'It's over Severus, I'm sorry' Harry choked out, before turning and walking from the private rooms of Hogwarts headmaster.

'Harry please, you don't mean that' Severus implored

'I do Severus, I'm sorry it's better this way' Harry said resignedly

'Better for who?' Severus asked

'Everyone' Harry murmured, closing the door behind him

Severus stood staring at the spot where his now former lover had just stood, the world had ground to a halt, and the headmaster desperately wanted to turn back the clock. How could it have gone so wrong so fast? Had he done something to offend Harry, did he assume something he shouldn't have assumed? Things had been going so well between them, since the final battle ended 1 year earlier. The past was put to rest and something beautiful was created. He couldn't understand what had happened.

Severus had been standing in this very spot only moment before lost in the exquisiteness of kissing his beloved Harry, an action so simple yet so breathtaking it threatened to bring the headmaster completely undone. The kiss deepened, became hungry, passionate, heated, hands roamed, and breathing became labored. As quickly as it had started, it ended with Harry pulling away, flustered, eyes alight, but not with hopeful lust and wanting. Before Severus knew what was happening Harry was telling him it was over and running from his private rooms. By the time he had gotten out to his office, Harry was gone from sight and apparently his life. He dropped to his knees, sobbing into the hard wood floor, howling as if in extreme pain.

'Uncle Sev, have you seen Harry he isn't in his… Draco stopped short when he saw his godfather kneeling on the floor sobbing as if he had been struck with the crucio curse

'Uncle Sev, what's wrong?' Draco asked falling down beside his sobbing godfather

'He left me, he just left me' Severus mumbled into the floor

'Did you have a fight?' Draco questioned 'I'm sure he will come around'

'I don't know what happened, everything was perfect and then he left, said it was over' Severus hiccoughed leaning back on his haunches

'What were you doing?' Draco ventured a thought occurring to him

'Kissing, just kissing' Severus replied

'Come and I will get you a stiff drink' Draco offered helping his godfather up from the floor. 'We will get it sorted out, don't worry

'I love him so very much Draco' Severus whispered

'I know Uncle Sev, I know'

Harry let the scolding water run over his body, hands braced on the shower wall, tears fell from his eyes masked by the flow of the water. His heart ached and his soul broke with every breath he took. It was better this way, he told himself, better to end it now before it became to serious. Merlin but how he wanted it to get serious, how he had wanted that kiss to go further, how he wanted to explore the beautiful body of the gorgeous wonderful man, he had just walked out on. Stop it Harry, he chastised himself, thinking like that will get you nowhere, Severus is a strong man, he will get over this, find someone whole, undamaged, not a freak.

Harry looked down at the very thing that defined him as damaged and a freak, the one thing that couldn't be escaped if things had gone further tonight, the one thing he was terrified and ashamed to explain. The one thing he would be able to no longer hide. While everything else in that department was healthy and raring to go, it was what was missing that had stopped Harry from having and long-term serious relationships.

It was near to midnight when Draco left his godfathers private rooms and made back to his own. Neville was asleep when he climbed into bed beside his lover, stirring long enough to drape his hand over Draco's waist and curl into his side.

He would have to catch up with Harry in the morning, he loved the man like a brother, but Severus had been there most of Draco's life and he couldn't stand to see him so broken, so defeated. He knew why Harry had scampered and ended things with Severus as hastily as he had, but the truth of it was, the former Slytherin assumed Harry had told Severus about what had happened when he was younger, it never occurred to him that he would have kept it from him.

Draco himself had stumbled across it by accident, not long after the war had ended. They had been staying at the castle to help with the repairs, he'd gone looking for Harry, he and Neville were going into Hogsmeade to check on Aberforth Dumbledore, he'd been injured in the war and so the boys thought they would help him out.

He called out to Harry, but when he got no response, went into the bedroom, the former Gryffindor was stepping into his boxers, when Draco opened the door, and he caught a quick glimpse of the problem. Harry was mortified and made Draco swear he would never repeat a word to anyone.

It was before Harry came to Hogwarts, about a month before his 11th birthday. Harry's parents had been killed during the first war and Harry had been sent to live with his mother's sister and her husband and son.

