I don't even know how to describe it to you anymore. My friends are dead, my sister and father are hungry and my mother is dying of cancer.

Classmates.. most of them is dead.. those who survived are in asylum or are missing.. possibly dead.

But that day was different when I was sent back to duty after recovering from the gas I breathed.

I was in a trench. On guard. With a rifle in my hands. To my surprise, there was a peace of arms today. There was silence. But a dead silence that drove me crazy, because I could still hear the cries of fighting, wounded and dying men, artillery, rifles and machine guns.

I tried to breathe it out and make myself calm, I don't have to drown in it even when the arms are calm. I looked around. It was strange to see the trenches deadly silent and to see them illuminated by the sun.

I touched the clay. It was dry. Dry and cold.

The cold clay broke up in my fingers as if it was just dust.

I fixed the look on the clay. The disintegration of the soil sat much about what I happened when I joined the army together with the classmates.

The emergence and disintegration of young life destroyed by war.

But at that moment, I heard a shot from the rifle.

The decayed clay fell out of my fingers. I looked at my chest and found that I was shot and bleeding.

My rifle fell of my hand.

I felt a metal taste of blood in my mouth. The blood flowed from my mouth and nose.

I stood a few seconds and looked at the sun in the distance above the trenches before I fell to the ground and died.

The last time I smiled and looking at the sun thought "It ended. Finally, it ended."

I didn't even get a tear even though I can wanted to cry from the happiness. It ended. It ended. My suffering ended.

I immediately fell into the wet clay on which I was walking in the trench.

I closed my eyes immediately. It was quick and painless.

Father, Mother, and My Sister - My suffering ended up on the western front. Don't worry about me, I'm in a better place and I love you.

I closed my eyes with happiness on my eyes that my suffering ended.

Goodbye.