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Authors Note: Hey guys! This is my first story I've ever published on here, and I'm really excited to finish writing it! So technically, this is mostly Keefe's POV, but there will be some times when its Sophie's. I'm 100% a Sokeefe shipper. If you're not, I'd wouldn't recommend this story for you. I write pretty fast, and I only go over my writing usually once, so if you find misspelling or wrong grammar please correct me.

I can't post often because I'm busy with school, so it would help a lot if you could give me suggestions for future chapters. It would totally help speed up the process!

This journal/Keefe's POV takes place in during sometime in book seven, Flashback, when Fitzphie used to be a "thing." This branches off the series, which means it's probably not going to connect with the other kotlc books. So, forget about the shadowflux and everything (that never happened). I also mix up a lot of the books, so if I bring in a character that doesn't come in until a book ahead PLEASE correct me.

If your more into action, I also recommend not reading this. This chapter is very short because I can't think of much to say at the moment. I'm pretty sure this is going to be all dramatic or romantic, but I might change my mine while in the middle of writing it. Who knows?

Thanks guys! I hope you enjoy reading!

I just can't believe she's with Fitz. I mean I don't deserve her at all, but Fitz? No. She's way too good for him. I try not to let my jealousy get in the way of Fitz's and my friendship, but his anger issues go overboard sometimes. He lashes out at Sophie and that's when I go into protective mode. She still forgives him so easily and acted like nothing happened. I thought her and Fitz were amazing together and wished them luck in the future. But his attitude had to change. What would happen when something really terrible happens and Fitz blames Sophie?

My thoughts were interrupted when my imparter buzzed. I answered it. The beautiful, amazing, breath-taking girl appeared on the screen.

"Sup, Foster," I smirked. "Missed me?"

"Hey," she rolled her eyes, but smiled. "Did you discover any new memories about your mom?"

"No, I would tell you if I did. I trust you Foster, and I'd never hold a lie back like that from you." I realized I was getting a little emotional, so I quickly said something else. "Why'd you ask? Maybe that's your excuse so you could just talk to the hottest dude alive?"

"You know I have a boyfriend," Sophie responded. I could see the blushing through the imparter as she said the words.

"Oh yeah, Fitzy-poo isn't it? Couldn't forget."

She couldn't help but laugh at the terrible nickname. I laughed along with it. We lost track of time and ended up talking for hours. Once she clicked away, I felt lonely again.

Sophie was the only girl I like and ever will like. I know she would never like a guy like me. She's a goddess, and what am I? Nothing. But it's impossible for me to get over her. No other girl sparks my interest. No other girl is as beautiful, brave, protective, and caring all at the same time. I am in love with Sophie Foster, but I could never be with her. She's too good for me. She would never care for me the same way she does for Fitz.

I pushed these deep thoughts out of my head and went to sleep.