One day
Blaine: Hey, are you the new one?
Kurt: I… uh… yes…
Blaine: And, looks like we're gonna share this dorm
Kurt: It's yours, you can tell you've been there since the start of the year. And I just arrived. Besides, I wonder if the administration did not put me in this dorm on purpose
Blaine: Why?
Kurt: I'm a submissive, and you, a dominant. What luck that we are in the same dormitory
Blaine: You arrived in the middle of the year, and there was only room in this dorm. I think it's just a coincidence that you are a submissive and me a dominant
Kurt: I never believed in this stuff
Blaine: But, I admit it's pretty cool
Kurt: I… yeah, I understand…
Blaine: Why have you only been transferred now?
Kurt: The harassment
Blaine: Were you being harassed? Are you still? And, by whom? Why ?
Kurt: I'm a submissive, I don't have to tell you again
Blaine: I know that. But, I ask you why are you harassed
Kurt: Because the majority of the dominant in my old school think it would be great to make my life hell
Blaine: What do you mean?
Kurt: I was taking hits, insults. And of course, since it was dominants doing that, there is also sexual coercion to take into account
Blaine: What the… what !?
Kurt: Ok, I ...
Blaine: Calm down, I'm not mad at you
Kurt: Yet your reaction shows the opposite
Blaine: It's what you just told me that made me angry, and at them. What right do they have to do this kind of thing?
Kurt: They're dominants, they have full power. They have the right to do whatever they want to a submissive
Blaine: No, they don't have full powers. The role of a dominant is to take care of his submissive, to make sure he feels good and safe. To heal him when he's hurt. To yell at him when he does something stupid or to congratulate him when he does what he asked him to do
Kurt: That's what we are led to believe. But, from all I know, a submissive is only one thing to have, nothing more. A dominant has all the rights over him
Blaine: What? Who told you that? I hope it's not your parents
Kurt: It turns out that I've always known teachers who think like the old days. That is to say, a submissive really belongs to his dominant and the dominant has full power over him
Blaine: Like you said, these are old days thoughts. That's no longer news
Kurt: Not from where I'm from
Blaine: Why?
Kurt: Because all the scars that cover my body show the opposite
Blaine: Scars? How long are they? Do you take care of it? Do they heal well?
Kurt: I've had them for a long time, well, most of them, but I also have some more recent ones. And, I think they are healing pretty well
Blaine: Do you think so? So you are not sure
Kurt: Would you like to stop with the dominant tone?
Blaine: It's in my nature, especially when I hear that you have scars, so, therefore, injuries. And, that you are not sure that they are healing properly
Kurt: I ...
Blaine: Did you go see a doctor about this?
Kurt: I am no longer allowed to see a doctor or even go to the hospital
Blaine: Why? Who told you that you don't have the right anymore?
Kurt: I was categorized as a violent submissive. So, because of that, I am forced to wear a collar and a leash at all times. And, I no longer have the right to go to the hospital or see a doctor or anything that has to do, near or far, with the medical system
Blaine: Ok, I admit I wasn't expecting it. I'll have to look at your wounds
Kurt: As far as I know, you're not a doctor
Blaine: The good thing about this school is that there are multiple courses, including medicine. And, I happen to be in medicine, and the classes are really full. So, I am rather qualified for basic care
Kurt: I ...
Blaine: So take off your top, I can see how your injuries are
Kurt: Dominant tone doesn't work with me
Blaine: I don't use a dominant tone. I want to go smoothly. And, I know your nature makes you feel like I'm using a dominant tone, but I'm not
Kurt: That's a bossy tone then
Blaine: A little, I admit. But, I'm worried
Kurt: Worried? Worried about me?
Blaine: Yeah, I'm really, really worried about you
Kurt: Besides my dad you are the first person to show concern for me
Blaine: And, your friends?
Kurt: I think they hide it well. They defended me, when they could. But, I come from a school where reputation is pretty high. And mine was the violent and aggressive submissive who shouldn't be approached. If you wanted to approach me, you had to beat me. Anyone who could master me was cheered on by others
Blaine: I know what you mean when you say they make your life hell
Kurt: So ... I think if they'd shown they cared about me, their reputation would have taken a hit.
Blaine: Reputation, I've always hated it. I don't care what other people think of me. I have my priorities and I always stick to them. And here, my priority is to make sure that your wounds heal properly
Kurt: From the way you talk, it looks like you want me to be yours. Your behavior, your look, everything. You are a dominant, I am a submissive, and you have every right to make me yours. And I…
Blaine: I'm not gonna lie to you, yes I want you to be mine. As soon as you walked in and saw you, I decided you would be mine, and no one else. I am dominant, therefore possessive. But, I also saw the fear in your eyes. So, I thought I was going to get to know you, and see if you're comfortable around me, and if I could advance the relationship to more than friends.