They despised Harry for being different and a freak. His cousin Dudley had made it his personal mission to taunt Harry every chance he got, he and his goon mates created a game called Harry hunting, whoever got to him first was the one to throw the first punch, kick or whatever they were in the mood for.

On the day of the incident, Dudley and his aunt had arrived home after the fat lard had been to the Doctors; his mother was told that her overweight son needed to go on a strict diet, if he expected to live past the age of 25.

Naturally Dudley took his hunger-fuelled anger out on Harry, waiting until he was in the local park, before striking. Dudley pinned him to the ground, pressing his shoed foot down hard on Harry's crotch, crushing his penis and with it his testicles. Harry hollered in pain, but his pleas went unheard. For the next two days Harry could barely move, he was badly bruised and in a lot of pain.

Telling his Aunt or Uncle would be fruitless as they cared little about any complaints the burden had. He was often left with the neighbour Mrs. Figg, when they went out and didn't want to take Harry with them, which was most of the time. Harry was in extreme pain; blood was soaking his boxer shorts. Mrs. Figg rushed him to the hospital where the emergency Dr told her and Harry that his left testicle had ruptured as a result of blunt force trauma.

He would require immediate surgery to repair the damage. raced home and told the Durselys, although what good it would do she didn't know. His Uncle turned up to sign the forms allowing the operation to go ahead and left.

Arabella Figg stayed with Harry until he came out of surgery. The news wasn't good, it had been too late to repair the damage he'd suffered and the testicle had to be removed. Harry didn't understand much of what the Doctor or Mrs. Figg was telling him, only that he had one ball and was now more of a freak than usual.

A month later he came to Hogwarts and learned to live with having only one ball. He showered and dressed before the other boys in the dorm were up, Neville being one of them. The two girls he briefly dated were allowed nowhere near his dick. Draco had honestly forgotten about it until tonight, when Severus had told him Harry ran out mid kiss.

Harry stared aimlessly at the sky, as students flew about on their broomsticks. He had taken over from Rolanda Hooch as flying instructor after the war; she had been injured and could no longer fly safely. Harry loved to fly, so Severus offered him the position. He had slept very little the night before and had avoided the Great Hall this morning, not wanting to face Severus or anyone else for that matter. Draco has sent him a note asking to meet him after lunch, when they both had a free period. He was charm Professor, Filius Flitwick before him had lost his life in the war along with Pomona Sprout, whom Neville took over from.

Harry knew what it was about; Draco had obviously seen his godfather and Severus confided in him about Harry. Draco was the only one that knew about what had happened, not even Ron and Hermione knew. Hermione had been killed and Ron didn't speak to him anymore, on the account his was gay and would date his sister again.

He blew his whistle signalling for the students to return to the ground, they were a good bunch of kids, who seemed to respond well to Harry, he'd had no real problems so far.

'Well done all of you' Harry praised the first Slytherins and Ravenclaws. 'I want you all to read chapter 5 tonight for homework, paying attention to lowering your broom with out it jumping about. With it I want to see your entries in your flying logs, about what improvements you think you've made. See you next lesson'

'Thanks Professor Potter' came the mingled voices and they moved away from the courtyard reserved for flying.

Harry packed up the brooms and stored them away in the allocated room, locking the door behind him. Usually he enjoyed a fly with his students towards the end of the lesson, but today he didn't trust himself to lift his feet off the ground. Back in his rooms, a disused classroom on the ground floor, Harry organized himself for the next lesson, third year Hufflepuffs and Gryffindors.

Normally they would be outside for this lesson, but as a student from each house, thought it better to try their hand at aerobatics rather than listen to Harry's instructions, they were spending the lesson inside working on some of the basics. Said students had received hefty detentions with Argus Filch for their antics.

'Come on in you lot, take your seats and open your books to chapter 35 please' Harry instructed the sullen faces as they slumped down in their seats. 13 year olds were such a joy Harry thought as he called on a Hufflepuff to read the first paragraph.

Merlin above that was fun Harry muttered, tidying his desk. Talk about sulk, that's all his class had done for the entire lesson, was sulked and whined at the fact they weren't outside whipping through the air on their brooms. All it usually took was a stern look from Harry that he had picked up from Severus no doubt and the students knew to clamp their mouths shut and get on with the task at hand.

