I did not ask to wake up. I lived a full life, I had friend, family...

It was not an adventurous life, I did not leave a trace in history but I was happy. I was fed, I had a house, I spent my time doing what I loved, what could I ask for? More? Why should I? Everything I did, I did it with a smile.

I remember reading somewhere : 'if you have bad days, it mean the rest of your life is good'. I liked it, a lot.

So I lived my life without looking back. It was hard, I wanted to give up, I almost did but I persevered. The will is mightier than the body.

A strong mind in a clean body.

Drugs? Don't do that, they are temporary and won't help you achieve anything. There is no "cheat code for life" just ways to make it shorter.

Alcohol? Best drink moderately or it's taste will lose any meaning.

Fat food? When earth can give you so many healthy things to eat, why would any one go for the junk they try to pass as food? Dying because you could not appreciate earth gift is a tragedy.

I learned so much...

Do not be afraid to ask for help, you'd be surprised on how many would give you theirs. It's not a weakness to admit you need it.

Mistake do not make you a failure, they help you grow better. Without mistake, there is nothing to learn, as you would already know everything. Take pride in your mistake as they help you to be a better person as you learn from them.

Emotion are your shield for sanity. Do not repress them, learn to ride with them.

Angry? Take a deep breath, no good decision were taken by anyone while angry.

Hatred? Do not let it consume you, Yell it to the wind so it can be taken away from you so far it won't hurt you anymore.

Love? Do not let it blind you, it's as wonderful as it is dangerous. Never feel ashamed of what your heart desire.

Lust? Learn to tame it, it's a impulse that can destroy you and those around you.

I did not give up. I stood up every time. I was tired, I felt like it was not worth it anymore but I kept standing up. It's hard, so hard to keep going when you feel like everything hurt but I did it. Life is a gift. It's hard but how so beautiful. Look at the sky, so blue and full of dream. Remember as child how wonderful it was to simply look at the sky and observe those funny shaped clouds.

Smile! If not for you, than for those who need it. Sometime, we just need this small act of kindness to keep going, you may have saved thousand of lives just by smiling, isn't it just wonderful?

Do not be ashamed of yourself. Be proud, you're here, you exist, no one can deny this no matter how hard they try. How can you give those trying to hurt you the time of the day? They are not worth your time.

I believe in god.. or believed as I did not met him yet.

I believe every one of us have a part in his grand plan and none are small.

You may not believe in him or call him by the same name but it does not mean we could not understand each other. It just mean we have so much to talk about.

When I closed my eyes I expected a peaceful afterlife but I instead woke up in a street. I did not recognize the building and I swear I saw a young man with a strange prosthetic leg.

Young people and their trends. I can't understand them but who am I to judge it, to each their own as they said. I tried to get up and to my surprise I was not as difficult as it was the last time I did it. I felt younger. I still felt ache in my joints but not as pronounced as before.

Walking out of the alley, it was not a street as I first believed, I was blinded by the light. It was so … different? It looked futuristic yet familiar. Like one of those game my niece was so fond of.

I looked around and I was surprised. People of all ages and sex had robot prosthetic. Some were more apparent while others were discreet.

I walked around, not sure of what to do. I saw some of them stop and stare at me in wonder. Maybe because of my lack of "chrome" as I heard one of them say.

I had nothing on me but the clothes on my back. I needed to find a shelter and think of a solution. I could see how... bad the situation here was, trash in the street, homeless men and women...

walking along the river,nearing the bridge, I found what looked like an abandoned shop. I believe it was supposed to be an abandoned 24/7, if one can trust a neon sign. The door was not closed and it look like electricity was still on.

Entering, I found it trashed. Nothing of value left. I walked around and found a bedroom, the mattress was full of dried blood and I saw what looked like a police restriction band on the ground. Look like th owner was killed a while ago and the place was left to rot.

I went to the bathroom and looked at the mirror. Look like I was back to my fifty. Still had my beard, how could I be a wise man without it? Gandalf had one and you can't forget Dumbledore.

Satisfied, I began to clean. Starting with the bedroom. Beggar can't be chooser, I put back the mattress on the bed and began to clean. It took a while and I could see the sun go down, but most of the living piece were livable. I found door leading to a stair behind a broken vending machine. It took a while and I had to get rid of a lot of junk on the way but I reached the roof.

I had a wonderful view on the river from here. I noticed what was a garden I suppose. I recognized most of the things in it: potatoes, tomatoes and... onions? I was not really interested in gardening back then. I preferred reading. I'm was sure about those three but the rest? It'll be nice to experiment.

Going down, I found a cave. It had a computer inside, with a Net access! I would not be clueless for longer.

It took a week to clean everything properly. I now had a respectable home. I managed to find a lot of "eddies" in the cave. 3500 to be exact. I also found a gun. I... am not at ease with a weapon but this town look dangerous, I will keep it in the safe I found in the bedroom.

I decided to clean the second and third floor room, they were mostly untouched but, as I found a used condom in one of them, I preferred to clean them.

I Transformed the fourth floor in a small church. I made a crude cross and arranged the living room in a place of prayer.

All thing considered it could be my second chance, to try something else, to help people in a meaningful way.

I smiled and looked at the clock. Time wait for no one.