Quinn was hiding in the bathroom, their bathroom, the place where she realized that she didn't hate Rachel Berry. She for sure didn't hate the beautiful and determined brunette. No she hated the way she grew up, how her family would never accept such a thing. She disliked all the things Rachel made her feel and how lucky she believed her to be to have such a strong and supportive family.

Quinn said all those hurtful things to Rachel to only make herself feel better in hopes that those feelings would go away. She didn't want Finn or any boy for that matter but the jealousy she felt seeing Rachel with another was even worse. The blonde eventually could not hide her sexuality anymore from her family. It was suffocating to go home everyday and feel like she didn't belong, like she couldn't be herself.

Santana was the first to figure out that Quinn was in fact gay but she knew the blonde was absolutely not ready at the time to hear that. It was a rainy day at cheerleading camp when Quinn looked at the brunette Cheerio and asked if she thought the taller girl was gay. Though Santana was well aware of the answer, just by the way the blonde stared at a certain dwarf brunette, but she knew her friend was far too fragile to hear the words. That was sophomore year now into their senior year Quinn had finally come out to Santana and Brittany but no one else had the privilege of seeing that side of the girl.

Santana had followed her blonde best friend into that bathroom, she unfortunately knew too much about it, after Quinn had run off once the brunette had finished serenading Frankenteen. Santana wasn't sure who was more clueless. The hobbit looked at Quinn as if she hung the moon even with all the things they had done to her in the past and the blonde well she had been caught staring far too many times at the brunette but no one dared open their mouth. Then there was Finn who literally had no idea what was going on any day of the week and was determined to ruin Rachel's life. The girl had just announced last week that she would be pushing off NYADA to help the overgrown giant pursue his dream of that week.

The blonde was sitting on the floor with her knees tucked under her chin as the tears streamed down her face.

"Q" the latina sighed out seeing her friend in such a depressing state.

"Go away Santana, I'm not in the mood for an I told you so" the blonde snapped out.

"I wasn't going to say I told you so Quinn, I just want to be here for you" she said as she cuddled up to her best friend while putting her arm around the girl.

"I am going to say that I think she should finally tell the hobbit how you feel"

"Stop calling her names S we stopped that a long time ago" she snapped again. "It's done with affection Quinn plus I've been calling her that so long I don't think it will change now" she said with a bit of a smirk.

"I just can't believe she's going to give up her dream of broadway for that insensitive overgrown giant. She could be so much more than a Lima loser. I'm the one that should be staying here and marrying Finn, pumping out a few kids and maybe becoming a realtor"

"Come on now Quinn you damn well know you could not only do better than Finn Hudson but that you don't even want to be with a man. It's the reason you came out to your mother in the first place." It's true the more the older blonde asked Quinn when she was going to bring home a nice boy and settle down like she did the more the young blonde wanted to claw her own eyes out until one day she just said it. "What if I don't want to marry a man mom?" Let's just say that didn't go over so well but that's a story for another day.

"I'm starting to think that telling my mother I'm gay and getting kicked out 5 months before the end of our senior year wasn't such a good idea San. I love living with you but how am I ever going to afford to go anywhere else other than Lima? I always saw myself going to New York or New Haven and finding myself completely, maybe becoming a lawyer or a writer, something that I could be proud of."

Santana just continued to play with Quinn's hair while she let out her little rant. "I visualized this life with a feisty brunette, whose smile melts my heart, the little woman with a voice so powerful I feel like I'm going to pass out, with eyes that with one look could get me to do anything and she doesn't even see me S. She sees the bitch that I once was." The blonde wiped her cheeks and started to stand up. It was time to go home and feel sorry for herself instead of sitting on the cold and disgusting floor of Mckinley.

Santana grabbed a piece of paper towel and ran it under some cold water to help clean the tear tracks from Quinn's face. The action took Quinn right back to that night at prom when Rachel did the exact same thing as if she hadn't been slapped a minute beforehand. That was the moment when Quinn realized that all those feelings she had been trying to suppress, her biggest secret, she really was in love with Rachel Berry and she couldn't have her. At the time her father would have killed Quinn or worse he would have hurt the Berry family in some way and she could absolutely not let that happen.

The HBIC had watched what Kurt had gone through. She knew her father was behind the phone call that Burt had received at the tire shop and she wasn't strong enough to deal with that but she was determined to protect Rachel even if she had to hide it.

The two girls made their way to the door to head to Quinn's temporary home. What they weren't expecting was to see a certain someone standing right outside the door.

***Something that has been playing around in my mind. Mistakes are mine. All reviews are welcome!***