Hello my dear reader -as you may have read it on my bio-. I'm a Mexican girl trying not just to write on English; also I'm a girl who is trying to share a piece of her crazy mind with you, this is my first fic on English. (I love writing, so I'll be doing it for a while; you may find this Fic on Spanish too)

I may have many grammar, spelling mistakes, etc. So, I know I am asking a lot, but if you do find –of course you will– let me know. I'd love to improve.

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Wildest dreams

I frown, taking a deep breath; I got off from the limo.

The cameras flashes dazzle me, a soft smile plays on my lips, I waved walking through the long red carpet at the premiere. I laid my eyes on the big promotion poster, we're close. Really close.

More than it was meant to be.

I glace on the crowded sidelines, my eyes stopping for a simple second.

He's not alone. He came with her. A blonde bombshell is hanging on his arm; she squishes his hand before standing on her tiptoes and kisses his lips. I turn around, my heart aches.

A big diamond is resting on her ring finger.

They're married.

He never said it.

I look away, he toyed me like a fiddle. He lied, I trusted him.

I gave up everything on me, just for him.

A temping smile rose on my lips, always looking at the cameras.

I keep walking, baby steps. My eyes meet Carlisle's, his arms sliding through my shoulders a warm smile is on his face, we both look at the front when flashes start once again. I follow him through the long hall, I know his talking to me, and I'm still unable to understand a simple word.

I remind smiling, not recognizing how weak I am, how betray I feel, but I don't show up.

I'm an actress, a good one.

No matter what.

I glace at the large screen, both of us are there, we're together smiling. His hand is holding my cheek, our gazes are connected when we kiss.

It wasn't a simple performance, not even a simple play.

I look for him through the whole hall, but he's not alone.

She's there, kissing him, and I'm pretty sure as hell he's kissing her back.

I turn around avoiding his gaze.

I sob holding my tears, now everything is gone.

Flashbacks of our days together crosses over my mind like an emotional warfare.

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"Edward Masen is a fucking asshole!"

Rosalie quirks a brow, snorting a laugh before rolling her eyes. She's doing my makeup before it gets darker and we miss the last chance of finishing one more scene, I glace at her still wondering how's possible she's my second best friend, the one I tell everything is my cousin, Jess.

"Haven't you made up before?" she asks, finding my opinion irrelevant "You gotta give him a chance, also he's certainly a ten plus one"

I snort.

"Thought we had" I say through gritted teeth "He's still a jerk"

"Jerk or not, he's still the hottest man I've ever seen" Jessica giggles, doing my hair. I roll my eyes and quirk a brow, she's so Rosalie sometimes.

Still I love her. Since her, Carlisle and Esme are my only family left.

"Just try to calm down, everything will be done by tomorrow, sweetheart" Rosalie's words echoing on my head.

One day left, and everything will be done.

"It's time Bella!" Carlisle calls out "On stage!" Excitement is clear on his voice.

Taking a deep breath I fix my white silk blouse and get ready. It's time.

"Scene three, take two!"

I turn back to cameras, my sight resting on the large lake; I hold my breath, my partner's steeps getting close on my back it's not our first scene together, still it feels likely.

Warm arms slide around my waist; I rest my head on his chest, sighing in relieve. This is how it's supposed to be, a strong electric current goes through my spine.

What's wrong with his touch?

"Is everything okay?" he asks, somewhat worry.

I don't even bother hiding the look of concern on my face. "I am afraid, Anthony" I hold a sob.

"We'll do it great, like ever"

Edward's arms become softer as we are face to face, our gazes meeting. I sigh when his warm touch hold my face, getting closed. I couldn't help but kiss him right there. His lips are warm and taste like sweet honey.

"It won't get you" he swears, his lips never letting mine go "you're my life, now"

I close my eyes, resting our foreheads together, our breath mixed.

"I…"

"Shh…" his lips stop me, I close my eyes "Eve…you're all I ever wanted, all I ever needed" he takes a deep breath "I love you with all my soul, as I never believe I could love someone. I've never known I needed you till I found you"

"But…phraoh…"

"I won't let a 3000 thousands years' dead body gets you. You're mine" his lips meet mine one more time; I smile against them, always kissing back.

