One body, one mind, one soul

by Lizbear7

Tobias is struggling with his thoughts and clouded head, and what he should do, which direction to go. Tris on the other hand has the thought crystal clear in her mind, she wants more. She longs for her connection with Tobias to deepen into the cracks of their relationship, but she worries about the consequences it may have. But maybe it is just what they both need.

1. Chapter 1

Tobias

"TRIS!" I yell. "tris!" I yell again. I shoot up. I am sweating. "hey. Hey. Tobias, look at me." I feel a small hand grab my chin. "your ok." I hear a voice say. I look over at Tris, my breathing heavy. "yo-you were um..." I can't bring my self to talk about this nightmare. I keep having them, ever since that night at the chasm her almost getting thrown over. "I know." she says. "I am fine. Tobias." she says. I felt like I had failed that night at the chasm, her flailing hopelessly while being beat in a 3:1 fight. I don't know what I would have done If they had pushed her. I get out of bed and put on my boots. I don't bother to tie the laces. I kiss Tris on the forehead before turning towards the door. I see my gun on the table beside the bed, I grab it. Things have gone surprisingly well after we took care of Jeanine and Max and Eric. Nothing has changed other than the leadership. I wonder sometimes what would have happened if we didn't stop them from overthrowing Abnegation, but I still want to be safe. I place the gun in my holster and open the door.

I pace the hallway, up and down, thinking. Thinking about many things most of which are things I can't control. My head is clouded. My brain running a million miles an hour. But every night my mind wonders back to Marcus. He still doesn't know about Tris and I. I worry every visiting day that I will see him. I know I won't and even if I did, I am an adult and one much more powerful then him, but he still and always will linger in the back of my mind.

I manage to find my way back to my apartment. I take my boots off and place my gun on the table beside me. My hand finds its way to Tris's torso. I lay there, I try to sleep, but I can't, but eventually my eyes shut.

Tris

I slowly start to wake up. The first thing I see is Tobias. I am glad he got some sleep. He keeps having nightmares. I am worried about him. He won't talk to me. He won't tell me what they're about, but because of this, I think I know. I am almost 100% positive that his nightmares include Marcus, or me.

"mmmm- good morning." he says stretching his arms out. He leans in and we both kiss. I savor every kiss we have. They are warm and make me feel fuzzy and safe. I curl into his chest. "what are we doing today?" I ask. "I was going to ask you the same question." he says smiling. "I might hang out with Christina but I can't think of anything else." I say. I slowly get out of bed, and start to get dressed. I pull up my black jeans and skin tight shirt. "want breakfast?" Tobias says. "well obviously. who wouldn't?" I reply. he smiles and so do I. We start out the door.

"look who decided to show up!" I hear Christina say. "Hey Chris, sorry we're late." I say apologetically. "its fine." she replies with a smile. "so..." she starts. "we did it!" she says squealing. "did what?" I ask. "dude, the only thing wee have been talking about..." I just stare at her. "will and I went all the way! We had sex." she said. "oh." I still feel uneasy talking about the subject, but I am also eager to hear more. "well, how was it?" I ask. I don't know what else to say. "well, at first, it hurt a bit, but it was fine afterwards. I don't understand why we didn't do it before!" She is practically beaming with excitement. "What about you and Four? Have you gotten into those pants of his?" she says raising an eyebrow, her lips forming a smirk. "god no!" I say, pushing her arm. "I kind of want to, but I don't know what will happen. What if... What if I am not good at it, what if he leaves me." I say. "chill Tris. I am sure everything will be fine. Besides, he loves you now, right? And he is a virgin too. it will be good as gold for the both of you." she says. I guess she's right. It would be a new experience for the both of us. "Tris, if you are that worried about it, how about you start with something smaller. Like..." she pauses. "... how about, the next time you go to take a shower, undress in front of him. Slowly, but not too slowly. Wait a few minutes, then get into the shower leaving the door open. It will totally turn him on." She says smirking. "I guess I can try that." and just as I finish, Tobias and Will start back towards our table with some muffins and fruit.

Thank you so much for reading! Please leave a comment on what I should include, I am open to suggestions!

Stay safe,

Lizbear7