Snippets of Ace and Roger if he was a terrible father. Enjoy~

Ace is in bold.

Hi, Daddy! You missed my birthday today, but I know you're busy and all.

Hi, Ace. I'm so sorry I missed it. My car broke down on the way there! How about I come up once it's fixed, and we can go out to dinner? I'm so sorry I missed it, really. Happy birthday! I sent my gift already, just in case something happened! Did you get it?

It's okay, I understand. Mommy's car breaks down sometimes, but it's cause it's old, but she says I'm a big help to fix it. I didn't get the present, though.

I'm sure it will come soon. Maybe mommy should get a different car. But I'm sure I could fix it for you both.

We can't afford it, but it's okay. Mommy doesn't want you to come to our house, so maybe next time it happens not at home! I have to go to bed.

Daddy, the present didn't come. When are you coming up? It's been a few days, and mommy told me to be patient, but you haven't come yet.

I'll come soon.

Okay.

I had fun with you today! I'm glad you liked my gift.

Yeah. It was okay. I liked the food. And now I have two wiis, so I can have one in the living room and bedroom. I wish you had been happier at dinner. You seemed sad.

The cake was by far the best! I was in a bad mood because mommy shortened the time of our visit. But I came and we had a great time regardless. Right? I'll come visit again, how can I resist seeing my little boy grow up?!

Yeah.

Mommy had a nightmare. She said it was you, but I made her feel better. You're not bad, I know that, so I hope she doesn't have more bad dreams about you.

Oh, I hope she's alright to drive you to school. We all have irrational nightmares sometimes.

She's okay.

That's good!

You didn't come to our visit. Why? I got a fancy outfit and everything…

I'm so sorry, I called ahead of time, they must have forgotten to say anything! I'm sure things would work out better outside of the PEN visits. We could go to ice cream! If you're comfortable with that.

I wanted to see you. But you didn't show up.

And I'm sorry, Ace. Swear.

Ok.

Do you want to go out to ice cream?

Mommy says that it has to be supervised.

That's too bad. You could ask mommy, maybe she can wait in the car outside?

She says no. It has to be supervised. Maybe we can have the visit at Chuck E Cheese! Then we can play and get prizes and cotton candy!

It's too bad mommy is trying to keep up apart, but Chuck E Cheese sounds fun! I'm the best at the hoop throwing game.

Mommy isn't trying to keep us apart. She's following the rules.

I know, I didn't mean to upset you. It's just frustrating how I can't see my own son without a bunch of people around. Then it's hard to just talk to us with people watching.

Ok.

I had a lot of fun! You said you would buy the headphones cause I didn't win them, right?

Daddy?

Are you okay?

It's okay if you don't want to get the headphones, I don't need them. When can we see each other again?

Hi, Ace! Sorry I didn't respond, I have just been so busy.

Ok.

I can buy the headphones. Tell you what, since I didn't answer for a few days, I'll buy you some even BETTER headphones?

You don't have to. I don't need them, really.

No, I said I'd get you them, so I will.

Ok. I'm gonna have so much fun with nice headphones!

Did you get the headphones? I shipped them the other day.

They didn't come yet. Did you mail it to the right place?

I mailed it to the UPS store since I don't have your address. If I did, we could go to a park nearby your house or something. Even supervised.

I'm not supposed to give the address. But I'll tell mommy about the headphones so she can check.

Okay, tell me when they come and let me know that you think of them!

The headphones came! They're red, not black like I asked, but I like them like this more!

I'm glad, son! Next time we visit I can show I have the same kind.

Ok!

Daddy, why did you come to school today? We had to call the police and it made me sad. You should just see me how we have to so you don't get into trouble.

Is it that bad to want to pick my own son up at school? Nobody has told me I'm a bad driver. I don't see the need to call the police, but I'm sorry I made you sad. It makes me sad, too, Ace.

Please don't do that again, okay? It upset mommy a lot…

I didn't mean to, I'm sorry I upset anybody. I just want to drive you home from school. I can't visit there, and I can't even send you letters to your house.

I don't want to talk about it anymore. I'm going to sleep.

Okay, Ace. Love you, sweet dreams.

Love you, too.

I had fun today, daddy!

So did I! We should schedule another visit to the mall this time so we can go window shopping, even get some candy or ice cream at the food court.