Kurt: Except that I saw clearly in your game
Blaine: But, we'll talk about that later. Right now, what I want is to see your injuries. So please take your shirt off. I wouldn't say it twice
Kurt: I… ok…
Blaine: Good boy
Kurt: This is the first time I've been told this, and it makes me weird
Blaine: I think over time you should get used to it
Kurt: Except that I don't feel submissive. I never felt like this, and I think I would never feel like this
Blaine: Why? It's your nature. You were born like this, and ...
Kurt: I know it's my nature. The mark on my left wrist constantly reminds me of this. But, I never had the same life that every other submissive I know has had. They have a good life, and I, only blows, insults and threats. All that…
Blaine: Okay, calm down. To begin with, I'm going to look at your injuries, and heal them. Once that's done we'll talk
Kurt: I hate the bossy tone
Blaine: I know, it shows. I'm sorry to use it, but I have to. I've asked you to do something, and I've asked you twice, and it still hasn't done. So…
Kurt: So what? Do you expect me to obey? I'm a submissive, so that's what you expect
Blaine: I'll be honest, yeah, I expect you to obey. But, just because you're a submissive doesn't mean that I expect this
Kurt: What is it for then? A dominant always expects any submissive to obey him. I know how it works
Blaine: What you have is a very mistaken view. You've only had bad experiences, which I take into consideration. Yes, I expect you to obey me, but I don't see you as someone to control just because you're a submissive. I told you before, I'm worried and I want to see the state of your injuries
Kurt: I ...
Blaine: Do you understand what I mean?
Kurt: Yeah
Blaine: Good. So, I wait. And, I am a patient. I can wait several hours if I have to
Kurt: Don't you have class?
Blaine: No
Kurt: Ok, you won
Blaine: I have a care kit in the bathroom, I'll go get it. When I come back I expect you to be sitting on the bed and shirtless
Kurt: Okay, now you're using a dominant tone
Blaine: Sorry, but I have to. I know you have really bad liabilities with the Dominants, and that's why you're being rather stubborn. But, at one point, I have to do this
Kurt: Turn on the heat at least. I am quite sensitive to the cold
Blaine: What do you mean?
Kurt: I get cold very quickly. Below 20 ° C, I'm shaking like a leaf. Even more than usual
Blaine: Are you shaking?
Kurt: Haven't you noticed?
Blaine: I admit I wasn't paying attention to that. I was more focused on finding arguments for you to do what I asked you to
Kurt: This is the first time I've seen such a patient Dominant. Anyone I have known would have punched me in the face if I hadn't executed their order straight away.
Blaine: In life you have to be patient, especially with submissives. I know you find it extremely difficult to obey orders, even the simplest. But, I would do my best to make you feel comfortable with it no matter how long it takes
Kurt: Cool
Blaine: Now relax. I'll take a look first
Kurt: Ok
Blaine: What ... I ... what you went through was torture
Kurt: They said it was punishment because I wasn't listening to what they were telling me
Blaine: Looks like traces of lashes, and electric sting too, I think. Then bruises, hand made I would say. And also, traces of a knife
Kurt: For the electric prod, they sprayed me with a stream of water, so the electricity goes better. I think that's why I'm so cold all the time
Blaine: Yeah, possible. And, in no case are these punishments. It is abuse, torture. You should never use the punches to punish a submissive, never
Kurt: Go tell everyone that I have known
Blaine: If I have the chance I'll tell them my way of thinking
Kurt: For a dominant, I find you very sweet to do this
Blaine: You are very seriously injured, and I can see in your eyes how much pain you are in. I take it slow, taking my time, to make sure I don't miss anything and avoid hurting yourself. Most of the wounds you have are pretty deep and that really worries me. You really should go see a doctor for this
Kurt: I told you before that I'm not allowed to do it. I cannot go to a doctor or to the hospital
Blaine: Who told you that? Who decided you weren't allowed anymore?
Kurt: A teacher, the most influential in my old school. He was fed up with my rebellious behavior, and he told me I didn't deserve the luxury of going to a doctor or going to the hospital. He told me pain would always be a part of my life
Blaine: How will he know you went to the hospital? He can't know
Kurt: I have a pretty full file. As soon as I give my name, they know directly if I can be there or not. Same for ambulances
Blaine: Okay, I think I could take care of it. But, I should do this several times a day, and I should stay with you to make sure you have no problem
Kurt: I can take care of myself. So far I have had no problem
Blaine: You're lucky, but you're never too careful. I saw you limp, and you are shaking a lot. Since you said it, all I can see is that. So, I think being alone is not a good idea at all. And, as I said, there is this care to be done several times a day
Kurt: What? Why ?
Blaine: Because it's important to take care of them. They are not scars, they are open wounds that must be taken care of. They hurt you a lot, I know it, I see it
Kurt: We're not in the same class. We only see each other during the few lessons we have in common, and during breaks. And, considering the time you take, I don't think you'll have time to do it all
Blaine: I'll make arrangements for that. We're in the same dorm, and I'm a Dominant. I'm going to go see the director, and explain the whole situation to him. There is a very good chance that he will put us in the same classes, and that I can take care of you when I need to.