"Great job guys! We're editing!" Carlisle voice gets my attention "Jessica, do her hair! Rose, his makeup" I push Edward chest away, our last kiss was out of record.

"He's not following the script!" I call out Carlisle, a big smile breaks on his face looking at my partner.

"I know! It's been perfect!"

I snort rolling my eyes at him, Rose mocks at me, combing my hair and looking at Edward as a blind who has seen for first time in his life.

"Seriously?" I ask, and she shrugs.

"Is she always so frigid" I stare at Edward, my mouth setting into a straight line.

"Pardon?" I clench my teeth, my face gets suddenly hot.

Jessica giggles "I was wondering if you're always so…frigid you must be wilder…you know, right?"

Rose looks at her, confuse and before I could say or done something Carlisle calls out our names.

"Scene four, take five!"

"You know Isabella. Not bitter. Just an easy comparison to make" He says amused.

"Oh?" I offer a tiny fake laugh when he walks away "He's so fuck off"

"Bella…" Her voice trembling, she knows me well enough to be afraid.

"It'll be fine Rose, we're almost done"

"Alright guys, this is one of our last scenes of you together" Carlisle's eyes are full of excitement "lights, camera, action!"

"Who the hell do you think you are!" Anger is clear on my voice; I'm not performing, not any longer. This is me being mad at him; he was no one to call me frigid, no one to judge me.

"I may be anyone, still I'm the man who you are in love with" his hands pull me closer, chest to chest, my breath gets heavy "…and I'm still in love with you".

I look into his deep bright eyes, one of his hands rises, his fingertips touching my limps softly, almost with reverential love, I sigh.

"We're together, Eve" His lips touch mine.

It takes me a couple of minutes to kiss him back, I'm suddenly breathless, and before he had the chance to let my lips go, I bite his lower lip hard, my tongue tastes his blood immediately; then, I just pull myself away.

"You're crazy!" Edward yells, I can't help but laugh.

I clean up my lips, his green eyes are on me as I say with feigned politeness "Sorry, I was trying to go with the flow…you know, I wanted to be a little wild"

"Stop!" Carlisle voice cuts Edward's words off "I think you tried to hard" I bite my lip, I'm almost sure I can identify a funny look on him "Jess, grab him some ice"

"You're insane!"

I laugh.

"What have you done Isabella?" I just blink, looking away.

He steps in front of me, his arms fold on his chest, he's trying too hard to be serious "Don't give that innocent look, I know what you were up to"

"I didn't mean to cause any harm" I lie

He nods, his brow quirks "Just get Rosalie's to do your hair, kiddo"

I smile.

Rosalie's mouth is wide open. I chuckle, she looks exactly like bugs bunny at looney tunes, and old cartoon I used to watch when I was little.

"Isabella…" I roll my eyes, she can't help but laugh.

Her hands move professionally fast fixing my hair in curly strands, and pinning my bang from my forehead. I mirror myself, she is incredible at her job, best thing she loves it.

"I can't believe you just bit him, he's gorgeous" Rosalie giggles.

"He's a dick" I say. "An idiot, a jerk and…."

"…and every girl's wet dream" I blush "You're ready; now go before Carlisle comes here, he doesn't look pretty happy, does he?"

Rose was right.

Carlisle is looking alternately between Edward and me. I take my last gulp of air before facing him.

"Isabella, it's time" He smiles "This is the last scene before we go, please, try not to be wild or go with the flow. We gotta finish before his lip gets swollen" he adds with a serious look on his eyes.

Jess approaches, still smiling. "Carlisle said something, uh?"

I nod "As usual. He asked me not to be that wild" I say, I try my best for not to laugh. Still I can't help, Jessica laughs, too.

"So, he did not mind"

"Yep"

Jessica huffs.

Weird, she's been behaving likely too much.

"What's wrong?

