First and Foremost
The bright orange vinyl began sticking to his cheek, trapping his heavy sighs against his warm skin but James didn't care. Why should he care? It wasn't as if he had a modeling gig to run off to so the inevitable red line pressing into his cheek could stay. It wasn't as if he had an acting gig to prepare for so he could continue to lay flopped on the couch, feet dangling off the edge, wrinkling his clothes. It wasn't as if he had a solo moment in a song to rehearse for so he could let his throat roll an agonized vocalization around in his chest.
He'd left Rocque Records hours ago and yet he still heard Gustavo's shouts echoing in his head: "Stop smiling like that, I hate it!", "A garbage disposal has better timing than you!", "I could replace you with a mop and it wouldn't make any difference!", and his favorite, "Okay, do it again, but this time, SING ACTUAL NOTES!"
Clearly, Gustavo was wrong. …He had way better hair than a mop so, actually, it would make a difference!
James uttered another body wrenching sigh.
It just wasn't fair. He spent so much time rehearsing, getting his vocals warmed up, loosening his muscles to better execute dance moves. He put his all into being a pop star! Okay, sometimes he could get distracted by the lights and the glitz and glamor but who wouldn't? Pretty people wanted to dress him, sculpt his hair, perfect his image (not that they had to do much on that front), have them joint their ranks, put him in the spotlight where he belonged. Why was it a bad thing? When it came down to it, he wanted this. He always wanted this!
Kendall, Carlos, and Logan didn't get it. He loved his buds, but that didn't mean he didn't see their eye rolls, hear their scoffs, or feel their dismissive aside glances when he talked about a potential modelling job or how he was, in fact, the best person to lead a song (or sing the whole thing, why split hairs?), or when he shared his dream of buying a house to turn it into a personal salon/display museum for his bandanas. (It makes sense to keep it all in one place!)
All he was trying to do was make his dreams a reality. It wasn't as if he was pushing his buds off a cliff to get there. It'd happen eventually. It was inevitable. (The recognition, not the cliff-pushing.) He had the face, he had the voice, he had the talent, he had the body, he had the face. He was born for this life. He was meant to be doing this!
But no one else seemed to notice.
Groaning, James turned onto his side, tucked his arm beneath his head and curled his knees up to his chest. If Katie were around, she'd point and laugh at him, maybe say he was being a big baby or some other phrase with big words he didn't understand. Thankfully she, the guys, and Mama Knight were off at an LA Kings game. He'd been looking forward to the game for weeks but going didn't appeal to him after the day he had. He'd taken enough hits to watch other people get tossed around like a ragdoll.
Sometime later he heard the distinct sound of someone climbing the stairs to get to the swirly slide entrance and yet he still didn't move. Instead, he watched dust motes float and around the shafts of gold light seeping in through the blinds.
"Hey, it's just me." Ordinarily James would've jumped up at the sound of Mickey's voice, double-checking his reflection in his lucky pocket mirror to ensure he was presentable and his muscles were at their peak. He couldn't let her see him at anything other than his best. He was James Diamond! He didn't do mediocre! This time, though, he stayed still, listening as she came down the swirly slide, the rubber on her docs tapping against the ground on her dismount. It was the only time she didn't knock before entering. The door was always open, and people came and went as they pleased, but not Mickey. She made sure to knock every time. It was polite, she explained, looking at them all as if they'd been raised by wolves.
He mentally followed her footsteps—always with that cute little bounce to it—around the back of the couch heading to the island until she came into view. She dressed comfortably as always: dread locks pulled back into a half updo with gold rings and cuffs, her favorite cropped white *NSYNC hoodie depicting the image of their first album cover, dark skinny jeans, pale blue docs and a makeup-free face. She never wore makeup except for occasions where it called for it such as appearances, interviews, and photoshoots. James never thought she needed it.
"I'm just picking up my Tupp…er…ware…" He watched as Mickey's eyebrows collided and she leaned to the side, peering at him as if she didn't recognize him on the couch. He didn't blame her; he was sure he wouldn't recognize himself if he could see himself right now. "James? Are you okay?" she asked, taking a few steps closer, tucking a lock behind her ear.