Kurt: Are you that influential?
Blaine: It's not influence. As a dominant, I have to take care of my submissive, and I have the right to make whatever arrangements are necessary for that.
Kurt: I'm not yours
Blaine: Not yet. I do not want to force you. But, I see in your eyes that you have a very deep need for submission. I feel like you're going to kneel in front of me any minute
Kurt: What?
Blaine: Don't lie to me
Kurt: I'm not lying to you, I just don't understand what you're talking about
Blaine: I'm telling you, I feel like you're going to kneel in front of me. To be precise, I feel like you want this
Kurt: I ...
Blaine: Am I right? Is this what you want? Or is this what you need?
Kurt: I don't know. I ... this is the first time I feel this ... and I'm ashamed
Blaine: Why are you ashamed? It's your nature
Kurt: I know ... but I'm not used to this ...
Blaine: You were disgusted with your submission, it shows. You have a natural submission, and it's very deep, I told you before. But, you got so disgusted that you feel ashamed when you feel something natural, something that is part of you
Kurt: How is getting down on my knees natural or part of me? It's just something we are taught as a child
Blaine: We taught you that so you weren't surprised when you felt the need. What you feel is a natural urge. You only feel that in the presence of a dominant whom you trust, to whom you want to submit
Kurt: I've always been told that's something a Dominant demands because he feels stronger, more powerful. I was never told it was natural
Blaine: A dominant never asks that to increase their sense of strength or power. And, it demands it even less. For a submissive, kneeling helps him calm down and reassure himself. And, we are going gradually with this kind of thing. We start by bringing up the idea, talking about it, then we test
Kurt: I… that's what we're doing…
Blaine: Right. But, we will go there gradually. I don't want to force you to do this. To begin with, I want you to realize that this is a natural urge, which is part of you. It's normal for you to feel that way. And, that makes me happy too, because show that you trust me
Kurt: I ...
Blaine: I told you that a submissive only feels this urge in the presence of a dominant he trusts. And, you feel this need now, in my presence
Kurt: What makes you think I'm feeling this?
Blaine: I see it in your eyes. And also, you keep your eyes on your knees. This is another submissive position. If you don't get down on your knees, you look at them, to show me your submission
Kurt: I… how do you know that? Did we tell you?
Blaine: Dominants have some different lessons than submissives, and my parents made me take extra lessons. They want me to be well informed and prepared for the day when I officially have a submissive
Kurt: And, given the way you look and what you've told me before, you want it to be me. You have a possessive look, and you have ... I ...
Blaine: I healed your wounds, and I've already given you several orders. You are one of the most beautiful men I have ever seen, and I swear that I will protect you no matter what.
Kurt: I ...
Blaine: I know, that's a lot to record. I know you've been given time to adjust, and as a Dominant I have the right to come see you when I feel like it
Kurt: A time to adapt?
Blaine: For the first few weeks, you have the right to quit any class whenever you want. Also, you don't have to attend every class. I think it's for a month, after that you'll have to follow the schedule given to you
Kurt: Oh yeah, this has been explained to me before, but I admit I didn't quite get it. Now it's a little bit clearer
Blaine: I know I'm not officially your dominant, but I know you need it. Look me in the eye, and tell me you don't need it. You know you can't lie to me. I read you like an open book
Kurt: I swore I didn't belong to anyone. Because I am independent, and being a dominant is too much of a constraint
Blaine: Constraints? Are you talking about the collar and the leash?
Kurt: I… yeah
Blaine: Good. Before we talk about that, let's talk about the fact that you say you are independent
Kurt: I am. I can't stand when someone tries to control me
Blaine: Possible, you showed it to me. But, everything subject to a fairly significant need for dependence. You're not used to being addicted, but you can learn. You can say you don't want it, you know you need it
Kurt: Yeah, to tell me what to do, what to say, what to wear, what to eat. That I know I'm old enough to make my own decisions
Blaine: Yeah, I know that. I didn't say you couldn't. And, what you just said are rules that set the dynamics of the relationship. They can be more or less strict. Each dominant decides what he wants from his submissive
Kurt: I never understood why Dominants are so possessive
Blaine: It's in our nature. Just like yours is having this addiction need. For example, I bet you've already asked permission before doing something. And, very often, it was a dominant. Am I wrong ?
Kurt: Yeah, I already asked for permission. But, that has nothing to do with me being a submissive
Blaine: What was it then?
Kurt: I… because I wasn't sure if I could do it or go. So, out of conscience, I preferred to ask permission
Blaine: Well, maybe. But, what I understand is that you are repressing your submission. You decided to hide it, to say the opposite how you really feel. You say you asked for permission out of conscience, but I know it's because you knew you had to. Because you knew you don't know how to make a decision on your own
Kurt: Still, I took a lot
Blaine: That's not what I said. I'm just saying you felt compelled to do it. Please for a minute tell me how you really feel
Kurt: Yeah, I felt compelled to do it. Yes, I have always had a hard time making decisions on my own. When I asked for permission, I made it seem like a simple question, that I was asking their opinion without really taking it into account.