"Nothing Bells" I grimace, I hate being call by, still she's family and the only one who's allow to "You are you"

"How?" I giggle "I am myself"

"It's just…It's not a big deal. Carlisle and Esme love you and truly care about you. They kiss the floor where you pass by, now go Bells. It's time"

I am positioned in center of everything, there's a huge fan which is located four meters away from the set. I look around, this one of our last scenes. Anthony and Evelyn try to run from the sandstorm that was invoked by the pharaoh.

"Scene forty-five, take four! Action!

I start running, trying to flee from the sandstorm. Edward is by my side, we're both trying to find a way to avoid being catch.

I fall

"Evelyn!" Anthony yells, fear on his voice, he's worry.

More than I've ever seen him.

I try to be on my feet, I fall again, and I hold my tears.

"Run! He wants me and, he won't hurt you if you leave. I'll make sure" I swear

The pharaoh has claimed me and there is no way I can stop it, I must save Anthony, he deserves to live, if the pharaoh takes me back, Anthony will be free.

I close my eyes, my fingertips touch his cheekbones, I draw a map of his on my mind.

Then, I kiss him softly, that's all I need a kiss of his.

"I'm not leaving you" he whispers on my lips, I sob.

Anthony carries up me in his arms, I run my hands down his neck, as soon as he pulls us away by throwing us under some rocks, I hold on his shirt, sand hitting behind us.

"That was awesome!" Carlisle's shout of joy is heard.

I smile, it means Edward and I are done for today.

I sigh when Edward breaks out our hug.

"You liked?" I ask, looking forward to having a break.

"Liked? It's not enough to express it. I love it guys you were so natural" He says before leaving

I sigh in relieved.

"Hey!" I turn around, a wide smile on my face "See what dessert sand brought here"

I look at voice's owner.

Jacob Black.

I run meeting him; his arms hold me instinctively turning us. I kiss his cheek, I've missed him, more than I could ever accept.

I look into his deep black eyes, I blink, dazzle by the intensity of his gaze.

Something has changed; deep inside his eyes I see concern about something.

"What you doing here?"

"Since Sam is out, I'm your new mommy"

I stare at him.

He's wearing Pharaoh costume.

I yell. A yell full of happiness.

"Bella, Jacob on stage, now guys!" I laugh, Carlisle's been always consider the opportunist person I've ever met.

Who'd say? Jacob Black is back in action.

Jacob, or Jake as I've called him since we were 15 years old smiles. I smile back.

"Ready, Belly-bean?"

I nod, still smiling.

"Scene forty-eight! Take one, Action!

- Ankesenamum , why do you resist? Imhotep asks approaching, I close my eyes.

Anthony.

Where are you, love?

I don't even bother hiding my anger, I stop holding my tears when I look at him "I'm not her," I say

Imhotep looks at me holding his breath.

"You are my princess" he says stiffly.

"She's not yours!" I'm breathless, he's alive.

Imhotep ignores him and pull me back to him, hitting me with his rotten body before the desert sands cover us, despite this I hear myself screaming out Anthony's name.

"Great guys, we're editing. Take a ten minutes break". Carlisle stops.

I stare at Jake.

Las time I saw him he confess to love me.

I point out at the recording set "You never told me" I say, I bite my lip nervously "I thought we….."

Jake denies laughing.

"I wanted to give a surprise, and tell you the news. I met someone"

I can't help but smile.

"That's amazing, Jake" I hug him.

His arms hug me back, there're not words to express my feeling for him right now.

He deserves to be happy.

I roll my eyes hearing someone clearing his throat.

"So, I guess you must be Sam's replacement" Edward says, Jake lets me go, still he keeps and arm around my waist.

"Jacob Black"

Both shakes hands "Edward Cullen" he offers "Nice to meet you"

"May I call you Ed, man?"

Edward clenches his teeth "Edward is fine"

I look at them uncomfortably.

If looks could kill, Jake will be already dead.

"Cullen, makeup!"

Edward leaves without giving a second sight.

I sigh.

Jake's gaze never leaves Edward when he walks away "They know?" Jake asks.

I shrug.

"I don't…."

"Don't lie, Isabella" I turn around, holding myself "I knew since he came and introduced himself there's something up I saw it on your eyes"

I whimper a little.

"Nobody knows, Jake" I accept.

"For how long?"

"I'm not ready…" I lie.

