redgy had always know that he was not a good person or well he didnt see himself that way at least he was rough mean and did not like people he considered himself a old soul sometimes wise beyond his years by no means did he think that he was all knowing or anything no he tried to be humbleand nice but his persona seemed to take over anytime he dare try to show how he really was to him it was a defence mechanism that he made himself most of the time not even he knew he did it or why maybe it was to help cope with his parents devorced and his mom was a raging alcoholicand he never saw his dad sense he 6 he is 17 now and he was numbthat was one of the reasons he had vodka in his hand staring out his window he knew he was better of then so many others i mean not everyone could say that they had a mom or dad or even a roof over thier heads some were starving out thier and he knew that he knew it well and that only made him take another drink from the half empty bottle he was amazed he was standing but with being close to six foot and 165 pounds helped slow his drunkness down o well least he was buzzed he looked at the vodka in his hand again debating on wether to take one more sip before he crashed for the night he sighedand moved his gaze slowly to his window to the stairshe blinked then he blinked again as he rembered he had school again great another day he was tired he wanted to stop playing the game this horabel game called life were other kill each other for no real reason money, revenge and everythinginbetweenthe school shooting the riot the scremes of they did this or they did that the grades and the long night of studing and long lectuers and that not even starting on his own problemthinking about it all made him take one more big chug of the vodka dame almost empty he caped the bottal and put it under his bed he stumbled to his bathroom and looked himself in the mirrior he smiled yep this was redgy a fucked up kid in a fucked up time just waiting for the cold feeling ofnothingness to end permntly as he went thought the motions of so called life he grabed himself the clothes that sober redgy put thier for him and got changed and crawled into the bed he alseep before he was under the covers.
redgy groanedas his alarm blared in his ear he swipped the alarm off and waited for the migrane kicked in from his last night drinking and sure as hell it hit like truck but he was perpared he smiled again not this time hangover put the pilles in his mouth and grabed the water bottole next to it he would be fine by the time he got to school his mom should be gone by now so he should be good to move around as he pleased he grabed a tshirt and pants he really didnt care what he looked like who whould care better yet why would he care he snorted at the thought sense when the hell did he care what other thought of him he looked at his phone 6:20 his bus would show at 6:30 he had time turning off his phone he went down stairs hoping that thier would not be a mess today in living room eh came around the corner and as sure as he needed water to survive thier was from what he could count from afar 8 beers scattered around the floor he rubbed his face viciouslyalmost hopeing they would just disappear but he knew better then that just wishing does nothing but dissapoint so with much effort he started to pick the cans off the ground and put them in the beer trash bag he had stored under the stairsafter wasting almost five minutes on that he took the full bag and went to put it under the stars again till he relised that it was full after this and thier was no room great add the cans to his list of to do things he would need to skip last pirod to be abel to take them out hopefully nothing was of inportence was today he would need to call rob as well redgy smiled at the thought of rob he was kind man he had seen rdgey giving out the bottles to the homeless sense they had so many he mine as well try to help other with it he offered to help him do this by driving him around with the cans to find any homless person they could help give the bottlesto it wasn't much but it was something other wise he would try to do more he shook his head vilonlty as if he could shake the thoughts right out his head he growled at himself no he was not a good guy he was just doing this to help himself that was it they made the desions that made themselfes thier that was it end of story and yet some were inside him knew that was not true he shoved the felling away your not the goog guy redgy he told himself afterrealizing he been sitting in the same spot for a unknow amount of time he looked at his phone FUCK he shouted it was 6:28 he droped the bag containg the cans and ran to his backpack that was in the kitchen and saw a note attached to it he grabe the not and his backback and ran out the door locking the door as he ran he woul dhave to look at the note later shoving it in his poket his bus stop was at the end of the dirt street thier was only one way in and one way out so it normaly caused a back up of cars so it never stuck around long but lady luck must have been smiling because he got their before the bus panting he leaned over catching his breath after caching his breath he looked at his phone 6:30 just in time he muttered to himself rolling his vary tense shoulders he winced at the feeling even after doing it at least every other day it still hurt o well he told him self suck it up bitch he told himself talking to nothing but air moments later he the bus came up he said good moring to him and sat down in a random seat and rested his head on the bus window.
he was awoken by a passing student he looked out the window seeing the high school he muttered a thanks and made his way off the bus to him classroom the students were either on thier phones or talking to each other the techer walked past him saying a quick goodmoring to redgy he gave one in return and took a seat math he was not bad but he was not good at it he could find out how to do it himself most the time but sometimes he did struggel he didnt mind his math teacher he was pretty calm but not all bussenss not to say the he was not business either he was just right of both and so the school day started and went he skiped lunch as normal sense he didnt have money for and they didnt do the free food thing like in some schools but he was fine with maybe if he didnt eat it would make up for all the conplaing he does wired why was he grinning to that he knew why he just refuesed to belive it moving to his last he decided he would skip was theirneed for the beer cans more important then his world history test maybe not but o well he could do overtime tusday not like his mother would care never really did either he wiped his phone out and went stright to the r listed contacts and sent a quick messege asking it he could do the bottle run and was responed to a simple yes thank god he said to himself he really did not want to walk around with all of the bags so with that setteled he started him walk home he put a earbud in and went walked on making sure to watch as much as he could for anything that could get him hurt car or person.
