Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry (Challenges and Assignments): Assignment 10
Task #10 - Devil's Traps: Trait: Stubborn. Alt: Write about someone being trapped.
Word Count: 303 (Google Docs)
Trapped
I am trapped.
I am trapped within my own mind.
I have always known this.
I have always hidden this, fearing the consequences.
Sometimes I regret it, regret immersing myself so deeply in the Dark Arts that I am now at least partially insane.
But most of the time, I am trapped within my own mind so securely that I do not know or do not understand what I am doing.
Andromeda understood, or at least I think she did.
She ran away, not just for love, but to get away from me.
At that time, I was furious. But now, I understand that she did the right thing.
I shouldn't have, I lament now. It is one of the few moments where my mind is clear and I can control myself. I should not have been lured so easily. It is my fault that I am in Azkaban, in disgrace, I know. Not Andromeda's. Not the Dark Lord's. Not Cissy's. Mine.
Unbidden, my thoughts wander to what I would do should I ever get out of this horrible, dismal prison, if I retreated out of my own mind. Perhaps I would go to Andy and apologise, explain everything. I'd visit Cissy, definitely. If my parents are alive, I'd pay them a visit too.
But I cannot leave.
I am trapped, not only in Azkaban, but in my own mind.
Melancholy, I remember the day that I first met the Dark Lord.
I was captivated by him, by his aura of power.
When he asked me if I wanted to learn under him, learn everything I'd ever wanted to learn, I agreed immediately.
It was the biggest mistake of my life.
But now, I cannot back out.
It is my fault, not anyone else's, and I must reap the consequences of my actions.