And even I am not looking at his icy eyes when I speak I hear falsehood in my own voice

"Isabella…"

I face him "I know Jake, you don't have to say it"

"Are you sure? It doesn't look like" he says sarcastically "Bella, by the time this is over" he points around us "I don't want to be the one who has to pick up all pieces".

I stare at him "You won't have to"

"Just remember, nothing last forever, and I don't want to be part of your secret forever"

I nod, holding my tears.

Jake was right, everyone goes and everyone comes. And unfortunately in my situation it is no different, because everyone I've ever loved is always gone

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By the time the suns sets I start running feeling the suffocating night cold hits my skin, I put on my headphones and set my phone to the time that will mark the end of my night run, I run through the set, my jacket cap on, I don't want to be recognize. I turn right around a corner as pair of hands pull me close someone's chest. A warm palm covers my mouth I try to scream out for help without success.

"Shh ... calm down ..." his voice whispers, my body relaxes as I hear the smile on his voice "... it's me."

I turn around, we are chest to chest. Then, I kiss his lips. "I thought you were someone else"

"Do I have to be jealous?" he asks, his eyebrows rise playfully.

He smiles crookedly.

"Don't think so, you're the only one"

We both kiss as hold me close his chest.

I smile, he is all I need. He leads us both to my trailer; we look at the sides making sure that there is no one. I hate hiding, but the mere fact that it is because of him makes me not care.

Inside our clothes quickly disappear as he whispers soft words of love on my ear, his breath is a summer caress on my skin capable of enveloping me in the deepest fantasy, his touch is as soft as a petal, I kiss him once more before our bodies begin our wild dance, a dance that will get us together once more; my skin burns for his touch, begs for one more caress, one more sample of his love, I need him like the air I breathe, he is my light in my darkness and without hesitation he consumes me.

He sighs, making gentle circles on my back, small electric shocks run through me.

"I hate hiding" I say.

He kisses over my shoulder; close to my neck "No one has to know what we do" he says in husky voice "People may misunderstand us"

I sigh heavily, it's true. Everyone could misunderstand things.

"What happened on the set?"

I can't help but smile. I've been waiting for his question.

I play with his fingers "Nothing, my partner is always making me angry ..." I say innocently.

He cuddles with me, his face bury on my chest.

I bite my lower lip.

"How come?" He murmurs, causing tickles on my body.

I look at him, amusement dancing in his eyes I exhale dramatically before tell anything "he called me frigid"

He laughs "Love, if there's something I am sure about, is that you're everything but frigid" he says, kissing my temple "I heard you took good care of him"

"Mhm"

He kisses my chest, I moan "…and what a way to take care" he adds snorting.

He folds his arms letting my waist.

I roll my eyes and get on him; he's giving me a pouty look.

"Still upset?" I ask, as I tangle us up.

Raising an eyebrow, he gets us closer "Not any longer..." he says.

I kiss him softly, his lip is already swollen.

"I love you Edward Cullen," I say before I could keep it.

He stands up "I have to go…nobody must see me here. It sunrises soon"

"Don't leave" I beg "I'm tired of hiding, whatever it comes, we'll face it together"

He's buttoning his pants "Pretty…"

"Today is our last day, the last scene is being recorded today" I offer "It's the best moment to tell everybody"

"Bella…"

"I love you, Edward" I accept "I am ready to take any risk if it's by your side"

Edward snorts "I am not" he yells, I sit on the bed, I pull the blanket closer, trying to hide myself.

I don't look at him, by the time he yells he's already leaving half dressed.

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"Go, people, go" Carlisle calls out everyone in the set "We must start"

I mirror myself; Rose is doing my hair while Jessica is taking care of my makeup.

They're talking; still I don't know what the conversation is. All I can think about is Edward leaving my caravan this morning.

"Scene forty-nine, take one…Action"

"Are you leaving?" I ask, my voice breaks.

"Got a great chance at the United States" he says huskily "This is the last time we see each other" his words are heartless.

I look into his eyes, he's not Anthony any longer, and he's Edward.

Edward is the one who's speaking right now, it's not about our script.

"It doesn't have to be this way…" I close distance between us.

