I laughed some more.

"Who cares about that idiot? I wanna enjoy this game with suspicion and betrayal from the bottom of my heart. I am the supreme leader of evil, so it's obvious my personality would be twisted. The more you suffer, the more I enjoy it.

There are people in this world who spread misery and grief for no reason other than the thrill of it! And I'm one of those people. Nothing pleases me more than inflicting pain on others!"

Kaito and Maki were furious at me, which was understandable.

"So you killed Miu and Gonta for your own entertainment?" Maki said angrily.

"What's so bad about that? You kill people for money, right...Maki roll?"

Maki looked more furious than before, and scowled. "Someone like you has no right to call me Maki roll. Do you want to die?"

I laughed my signature laugh. "You look so much better with a scowl on your face, Maki roll.

But hey, you guys are just waaaaaay too trusting. If only you had suspected me more, then..."

I cackled. "Miu and Gonta wouldn't have died such meaningless deaths!"

Kaito looked at me, with a furious look in his eyes. "M-Meaningless?!"

He ran up to me, and tried to punch me. Since I'm so swift, I was able to dodge him, and I punched him.

"Oops, sorry! I tried to dodge you, but I punched you instead."

"Y-You.." He said weakly.

"By the way, is it just me, or are you waaaay slower? Maybe, just maybe, Kaito is hiding something from us too."

"Kaito!" Maki yelled, with genuine concern. She passed me up and went over to him. She glared at me, saying, "For someone who claims to be bad at fighting, you're pretty agile."

I laughed again, saying, "And you believed a lie like that?!"

Maki snapped at me and said, "You really want to die, don't you?! "

I gave her my best twisted smile and uttered, "Oh, did I finally provoke you enough? Is it cuz of Kaito?"

I smirked. "What am I thinking? Maki wouldn't lose her cool for a guy like Kaito. He's waaaay too pathetic. He's all bark and no bite. Let's face it, the Ultimate Astronaut is just a trainee anywa--"

I never got to finish what I was saying. No one was listening. They all went to Kaito's side instead.

"Hey, why are you all so worried about this pathetic gu-"

Shuichi interrupted me. "Pathetic? Look at yourself, Kokichi."

"What?" I responded.

"Kaito always has us by his side, you see? But no one ever wants to be around you."

He then said something.. that hit really hard.

"You're alone, Kokichi, and you always will be."

I tried to ignore it and just laughed and said, "Friends? Friends don't make this game more entert-"

But I felt like I was going to accidentally show my true self again. I had to get out of there. I simply excused myself by saying, "Geez, boooring. I'm no longer interested. I don't care anymore... but I will tell you this..."

I made a menacing face and said, "The one who will win this game... Is me."

I then ran out the room. I was so desperate to get back to my own room. Alone.

I wanted to cry. I wanted to cry so badly. But I couldn't, I'm too scared I'm being recorded. I.. I wish I didn't have to do this. But I have to. It's all part of the plan. I don't want them to have to suffer if I have to sacrifice myself. I have to make them hate me. I have to make them believe I am the mastermind. So we can end this dumb killing game.

I thought about what Shuichi said some more.

You're alone, Kokichi, and you always will be.

I teared up. I.. I really love him. I care about him. I started out liking him but... I fell in love. Why did I have to do that? Why does this have to hurt so much? I really want friends. I want Shuichi to myself. I want to be happy. But I can't be happy anymore.

DICE is gone. Everyone here hates me. The outside world is in ruins. It's uninhabitable now. I'm never going to be happy again. Ever. Ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever.

I looked up at my Rantaro effigy hanging up by my bed. "At least I have you, I guess.."

I went over to the board I have in my room, updating it with the latest deaths. "Gonta killed Miu.. there."

I spent the rest of the night venting about everything to my Rantaro effigy. He's the only thing I have left to keep me company. Tomorrow.. hopefully.. my plan will go through to end this killing game.