First

by Oxsha

My attempt at getting over writer’s block. If it’s good I’ll finish the chapter I’m writing for “I’m Here” and post it. Please don’t kill me. So basically, Magnus is dead. Enjoy.

--First--

It was supposed to be me.

Those six words.

I've been living off those words.

Forever we had both come to terms with the fact that it was going to be me.

I was the shadowhunter.

I was the one put in mortal danger.

I was going to die first.

"Alec!"

First

"Alec! What are you doing!"

I look up.

Issy I don't stop her when she takes the knife from me.

I don't stop her when she sits me down.

I don't stop her when she takes my wrist and heals it.

I couldn't if I felt anything.

If I wanted to.

I can't move.

I can't stop the tears.

I can't.

I cant save Magnus.

…..couldn't.

Couldn't.

Magnus is gone.

A sob tears its way from my throat. Heaving itself from my gut.

Cutting me to pieces.

It should have been me.

I was going to die first.

It was always supposed to be me.

But it wasn't me.

It was Magnus.

Magnus is gone.

He's gone.