But now it has to be at the special places. I wish you hadn't come to school.

Why are they punishing you for something I did? That doesn't seem fair. But I won't do it again. I'm sure if you told mommy I was sorry, she'd forgive me.

Let's talk about something else.

Okay.

Dad, why did you call mommy? You're not supposed to do that. It makes me mad because you yelled at mommy and she cried!

I was only having a conversation. I didn't yell. Did you hear me yell?

I wasn't in there. I was asleep.

Ace, I'm sure she's just over reacting. It was late at night, maybe she didn't have a lot of sleep the night before and was exhausted. I didn't mean to upset her

Ok…

Happy birthday! I can't make it this year, sadly. My back is having a lot of problems and I can't make the drive. But I'll send you the present like I always do.

You never come to the visits. There's always an excuse. Why is it so hard just to see you when you say so?

If I could visit you whenever I wanted, I'd come see you all the time!

I don't want to talk about that. You're only supposed to see me when it's scheduled, and you won't even do that.

It's just a bunch of unfortunate circumstances. My health really isn't doing too well. Maybe we can visit somewhere close to my city? Make it half and half, we'll meet up halfway? Then the drive isn't too long for me. How about that?

Yeah! That sounds like a good idea! I'll ask, and then we can visit and you won't be all tired and cranky.

Sounds great! Get back to me about it. :)

So, how's it going? Did you talk to mommy about us doing it half way?

The special people said it's not a good idea. You should just come to the visits, and we can have fun there. Maybe you can have somebody else drive you. In a good car so it's not so bouncy. Or the train!

It's too bad we cant even go half and half to accommodate my health needs. But fear not, I'll make sure to see you when we're scheduled. Even if it causes daddy some back pain, I want to see you. My only son.

You didn't come! I waited for an hour!

I'm sorry, Ace. My back got worse and I had to stop halfway. If we had been able to meet up halfway, maybe I could have seen you. Would you like me to send the medical records? It'll take a bit of time to dig them out but I'll prove it.

You should have called! Not just stand me up!

I tried to call, but they wouldn't answer.

Liar.

Who told you I'm lying? I've been nothing but truthful, Ace. There are some things we'll need to talk about later in life that I'm sure you'll realize why things sometimes don't work out. Or why we have to meet in front of a bunch of strangers.

Ok.

How's it goin' stranger? We haven't talked in awhile.

Fine. Sorry, I was busy with school.

That's no problem. I'm glad you enjoy school. Make any friends?

Yeah. They can come over now that we don't live together anymore, and we play wii a lot so that's fun.

They could come over before, too. Nobody was stopping them. I'm glad you have friends, they're important in life. To have people to talk to when things are hard.

Yeah. I have to go.

Okay, don't be a stranger.

Your promotion was something to see! I cant believe how big you've grown! We didn't get to talk much, though. I'm sorry I had to leave early. You saw me there, right? I waved and cheered for you and everything. Going to junior high already. I cant believe how much time has passed!

I didn't see you. You could have stuck around.

I had something come up. I'm sorry you didn't see me, but I'm happy I saw how happy you were with all your friends.

Yeah. I have to go.

Okay, son. Congrats on leaving elementary school!

How are you?

Fine.

That's good. How about we visit soon? To make up for not seeing one another at promotion.

Idk.

Okay, take your time. Tell me when you're ready!

Hello?

Hi. Sorry, I was doing stuff.

That's fine. Keeping busy is best. I'm coming into town again, soon. My back is back in business! We can have a supervised visit. I'll bring pizza, too.

Okay.

How did you like our visit?

It was okay.

Only okay?

Yeah. It was awkward.

It wasn't for me. Maybe it was because there were others listening in and watching. Having people stare you down while talking has to make you uncomfortable, but I'll keep seeing you, even if it's with other people there, too.

Okay.

Dad, I need your half of the money for my throat surgery. When we got there, they said you hadn't paid any of it, and mom had to pay for it all. It was embarrassing and made me angry.

I know I sent the money. I swear on my life, I did. Did mom misplace it? I would never leave you hanging on something so important!

Don't pin this on her. Just do your job as a father. Pay for half of my medical bills. Stop playing games.

