Chapter 1 Thoughts
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It's been three long weeks, since I last seen...him. No, not Edward but, that's who I should be aching for. Funny how the night I met him, my love- my devotion for Edward disappeared. Looking back now I don't know if that was a gift or a curse.
Bella
Prologue
Thursday
I woke with a start- chest heaving from another nightmare gasping for air. I look around my room making sure James wasn't there of course he wasn't, he's dead . Dull light emits from the window. Just a dream I tell myself it was only a dream. I took a deep breath and looked at my alarm clock.
September 13th 6 am
I was officially a legal adult, eighteen years old. A year ago I would've dreaded this day, I hated age. I hated aging but I guess when you have a life changing " experience" or in my case life threatening , it can change your perspective.
After sitting in my room for 20 minutes having a mental breakdown, I come to the realization I was eighteen-
And Edward never would be.
Forever seventeen my subconscious whispered.
As I brush my teeth, I take a long good look at the face in the mirror. The creases on my forehead, the deep pools of brown in my eyes and the steady rise and fall of my chest. I am alive i remind myself it was just a dream... yet ever since the "accident" I've struggled with the truth. I don't want to live forever anymore. I want children, I want to enjoy every single day but, I would never admit it because Edward was and is my choice.
Little did I know...
Changes, big changes were coming.
" Humpty dumbty sat on a wall
Humpty dumbty had a great fall
And all the kings wolves and all the kings " men"
Would never put their dear Bella back together again."
Sam
Thursday
I patrol the lands surrounding and in La Push, making sure there are no undead creaturesin my sight. "After all that's my duty " . I'm a lone wolf "Alpha" according to Billy, "can't be an alpha without a pack can I?" I told him they assured me others would be with me soon but, I didn't want that.
I didn't want someone else's choice to be taken away -someone else's life.
Although being the only shapeshifter was lonely and according to the legends we need pack. We are a unit and a family and will have a connection to each other just like brothers. But-
A part of me died that day- no that night.
The part that made me who I was, gone
who am I ?
"More beast than man " the council members mumble underneath their breath. Like I can't hear them, the wolf has some perks after all.
I wanted to shout out to them" this wasn't my choice" or "I don't want this" . It's too late for that, it was too late the moment my body morphed into a fucking animal.
That night full of breaking bones and cells being reformed.I had turned into a beast with four legs instead of two, a feral wolf that teared flesh and skin and peoples faces off!!
The wolf-snarled not human...Never Human! One Word vampires-blood sucking demons and I hated them with every fiber of my being for not only draining innocent humans-humans that I am now responsible for but for thrusting me into this when they knew- knew what them being here caused.
Those Cullens did this to me, they made met this monster. They should have never came back and I swear one day I will make them suffer.The wolf chuckles menacingly in the back of my subconscious amused and anticipating the day It shows me how much of a monster It can truly be and the day I realize,
we are one and the same.
Bella
Thursday
I struggled to keep my grip on reality as I drove to school thoughts churning in every directions Edward...James...bite...immortal...children.. choices. I couldn't feel anything but, despair and inner turmoil until I pulled into the familiar parking lot of forks high school.
I spotted Edward leaning against his polished silver Volvo, like some sort of god and he was waiting there for Me.
All my doubts flushed out the window. I didn't need anyone else but him, I'd sacrifice my soul, life and heart for his love. Alice, his favorite sister standing by his side practically jumping with anticipation. Eyes tawny with excitement a package in her hands- which made me frown.
I told her I didn't want anything, anything , not gifts or even attention as usual they ignored what I wanted on my birthday.
I sighed and walked slowly towards dreading what I already knew was coming. Alice quickly grabbed me and demanded an answer.
"What time will you be at the house". I could tell from her expression she did exactly the kind of thing I didn't want.
" I didn't know there were plans there tonight" I speak irritated.
" Oh be fair Bella! She complained " You aren't going to ruin all the fun just like that right?"
" I thought my birthday was about what I want " I stated firmly anger simmering underneath the edge of my tone.
" I'll get her from Charlie's right after school," Edward assured her ignoring me all together.
RRRIIINNNGGGGG!!!!!
The school bell cuts off any protests I might've had.
Sam
Saturday morning
2 am
I was laying in my bed restless, something was wrong. The wolf could feel the uneasiness in the air, it didn't like it and the forest was calling the wolf to it, beckoning us to come closer. I didn't understand what it could be, I patrol all hours of the day nightand there's not one leach stench in the air besides the Cullensi scowl then. There's five of them and one of me, i don't trust them.
Soon the wolf still reassured me trying to get me "to trust"- no to give into "my instincts".
The forest the forest the forest it chants.
I give in to the wolf, as the weeks have past and turned into months with this other form I've come to realize there is no escaping it. I won't embrace the beast but, I will listen to it...if I don't It No-
He will take over.
Paul
Friday 11pm
I've started to notice things, things about myself. I can't even fit into my bed anymore, my head leans an inch off of the headboard and my feet dangle over the edge of my bed so you could say it's hard to sleep.