Blaine: Why?
Kurt: Because I've been told many times that a submissive is incapable of making a decision on his own, and that's why he asks permission. But when I was told it was insults
Blaine: Asking permission before you do something is part of your nature. I don't see why people use this as an insult
Kurt: Did I ever tell you that I hate my nature?
Blaine: You don't have to tell me, I know that. In fact, it shows. But, I think due to the fact that you've been bullied for years
Kurt: Sure, when we tell you all the time how weak you are because you're a submissive, it ends up sticking
Blaine: Now I'm going to ask you a question, and I want an honest answer from you. You look me straight in the eye when you answer me. Out of the question to lie to me
Kurt: Go on ...
Blaine: Do you feel this need for addiction? Do you feel the need to really belong to a Dominant? That is, someone who will make most of the decisions for you
Kurt: I… yes, I have to admit that I have felt that way before. But, I ... I never thought it was normal ...
Blaine: Well, I suspected it. For starters, what you are feeling is completely normal. It's part of your nature
Kurt: Ok
Blaine: Then you learn to be addicted. I know it ain't gonna be easy, but I know you can do it
Kurt: How? I've always done everything on my own. I am independent, I have already said that
Blaine: I know. But, you just confessed to me that you felt that need for addiction. To be precise, you confessed to me feeling it now
Kurt: Yeah, so what?
Blaine: It's not nothing. I wanna help you, but if you push me away like this, I won't be able to
Kurt: I'm not pushing you away
Blaine: Yeah, you've been pushing me away a while ago. But, you've also been showing me your submission a while ago. I admit that this is quite contradictory in behavior. You say hate your nature, but you show me your submission
Kurt: I ...
Blaine: I want to teach you to accept your submission. But, to do that, you have to trust me. And, I think you already trust me
Kurt: You're the first dominant to be nice to me. But, I'm still suspicious
Blaine: Considering everything you've been through, it's okay
Kurt: I don't know what to do. You described exactly how I feel, what I refused to accept. Now what do I do?
Blaine: We're gonna talk, so you understand all that entails. For example, you mentioned necklaces. How do you feel about that?
Kurt: All the ones I knew were choke collars. And, from all I know, it's done to keep a sub under control. For me it's a constraint
Blaine: Well, it's not. They are there to show who you belong to, and to prevent the Dominants from trying anything. It's just a security measure, a way to show that you belong to me
Kurt: And, the leash?
Blaine: It's also a safety measure. To prevent a submissive from getting lost, injured, or going to a place that is forbidden to him. But, I admit that we see fewer and fewer submissives on a leash
Kurt: So I have places that I cannot?
Blaine: I, too, have places that are off limits to me. When I said that I was thinking of military bases or whatever
Kurt: Ok. So, if I understand correctly, it's not a constraint, it's here to help me. That's it ?
Blaine: Yeah, that's it. I think you will get used to it, over time
Kurt: Yeah, except in my case it's written in my file that I'm required to wear a collar and a leash. Because, since I am violent, I have to be kept in check. Do you realize that I am not allowed to move around without this?
Blaine: What do you mean?
Kurt: One day, I was at the mall with some friends, and the police came to check on us. When they saw this obligation, they asked me why I wasn't wearing a collar, and why I wasn't on a leash. My friends are dominant, so they asked her why they weren't keeping me on a leash. Everyone was looking at us ...
Blaine: What ... this is the first time I've heard such a story. It may be an obligation, but a police officer is not allowed to yell at you for it. What he can do is advise you to follow this obligation, but not ask yourself why you are not.
Kurt: Yeah, if they were cops who know how to do their job well. But, as usual, I ran into police officers who don't consider submissives to be human beings.
Blaine: I hate those kinds of people. They must understand that a submissive is not just a thing to have
Kurt: Yeah
Blaine: Okay now let's move on to the next point
Kurt: Which one?
Blaine: How do you feel about getting down on your knees?
Kurt: I never did that on purpose. My ankles were always strapped to my thighs, to force me to stay on my knees. Or, I was kicked in the back of the knees to make me fall. Or I was threatened. Either way, I was never given a choice
Blaine: So you don't like it?
Kurt: Not really, no. Yet when I was little, I couldn't wait to do that. I couldn't wait to get on my top's knees, to wear his necklace. I… I guess I was deluding myself. I dreamed of the perfect life ...
Blaine: You can have it. I would do anything in my power for that. And, to begin with, it's getting back into alignment with your nature that is important. And, getting down on your knees is part of your nature. This is one of the most important things for a submissive
Kurt: I don't know how to do ... I told you, I was always forced to do this. I don't know how to do this, how to put myself, where to put
Blaine: We're gonna work on this, don't worry
Kurt: I… not now. I must ...
Blaine: Yeah, it's getting late. We'll talk about that tomorrow, okay?
