A/n this is my first story and Attempt to write on there's not a lot of talking in this chapter just a lot of setting the storyline also I am looking for a beta to help me don't know how to go about getting one any help would be appreciated

Hi my Names Jacob black and this is the story on how I fucked up my life

You know the story where the guy best friend falls for the pretty girl with the asshole boyfriend and she realizes that she loved the best friend all along and leaves the asshole boyfriend and the guy best friend finally gets the girl and they lived happily ever after...yea that's not this story .

For you to understand I gotta start at the beginning I have been inlove with Bella Swan for as long as I can remember the farthest I can go was when me and Bella was small making mud pies together. She was seven and I was five and even then I knew she was the prettiest girl I have ever seen my dad billy told me even then we were Inseparable like we were in sync with each other's where ever one moved the other followed they say we would cry for each other when it came time for Bella to leave back to her mom . that never changed even when she stopped coming to visit during the summers. When she came back during her senior year to spend time with her dad it was like we never separated but then of course that's when the bloodsucker came in and ruined that. They were together for a while then he left her. Now don't get me wrong I hated to see Bella in pain it hurt me to see her so destroyed but fuck if I wasn't happy that he was gone. It gave me and Bella a real chance to get close again but as soon as we got to the point where Bella was considering us to be more then just friend...BAM the bloodsucker was back.

I fought like hell to get Bella to see that I was the better choice that I could give her the love she was craving for a love that consumed her that had adventure even scared her a little and she didn't have to give up everything to have it didn't have to turn into a cold stone lifeless bloodsucking leech .

After the Newborn fight after that amazing kiss on the Mountain I got hurt pretty bad all thanks to Leah feeling like she needed to prove that she was just as tough as the rest of us . That's when Bella came to me in my room and told me she wanted to be with me that she didn't just choose to live but choose to live a life with me .i was the happiest man on the planet at that moment we spent that whole summer together going on dates to port Angeles taking walks on the beach watching moves riding our bikes hang out in the garage while I worked on whatever projected I had at the time and she read her books we would sneaking out late at night doing things we would get shit for doing if Charlie ever found out . we also spent a lot of time kissing that of course was the best part of the whole relationship being able to hold her hand kiss her whenever I felt like it .

But then school started back up again and Bella went to collage in Port Angeles for a while we made it work but I got insecure ...yea I'm man enough to admit it I was (still am) insecure I felt like she was moving forward in her life and I was just stuck here not being able to leave La push. I couldn't do and give her the things Cullen could he could provide for her take her around the world go to any school he wanted fuck he problay has. What did I have to offer a rundown house and a makeshift shed that I called my garage even when I graduated I would still be stuck on the Res. So I got scared and thought Bella was gonna eventually leave me so I kinda freaked out called her and ended things to say she she was pissed was an understatement. She knew me better then anyone else and knew my reasons behind why I was ending it. I didn't have to tell her why she just knew .she fought me hard on it but me being the stubborn ass that I am I didn't let it go that was about a month ago I haven't talked to her since that horrible night and tonight was the night I was going to see her

Tonight's Charlie and Sue rehearsal dinner everyone was at sue house her and Emily cooked a big dinner for everyone . Their yard was big enough to set up a tent with table and chair Leah hung a bunch of lights everywhere it was really nice me and the pack helped got it all set up for them there wedding is in two days and I was told she was coming in tonight. I'm nervous as fuck and there's so many question ruining three my head like What has she been up to ? Has she been thinking about me ? Dose she look diffrent ? Dose she miss me like I miss her? Does she hate me ? God I hope not as these questions were running threw my head that's when I smelt strawberries and vanilla her signature scent at least one of my questions got answered . She still smelled the same and man did I miss it . As I inhaled her scent I seen Quil Embry and Seths eyes go wide looking past me we were all sitting at the table talking...well they were talking I was mostly lost in my thoughts only speaking when spoken to

"Bro looks like Bella here and man does she look hot tonight " Quil said grinning

I growled at him but turn around and that's when I saw her. Quil was right she did look hot she had on the most tightest dress I have ever seen on her. It was black satin (she knew what it did to me when she wore black ) it hit right below the knee it was strapless and hugged at her chest pushing out her breast showing just the perfect amount of cleavage her hair was down With her beautful chestnut curls going down her back it had gotten longer since the last time I seen her it was right above that perfect ass of hers she had little make up on just enough to highlight her beautiful face she had on a black heel low of course so she didn't fall she gotten even more beautful then I Remeber i snapped myself outta eye fucking her and finally focused on the one thing that could bring me to my knees her beautful brown eyes

"Bellaaaa" Quil and embry screamed and ran towards her. I watched her smile bright toward my friends as they both hugged her at the same time and I couldn't help but get jealous

"Guys ...can't...breath" she struggled out

"sorry B we just missed you so much " embry said. Laughing "Yeah hasn't been the same around here with out you swan no fbloodsucking vamps to destroy very boring " Quil smiled at her

"yea I I missed all of you to " Bella blushed And I think my heart exploded in my chest just from the sight of that bleauful blush on my girls face...well not my girl anymore but I wanted her to be. She told the boys she be back she had to go say Hello to Charlie

"There's something diffrent about her " Sam said as he came to sit next to me "Yeah it's crazy it's only be two months since I seen her and one month since I talk to her but it seems like since that time something in her changed " I told him

"So when you gotta get your head outta your ass and get the girl back " sam said smirking "Nah sam I ain't gonna interfere in her life again she don't have to be tied here i am not gonna be the reason she don't get to be something in life not gonna happen " I said not taking my eyes off of Bella .

"Your forgetting something Jacob I know you I am constantly in your head your still inlove with her " he said while rolling his eyes " you can't just make that go away Jake and she loves you it's obvious you two are meant for each other just think about it Jake you deserve to be happy to " I looked over at him smiling " thanks man you to "

The night went on and I noticed Bella went around saying hello to everyone but me. I knew she was mad about the break up but I didn't think she would have ignored me that just wasn't Bella when we ever had a problem she would always try to resolve things even when I was being a hard ass she was sturrborn like that. So to see her not even glance my way made me extremely nervous as I was working up the courage to walk over to her she finally turned my way our eyes locked. I think the whole La push could hear my heart go crazy it was pounding in my chest she slowly walked over to me she smiled shyly "Hey Jake "

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