'Harry' Draco interrupted his thoughts

'Hi Drake come in' Harry smiled wanly not looking forward to the conversation at all

'You've seen Severus I take it?' Harry jumped right in

'Yeah I have and he is a mess Harry' Draco replied

'The last thing I wanted to do was hurt him Draco, but it really is for the best' Harry said tiredly

'Why haven't you told him?' Draco questioned 'You know he wouldn't think any less of you'

'He deserves someone that isn't damaged or a freak' Harry sighed

'You are far from a freak and he wants you Harry, no one else' Draco remarked 'It wasn't your fault Harry, it was those excuses for relatives you lived with, why does Uncle Sev have to pay the price for something they did?'

'That's not fair Drake' Harry shot back

'What's not fair Harry is what you did to a man whose only crime is loving you' Draco spat 'I love you like a brother Harry, but you have broken him'

'What's going on?' Neville asked from the doorway

'Ask him' Draco snapped striding past his lover faced etched in fury

'Harry what's going on?' Neville asked confused

'Long story Nev' Harry sighed

'Care to tell me about it, so I know how to deal with a pissed off Slytherin later' Neville replied

'I broke up with Severus and Draco is angry at me' Harry answered

'Yeah he told me about that, but I can't see why he would be that upset over it, whatever happens is between you and Sev, he knows that' Neville countered 'or is it about the other thing?'

'You know?' Harry squeaked

'Drake let it slip one night, he'd had too much to drink, was slagging the Weasley's off for the way they were treating you and it kind of just came out' Neville admitted sheepishly

'Oh' was all Harry could manage

'I take it that Severus doesn't know, going by Drakes reaction?' Neville ventured

'No he doesn't, things were getting a little heated last night and I freaked out, thought it better to end things before they got too serious or went too far' Harry looked at his desk

'Why would he think any different of you, I know and Drake knows and we don't think any different of you, we still love you for who you are, not how many balls you have' Neville said plainly 'Why would Sev be any different?'

'I'm a freak Nev, he would see that and run for the hills' Harry said grimly

'They made you think you were a freak Harry and they were wrong, how do you know that he would run for the hills, if you haven't even told him?' Neville quirked a brow

'I'm damaged' Harry said unconvincingly

'No you're not, you're Harry and that's who Sev loves, not a missing ball' Neville stated 'I'll let you in on a little secret, I have a double nipple, or an extra large nipple, when I first started dating Drake, I would always leave my shirt on, terrified what he would think if he ever saw it. One night he came into the bathroom while I was in the shower and saw through the curtain, I was so sure he would leave me after that, I wouldn't come out of the bathroom, he threatened to blast the door apart if I didn't come out. He stood in front of me looking at my extra nipple, he smiled and said it was more for him to nibble on, to him it made me even more special'

'You're braver than me' Harry muttered

'No I'm not, its just that I know Drake loves me for me and no matter what, I can tell him anything and he will be right there by my side' Neville said seriously 'Drake's right Harry, Severus needs to know, it's not fair he is left wondering what he did wrong to make you leave him, think about it'

Neville walked from the room, leaving Harry to his thoughts, unfortunately there was little time to dwell on such things, as he had another class to get ready for. Heading out of his classroom, Harry made his way to the courtyard, his lesson was with 4th year Slytherins and Gryffindors.

Severus stood near the large bay window in his office that overlooked the grounds of Hogwarts, or more importantly the courtyard where Harry was at this moment teaching a class. His former lover was magnificent on a broom, elegant and poised, so relaxed and carefree when he was in the air. He was hovering near a student, who was obviously having some difficulty being so high from the ground.

He had once told Severus, that when they freaked out about being up so high, he found it helped to distract their minds for a few minutes, he would chat to them about what they could see from their vantage point, all the while the student remained airborne, not even realising they were.

By the time Harry had finished talking, the student was all smiles and happy to float around on their broom. There was no question as to whom the job should go to, when Rolanda had come to him and handed her resignation in. Nothing made Harry happier than being on a broom whizzing about the skies.

The headmaster had been wracking his brains, trying to figure out why Harry had ended their relationship, he had gone over every detail of the last months, carefully analysing every conversation, every action until he could pinpoint where it all went wrong. Trouble was he couldn't find a conclusion to his analytical process.

