In the Voice of Lucifer
by sharnii
I don't expect any of you to understand.
No-one understands me; not even my … darling little sister. No-one looks closely enough to see my TRUE splendour, the burning gasses at the heart of a star.
I suppose that's what happens when you shine so brightly.
Lately, I find myself bored. These endless games, the Code of the Rose Signet … all my clever plans. None of it seems to … mean much, any more.
None of this current batch of duellists are interesting. They are all so bland and tainted. There's hardly any clean space left for me to blot out.
I admit, sometimes I … miss her. My false bride, THE witch, my eternal shadow. We always played these games together; she always did my bidding. Without her skilled assistance, it's not so easy as it was. Besides, half the fun of it all was tormenting her. And of course … receiving her torments.
No-one sees the truth of me, the fullness-of-me, like my Anthy. No-one gives me, what she gave … and gave. When I called, she always came. When I came, she … pretended to cum.
It was perfect. I wanted it to go on forever. We were meant to be together, forever … and we very nearly were.
We will be again!
Sometimes I even miss … him. My other foolish self, dead and buried, yet somehow still alive enough to inspire foolish hearts. Dios, 'The Prince'. He is gone now; I can't sense his spirit in the castle's graveyard any longer. I don't know where he's gone, and I don't much care. But it's … irritating.
More and more, I think about that … noble … girl-child, so strong and magnificent, that THIEF and IMPOSTER. She is in my dreams, darkening them with her … purity. She is in my memories, confusing the equation, ripping apart reality's seems.
Tenjou Utena.
Her innocence was mine; I plucked her flower first! But now I feel strangely bereft … for she has somehow escaped this world, this eternal rose garden, and without having the DECENCY to ask for my permission.
I am sure that Anthy, that faithless whore! Is. With. Utena.
Yet somehow they are beyond me now. I can't feel either of them in my world, not even traces. On that last day when Anthy … abandoned me, she made a threat. But I didn't understand her words.
Damned nonsensical witch!
What did she say? Ah yes, she taunted me:
"You don't know what happened, do you? …
It's alright now. Please go on playing make-believe 'Prince' in this comfortable little coffin forever …
That person hasn't vanished. She's merely left your world …
Farewell."
What … world? What did Anthy mean? What … coffin?!
Her obfuscated words trouble me sorely. At least when she taunted me before, I knew exactly what she meant. And could punish her immediately.
Damn Anthy to hell! No … return her to me! AT ONCE!
It's the same thing, after all. And without her here … I'm in hell.
I'm all alone.
I don't expect any of you to understand.