James' lips pushed out another sigh. "I'm sad," he replied. No sense in hiding the obvious. His lower lip already dropped to a pout upon uttering the words and he couldn't fight the wave washing over him, dragging his mood further (if that were possible).
Shoving her hands into the front of her pockets she approached. "'Cause of Gustavo?"
"Yeah."
"And?"
He blinked. "That's it."
Her eyebrow arched. "No it's not. I can see it all over your pretty face." Sliding a hand out her pocket, she wiggled a pointed finger at him, motioning in circles around his face.
"Hmph. At least you think it's pretty," he mumbled.
She sat on the floor in front of the couch, turning her knees to the side, propping her elbow on the cushion and her cheek on her fist while turning to him. He looked back at her, taking in her freckle dotted nose. Her dark eyes squinted for a moment, mimicking the small pull to her mouth until they both relaxed. "What's up? Besides the Gustavo part. I was wearing soundproof headphones while recording my bass lines today—I still heard him through it. And while that sucked, I know that's not the only issue."
"Maybe I just wanted to be alone."
"James, you can't go an elevator ride without needing someone to talk to." Her mouth quirked in the corner, bolstering the tease to her words. He managed a small smile. "Speaking of which. Where are the guys?"
"They went to a Kings game."
"Are you meeting them there?"
"I didn't want to go."
Her eyes widened, dark brown lighting to reflect her surprise. "You didn't want to go to a King's game?"
James twisted his mouth to the side, shrugging. It wasn't that he didn't want to go. Of course he wanted to go. Everything about hockey appealed to him: the crisp air filling his lungs, the crackling excitement plucking his energized nerves, the sharp snap of wood smacking against rubber, the scuffing of sharp blades on the ice, the cold adding a natural blush to his cheeks, the hot girls dressed in jerseys, the warm nacho cheese sliding down his throat, the way the bright lights lit him on his good side (both of them). But, even with the Kings and Ducks matchup, it wasn't enough to get him off the couch.
"Well, what about hanging by the pool? It's Golden Hour." She reached out and poked his cheek. "Your favorite time of day."
That was true. Nothing made his selfies better than the effect of a filter without actually having to use one. He thought about it for a second, shook his head, and sighed again. "I don't feel like it."
"Wow." Her lashes fluttered due to her rapid blinking. A hum sounded behind her turned down mouth and she reached out, squeezing his knee. He felt a tug somewhere in the pit of his stomach at her touch, like a cork easing its way out of a bottle. "Do you want to talk about it?"
"No." Silence. Then: "It just doesn't make sense!" And it all came pouring out, the frustrations and grievances. Not just from that day but from the past year and a half, from the start of it all. How they didn't want him, they wanted Kendall. How no matter how hard he tried it wasn't good enough. How, even though he had the talent, and knew it in his bones, it didn't match the "fire" they looked for. How he was dragged along to form a group in a business he'd always dreamed of being in. How he was constantly shuttled back and forth between his parents, passed along like a discarded accessory. How he was overlooked time and time again (which he still wasn't even sure how that was possible with his height and face and style.) How he was dismissed and taken as being "dramatic" when he opted not to go to the Kings game.
It was that feeling, the want—or lack thereof—which kept him glued to the couch. It seemed everyone could direct it towards anyone and anything else but him. No one chose him. No one wanted him.
The entire time he spoke Mickey stayed quiet save for the occasional hums to accompany her head nods. By the end she offered up a clicking tsk and a welcomed, "Aww, dude, I'm sorry you had to deal with all that." She looked at him and he looked right back, wondering for a minute if they were having some sort of staring contest until he got cross-eyed and had to blink. Her shoulders shook with a quiet laugh, lips curling upwards in the corners. Silence stretched between them. James's eyes widened slightly, taking on a pointed look.
"Is that it?" James finally prompted.
"Is what it?"