I'm not playing games. I would never leave you hanging. I know you can't pay for that. I'm sorry it made you angry and embarrassed.

Of course it made me angry, I was an hour away from surgery and found you hadn't contributed at all. Pay us back. I'll talk to you again once you do that.

I paid her back. Talk to me, I've been lonely. How are you recovering? I had my own tonsils removed, too.

Really? When was that? How old were you? And the money came. Thanks for doing your job late.

Why are you so angry? I paid double what I had to because the money didn't go through the first time. Surely the money has come by now. And I had my surgery around your age. I know how scary it is to throw up blood. What a horror show.

I'm not mad. I have to go.

Okay. I love you.

Yeah.

I friended you on Facebook. Did you see? I'm so old, I'm just now getting on Facebook. I should have a long time ago.

I didn't see it.

Will you go check now and friend me?

K.

Hello? Did you accept my friend request?

No. Mom said it's not a good idea.

Of course she did. Is she your boss? Limiting our contact is a bit too much, isn't it? First, I've had to be portrayed as some abusive liar. I have legitimate reasons that I was unable to come to our play dates. I have proof if you want it.

Mom knows what's best for me. Stop trying to make her look bad. And sure, give me all the proof of your nine missed supervised visits. I'm waiting. Bye.

Hello. I'm sorry we left off on a bad note the other day. I just want to talk with you, see you without this gestapo problem going on. I can't even see or talk to my own son without being portrayed as the bad guy. It's painful.

I'm waiting for your proof.

I'll send it as soon as possible.

Hey, son.

PROOF.

This is immature, Ace. You're fourteen, learn to forgive and forget.

Forgive and forget you being a liar? It's kind of hard to do when you lie every other message.

I don't lie. I can't find the documents about the car breaking down, as those are hard to get once you toss them out. But the medical records are coming.

Sure.

Here they are. Proof of my back problems. I hope this can clear the air and we can move on from that incident.

This is from three months before you missed the visit on 10/13.

The pain was lingering, Ace. I have serious, chronic back problems that truly interfere with my day to day activity. I don't make this all up, Ace. Even your mom knows about it.

Just because it's there doesn't mean you can just justify being a flake because of it.

Please calm down. It's been a while since I messed up. And I admit, I should have pushed through, no matter how painful it would have been. I didn't want it to ruin out visits with how grumpy I would have been from the pain. I should have tried harder.

If you'd given me that reason, I could have forgiven you at the time. I wouldn't have wanted you there angry, either. But you missed three in a row, all for the same problem.

Do you forgive me?

I don't know. I have to go.

Next time we talk, I hope neither of us are upset. Love you.

K.

I need you to start paying for money for my new meds. They're expensive, we need help.

I'm so sorry about your narcolepsy. You can always talk about it with me. I'll pay for half of all the meds. Promise. It's a serious disorder and I want to make it as easy for you as I can. Occupational therapy is useful, too. Tell me how I can help.

I just need the money for the pills. I don't want to talk about it. Then it makes it more real. Sorry, I'm just really not in the mood to talk.

I understand. I want you to get as much help as you want/need.

Thanks for paying your half.

Of course! Narcolepsy is nothing to take lightly.

Yeah.

How is occupational therapy going? Wanna talk about it?

I can't get a license anytime soon. I can't go outside on my own, or even go down the stairs unsupervised. We moved my bedroom to the first floor. At least I have the master bathroom now… My friends probably think I'm a burden. They have to watch me closely in case I pass out or have cataplexy. I even have to leave class to take fucking naps.

I'm so sorry, Ace. I wish there was something more I could do to help, but there's nothing I can give but support.

Thanks.

Always.

Today went better. The meds make me nauseous, but at least that makes me less likely to anxiety-binge.

It'll take a few different kinds until you're settled.

It's taking too long.

I know it seems that way. But it's best to not put all your eggs in one basket. How is life outside of narcolepsy?

Okay. My grades are still good. They haven't slipped, but it might be out of pity for my teachers. I don't know. My friends are being nice about it. They're great. I love them.

I wish I could meet my son's best friends that are helping you so much. You need all the support you can get.

I don't know about that.

I understand.

Thanks.

I sent you a book about anxiety. If you'd like to reference that. I know times have been tough lately.

I'm not interested.

Why? What did I do now? How have I been slandered this time? What am I the bad guy about now?

