My Life
Hi !! I'm Madeline, I'm 16 years old. I'm not normal. As my mom tells me that I have an immunodeficiency disease because of which I'm not allowed to go out or meet anyone. I live in this white room. After a long time there's a new neighbour who just shifted. I wonder if my mom will allow us to meet? I've started liking him, will I get to meet him ever? Will anyone help me? Will I be able to talk to him ever? I wonder if I'll ever be allowed to go out of this white room?
I can see the white spread all over the room. The white bed at the corner of the room with one white pillow kept bent and with a white blanket taking half of the bed's place. The white sofa in the middle of the room for me to sit and chill. With a glass table in front of the sofa so I can keep things on it. There's a brown cupboard which is filled with colourful clothes of different designs. I can see my laptop which is kept beside my bed on the table and the lamp is spreading its light all over the room. I can feel the freshness all the time as the white colour means a freshness, simplicity and innocence. I can see a glass window covered with a white curtain. And the fan rotating at the top of my head, the curtains feels like playing with the air. I can feel my hair playing with the air around me as it's moving with the air. I can see a mirror in front of me in which I can see my reflection. I was just sitting on the dressing table and wondering what to do now. I stared at myself in the mirror in front of me, I was in a light blue coloured top with a black jeans. Just then, someone knocked on my door.
"Who's there?" I asked softly.
"It's your mom honey," she said.
She walked towards me.
"What's up?" She asked.
"Nothing much I was just wondering what I can do today," I answered.
" Let's play 'phonotonic' ?" She asked.
" I'll come in sometime,"I said.
She left the room and locked the door again. I was again lost in my own thoughts. Some thoughts struck my mind suddenly. Feeling of loneliness is always in my head. There's no one with whom I can talk to or share my feelings with. I can see medicines kept on the table beside my table and a glass covered with a glass lid. There's a glass jar filled with water and covered with the jar lid. There are so many makeup things kept on my dressing table. There's face powder; there's a light pink lipstick, a comb, body lotion, a makeup kit and different types of earrings. If I move the curtain and open the door, the air entering my room is very heavy as it isn't pure. I looked out of my room and I saw many different coloured buildings in front of me and a grey coloured road spread where there were vehicles moving around and people on call walking on the road. There are green trees beside the roads and the leaves dancing with the air. The thoughts of me walking on the road freely, and chit chatting with new friends clicked my mind. I wondered how beautiful it would have been if I were allowed to go out for parties with my friends and have picnics with my families. Also measuring the length of the ocean would have been a fun moment as it's one of my dreams. I would have enjoyed the sunset everyday and would have prayed for the new morning every night. Everything seemed so beautiful to me.
Suddenly, someone stepped out of the neighbouring house. It was a boy, looking so handsome and dashing.
" Will I ever be able to walk in the crowd?"
" Will I ever be able to make friends out?"
" Will I ever be able to have late night parties?"
" Will I be allowed to talk to my neighbour and know about him?"
All these thoughts were just coming in my mind one by one then suddenly someone opened the door and I lost all the thoughts that I had. It was my mom who was calling me to play with her and this is how my day ended today. I wish I could meet different people and give them a role in my life.
The white room is very peaceful but staying alone doesn't give me the happiness that I really need. The thoughts of loneliness always kill me from inside but whenever I see my mom and Carla they always give me hope to live. Yet, I have no one around me with whom I can enjoy and who's of my age. Yet I get more than enough time alone, that I can spend with myself and discover myself more.