"Is that all you have to say?"
"…Yeah."
"You're not going to tell me I'm being dramatic? You're not going to give me some advice? You're not going to give me some pep talk?"
Mickey snorted. "And what kind of advice could I give you? To just get over it?" James nodded rapidly. "You're upset. Telling you to get over it won't change that. Besides, I get it."
"You do?"
"That feeling you have to work twice as hard just to get the recognition you feel you rightfully deserve only to be overlooked?" She let out a little bitter laugh, twisting the end of one of her dreads around her finger. "Yeah. I know that feeling a little too well; life made sure of it." A second later her eyes widened and then squinted, as if seeing something in the distance. Her eyebrows furrowed and she clicked her tongue. In a flash, she got off the floor and James watched her make quick strides to the door, opening it with a flourish only to pull it shut behind her. He stared at the swinging jackets hanging off the key shaped holder, an incredulous expression popping onto his face.
"Well thanks for the talk, Mickey! I feel so much better!" James called out to the closed door. He rolled onto his back, unfurling his legs, staring up at the tall ceiling. Geeze, first Gustavo, then his buds, and now Mickey. He thought people cared about him but clearly he was wrong! Why did he even like her in the first place?
A knock sounded on the door. Uncurling himself, James sat up, head tilting in curiosity. A second later the door opened, and a sheepish Mickey stepped through it. "Forgot, I don't need to knock for myself," she muttered, rubbing her palms down the legs of her jeans.
Nevermind, she came back. He liked her again.
She drummed her fingers against her thighs and then headed for the kitchen. "I'm thirsty. Do you want a juice box?"
James's head bobbed from side to side. Now that his chest didn't feel as if it would cave in, it felt "Yeah, I could go for one." She pulled one from the fridge and tossed it to him. He easily caught it with one hand as he swung his legs down from the couch, settling on the middle cushion facing the tv. He popped off the straw and stabbed it through the foil-covered hole on top. He didn't pretend it was Gustavo's face beneath the straw. Not at all. He took a long pull of the watermelon flavored drink and swallowed. It helped, but only a little.
He watched as Mickey closed the refrigerator and started opening and closing a few cabinets. She pulled a few bowls out of one and set them on the counter and then pulled open a few drawers, taking out measuring cups and spoons and knives.
"What are you doing?" he asked.
"Well, there's really no point in bringing back Tupperware that's empty is there?" She asked, eyebrows lifting. "It's downright blasphemy."
His stomach quivered at that. Food? She was making food? As much as a small part of him still wanted nachos from the Staples Center, he could trade it for whatever she made. If magic existed, she possessed it with how good her food turned out. Not that Mama Knight's wasn't a great cook herself, nothing beat her cheesy potato soup or Fishstick Fridays or her amazing snickerdoodles, Mickey just tended to make more on the dessert side. And while his body was a temple and he treated it right, sometimes the temple wanted a big fat slice of pie. To please the Gods. (Him, James was the God. No matter how much Logan disagreed, the peasant).
"What are you making? Can I have some?"
"It's a surprise but sure. It's gonna take me some time, though."
James reeled in his pout and protest, as much as he hated having to wait history showed it tended to be worth it. Shifting off the couch, he opened the cabinet beneath the tv and looked at the array of DVDs staring back at him. He bypassed his usual go-tos—Die Hard, Bring it On, the Entourage series, Fast and Furious, Step Brothers, Zoolander, Marley & Me—stopping at the smaller cases on the end, holding white discs with Mama Knight's handwriting scrawled over the surface depicting dates from a few years back. James shuffled through the cases as if they were a deck of cards, stopping on one he remembered from freshman year, near the end of the season.
The Meadowlark High Coyotes were 7-9; they needed to win at least four more games to make it to the playoffs before their season was cut short. They were down by three points at 4-6 against Willow Grove High's Rams with ten minutes left. Kendall had been benched for fighting after getting his face smashed into the plexiglass on a breakaway (it was a cheap hit). Carlos was ejected for leaving goal to bum rush the player who executed the hit, trying to pants him. And Logan sat on the bench, his nose buried in his roster book, scribbling away, making notes for the coach to review after the game. That left him the lone wingman to turn the tide on a penalty shot and any scoring chance he obtained afterwards. Yes there was another wingman, but he may as well not have been on the ice with James taking the lead.