You stopped paying for my medication. You touted all this "support" for my condition, being all nice and all, and then stop paying. Why?! Wtf is wrong with you?! I need this medication and can't afford it!

My payments got delayed and my card declined. I don't have work, either. My back injury keeps me from work.

'My back injury this, my back injury that' That's your excuse every time! I don't even press you over the missing child support because I lost hope of you paying like you LEGALLY HAVE TO.

Mocking my health is not a good thing. How would you like it if I did it to you? And I'm sure the low-income insurance could pay for it.

You're right. They are, because we lost our insurance and are now on the cheap one, that doesn't support my medicine. So yes, my bills are being paid now without you. But if you'd just paid before, I could have continued on the drugs that were actually treating me. Thanks for making me miss prom from being too damn tired.

There are plenty of medications for cheaper. I know it seems I was doing wrong for not supporting, but it will turn into something good, I promise.

At least you admit it this time.

I've always been forthcoming with my mistakes. I've given you proof of injuries when you wanted them.

Wow, dad of the fucking year.

I'm sad that things have gotten this bad between us. I hate you being angry at me. All I've wanted was to be part of your life. Things have just always been in our way. There's always something new I've done wrong, and so much of it is unjustified.

Boo fucking hoo.

Please text me when you're calmer.

You won't be hearing me for a long time then. Bye.

Hi, son.

How are you?

It's been a month, I miss speaking to you. How are you feeling, how are the new meds working?

They aren't working. I fell and cracked my skull from passing out. I'm sure you won't be billed for that cost, either.

Why didn't you tell me?!

Why would I? You don't give a shit.

Don't call me. I don't want to talk on the phone.

This is something you should have told me!

I'm tired. Bye.

I'm coming up this weekend. My friend moved up there, so I can possibly see you more! I'm sure you're old enough to see my unsupervised. I can actually see my son! What do you want for our dinner?

Please respond. I miss talking with you, truly. You're my only son.

Then you should have made more kids. You didn't even ask if I want to see you.

No other children could ever replace you! I couldn't handle giving out so much love to more children other than my precious son. I want to see you. I just assumed we could clear the air, have a heart to heart about everything that's happened, what really happened while you were fooled all this time.

So I'm living a lie.

More like brainwashing. I wanted to hold off this conversation with you until you were older, but we need to talk things out. I love you, Ace. I only ask for another chance to show it to you.

I don't know. I don't trust you.

Then this visit could fix that! A real talk, not just over text we won't even talk on the phone. I understand you've never liked talking on the phone, but some things need to be said and not typed.

Fine. But if you start spinning shit, I'm leaving.

Fair enough.

Where are you. I'm waiting.

I'm here. You don't see me? I'm in the blue truck. I thought we could drive to the nearest coffee shop.

We came here for a reason. It's already a coffee shop. I see you now. Just come inside. I'm not driving off with you.

Okay, I'll be inside in a minute.

How are you feeling? Did my words clear things up? I'm sure you must be feeling a lot of things right now. A lot has been kept from you and all. It must be hard. I hope this has revitalized our relationship.

Nope.

You see, I'm not stupid like you think I am. I'm not naive. I spent all night binging court documents. I know the real side of everything. Your assault and battery charges. The possible sexual abuse, as well. I didn't even know that until now.

That never happened! You mother spun that story, I would commit suicide before touching you in any inappropriate way!

Mom fought that too, but the therapist thought otherwise. So, you don't deny hitting mom?

I was a different person then.

Well, you didn't have your back pain to blame it on. I don't know what you thought would happen from that talk. You basically told me my life is a lie, I'm stupid for beliveing it, I should have lived with you all this time - despite you doing drugs and me not knowing. You're a liar. I'm done. Seriously.

This was not how I wanted things to go. I gave you the truth. Those documents must be skewed, I never laid a hand on you. I may have done some negative things to your mother, and I'm sorry for that. We've never cleared the air, she has never spoken with me about it. If she had, maybe we could have all talked as a family. Maybe a broken one.

You're not family, Roger. I'm seriously done with your games and bullshit. I once thought we could rekindle, but you can't do anything but lie and manipulate. So, this is the last time I'm messaging with you. Oh, and I'm gay, by the way. Piss off.

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