I was in the hospital, after Voight's car accident. The team didn't know… I didn't want to worry them… Only Trudy knews…
Voight was on the operation… He had an internal bleeding, punctured lung, serious head injury and something else… I didn't know what… All I knew was that he was badly injured and that I had to prepare for the worst. I've been there for 5 hours. Hank had an accident at 23 pm and now it is 4 am. After those 5 hour, the doctor came out of the operating room… I only remember glimpses of what he told me… "We did our best…", "he lost too much blood", "his heart stopped twice" and… "brain waves are showing no activity… his brain is dead... "
And now… I'm in his room and once again I have to say goodbye to one of the most important people in my life... I have to disconnect someone from the life support apparatus again and I have to live without the person I love again... the whole Intelligence has already been here... the fire department, the doctors and half the chicago police force. The only person who didn't say goodbye besides me is Erin ... Trudy called her and I know she's on the next plane here…
I sat down next to him and grabbed his hand.
- H-Hey Sarge… I don't know if you know, but you're like a father to me… I'm so sorry I couldn't do anything for you…
You know when I first met you, I was wondering how you are still a cop. I consired you a complete asholle and a heartless man. I hated you and I konw you hated me too… Then I fell in love with Erin. You wanted to throw me out of Intelligence and kill me… But over time, something has changed… You slowly started to trust and accept me… When Terry died you told me you are lucky to have me in your unit… I was shocked and it was a little ray of hope for me. Later Erin left and I shot a cute, little girl… In everyone's eyes I was a murder but... you belived in me… You told me that I am a good cop and that it was not my fault… You were with me… When my PTSD came out, you didn't fire me, but you helped me… You made me go to a therapist and you cared for me… Al died, my father died and I was in disarray… To this day I remember the situation when I was sitting in the ambulance after Daniel shot me and how you yelled at me for breaking your orders… to be honest I was angry with you… I just lost my father and you said you didn't care… that I should obey your orders and do my job… I didn't understand it... But after some time I understood. You were worried about me… You were taking care of me… - I wiped away my tears. - I remember when you told me "This unit it's gonna be your one day" or when you came to see me after I was shot by Angela… All these situations brought us closer and made me believe that I am not alone… I remember the day I told you that me and Hailey are together ... I thought you'd be furious but instead you hugged us and wished us luck... When you told me I should take the sergeant exam because you want to retire next year ... When I asked you for your opinion on proposing to Hailey and when you made me believe she would say YES ... When you led Hailey down the aisle and said you were proud of us ... and finally when we told you that Haliey is pregnant ... It's a boy. I was gonna tell you today ... We were supposed to go for a walk in the park like every Sunday, and I was going to announce it to you there, and not only that ... I passed the exam Hank ... 95% ... Now I'm Sergeant Jay Halsted. I hope you are proud… because that's the only thing I want… I love you dad… I love you so much… and I will always remember you and love you… You are the best father figure I could ever dream… I promise you that my son will konw you… He will know you from my stories and stories from the whole team.
Goodbye dad...