He popped it into the DVD player and fell back into the memory of the day, sank into the swell of cheers, the shrill whistles, the thudding beat of his heart in his ears, the rush as he glided over the ice, carrying the puck to the goal shot after shot after shot. And the chanting, oh the chanting, it may as well have been tattooed on his heart: Dia-mond, Dia-mond, Dia-mond! Only his stick slapping against the puck broke the cheering. Crack! Crack! Crack! James rushed the goal and sent the puck sailing through the air, nestling in the top right and left corners of the net, lighting the lamp. The crowd went wild. His team rushed the ice, lifting him up in the air as sirens and whistles went off.
James paused on the zoom on his face, the light in his eyes and the flush on his cheeks. Someone had yanked off his helmet so they could ruffle his sweaty hair, which still looked good compared to the others, thank you very much. (Helmet hair was not something he ever had to combat, he made sure of it.)
They won. They chose him and he won. When he was picked, they all succeeded. That was the point.
He scanned backwards, watching the play in reverse, pressed play, and watched their victory unfold. Again. And again. And again. Forward, back, forward, back. Shoot, score, repeat. Every watch brought back another shot of exhilaration, another round of satisfaction pulsing through his veins. Gustavo had drained that feeling right out of him.
"What're you watching?" Mickey's head hung next to his as she leaned over the back of the couch. "Is that you? Oh, you were all so teeny!"
James pouted. He wasn't teeny. Yeah, he was a couple years younger than now and had a bit of a rounder face but all the days playing hockey he'd shed his childhood weight. And he'd hit his growth spurt, so he was already taller than the guys in their class. Despite the slight sting of the comment, he answered, "Freshman year hockey game. Against our rivals, the Rams."
"Did you win?"
James scoffed. "Of course we did!" Big Time Rush didn't lose. Once they all joined the team, they were a force to be reckoned with. "All thanks to me, even. Kendall and the guys were benched for 'unsportsmanlike behavior'." His finger quotes stabbed the air as he rolled his eyes.
"Why? What'd they do?"
"Watch." Within a few seconds the scene unfolded again: Kendall on a breakaway, for all intents and purposes prime for a good shot. Then someone from the other team bashed into him, clearly committing a foul. Kendall bounced off the plexiglass as sharp whistles and booing jeers filled the air. Cheeks red, either due to the cold or anger, Kendall threw down his stick and gloves, whipped off his helmet, and charged for a Ram. He managed a hit on one before two Rams came up, grabbed him, threw him into the plexiglass again, and squished his face against it, dragging it from side to side. Mickey sucked a hissing breath in between her teeth, face scrunching up to a look of pain.
"That looked like it hurt."
"Hurt worse when the guy wasn't even called for it—the refs were from their town," James explained at the look of disbelief crossing her face. "But I get the penalty shot and score more goals to clinch the win for us."
"Bet that felt good."
He shrugged. Good wasn't the right word. Amazing wasn't the right word. He didn't think a word existed to properly encompass how that day felt. He paused the video and scanned it backwards again, his thumb hovering over the play button as his eyes took in their reflections on the tv screen. Namely how close she leaned to his head. Turning to her, he eyed her close-up profile. "If you wanted to kiss me, you could just say so," James said with a flirtatious smile. Motioning to her with the remote he added, "You don't have to come up with an excuse to get close."
Her head tilted to the side, her studying him this time. "Would it make you feel better?"