Kurt: Tomorrow we have class I'll call you back
Blaine: It's the weekend tomorrow. So unless you go home I think we'll have all the time we need to chat
Kurt: My dad told me I can spend the weekend here, getting used to it, making new friends, seeing the buildings and the teachers
Blaine: Well he had a good idea to tell you that
Kurt: A good idea for you especially
Blaine: I admit it. But, I'll also show you around the school. There is no reason for you to do this alone
Kurt: It's crazy, I knew Dominants are possessive. But you, you have another level of possessiveness. I never saw that
Blaine: I admit I'm quite possessive, I've been told that many times. But, I don't feel reassured knowing you are alone. Just because there is a zero tolerance protocol for harassment doesn't mean you're safe. Yes, all teachers pay attention to all the details, to detect the slightest sign of harassment and to solve the problem directly. But, I know some guys here who aren't really nice
Kurt: Not nice people, they are everywhere
Blaine: I would hate if you fell on it
Kurt: I bet they are dominants
Blaine: Not that. There are also submissives who are not nice
Kurt: Still, submissives are more timid than dominant. You only have to look at me to realize it
Blaine: Yeah, they create fewer problems. But, when it comes to spreading rumors, they are very strong
Kurt: Okay, I'm going to bed
Blaine: We'll keep talking tomorrow
Kurt: Ok
The next morning
Blaine: Stand up
Kurt: What time is it? ...
Blaine: Eight o'clock. Get up
Kurt: I consider myself a late riser on weekends. I don't get up before ten o'clock
Blaine: I know, but the days are short. We still have to talk, and I'll show you around the school
Kurt: Okay, I'm going in my shower. Don't touch my clothes
Blaine: As long as you get up now, I won't touch it
Kurt: Is that a threat?
Blaine: Threatening clothes?
Kurt: It's okay, I didn't say anything
Blaine: I always have great arguments when I feel like
Kurt: Just, in the morning, avoid using a dominant tone. Because when I wake up I forget I'm a submissive. And, ...
Blaine: Got it, don't worry
Kurt: I know, you don't like to be disobeyed, like most dominants elsewhere
Blaine: We'll be working on that too. We will go there gradually
Kurt: I hope you are patient, because it might take a while
Blaine: I am very, very patient. It will take as long as it takes, but we'll get there. There is no need to rush. We will take our time
Kurt: This is the first time that I have such a patient Dominant
Blaine: We're gonna pick up where we left off yesterday. You were talking about the fact that you had to get down on your knees, that you were never given the choice of that. And from what you said it looks like you're willing to do it on purpose
Kurt: And, I also told you that I don't know how to do it
Blaine: I'll guide you. But, for that, I need to know if you're really ready for this. I do not want to force you
Kurt: I dunno… when I was little this is what I wanted. But now I don't know
Blaine: Think about it. What is your gut telling you?
Kurt: That he wants this. Deep down I know I want it. But I…
Blaine: Do you want this?
Kurt: I would say more than I need. I only have bad experiences
Blaine: Okay, calm down. I told you, I will guide you. To begin with you have to relax
Kurt: Easier said than done
Blaine: You have to let it go too. Your muscles are completely tense. I must be able to guide you without difficulty. I must be able, for example, to move your arms without feeling resistance
Kurt: Ok…
Blaine: Okay, stay relaxed like that, okay?
Kurt: Would you mind explaining each part to me, please? I think that would reassure me
Blaine: Yeah sure
Kurt: Thanks…
Blaine: Now I'm going to sit down and you're going to get between my legs, but you're still standing for now
Kurt: Ok
Blaine: As soon as you feel ready you'll get down on your knees with your head down and your hands on your thighs. This is the most reassuring submissive position for a submissive. And, you wait for me to tell you before you move
Kurt: Okay ...
Blaine: Good boy
Kurt: I… thank you…
Blaine: How are you feeling?
Kurt: A little more relaxed than usual
Blaine: Well, that's the effect it's supposed to have on you. It proves that you are comfortable with it
Kurt: I always thought I never would
Blaine: Look at me
Kurt: Yeah ...
Blaine: And that proves that you know how to obey orders. It was a simple one, but it is already that
Kurt: Was that an order?
Blaine: Yeah. You didn't realize it, but I used a dominant tone
Kurt: Still, I spot that kind of tone from miles away
Blaine: Which shows you're comfortable with it too. Well, it will be necessary to work, so that it is natural obedience which takes the top. I don't want you to feel forced
Kurt: As far as I know, a submissive is not allowed to say no
Blaine: You have every right to say no. Like I said, I don't want you to feel pressured to do what I ask you to do. Every submissive has a natural obedience in him
Kurt: I have to find her
Blaine: I'll help you with that, don't worry
Kurt: Alright
Blaine: Now let's talk about necklaces. I know you don't have good experiences with it. But, I'd like to know if you're ready to wear one. One that I would have made especially for you
Kurt: I… are you willing to spend some money on me?
Blaine: Of course
Kurt: How are you going to ...