He focused to the previous evening, all they had been doing was kissing, granted it was becoming more heated and passionate, but they had yet to explore the more intimate side of their relationship, not that Severus minded, he was happy with the current pace, it wasn't to say that at some stage in the near future he didn't want to take Harry to his bed and make love to the gorgeous man.

Was that it? Had he scared Harry off, because his lion thought things were getting to serious moving to quickly? Severus didn't know all he did know was that there was a huge gaping whole in his life and his heart that Harry had once occupied.

'Do you think you might have been a bit too hard on Harry the other day?' Neville asked Draco who was lying on his chest

'No' Draco snipped 'Uncle Sev is a mess, he doesn't eat, he doesn't sleep and all because Harry won't front up and tell him one thing'

'You remember how hard it was for me to tell you about my deformity, as I'd come to think of it?' Neville ventured

'That's different' Draco replied

'How is it different Drake?' Neville questioned 'try and think of this from Harry's point of view, all his life he has been labeled a freak because of who is, not only here at school, but with his relatives as well. One scar on his forehead caused the world to view him a certain way, when it came out he could talk to snakes, he was labeled the heir of Slytherin and the Dark Lords right hand man,

When the press got a hold of the fact he was a horcrux, again he was labeled the next Dark Lord, a freak, when he told the Wealseys he was gay, they called him a freak, abnormal, wrong in the head, add all that to the current problem and maybe you can understand why he acted the way he did'

Draco was silent for a moment, mulling things over in his mind. Sitting up in the bed, he looked at his lover, 'I guess you're right Nev, it's just I hate seeing Uncle Sev so sad and so hurt, maybe I was a bit rough on him I'll talk to him'

'I think that's a very good idea' Neville agreed

'Care to punish me for being a naughty boy?' Draco purred running his hand over Neville's chest

'You are insufferable Draco Malfoy' Neville chided as a slender hand dipped below the waistband of his pyjamas, teasing his hardening cock

'Yet you continue to suffer me' Draco chortled

'Merlin knows why' Neville breathed

'I'm sorry for getting angry with you the other day' Draco said quietly, standing in front of Harry's desk

'It's fine Drake I understand' Harry assured him I know that I have to talk to Severus, I am just so afraid of what he will think'

'Harry do you love Uncle Sev?' Draco pondered

'Of course I do' Harry answered 'I love him very much'

'Then maybe trust that he will understand, because I know how much he loves you' Draco smiled

'What if I'm no good, what if I can't give him the pleasure he deserves?' Harry worried

'Is that what's really worrying you Harry?' Draco asked

'What if the damage and the fact I only have one ball, means I can't do things' Harry blushed slightly

'How many times have you wanked over the years?' Draco asked without blinking

'No more than any other red blooded wizard why?' Harry asked eyes wide with mortification

'Did you enjoy it, did you cum?' Draco asked boldly

'Yes and Yes' Harry squeaked

'There you go then, if you can make yourself cum, then I am sure Uncle Sev is more than capable' Draco smirked

'He told me once he would like to be a father one day, what if I can't give him kids Drake, what then?' Harry countered

'You are a powerful wizard Harry, there are tests that can be run to determine your sperm count and whether you will have any difficulty conceiving or carrying a baby. Uncle Sev is also a brilliant Potions Master and will make any potion you need' Draco explained

'Gods I hate being a freak' Harry muttered

'I hear you say that again and I will hex you into next year Harry James Potter' Draco warned

'Sorry' Harry whispered

'That's better, now get off your arse and go and snag yourself a baby daddy' Draco ordered

'Yes Professor Malfoy' Harry quipped

'Scarhead' Draco mumbled

'Ferret' Harry shot back

'Enter' Severus barked, in no mood for visitors

'Severus can I talk to you for a minute?' Harry asked tentatively

'Harry please come in, sit down' Severus croaked 'How are you?'

'Miserable' Harry said softly

'Me too' Severus whispered

'I need to tell you something, it won't be easy and I hope you can understand why I ended things' Harry began nervously

'I'm listening' Severus replied, heart thudding in his chest

Harry told him the story from beginning to end, watching the myriad reactions pass over Severus' face as he relayed the incident that had left him with more than a physical deformity. He had always despised his Aunt and Uncle, his Aunt especially for the way they treated Harry.

