"IloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyou IloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyou" Subaru stood before the woman of shadows, dumbfounded by the half elf's incessant declarations of love.
With each I love you he flinched further back, trying to hide away from the witch, an act that was all too difficult as he found himself stiff with fear. His heart racing as the woman took slow steps toward him, his eyes widening as they shook in their sockets. His mouth hung open in a mixture of fear, fury, and confusion, unable to form any words as his mind raced.
He couldn't get a clear look at the woman's face, as a veil of shadows covering the top half of her face, all he could see were her lips. The girl's mouth was slowly but surely morphing into a sickeningly sweet smile.
His thoughts raced as his breathing became laboured. Flinching back slowly as the woman got close to him, he was surprised to realise that she radiated no heat, in fact, the air around her was cold, but oddly not unpleasant.
No matter how far away he stood, or how far back he leaned, she followed. Smile still plastered on her face as she approaches him, she puts her mouth next to his ear. Like an automated robot her mouth once again opened to declare her love.
"I love you." She whispered, her voice sickly sweet and fond. He wanted to refute it, wanted to deny her love, hide away from it, but he couldn't. he couldn't deny her love, her voice, her actions, everything made it so clear that she did in fact love him.
What was worse was his reaction.
The witch heavily debated kissing his neck, biting his ear even, but that would harm her Subaru, and she wished not for harm to befall him, not now, not when he was so fragile.
Instead, she leaned away, smile still bright, and reached her hands out to cup his cheeks. Her smile could only widen as she felt the warmth of his red cheeks.
"I- What?!" He stuttered out, unsure of how to respond. Unsure of how he felt.
The witch was not deterred, her smiling face only softened. Slowly but surely, she carefully removed the shadows from her body, and extended them to him, drowning the outside world out.
The boy looked around; body unresponsive as he watched the sanctuary around him disappear.
Her body got closer to his, her now revealed figure almost pressing against his. He felt an odd sense of security in her presence, she was the only thing he knew wouldn't harm him.
He took in her now uncovered features, the only word he could think of to describe her figure, from every inch, was gorgeous.
His mind was a swamp of thoughts. Pain. Loss. Suffering. Loneliness. Hatred. Death. Despair. Hatred. Sadness. Depression.
But with her close to him, a person he knew would never hurt him, he felt safe, he felt cared for, he felt cherished.
His thoughts didn't align with his feelings of confliction.
Her hands still cupping his cheeks as she leaned forward soaked in his warmth. She had to push her excitement down as she neared him, the temptation to kiss him then and there grew and grew as she touched her forehead to his, her amethyst eyes staring into his.
"I love you, my beloved." The words followed her pattern of love, only making him feel better.
His breathing became more laboured as time went on, a breakdown on the horizon as tears built in his eyes. He couldn't tear his eyes from hers.
Her eyes were beautiful, an unmatchable beauty that melted his heart in uncomfortable ways. The emotions swimming in her wonderful amethyst jewels brought forth Subaru's own surge of emotion.
Her devotion, her undivided attention. The love, care, and need. Her protectiveness, worry, and concern.
His own eyes held the mixture of the horrible feelings within him.
It truly saddened her to see such a depressing look in her beloved eyes. She had to silence the raging anger at the ones who hurt her Subaru.
"You are the most important person in my world. I love you, my beloved." She repeated, voice cracking at finally being able to speak her mind to the man she loved so dearly.
"I- But im useless! Pointless! A failure! Completely and utterly useless" He screamed as the tears fell from his face. He was surprised to feel the tender touch of the woman as she used her dainty finger to remove the liquid from his cheeks, stroking them lovingly.
"You have so much worth, my beloved. Let me show you, please." She begged softly, letting her emotions reach the man.
The boy felt his legs lose their strength as he leaned further into the witch, who's hands and fallen from his cheeks and made there way to pull him into a loving embrace. Lightly stroking the back of his head as he struggled to keep sobs back, she couldn't help but kiss the top of his head.
Once again, her lips found there way to his ear.
"You are loved, loved by me. So, so, dearly loved." She said, unmissable care in her voice, the love clearly on show for her viewer of one, the only viewer she ever wanted.
"I'm such a failure, I let them die so many times! I put everyone through so much pain!" he screamed, pulling back from the embrace of the witch, who continued to stare at him lovingly.
The sickening smile remained spread across her face as her hands fell to her sides.
"I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you." She continued to repeat, flooding the boy's mind with nothing but her love.
Until he cracked.