Blaine: Already I come from a wealthy family. I never talk about it because I'm not the type to brag. But, yes, I have the money. Also, a family friend works in leather and metal. He could make a necklace without costing me anything. But know I'm ready to empty all my parents' bank accounts for you
Kurt: Ok…
Blaine: So are you ready to wear one? This is an important part for a submissive, because it shows who they belong to
Kurt: I would like to. But I'm scared
Blaine: What are you afraid of?
Kurt: Whether it hurts, whether it's too tight, leaves her too. I've only known choke collars, I told you before. So I don't know what to expect
Blaine: A necklace doesn't hurt, it's not his point. For the fact that it's too tight, it will be tight enough that you can feel the pressure of the leather around your neck. For the leash, I have already explained to you what it is for
Kurt: Don't you have one that I can test? I know I'm sure I ask a lot, but I would like to test one, to find out what is going and what is not.
Blaine: Of course. I always have one with me. It was my parents who advised me to always keep one, but I never knew why. Now it looks like I've finally found a use for it
Kurt: It's just to try. I don't intend to keep it long
Blaine: Keep it as long as you need it. It may take a while to get used to it
Kurt: It's about whether I support leather or whether I need a fabric collar. I know it exists
Blaine: Cloth necklaces are very rarely used. They break very quickly, not practical to put on a leash. To be honest, I prefer the leather ones, but the interior may be fabric
Kurt: I know, I hardly ever see it
Blaine: I'll get it, stay here
Kurt: On your knees?
Blaine: Yeah, you stay like that
Kurt: Ok
Blaine: Alright, don't move
Kurt: I ... it's weird
Blaine: Is this the first time you've had one?
Kurt: Yeah
Blaine: And, it looks pretty good on you, for such a simple necklace, I mean
Kurt: And, I take it. I didn't think I could stand leather. It's soft and not too tight
Blaine: He's from the place I told you about. An expert for leather and metal. Personally, I imagine a deep black leather collar with a silver plaque with our names, in gold, on it
Kurt: It's true that it looks pretty
Blaine: And, I can go get him today
Kurt: You mean go order it today? Because, what you just described, it's gonna take some time
Blaine: No, not so much. Like I said, he's a family friend. I just have to go to his studio, tell him what I want, and he will. I think it should take an hour or two
Kurt: It's convenient
Blaine: But, that means you'll be alone. I already told you, I'm not comfortable knowing you are alone
Kurt: I barricade myself in the dormitory, I promise. And then, I haven't met anyone yet. I don't think I'm risking anything
Blaine: Ok we can do that
Kurt: Like that, Monday, you will have already marked your territory
Blaine: What do you mean?
Kurt: Everyone will know that I'm yours. Since I would wear a necklace with your name written on it, and I think I would regularly be kneeling at your feet
Blaine: It's true that I expect you to show your submission to me, but I want it to be natural
Kurt: Like dependence on you, I imagine
Blaine: You seem very addicted already
Kurt: What?
Blaine: You haven't moved yet, which means you're waiting for my permission before you get up. And that shows a certain level of dependence
Kurt: I ...
Blaine: And, you look very comfortable with it
Kurt: I have to admit that it makes me weird. I'm on my knees between your legs and I… never felt so secure as I do now. Why ?
Blaine: Maybe being between my legs gives you the feeling of protection
Kurt: Possible
Blaine: Well, I think I'd better go get him now. I could always show you around the school later
Kurt: Do I keep this necklace, meanwhile?
Blaine: Yeah, if you want. But, you can take it off if you want
Kurt: Am I allowed to take the necklace off?
Blaine: Yeah
Kurt: I've always been told that only my dominant is allowed to touch the collar. That is, take it off, put it on or whatever
Blaine: Well, that's not the necklace you'll always have. But, it's true that it's better to ask permission before touching your necklace
Kurt: I suspected that
Blaine: And considering the condition of your back, you better stay on your stomach
Kurt: It's true that it hurts a little bit, but it's okay
Blaine: I'm serious. Your injuries are really, really serious, and I don't want to risk them getting worse
Kurt: Ok. I just have a question
Blaine: I'm listening
Kurt: Do I have to call you sir? Because I know that the majority of dominants demand it and I ...
Blaine: Aren't you comfortable with this?
Kurt: Yeah, and I'm not used to that too
Blaine: Well, I rarely demand things. For calling me sir, you go at your own pace with that. If you call me that, it's a sign of trust, and also of respect. But, it may take a while for that. And, just to let you know, you don't have to call me sir
Kurt: Ok, I ...
Blaine: Do you understand what I mean?
Kurt: Yeah ...
Blaine: Good. So while I'm away, I don't want you to leave the dorm. I told you before, there are some people who are not nice, and I don't want them to cause you problems
Kurt: And, Monday, how am I going to do?
Blaine: We'll talk about that later
Kurt: Ok
Blaine: Do you need me to go get something for you? As long as I'm out, I can go do some shopping for you
Kurt: I don't need anything
Blaine: Okay. See you later
Kurt: At any hour
Two hours later
Blaine: Hey, I'm back
Kurt: What the… what?