He blinked. Uh…what? That wasn't what she was supposed to say. That wasn't how things went with them. He'd flirt, she'd rebuff him, he'd try again later. That's how their friendship worked, among both agreeing blue was, in fact, a flavor (suck it, Logan!), her helping him with English homework while he helped her with vocal work, taking trips to the farmer's market for fresh ingredients (her for her cooking, him for his organic, clean, homemade facial mask), and splitting the s'mores skillet at Fun Burger on his cheat day. Not that he didn't like this turn of events, he wasn't stupid. Okay, so he wasn't the brightest bulb in the spotlight, but he wasn't that stupid.
Still, he shook his head and pinched his arm to be sure this wasn't some sort of dream, that she had, in fact, asked if kissing him would make him feel better. His fingers pressed into his skin and a pinch of pain shot up his arm. His eyes widened. He was definitely awake!
"Uh…sure?" He mentally admonished himself, hearing how unsure he sounded. Who talked like that? Not him, that's for sure. He was much cooler than that. He cleared his throat, deepened his voice, turned his eyes to smolder, and said, "I mean, yeah. We could give it a shot."
"Okay, close your eyes."
He did as he was told, eyes slamming shut. James' chest swelled and relaxed as he took in and let out a long breath. Not that he was nervous. He'd kissed plenty of girls before. Hell, once he'd kissed three girls in a half hour (thank you spin the bottle!) So this was nothing to worry about. No big deal. It's just Mickey. Just the girl he'd been into for the past year. His palms sweating had nothing to do with it, that happened sometimes. Not a lot. Okay, never. Not when it came to kissing girls. So it had to be some sort of new medical condition he'd need to get looked at. Along with the shaking. And his heart thudding against his chest. He made a mental note to get that looked at too.
He felt her hovering in front of him, close enough for that strange sensation to itch and curl beneath his skin, anticipation cracking like a livewire. A strong swoop lurched in his stomach when she asked "Ready?", so close he smelled something sweet on her breath. Vanilla? A lock of her hair brushed against the side of his face, sending a shot of something pleasant down his spine.
He nodded, swiping his tongue against his bottom lip. (Not too wet, not too dry. Couldn't have her thinking his lips were like sandpaper.) Breath? He thought back. Last thing he ate were a few ants-on-a-log back at the studio. Peanut Butter wasn't what he'd go with, but it would do in a pinch.
Okay. You're James Diamond! You're in a world-famous band! You have great hair! You have great style! You have great lips! They're perfectly pouty and pink and fantastic. It's just a kiss. You can do this. Annnd….go!
James leaned forward, pursing his lips. Something touched his lips. His eyebrows lowered. Huh, her lips were a lot colder than he'd imagined. Just as smooth, though. And a little…pointy? What? Before he could react, something gave way and shot between his teeth, heading to the back of his throat. He coughed, the object shooting forward, bouncing on his tongue.
His eyes popped open, granting him the sight of Mickey and her shit-eating grin. His tongue rolled the object around in his mouth, smooth on all sides except for one point. A rush of chocolate swarmed his taste buds. A Hersehey's kiss. He blinked, staring up at her.
"Did the Earth move for ya, honey?" she asked sweetly, her soft southern accent igniting the teasing sparkle in her eyes.
"Very funny," James grumbled, chewing the cold bit of chocolate into small pieces. It melted fast on his tongue. Pushing a hand through his hair, he flopped back against the couch, doing his best to avoid her gaze. But that smile, so bright and satisfied, drew him back in and he found his frown lifting upwards.
Still grinning, she dropped down on the couch next to him. He noticed the plate in her hands, the surface covered with an array of purple swirls and designs resting atop white sponge dotted with color.
Funfetti cupcakes. His favorite.
She was forgiven.
"She moves left, she moves right, she goes left again-oh! Fake out! She's on a breakaway! There's no one standing between her and the net! Will she make it?" With a lunge, Mickey slapped a pretzel rod against the Oreo in the middle of the table. James dropped to his knees, opening his mouth in time for the cookie to slide against the smooth surface, coast past his teeth, and land on his tongue. Goal! "She does! She scores! And the Missles are the table hockey champions of the world!" Throwing her arms into the air, Mickey danced a little victory jig, chomping the pretzel rod in her hand as if putting an exclamation point at the end of a sentence.