he was walking down his street when he immediately noticed a moving truck at the house on the corrner about time someone took the dame place he stoped for a moment to see if he could see what kind of people moved he started to walk away when someone grabed his shoulder he wiped himself around and took sevral steps away from the person to find it being a girl that looked around his age she seemed to by 5'7 conpared to his 6foot she had a swetshirt around he waist and had a red tshirt on with pants she seemed to be away from as she looked like she had not seen sun in sometime unlike himself that had a tan to his skin cute he then heared her speck hello she had a huge grin on her face that seemed to just want to grow more im robbin was from alaska we decided to move to this place. wow her voice is soft redgy thought about her voice and how soft it seemed relising he need to responed his mask came up with him even relising it redgy i live down at the of the road so what is a icecube girl doing hear looking to start melting he grinned not thier was any meaning to it he had master the mask long ago to give off false feeling to others i go to the school just a few miles that way he pointed to were he just came from really she rocked on her heels i am to maybe you can show me around i start wensday he forced the grin bigger sure thing snowfake just make sure not to melt till then ya she rooled her eyes at the name but it didnt really seem to mind haha she mocked laughed just make sure not to forget hear give me your phone if you one so i can put my number in he raised his brow but shruged who was he to deny her she put her number and gave it thier i will keep in touch to make sure you dont forget she smiled again and he stared for a moment then he robs car down the road and he paniked he looked from her the car sorry robbin i have to run things to do have a good day he said as he was slowly starting to run back to his house she waved and he heard her shout out a goodby and went to go help her family unpack the rest of thier thing she glanced back to were redgy ran interesting she was intrigued by him she just didnt know why yet. redgy ran up to the door and grabed the key under the mat ya ya so obvious so what it works dont it he opned the door and tossed his thing in the coach and went to and grabed the bags as he walked down the porch steps the truck pulled up he smiled it was nice to see rob after so long granted it been a week but that was a farly long time with out seeing him it really depened on how much his mom drank on how long it was before they see each other trowing the bags in the bed of the truck he got in and they left.
it was 9:00 when he got home that day rob pulled up to the house and looked at redgy take care your self radgy i know its hard but i beleive in you your strong vary strong but if you ever need me you can got my number redgy smiled but yet again it was one of his perfect smiles his joker face as he come to call it i know rob i got this you got nothing to worry about man i can fight the wrold and come up on top you know that rob laghes at the stament i know you can brat now go on your stinking up the truck he put a hand on his chest dramatically me i would never how dare you accuse me of doing such a thing with a his joker face on he got out the truck later rob drive safe rob chuckled at his dispaly have a good night redgy he wached as rob pulled out and leave and turened to his his house his mom was home he let it the face slip but a moment later it was back up he was fine he had no reason to be tired he just walked around being his normal self he went up the steps and entered to only immideitly hear moaning in the next room great she hooked up that tonight he had tried to get her to stop doing this but was only met with screming insulets and broken beer bootles and a bleeding head when she chuked one randomly and hit him seh had ran stright to her room and didnt come out the rest the night she had acted as nothing had happened to he did the same guess he was not going to sleep tonight he droped his joker face no use she whould not be out of her room at all tonight but that ment she was going to drink even more then last night sense she was not drinking to night so with that in mind he went to the fridge and grabed a wiskey bottle he had a small one in his room that would keep it cold till he got thourgh the rest the vodka in his room so with that in mind and no home work he decided that he was off drown himself in the wonder of vodka and wiskey he stoped mid way up the stairs and looked at his mom room were banging was coming from goodnight mom i love you and with that said he went to drink himself to sleep ready to do it all over again and as he drinked himself to sleep he looked out his window he begain to speck to the air wonder how the was snowflake doing.
i have no clue what im doing i know what i want to do with it i dint think i will make all chapters this long if your reading this big thanks i am playing once i was 7 years old when i thought about it it will basicly be a boy with many problems and does not like him self intill this girl comes along and starts to see the many cracks with in redgy mask i also started this at like 9 10 pm at night it is 1 56 in the morining please give feed back i want this idea to thrive and maybe just maybe i can make you readers feel something for poor old redgy i want this to leave some sort inpack but then again that being SUPER optamistic any way rambling hope all of you have a good night or day or noon or what ever time place your at :)
p.s i mean no offence or any harm of making of this story