Blaine: Did I wake you up? I'm sorry I didn't know you were sleeping
Kurt: Did I fall asleep? I ... I wanted to watch a movie, and obviously it must be boring
Blaine: Or so you must have been tired. Did you sleep well last night? Because I noticed you were a little restless during the night, and I wanted to talk to you about it this morning, but I didn't really know how to bring it up
Kurt: Yeah, I'm pretty prone to nightmares. And also to panic attacks
Blaine: So you had a nightmare last night?
Kurt: Several, to be honest. I think I got two hours of sleep, in five minute intervals
Blaine: Why didn't you wake me up?
Kurt: Because I'm used to dealing with this on my own. Also, because every time I woke someone up because of it, they got mad at me
Blaine: Did they get mad because you had a nightmare? It's not your fault you got one, they should know
Kurt: I know
Blaine: Next time I want you to wake me up, okay?
Kurt: Ok
Blaine: And, panic attacks, can you handle them too?
Kurt: Usually, yes. But, there were times I took longer to calm down
Blaine: What are the signs I need to watch out for?
Kurt: Well, a lot of times my heartbeat kicks in, my breathing gets choppy, and my vision gets blurry. Basically if I start to breathe fast and look at you with fear you can be sure that I have a panic attack coming up
Blaine: Well, I'll be careful about that
Kurt: Did you manage to get the necklace?
Blaine: Yeah, he's here
Kurt: In a box? Why is it in a box? As far as I know it is not from a jewelry store
Blaine: Because that's how it is. It might not be a jewelry store, but he's still an expert at what he does. And, to prevent the necklace from getting damaged, he puts it in a box. This way, it is protected from dust and other dirt
Kurt: Ok
Blaine: You're gonna get on your knees, between my legs, like we did yesterday, okay?
Kurt: What? I… why?
Blaine: This is always the way it is, when a submissive gets his collar
Kurt: I didn't know
Blaine: I know I should have explained to you
Kurt: It's okay, don't worry
Blaine: I'm a dominant, and you, you're my submissive. I should have been more responsible and explained to you what was going to happen
Kurt: I ...
Blaine: Finally, let's move on. I'll explain it step by step, okay?
Kurt: Go ahead, I'm listening
Blaine: For starters, you're gonna kneel between my legs, like yesterday. Take all your time, I know you're not used to this
Kurt: I think I could get used to this
Blaine: Good boy. And, just to let you know, you're beautiful on your knees
Kurt: Thanks
Blaine: Okay, now I'll show you the necklace. I want your opinion on it
Kurt: If this is the description you said, I know I will like it
Blaine: He's exactly as I described him to you. I figured something simple should do the trick. But, for your comfort, I have requested that the interior be made in a softer leather
Kurt: He's beautiful. And, is that real silver and real gold?
Blaine: Yeah
Kurt: I ... this is the first time that I will wear such precious metals.
Blaine: Like they say, there is a first time to everything. Lift your head a little, make it easier
Kurt: Alright
Blaine: Don't move, okay? I want it to be put on well, because it will stay there all the time. It's water resistant, so you don't need to take it off to take a shower
Kurt: Would I keep it all the time?
Blaine: Yeah. Because, for example, if you take it off when you're at home, you might forget to put it back on when you go out. It's rare for a submissive to take off their collar, or for their dominant to take it off. Once it's put on it's here to stay
Kurt: Ok
Blaine: Yeah, it looks great on you. I was sure that such a black leather would stand out well on your skin
Kurt: Sure, you've thought of everything
Blaine: Yeah
Kurt: And, it's true that I feel the pressure of the leather
Blaine: That way you'll know he's here all the time
Kurt: I ... I know there are rules to follow, and quite often they are strict
Blaine: Right. Every submissives has rules to follow, it's part of your nature. But, each dominant has the right to set more or less strict rules
Kurt: Okay. So I ... I imagine that I ... that I will have some too
Blaine: Yeah, you're gonna get some too. But, I assure you, I am far from being a really strict Dominant. The rules are there to set the dynamics of the relationship, not to constrain you
Kurt: What about the punishments?
Blaine: They're there to let you know that you did something wrong. For example, when you disobey one of the established rules, I have to punish you so that you understand that you don't have to start over. Do you understand ?
Kurt: Yeah, I understand. Fair…
Blaine: I would never use the punches to punish you. I don't understand Dominants who beat their submissives to punish them. Apart from traumatizing them, it's no use
Kurt: Yeah, I can attest to that
Blaine: A lot of times the method of punishment I use is isolation and deprivation. I know, it's pretty simple, but it's effective
Kurt: Yeah, for a kid
Blaine: I know it reminds you of that, but it's not the same. I wouldn't deprive you of the same things as a child
Kurt: Don't worry, I get it
Blaine: Good
Kurt: When are you gonna tell me tell them?
Blaine: Looks like you're impatient
Kurt: No, that's not it. I think the sooner you say them the sooner I will stop worrying
Blaine: Why are you worried?