A small smile found its way onto his face as he looked at her, a noticeable change in his eyes as the weak mental state revealed itself to her.
"I love you, too." He murmured, shocking the witch of envy.
Her eyes widened and smile growing into a toothy grin, she clasped her hands together in front of her ample breasts and squirmed around in ecstasy.
"He loves me too. He loves me too. He loves me. Loves me. Loves me. Love love love love love love." Her breathing became heavy as her crazed expression shifted to one that was only fitting on the face of a loving housewife, "Say it again, please." She asked softly, making Subaru's grin return.
"I love you!" He yelled proudly, and before he knew it, the shadows engulfed everything around him.
The woman had a gleeful expression on her face as her mouth burst open into a wide and happy smile, her eyes followed suit and also widened happily, her hands remained clasped tightly together as she pressed them further into her breasts.
As an unconscious reaction to her strong emotions, the area around them was engulfed in darkness. Subaru's wavering sanity paid this detail little, if any, attention.
After so long, after so many painful deaths, and so much heartache, he had finally snapped and given into the one constant in his life: Satella, the witch of envy.
He had given into the one thing, no, the one person, who he could guarantee with his safety.
Subaru's shoulders loosened as tears streaked down his face at a rapid pace, the emotions having boiled over inside of him.
Everything would hurt him, everyone would hurt him, nowhere was safe. Nowhere but here, in the witch of Envy's shadows.
He couldn't trust anyone, not anyone but the woman that stands in front of him, that he was sure of.
After all, he had experienced pain unlike any other. He had gone through, and experienced so many things, most of which are unique completely to him.
Unconsciously the broken boy moved closer to the woman he perceived as his saviour.
"It hurt. It hurt so much." He sobbed as the woman brought him into another embrace. She had a small smile on her face as she watched the man she loved so dearly break down in her arms.
She lightly stroked the back of the boy's head with tender fingers, trying to calm her beloved down, while also enjoying having him depend on her.
Slowly but surely, she manoeuvred them to the floor. He was now clinging to the kneeling woman as he cried about how much 'it' hurt.
She continued to sooth him softly, making sure her shadows slowly consumed what surrounded them. She felt so strong when he was with her.
"What hurt you, my beloved?" She growled out, clearly intending to bring great harm to those who dared to touch her beloved, let alone hurt him, "I won't let anyone hurt my beloved. Nothing should be able to touch you, hurt you, feel you, love you. Nothing but me~" She cooed like the woman in love that she was.
"Gnawing. Tearing. Ripping. Biting. Inside, oh God they're inside. Help me!" The broken man pleaded as he clawed at his very skin, only to be stopped by the woman.
"Do not hurt yourself, my beloved." She said coldly, the next thing he knew she was holding his wrists in front of him with a sickening smile, but a smile that he loved, adored, a smile that brought warmth to his heart.
He felt the sweet sensation of magic as the half elf woman healed him.
"Who hurt you?" She asked, more calm this time.
"Rabbit." Was the only word the poor boy could mutter, once again moving to be close to her.
"Ah! Worry not my beloved, for the rabbit will be erased soon!" She chirped as she happily took his head and placed it between her soft breasts, a feeling he soaked up all too eagerly.
She swayed side to side with a smile, happy to have her beloved in her grasp.
"I spent so long waiting for you my beloved." She told him sadly, almost as if she was mourning a serious loss. "It was painful to watch you go through so much pain." At the mention of his pain and suffering he whimpered, immediately nuzzling further into her.
Her body held warmth, not literal, but metaphorical warmth, euphoric warmth, lovely warmth.
He wished to never leave his angels side, for she was all he had.
She stroked his head again with a smile.
"It's been rough, hasn't it?" She asked, her voice a mere whisper as she almost sang it into his ear.
He wasn't sure what it was about those words, but it made his tears fall at a more rapid pace, the relatively calm downpour turned into a fierce stream.
His sobs were all that could fill the void as blank memories flew through his mind. He didn't understand what the memories were, all he recognised was the pain that they filled him with.
"Please help me." He whimpered weakly, still clinging to his saviour. The woman could only smile gleefully down at him.
"Of course, I'll help you, my beloved! I swear it on my very own name." she gave a small giggle "Don't you worry about a thing, your beloved Satella-Tan will take care of it from here. You don't need anything but me, understand?" her voice was sweet as it spoke those sour words. To her surprise the boy looked up at her with shining eyes and a wide smile.