Chuckling, James chewed the Oreo. Ordinarily he would already be mentally preparing his routine at the gym the next day to counteract all the sugar he'd eaten but he could skip it for one day. Tossing his own pretzel rod onto the table—he wasn't going to make an exception for sodium, not when bloat could set in—he stood, brushing any miniscule bit of dirt off his knees. "Why didn't you go to the hockey game again?" he asked.
Mickey's eyebrow arched and she waved her hand around the room, motioning to the table, the leftover cupcakes sitting on the kitchen counter, and Bring it On playing on the tv in the background "And miss out on all this fun?" She winked and took another bite of the pretzel rod. "Not a chance."
James smiled, a rush of warmth spreading through him.
The door burst open; Carlos, Kendall, and Logan rushed in, hooting, and hollering, waving towels and hats in a flurry. Katie and Jennifer entered behind them, wearing identical expressions, half of amusement and half of wariness.
"Hey guys," Mickey greeted them, walking around the table. "How was the game?" Her answer came as a wall of sound when Kendall, Carlos, and Logan screamed in her face. Blinking rapidly, she wiggled a finger in her ear as she leaned away from them. "That good, huh?"
"It was awesome!" Carlos shouted. "First the Ducks were in the lead and then the Kings caught up to them but then the Ducks were in the lead again! And during the ice cleanings Bailey and Wild Wing came out and got into a shootout. And then they played musical chairs which is silly, you know, because why would animals need to sit on chairs—ooh! Cupcakes!" Breaking off, he made a dashing dive for the kitchen counter.
"Those are mine!" James shouted, making Carlos freeze with a cupcake halfway to his mouth. A whimpering sound fell out of his mouth as he looked back and forth between James and the cupcake.
"Be nice, there's enough for them to have one," Mickey said, rubbing James's arm. "Go ahead, Carlos." She barely finished her sentence when Carlos stuffed it into his mouth, paper still attached.
"Dude." Kendall bumped James on the arm with the back of his hand. "We had to keep Carlos from tackling Bailey the lion for thumping Wild Wing's bill in the stands. Could've used you to hold him back."
"Is that the only reason?" James asked.
Kendall scoffed. "Of course not! I had no one else to cringe with when they messed up the National Anthem. You weren't there to list off every stat for the Kings or the Ducks—down to what conditioner they most likely used." James pushed a laugh out of his nose. "After the game ended, they let us skate around for a bit. T'somethin' I always dreamed about, skating one of the biggest NHL rinks. Wasn't the same without my wingman there to catch my passes without fail." He shoved his hands into his pockets. "We're sorry we didn't take your feelings seriously. Gustavo was rough on you today. We should've stayed with you, made sure you were okay."
"You didn't think I was being overdramatic?"
"Oh no, we totally did," Kendall said, making James roll his eyes, "but halfway through the game I remembered that you get like that when it comes to things that are important to you. And it's not fair for me, for us, to push that aside. So I'm sorry. We cool?" He extended his hand,
"We're cool. You know I can't stay mad at my bud," James replied, clasping Kendall's hand to pull him into a quick hug.
"And on that note, it's time for me to go," Mickey said, squeezing past them. Clutched in her hands were two Tupperware containers filled with cupcakes. "Are you feeling better?" Kendall's eyes quickly ping-ponged between the two; he mumbled something about needing to polish his hockey puck and backed away.
James' mind quickly scanned through a list of things he could say to keep her around a little longer. He came up with nothing. "I am, yeah," James admitted. "Thanks for sticking around and keeping me company, Mickey."
"Any time. If you ever want a rematch against the Missles, you know where to find me. We'll be ready for you Diamondheads." Leaning past James, she called out "see you, guys!" only to get distracted hand waves back from Kendall, Carlos, Logan, and Katie as they watched the game highlight on the news. She shrugged. "See ya, James," she said, quickly tilting her fingers at him in a rippling wave.