Kurt: Because it's a first for me. I'm not used to all of this. For me it's a little weird
Blaine: You still have to get used to it, that's okay. You're only starting to accept your nature
Kurt: Go ahead, tell them. Like that, it will be done
Blaine: Are you sure? Really sure?
Kurt: Yeah, really sure
Blaine: Okay, if you're sure. For starters, you don't cut people off. Also, I expect you to ask me to speak before you speak. You can do this by touching my knee or grabbing my wrist. For this discussion, I allow you to ask any questions you can think of, as long as you wait until I'm done speaking. You understand ?
Kurt: Yeah, I understand. I have heard this often. I knew a submissive had to ask for the floor before speaking. So I expected you to tell me that
Blaine: At least it's not something completely new to you
Kurt: Yeah, still. I'm not in the habit of asking for the floor before I speak
Blaine: Okay, next point. I know this will sound pretty strict to you, but it's something I really care about, because it shows your submission
Kurt: What?
Blaine: I expect you to stay on your knees next to me when I'm sitting down. When I'm standing I would like you to keep your head down and your hands crossed in front of you
Kurt: Yeah, it sounds pretty strict. But, I think I could get used to it
Blaine: Like I said it's because you're starting to accept your nature
Kurt: And, I've seen that a lot too. Finally, I have often heard about it
Blaine: I didn't want to be too strict from the start. Alright, I'm not really either
Kurt: And, I have to admit, I'm pretty comfortable being on my knees between your legs. The more I do it, the more comfortable I feel
Blaine: And, to obey orders, it's the same. You also seem more comfortable with it. Because when I told you to get on your knees you did it straight
Kurt: I hesitated a bit
Blaine: Yeah, that's right. But, as soon as I explained to you why, you did it straight away
Kurt: I didn't realize it then
Blaine: That's your instinct, that's why
Kurt: Yeah, sure
Blaine: "run his hand through his hair" I know I told you before, but you look beautiful on your knees. You are the most beautiful man i have ever seen
Kurt: Thank you sir
Blaine: Yeah, you're really comfortable. It shows
Kurt: I ... oh no ... it came out on its own ...
Blaine: Easy, calm down. I know it came out on its own. It's a reflex, it's normal. You are comfortable with your nature, so you let your instincts take over. You don't have to worry about that, okay?
Kurt: I ... ok ... okay ...
Blaine: We're gonna work on that too
Kurt: I've been suppressing my submission and my instincts for years. So when it comes out it makes me weird
Blaine: But, it's good that you let 'em out
Kurt: A lot of people say that if I suppressed my submission for a long time I might go nuts.
Blaine: It's true that it's not a good idea to suppress her
Kurt: For once in my life, I feel good. I feel calmer, less stressed. I never thought that I could feel good accepting my submission
Blaine: Because you have a desire, and a need as well, for submission that is really, deep. And, you've been tortured for years because all the Dominants you've known are idiots. I swear, if I ever see them they'll see what it's like to anger a dominant
Kurt: Okay. So you are possessive and protective
Blaine: All Dominants need to be protective of their submissives. They must protect them, so that they do not get into trouble, or hurt themselves. And, for possessiveness, it's in our nature. I couldn't explain you for I'm possessive
Kurt: To be precise, you are really very possessive. When I see your gaze, it looks like you want to eat me. Your gaze shows that I am yours, and only yours. Well, that's how I understand it
Blaine: Yeah, that's right
Kurt: Do you think the others ...
Blaine: Let them try something, and they will see. With the necklace you have around your neck, they know you belong to me. But, I admit that some do not care about this
Kurt: So I'm gonna stay suspicious
Blaine: Better, yeah. As long as I'm not with you, avoid all the people who seem suspicious to you
Kurt: Ok
Blaine: I'm serious. I've told you that before, but there are some students out there that you better not run into. For the most part, they are dominants, and they can be quite aggressive.
Kurt: I have experience with this kind of dominants
Blaine: Stay away from them. I would tell you which ones to avoid and which ones you can stay in trouble with. The ones I'm sure won't cause you any problems are my friends, I've known them for many years
Kurt: Alright
Blaine: Well, I think we can enjoy the rest of the day. I'll show you around the school tomorrow
Kurt: I… would I have the leash?
Blaine: I know you don't like it, but I better put it on you. This way you will get used to it. I reassure you, no one will say anything if they see you on the leash. They are used to it
Kurt: But, not me. I know people will watch me, because I'm new here. And, I'm afraid what they will say to each other when they see me with a leash and a collar around my neck
Blaine: I have ears everywhere. Seriously, I have friends who will tell me if anyone has said anything about you. I just have to tell them to pay attention to what they are saying and especially if it concerns you
Kurt: You know I always felt like a dog, when I have a leash
Blaine: I already explained his role to you. You mustn't have that feeling anymore. I know this is a first for you, and it is hard. But, you should get used to it, over time
Kurt: Ok
Blaine: Now relax. It will be tomorrow that you will wear it
Kurt: I know