Olivia sat in the waiting room flipping through an old magazine. When the door opened, Amanda emerged with the therapist trailing behind her. The blonde looked exhausted and had obviously been crying, but the therapist had assured her that if she survived living it, she would survive remembering it. Olivia looked into Amanda's eyes and she could see that her 'big girl' was at the end of her strength. Little Mandy was screaming to come out and she needed to come out immediately.
"I'll see you next week, Amanda. Good work today." the therapist said and then disappeared back into his office, closing the door.
"Hey, little love." Olivia cooed, wrapping her arms around Amanda.
"Hi, Mama. Why am I so tired?" In that instant, 'big girl' Amanda was gone and Little Mandy yawned.
"Well, 'big girl' Amanda just did a lot of hard work in therapy and had a good cry, and sometimes when we cry we get tired. Let's go home and relax."
It had become their tradition to get a treat after therapy, so Mama pulled up to the drive-thru and ordered Amanda her favorite blueberry-flavored frozen ice treat and a vanilla cone for herself. Mama pulled into the parking lot and turned the car off so they could enjoy their treats. Amanda chattered innocently as she ate, fully retreating into 'little' space.
"Your tongue looks like an avatar!" Mama teased when Amanda stuck out her tongue to show off the vibrant blue color. Amanda giggled happily. She was disappointed when the vanilla ice cream didn't make Mama's tongue change colors.
"Do you need Mama to change you?" Olivia asked when they were home. Amanda had been allowed to wear a diaper to therapy since she wanted to take a security item with her but didn't want it to be so completely obvious that she had a security item with her.
"Yes, Mama."
Amanda laid on the bed while Mama gently changed her diaper. Feeling the wonderful softness of the bed beneath her, the exhausted little girl's eyelids began to droop. Olivia lounged next to Amanda on the bed, cuddling her until she was certain that Amanda was asleep, then she got up and tip-toed out of the room. It was a little bit late in the day for a nap, so Olivia knew that bedtime was going to be late and likely chaotic, but that was okay. Amanda had worked hard in therapy and clearly needed to rest. About an hour later, Amanda's deep blue eyes fluttered open and gazed about the room.
"Mama!" Amanda called out, rolling onto her side.
"I'm coming!" Olivia called back and appeared a few seconds later.
"Hey, baby. How'd you sleep?" Olivia smiled, helping Amanda sit up and sliding behind her to cuddle her.
"Good. I had a silly dream about a flying kitty. Kitties don't fly." Amanda giggled, happily cuddling in Mama's arms.
"That does sound very silly. Just like a certain baby girl of mine." Olivia teased, tickling Amanda's belly. Amanda giggled happily.
"Mama, can we get a doggie?"
"Well, I will have to check with the landlord, but I don't see why not."
"Yay! I wanna get a girl doggie and name her Frannie."
Olivia wasn't sure where Amanda had gotten that name from, but she didn't question it. They cuddled for a while until Amanda was fully awake and then they went into the other room where Amanda laughed hysterically as she beat Mama in a game of cards… three times.
"Ugh, I give up. You're too smart." Olivia smiled, kissing Amanda's temple and giving her an affectionate swat.
They both looked up when Olivia's cell phone rang.
"Benson…. Hey, Fin." Olivia greeted.
Amanda switched her mindset when she heard Fin's name. If they were being called in to work, Little Mandy couldn't go.
"On the corner of Sixth and Halifax? Got it." Olivia scribbled down the address.
"We've got a victim?" Amanda asked, standing up from the floor.
"Worse, we have a body. You okay?" Olivia asked, wanting to make sure that Amanda wasn't yanked out of 'little' space too fast.
"Yes, I just have to change before we go." Amanda nodded. The blonde quickly changed out of her diaper into her work clothes and panties while Olivia also changed from her casual clothes into something more professional.
"Whoever found her made an anonymous 911 call and disappeared, we're working to track them down. We're also looking into the possibility that this is some kind of sexcapade gone wrong." Fin explained as the three detectives walked to the scene.
"What do you mean?" Olivia asked.
"The victim was dressed like a little girl." Fin replied.
"That doesn't necessarily mean it was a sexcapade. Liv, a word?" Amanda asked, pulling Olivia aside.
"What's up?" Olivia asked once they were out of earshot.
"The playground is a block away." Amanda pointed out, referring to the park where Olivia often took her to play.
"You're right." Olivia observed as she glanced around at the familiar surroundings.
"If this is going where I think it's going, I don't want the others to find out about me." Amanda said.
"They don't have to find out anything you don't want them to find out. This is a good opportunity to educate them, though, if this girl turns out to be a 'little'."
A few days passed, and it was soon discovered that someone was preying on 'littles'. The body they had discovered was a little one named Tina and she was followed by two more, another little girl and a little boy. Olivia was keeping a very close eye on Amanda when they were out and about. Word had spread and the park was off limits to all the littles in the community until the perp was caught. True to her word, Olivia kept the other detectives from finding out about Amanda, but they were learning a lot and were surprised to discover that ageplay didn't have to involve sex at all. Some did involve sex in their ageplay, but others used it just for fun or as a way to be "re-parented" if their childhood was abusive or neglectful.
"You ever thought about trying that?" Carisi asked Amanda one day without thinking and received a slap upside the head from Olivia.
"Mama, I want to go to the park." Amanda pouted a few days later.
"I know you do, baby. As soon as Mama and 'big girl' Amanda catch the bad guy, I promise we can go back to the park." Olivia promised.
"Stupid bad guy." Amanda grumbled.
The next day, Amanda received an attitude adjustment over Mama's lap for being defiant. She was upset about the park being closed and it was making her act out. Mama picked Amanda up from her lap and cuddled the crying little girl close to her heart. It wasn't very long after that when they arrested the perp and the park was reopened. Amanda giggled happily as she ran through the trees being chased by Mama.