If only she knew
How much I cared for her
Yet somehow I've been too scared to speak when she's near
...Does she even remember who I am anymore?
If only I could know
These possible feelings of hers towards me
Even if it is mutual, it would be entirely unexpected to everyone else
Did she ever even care?
If only I could reach out
And if I weren't like this, I might've embraced her once again
And I feel that really could be possible
Only if she wasn't...stolen already…
Why am I this way?
...Isn't this what they call jealousy?
If that's true, it would be horrible if they found out
It would only make things worse between us.
Sometimes I get tired even thinking about it
Why couldn't I just come out and say it earlier?
Nothing in existence was there to hold me back
Not as far as...I could remember…
If only I could go back and say how I felt
If only imagining a life with her would actually be plausible
If only all the fun memories we made weren't lost so easily
If only I could have made a change somehow
And I realize, like how the course of one's life changes unexpectedly...
It's never too late to make one now…
If only…
Author's Note: After noticing how this account was wallowing in a pit of nothingness for over half a year, I have finally returned! Yes, it's a short freestyle poem I made, but...the information given is a little vague, don't you think? Don't worry though, as this poem here actually serves as the beginning of something...even bigger…
Who is this message going towards, and who's the one telling it? Let me know what you guys think in the reviews(although it's probably obvious…)!
Until we meet again!~
~Ari C.