I've grown six inches in the past two weeks- Two weeks! I've always been told I got anger issues and I honestly don't give a fuck who thinks that but lately I've noticed it. it's like I'm on fire, you could toss an egg on my head and it would fry.
I can feel something calling me towards the forest, I don't know what it is but, my body is restless. I've tossed and turned all night long and my skin is on fire. Not to mean toon sweat is pouring down my body, soaking my t-shirt in sticky-stinky liquid.
There's aches in every bone in my body- it hurts.
I know this isn't a grow spurt, this isn't the flu either whatever it is the perks are not worth the pain. I'm now six foot seven, I have an eight pack and I don't work out so...my body has slimed down yet I eat like a starved man. Plus my strength I swear it's like I'm a super human.
Giving up on sleep for now, I go towards the living room I figured some tv might help me sleep. Not! of fucking course my piece of shit of a father has to stop me. Ever since my mom up and left us his drinking has gotten worse, and in turn the beatings got worse. Not today, not anymore.
He grabs me on my forearm hard " Where do you think you're going boy"! He slurs almost tripping as he leans towards me his alcohol induced breath in my ear.
I stay perfectly still besides the tremors spasming all over my body. " you're just a waste of space, the worst mistake I ever made" he whispers harshly into my ear gripping the back of my head tugging the hair towards him.
It didn't hurt me, and he would never hurt me again.
I don't know what had came over me but, I knew that he would never touch me again. I was literally vibrating with rage as my hand reached behind me and grabbed the hand that was tugging my hair with his hand.
I grasp his hand and squeeze, hard. I hear a crack sound and I'm momentarily surprised. I didn't mean to break his wrist but he's done worse to me.
He gasps in pain and grunts out " trying to fight back now huh" trying to intimidate me ha yeah right.
I turn around taking his whole arm with me and twist his now broken wrist behind his back. Now I tower over him hmm this growth spurt has got some perks.
I breath heavily straining to keep myself in check. I lick my lips in anticipation and bend down towards his ear.
" You will never put your hands on me again, you hear me?" I demand. I could feel something clawing at me, inside of me trying to get out.
He buckles against my hold, trying to escape I could feel a dark presence inside of me thrilled at the idea of a chase.
" you listen here boy- " he tries to fight. Go ahead try to fight I love it.
I tighten my hold on his broken wrist and cut him off. " I said you will never put your hands on me again now, I'm leaving but when I get back I expect you gone, never come back". I snarl lips curled back in a a feral grin.
I let him go pushing him roughly away from me. He stumbles and scoffs clearly shaken but pretending not to be
" I'm sick of taking care of your ass anyways" he grumbles and stomps to the front door.
SLAM
...and he's gone, the hell that is my life is finally over yet I can barely keep it together. Something was clawing at me, wanting out. I still felt so much rage. Not enough.... a voice in the back of my mind snarled venomously.
I stumble out the back door, breathing raggedly Shaking all over, I go to the forest deeper and deeper I walk and then every single bone in my body breaks.I scream in agony as I-
fall fall fall into the darkness and when I wake... I'm transformed.
Four legs and two large yellow eyes look back at me in the reflection of the puddle.
Sam
Saturday
2 am
I'm pushed to the back seat of my brain as he takes over and he, knows where to go and what to do. He sniffs taking a big whiff of the air and trusting our instincts he trouts forward turning every now and again, trees just a blur as he sprints in the woods right at home.
After about 10 minutes we arrive in the middle of the forest next to a pond and...a wolf?
NO! How am I supposed to lead?
Why would they subject someone else to this hell?? Curse those Filthy blood suckers!
Pack. My wolf confirms
I realize I won't be alone anymore.
Relief
Thats all folks! This is my first time trying to write fan fiction so if I did good leave a comment :)
Questions and answers
Why is Sam alone for so long when in the books he's not?
Nobody really shows how much Sam goes through during that time of being alone so I want to show that and use it to help establish a connection to him and Bella both feel separated from normal life they can never go back and they can also never tell anyone
why didn't the council tell Sam anything ?
In my version the council doesn't know shit besides the basics it's been so many years since they had a pack and they couldn't tell what is true and what is not as far as they know Sam is the only wolf he's an outcast and they don't know about he fevers or how to tell Sam will learn that on his own and learn how to pull to his pack is and how to tell when one is shifting
Three how come he didn't know what was calling him to the forest like I said he's going on instinct and doesn't know ANYTHING so he's still learning
Why is Paul's writing different ?
Each character I write is different, I won't be doing much others love besides Bella's and Sams but I want to establish everyone and let you guys get to know them. Everyone knows Paul is arrogant and cocky and so that's how I made him. He may sound stupid to some of you for being so cocky but he's not that's just the way he thinks.
Also
Sam's wolf takes over when he switches forms because Sam isn't one with his wolf yet so, Sam doesn't know what to do yet he only knows what he is feeling. Thus the wolf is showing Sam, guiding him and in turn Sam is starting to become one with his wolf. First by referring to the wolf as He instead of it then by saying our instincts instead of his . Also with the addition of a pack brother he will slowly get closer to his wolf. Also Paul has always been angry and thus accepts the wolf better than Sam does.
Bye!