He waved back, watching as she left the apartment. The door closed with a soft click. James turned on his heel only to stop in his tracks, noticing every pair of eyes in the room pointed on him. Eyebrows crinkling, his head tilted to the side. Usually he deserved attention, basked in it even, but he wasn't sure what he did to get it this time. "What?" he finally asked.
"You were here with Mickey alone all afternoon," Kendall said. "What happened?"
James shrugged, approaching the couch. "Nothing."
"Nothing?"
"Nothing. We talked, watched some hockey, and messed around."
"So you never hit on her?" Logan asked.
Kind of. "No, not really." Hershey kiss substitutes didn't count.
"Dude! This was your chance!" Carlos sprayed bits of uneaten cupcake out of his mouth as he shouted. Uttering a noise of disgust, Logan wiped the side of his face, shooting such a scathing look at Carlos it made him behind Katie. James laughed at the sight.
"Yeah, that's not like you, James. Are you sure you're feeling okay?" Kendall said.
"I'm feelin' great, guys, really," he assured them. "Gimmie another cupcake." As he reached for the plate in Katie's hand, he spotted something white under the pillow Kendall leaned against. He yanked it out with one strong pull. "Oh shoot," he muttered. He got a series of asynchronous what?s answered him. "It's Mickey's sweatshirt. She forgot it."
"Give it to her tomorrow. She'll be at the studio," Kendall pointed out.
James took in Kendall's nonchalance with an incredulous shake of his head. He couldn't do that. Well…he could but he couldn't. Even if the built-in excuse for her to come back to the apartment was enticing, he wouldn't feel right holding onto it. Not when he knew of her attachment to it, not just due to how soft and comfortable the sweatshirt was but to the band as well. When he thought about not having his Lucky Comb on him, even for a second, it sent shivers down his spine.
"No, I'll just try and catch her at the elevator." Clutching the sweatshirt tight in his hands, James dashed for the door. It barely opened far enough for him to fit through before he found himself out in the hall. He ran around a corner, nearly clipping it, slowing when he heard Mickeys' voice.
"Thanks again for being so understanding. I know it was last minute…"
"Girl, it's okay," Jo said back. Hmm? James peered around the corner, spying Mickey and Jo standing in front of the elevator doors. She clutched a rolled-up script in her hand. "We can always go another day. It's no big deal."
"Thanks. James just looked so…defeated." Mickey's nose wrinkled. "It's weird. I've never seen him like that before. I just…I didn't want him to be alone."
"I get it. I'm not going to be mad at you for being there for a friend," Jo said, waving her hand in the air. "Buut…you'll also be extra forgiven if I can have a cupcake." Her eyebrows wiggled as she tapped a quick rhythm on the Tupperware lid.
Mickey laughed, popping the lid. "No problem."
Jo eagerly dove for a cupcake, peeling the paper off halfway before taking a bite at the base of the treat. She brought a finger up to her mouth as she chewed, wiping away a stray smear of cream cheese frosting. "So…you must really like James to cancel going to that pie making class you'd been looking forward to for weeks."
What!? James pressed his lips together, biting on them. The pulse of pain fell into sync with his rapid heartbeat. Jo's lips curled in the corners and, beneath the hallway lighting, James swore he saw devil horns pop up on her head.
Mickey rolled her eyes. James squinted. Was that a blush on Mickey's cheeks or a trick of the light? "Don't even start with me, I gotta deal with all that at home." The elevator dinged and the doors slid open. Mickey stepped backwards into the elevator, jabbing at a button with her elbow. "…And I don't not like him. But don't tell anyone that!"
Jo mimed zipping her lips. "Your secret's safe with me."
Swallowing the yelp fighting to shoot up his throat, James turned and headed back to 2J. He slipped into the apartment under the noise of aliens and troopers getting blown up in Biohazard 5 and Carlos' jeers as he held his hand in front of Logan's face.
"Did you catch her?" Kendall yelled over the noise, eyes glued to the tv.
"No, I missed her." James made a beeline for the bedrooms, a soft smile sitting upon his lips. "I'll see her tomorrow."