"Thank you so much Satella-Tan!" The way he flipped between emotions, from sad to happy, pained to gleeful, depressed to elated, it wasn't natural. It wasn't normal, but neither seemed to notice or care.
Deep within the boy's mind, something cracked open, closing off many things and leaving only one thing remaining. All he needed was Satella.
The broken boy smiled at his beloved, the painful memories fading into nothingness as faces from his past began to blur, the last one he remembered was the one in front of him, smiling at him.
Satella smiled down at her beloved "Good boy." She cooed, continuing to stroke his head. "All you need is to be with me, and I'll keep you safe, okay?" She instructed slowly, squirming in excitement at the idea of having Subaru all to herself.
"Of course it is, my beloved." His voice held the same devotion and commitment hers did as he chirped out his response. The half elf's pale cheeks heated up and turned a deep red as she looked away bashfully.
"Your beloved~" She giggled softly for some time before looking back at her beloved with need in her eyes, "Call me yours again." She demanded.
"You are mine and I am yours, my beloved." The boy said happily, all too eager to call himself hers.
"Hehe, Subaru~" She cooed, red still colouring her cheeks "Who do you belong to? ~" She asked excitedly.
"You." His instantaneous response made the excited girl even more excited, the urge to lunge at him and tackle him the ground, making him submit entirely to her, only growing.
"And who do I belong to?" She asked, still sounding giddy.
"Me."
The two shared a wide smile as the half elf moved to wipe the boy's tears.
"I'm so happy." She said as she stroked his cheek, staring deeply into his eyes. Subaru could only hum his agreements as he moved his face further into her touch, closing his eyes in pure ecstasy at the feeling of love she gave him.
Noticing the boy's happiness, the woman smiled in content.
"I love you." She reiterated for the hundredth time.
"I love you, too." His response was instant and without hesitation.
The two sat in the shadows for some time before the half elf let out a giggle.
"I'll keep you safe, my Subaru. You are mine and mine alone, I won't share you with anyone. No one can steal my beloved Subaru from me. Not again." She was happy to see him smile wildly at being called 'her Subaru' she felt a familiar desire swell up deep within her as she smiled back at him.
"Of course, my beloved! I don't need anyone but you!" He chirped, sanity slowly leaving him.
The half elf girl giggled for a mere moment before lunging at him, capturing his lips with her and forcing her tongue into his mouth, not that he would resist of course.
She couldn't help but smile into the kiss as she felt his tongue eagerly touch hers, wanting to play the game of love with it.
Her tongue made its way through every section of his mouth that it could, to the deepest depths her muscle could go and back, playfully poking at his own mouth muscle, happy that it responded.
She pulled away, the mixture of their saliva covering both of their mouths. She excitedly licked up the fluid with the tongue that had just been deep within his mouth, a scene that the boy found very arousing.
With repeated breaths she smirked down at him.
"You're mine." She stated, once again attacking his mouth with hers, before pulling away yet again. "All mine." Her mouth once again latched onto his desperately, before once again pulling away. "Nobody but me can have you." Another kiss. "Not some half elf whore imposter." Another kiss. "Not some blue bitch." And another. "not a worthless girl." Again. "Not a greedy slut." And again "Nobody but me." And another. "All mine." Once again, her lips found his. "You don't need anyone but me." Her tongue traced his lips as if they were the most delicious meal in the world. She pulled further away from him, he was a panting mess of course, she was now straddling his hips with a crazed smile.
"O-Of cou-" He was cut off as her lips crashed into his.
"You."
Her lips found his again.
"Belong."
Once again, her lips found his, her tongue poking his teeth playfully.
"To"
This time she teased him, rubbing her tongue along the roof of his mouth.
"Me!" She yelled at the top of her lungs before making out with her beloved.
Her lips were glued to his as she pushed her face down onto his greedily. He reciprocated and moved his head up to press as far against her as it could.
All he needed was Satella.
All he wanted was Satella.
She was his everything, she would keep him safe, warm, and loved.
She would keep him sane.
Ah yes, more Satella, really, I can't write anything else, can I?
Joking aside, I think its only appropriate to add a disclaimer; this fic will contain heavy smut, and is also not like my other work, this will not be wholesome, it won't be happy, and there will be some more fucked up sit here.
Truly the only thing this has in common with my other fics is the fact that the ship is Satella and Subaru. I want to try something different with this one, im hoping it turns out well.
Im also not working on this alone, for once I have help, a beta reader who has fed me more ideas for this than I can count, thanks a bunch dude.