Hello friends, it's me.
Recently I've posted about some things I'm going through. But I feel like you deserve to know what's really going on.
I suffer from anorexia nervosa and eating disorders since I was 11 years old, but don't worry I'm on treatment and recovering. But it's an important fact, because it still haunts me, it's my living nightmare. It took me 7 years to accept my disease and find some help.
And if you think it couldn't get worse, I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder last year, so yes, I'm also a BPD. They told me that must be the reason I'm so self destructive, and have anorexia. It makes sense yes. So much sense that I freaked out in the middle of the session and said "go fuck yourself" to the doctor before getting out of there.
But why is this important? Why am I telling you this?
Because you guys and your stories help me with things that I never imagined I needed help. whenaspritemeetsaunicorn and VeraRose19 and Johanna-002 and A Star In My Universe all of you, are life savers. And I'm deeply grateful for everything.
I really wanted to finish my stories, because they're part of me, I wanted to create new stories and use it to tell my stories, but I attempted suicide weeks ago, and now depression is all over me, I can't do anything I promised you guys I would. But I'm here to make another promise, one day I'll be better, and I'll tell you guys my story (with Tricia as me of course) and this story will be great, and you guys are going to love it. (I hope so)
You've gotta hit rock bottom before you know which direction to go, right? I love you, see ya!