The molly complicated life

by Olothando

Andrew has broken up with molly and she is still in denial about her feelings for him. she meets up with Issa and they try to repair their friendship one day at a time. molly has some hard work to do, she has to unpack years of avoiding her feelings and try and to understand why it is that she finds it hard to let things go even after one has apologized to her.

Molly and Andrew

Chapter 1

"What if we just not a good match?" after the fight about Molly not knowing how to compromise and getting interrupted by Kelli's phone call about Tiff gone missing. The next day Molly goes to see Andrew and he asks what is it that they are fighting for? Unable to answer, Andrew takes Molly's silence as she does not love him. They break up.

Molly unable to deal with her emotions hits Issa up.

"Thanks for agreeing to meet up with me" thanks for calling me" there is a moment of silence, Molly looks everywhere but after a while "I am sorry for everything, the block party, I wanted to apologize for my wrong doings, I miss you and when I kept calling you before the block party and you kept brushing me off, I was hurt so I had to hurt you back for that I apologize, I started keeping things inside because I thought it would safe our friendship. For me it all started when you made that rap about my pussy, you made fun of the things I told you as my best friend and when I told you about it you brushed off as a joke, you invalidated my feelings on that matter. I told you about Torian at work, you said I was looking for faults in everything, I told you about Dro and you judged me about having fun, I then told you about inviting Andrew and you said that I would push him away the way I always do and that hurt , you as my best friend saying I cant keep a man, for me that was fucked up Issa. I am sorry it all seems as if I am unpacking all this shit to you all at once but its years of suppressed feelings. I am soo sorry for messing up your block party, I came truly to support but when I found out you asked Andrew for help it just rubbed me the wrong way, I apologize, and you were right I messed things up with Andrew, he broke up with me, haahaha guess you were right after all, I cant keep a relationship." Thank you for agreeing to meet up with me I know I cant fix things right now.

She stands up as Issa is still quiet, "bye" "Molly wait" Issa awkwardly laughs "I accept your apology, and I apologize for the part I played as well and for always taking advantage of you as my best friend. Molly you hurt me to the core when you started all the BS at the block party, it seemed to me as if you did not want me to succeed… "Iss I would never… "please allow me to finish girl, I didn't even murmur when you was talkin so allow me to finish please. You have always had my back since we met, I couldn't fathom (*murmurs* damn look at me using big words) what I had done that was so bad I deserved you to turn your back on me, you are my sister I want to tell you everything, just the other night when I went on a date with Lawrence, you were the first person I wanted to share my joy with, you hurt me Molly, I don't know if I will ever be able to move on from this one but I miss your crazy ass that much I do know"

Both sniffing they hug, " I am willing to take it one step at a time Iss, please" " One day at a time is " "can we have alcohol now" they order some cocktails." I have a meeting with Dr Rhonda in 30" " you still seeing her?" "Yes I have to work on me nowadays" "that's cool"

"Bye girl" after hugging, they go their separate ways. After taking a couple of steps Molly turns back calling back to Issa " Iss I love you" chuckling " I love you too".

A while later

"So how did things go with Issa, did you get things out of your chest like we talked"

"yes we did, it was nice, I told her all about the things that I kept in and she told me that I hurt her very bad as I turned my back on her during one of the most difficult phases of her life and that she accepted my apology, we decided to take things one step at a time… do you know she told me that she and Lawrence went on a date , I was like damn girl that boy was just dating your partner Condola just a min ago but im the messy one?"

"Now now Molly what did we talk about?" "yeah sorry I must not be judgemental and Issa make her mistakes, I am only her friend" "Good now lets talk about your father yet?" "uhm yeah I think so" " lets be honest Molly" "I mean yeah coz I gave him a plate during thanksgiving so yeah"

Dr Rhonda shakes her head "what I meant is have you had a conversation with him and forgiven him for cheating on your mother" looking outside Molly keeps quiet "You have to have a conversation with your father Molly don't keep your feelings bottled up anymore, I bet he misses you huh" "yeah he keeps calling, but I only answer when its my mother calling but I always avoid talking to him, I will try and start talking to him." "Now lets move on to your love life, have you spoken to Andrew yet"

"Nah, that bro was tripping, talking 'bout I can't compromise and I have been treating him badly, why I could not go watch a game with his brother when his brother was being ignorant as fuck and racist, he didn't have my back so like all the time I had to stand up for myself but he still wants me to spend time with him, fuck no." "Molly do you miss Andrew? Like really miss him, you have to know that relationships are about compromise, doing something at times you don't like just to see your significant other happy, making them smile just by stepping outside of your comfort zone, here is a question for you, would you rather lose Andrew than be open to his feelings? " a moment goes being and I cant answer Dr Rhonda, seeing that I am lost for words, she speaks again. " look I understand that it is hard for you to be vulnerable and open up, you love being in control, everything has to be on your schedule, but Andrew makes you lose your footing, he makes you lose control, you find yourself seeking whatever control you can find, this leads you to trying to do everything wrong with the relationship, you always looking for faults, always waiting for the other shoe to drop. Has Andrew ever told you he loves you?"

"Yeah but we had just fucked , I mean had sex so I assumed that he was just in his feelings because it was a hot round ,but yeah he said it, not that I believe him or anything coz that would make me a dumb as bitch" mumbling the last part. "I want you to call him, make amends and not leave things as they are" "What why? He has not called me and its been three months why should i? "So that you heal from this relationship, this was your first real relationship, you need closure so that you can move on" ….

This is so not why I came to therapy what if he has moved on, argh why did I agree to do this