Silence hung in the air like fog, when Harry finished his story, he couldn't look Severus in the eye, for fear of what was coming, the rejection, the hurt, the mocking.

'Come with me' Severus said hoarsely, taking Harry's hand

They were standing in Severus' bedroom, the lamps casting a soft glow over the room, Harry was trembling, and he couldn't begin to imagine what was going to happen next.

'Do you trust me?' Severus asked in a low tone

'Y- Yes' Harry stammered

'Divesto' Severus waved his wand and Harry's clothing vanished leaving him naked, instinctively he put his hands over his penis and one ball in an attempt to hide.

The headmaster knelt down in front of Harry and gently removed his hands entwining them in his own. He leant forward and softly kissed where his testicle had been removed, then moved on to the one remaining ball, sucking gently.

He came to stand in front of Harry, looking deep into his emerald eyes, flashing with fear and uncertainty

'You never, ever have to be worried that I will think any less of you, because of something that was completely out of your control, believe me when I say those muggle ingrates will pay dearly for what they have done. Harry James Potter you are a beautiful gorgeous man, nothing could make me see you in any other light. Now while I am slightly hurt that you didn't think you could confide in me, I understand'

'I didn't think you would want me, want to make love to me if you saw that' Harry hung his head low

'Darling I would gladly make love to you, if you had three balls, or three heads, it wouldn't matter, all I see is you, nothing else' Severus stated with conviction

'I'm sorry I have always felt like a freak, I couldn't stand it if you thought of me that way too'

'The only freaks my love are those pathetic muggles' Severus snipped 'come here'

Harry stepped into his embrace, and Severus held him close running his hands over his back, cupping his arse.

'Hop into bed' Severus instructed

Harry complied getting under the covers and laying his head on the pillow, he watched as Severus divested himself of his own clothing and climbed in beside Harry. The man was gorgeous; Harry was near to drooling as his lover cuddled down beside him.

'What else is worrying you I know there is more' Severus asked kissing Harry gently

'I am worried I won't be able to give you pleasure, or children one day' Harry spoke quietly

Severus pulled the covers back revealing his hard erection, standing proudly against his stomach, the long slender cock was nestled in a thatch of dark hair, leaking slightly around the head.

'You more than give me pleasure my love, the mere sight of you has my blood raging and my prick hard' Severus purred 'Feel what you do to me' he took Harry's hand and moved it over the shaft of his hard aching member, moaning at the sensation it was eliciting.

Harry could feel his own cock getting harder as he watched the emotions on Severus face, slowly pumping his cock.

'As for children my love, there are many ways that can be achieved, Poppy can give you a check up, see if you are able to father children, not all is lost my darling' Severus breathed 'You would want children with me?'

'More than anything' Harry answered 'Make love to me Severus?'

'With pleasure my love, will you be mine again Harry, stay with me?' Severus asked

'If you'll have me' Harry said shyly

'I will have you many times my love, but first I think a punishment is in order Professor Potter for bad behavior' Severus scolded

'What sort of punishment Headmaster Snape' Harry grinned

'You are going to fuck me Professor Potter, see just how much pleasure you can give me' Severus growled

'Yes headmaster' Harry husked

'Then proceed Professor Potter' Severus commanded

'Uncle Sev, has Harry come to see y… 'Oh Merlin my eyes, my eyes' Draco shrieked running from the room. He had walked into the bedroom to see Harry fucking his godfather for all his was worth and said godfather shooting cum all over his chest.

'He will never learn the art of knocking' Severus smirked pulling Harry to him

'That was wonderful Severus, better than I ever imagined' Harry smiled completely sated

'It was indeed my darling, I love you Harry'

'I love you Severus' Harry replied 'Will Drake be alright?'

'Eventually, serves him right' Severus laughed

'PETUNIA' Vernon Dursley screeched from the bathroom of four-privet drive

'Vernon, what's wrong?' Petunia asked coming into the bathroom

'My- my b-bal- balls –are go..ne' the large man stammered staring at where his balls had been only hours ago

'What do you mean your balls are g..?' Petunia stopped short as she looked down between her husband's legs 'oh dear'

'MUM, MUM, come quick' Dudley screamed from his room

'I'll be right back Vernon' Petunia assured him, dashing from the room and down the hallway

'Mummy my balls are gone' Dudley cried