Chapter 1

"I excel at many things, but getting over you wasn't one of them. I think I need to just be your friend." Those are the last words Amy remembered from the phone call she had with Sheldon. So that's it? We're no longer getting back together? We're done? Tears began pulling at the corner of her eyes as the gravity of what just occurred starts to sink in. She's no longer Sheldon Cooper's girlfriend.

No date nights

No relationship agreement

She'll never get to kiss him anymore

They'll never get to text, call or skype him like they used to.

She might not be even invited to group dinners anymore. Although she had gotten close to everyone, she's well aware that before her, they were all Sheldon's friends first. And with her and Sheldon's fall out, she doesn't want to put her beloved friends in the awkward state where they have to choose sides.

What have I done? She lamented.

She spent the entire night crying, turning and tossing on her bed, her thoughts never leaving her alone.

Back in Los Robles apartment, Sheldon laid restless on his bed thinking the exact same thoughts.

Have I done the right thing?

Will I ever see her again?

Should I call her back?

Will I ever get to hold her hand again? Kiss her? Hug her?

No! She said we could be friends; of course I'd still see her. Of course, she will still be part of our group, part of my life.

After the phone call, Penny and Leonard did not say a thing after hearing what he said to Amy. They just gave him a hug and assured Sheldon that they will be just across the hall if ever he needs anything.

After a few hours of tears and torture, they both drifted to sleep with the possibility of a love lost forever.

The next day was no different, Amy woke up and by judging by the limitation of her vision, she's pretty sure her eyes are swollen from crying herself to sleep. Great! She thought. She turns to her phone to find 2 text messages, each from Penny and Bernadette. They may have heard already. She let out an audible sigh shaking her head before reading the texts, the first one from her beautiful blonde bestie and the next is from her cute blonde fellow scientist.

"Hey Ames! I haven't seen you in a while. We haven't really talked after Leonard and I got back from Vegas. I miss you! Girls' night soon?"

"Hey Amy! Can we do girls' night soon? I miss you and Penny!"

She closed her eyes pondering how much she misses her girlfriends, the guys and of course, Sheldon. It took her all the strength she had not to hug him and hold him while they were at the Aquarium yesterday. She was so certain that after she calls him, things will be back to normal again. No, I can't do this. We're over. I need to move on, and if I'm going to do that I need to distance myself from him, from everyone. However painful that may be. She snapped out from her trance, toss her phone away and jump in to the shower to get ready for the day.

Leonard and Penny came to check up on Sheldon, they were surprised to see him preparing breakfast and seem to be taking things well. Or that's how it appears to be. "Good morning, buddy!" Leonard said sweetly. Sheldon looked up to the couple and smiled. Penny gave Leonard a look and mouthed the words "What's happening?" Ignoring his wife, Leonard walked over to the kitchen island and said "Are you alright, Sheldon?" Sheldon gave a confused look to Leonard before answering "I am. Why wouldn't I be?" Penny joined the two gentlemen and said "Well, sweetie...It's just you know with what happened with you and Amy, we thought..."

"Penny, Leonard, I appreciate your concern. But I am fine, Amy and I are friends and that's fine with me. She could still come here for our weekly group dinner or for one of your girls' night." Sheldon said.

"From what we heard yesterday, she seems to be trying to get back together. Why'd you turn her down, buddy?" Leonard asked with honesty and concern in his voice.

Sheldon remained quiet for a bit. I'm afraid to go through the pain again. She got tired of me once, how can I be sure that she won't leave me again?

"Like I said Leonard, my break up with Amy was hard. I'm not denying it. Yesterday proved that we are capable of functioning as friends; I think it's for the best. Maybe I was right in the first place, that this romantic relationship nonsense is not really for me. I can now focus on science and science alone again."

The Hofstadter couple were stunned by Sheldon's answer that neither of them was able to give a follow up question, they both watched Sheldon disappear from the hallway to his room.

Penny was the first to snap out from their trance "What is happening? Now he's eating breakfast in his room? Leonard, we need to do something about this! Sheldon is not doing fine!"

"I know Penny, but what can we do? He already turned Amy down. Have you heard from her? She must be devastated. Oh goodness, I don't know what Sheldon is doing! We need to do something! It's only a matter of time before he starts adopting cats again. What if it's not cats this time?" Leonard said in panic.

Penny pulled out her phone and said "I'm going to call Amy or maybe just send her a text, if we're talking; I want it to be face to face."

The couple stood there thinking of what to do with their genius friend who is obviously again, losing his mind over Amy.

Stepping out of the shower, while walking towards her dresser, Amy heard a notification from her phone indicating that she has a new message.

It's Penny.

"Ames, please talk to me. You don't have to get through this alone. I'm here, always. I miss you."

That message almost made Amy cry her eyes out again. She knows Penny cares for her but she can't do this right now. The pain is too much and seeing anyone from the group will only make it worse. She and Sheldon have been broken up for a while now, but it's different this time. She has to accept and live by the fact that she's no longer getting back together with Sheldon. She went to Penny's message again and wrote

"I'll be fine, Penny. Thank you for asking. I would love to do girls' night again but maybe not anytime soon. I have so much to do at work anyway. I know I don't have to say this but I feel the need to, please take care of Sheldon. See you around. Thank you, Penny. For everything."

Amy stared at her message for a while

Where do I go from here?

How do I start over?

Tears began rolling down from her cheeks. She has no other friends, for the past 5 years her life completely revolved around Sheldon and their social group. Amy was almost certain that they will all grow old together, and with everyone else moving forward she hoped she andSheldon will be next. Well, a girl can dream. Now, all of her dreams and hopes were shattered.

Back in his room, with Meemaw's ring in his hand, Sheldon stares at his bedroom wall blankly. The thought of Amy never leaving his mind.

Her contagious laugh,

Her beautiful smile,

The way her face lit up when he looks at her

Her eyes.

Her beautiful emerald eyes.

How do I get over this? How do I get over her? Sheldon shook his head and placed his Meemaw's ring back to his drawer. I'll get through this. Maybe I will. Besides, we would still be friends. Just friends.

Hello, everyone! This story has been sitting in my computer for years and recently, I finally had the courage to share it. I just rewatched the whole series of The Big Bang Theory and I'm missing my favorite couple so much so… here we are. Thanks for your time!