Look at me, choose me, choose us.

"Yes, it has to"

"You don't have to be alone" I whisper, holding a sob.

"Evelyn, I don't want you to come"

I groan.

"Anthony…I…"

"No, Eve. Don't make this more difficult than it is"

"All we went together…is it meaningless for you?"

"It never meant anything," he says, coldly.

I look at the floor, he's not the man I fell in love with.

I sigh as the tears run free down my cheeks; I don't even bother holding my sobs.

I see his hands, his fists are clenched "Go, I..Eve. Go and live"

I nod, I'm speechless.

He turns around, I pull his arm "Can you promise something?" I ask.

He nods. I take a deep breath. I force the words through my throat "Say you'll remember me, say you see me again, even if just in your wildest dreams".

"I'm sorry, Eve. I can't promise something I won't keep"

I sob, there's no more to be said.

I let his arm go, he's closed to me, I feel his breath, his lips kiss my temple while he's inhaling.

I see him leaving, he never turns around.

A lonely teardrop downs my cheek.

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The set is cleared quickly. I take a deep breath before start looking through the crowd for him, I haven't seen him since we recorded our last scene together.

"Have you seen Edward?" I find myself asking Carlisle, he smiles amusedly "I'd like to apologize for yesterday's inconvenient" I offer

He laughs, looking younger and full of joy

"He has come back to London" he says "I asked him to have dinner with us, so we could celebrate your last day"

He's gone

"Really?" I clear my throat "How long"

"I don't know, he said he missed his wife"

I find difficult to breath.

Wife.

He never said he was married.

"I didn't know he was married ..." I hear myself accepting

"Didn't Jessica tell you?"

Jessica, she knew everything this whole time.

She never said anything.

"No, she never did…"

"Are you alright, Bella?" He asks "You're to pale"

"I'm great" I lie "I was just thinking about Ed…his wife what kind of sin could she has committed to be married with such an idiot?"

"He's a cool guy" he offers

I smile down the watch on my wrist. "I gotta go. I'm meeting with Jess"

Carlisle nods laughing.

I walk around the set, looking for Jessica.

I easily find her, she's with Jake.

"You never told me. Why?" I confront her.

"Told you?" I ignore Jake, it's not the time.

I don't need him to say: I told you, so.

"Edward's married, Jess. You knew all this fucking time we were together" I sob

"Did we have to tell you?" Jessica asks innocently.

"What you mean?" I ask, she's looking at Jake.

No.

"Jake…" I cry, he's in silence, avoiding my stare "When…did you…?"

"He knows since one week ago, Bells" her voice is amuse, she's mocking me.

I gulp.

"Why Jess? You're like a sister"

"Why? Really, Isabella? How could you be so stupid?" I look at her. She's not the girl I was raise with.

"You've always been the poor orphan who deserves everything!" You stole everything from me, you stole my uncles and all men I've loved… but oh, I had a lot of fun watching you get toyed like a fiddle"

You won't understand Isabella, I am the one who must be on the set, not you. I am the one who must be Carlisle and Esme's little girl. Not you, but for first time I owe something you won't ever have. I was with Edward at first. I saw him for first time, and we were together while he was with you. I convinced him to make you fall in love, then to break your heart"

I hold myself "You're lying"

"No, dear cousin, that's the reason he never wanted anyone to know"

"I thought ... I thought we were like sisters ..." I say in shock.

"We are not even relatives, we were raise like cousins, and still the true is: there are not family boundaries, you've been always an orphan" My body feels cold "Sorry, but I gotta go, I have a party to enjoy. I wish Edward were here, I'm definitely going to miss him. You know how good he could be".

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I look at the screen, I deep breath leaves my lips.

It's the scene which marked my life.

It's only been two months since I said goodbye, and now here I am, sitting two places away from with him and his wife reminiscing about the past.

My eyes land on the screen as he turns and walks away without looking back, I stand up and walk out of the room.

I walk through the hall, head up, no second looks I wasn't the same Isabella Swan I had been the past twenty years.

I was no longer that person.

New York's fresh and cold air blows hard, I run to my car that is already waiting outside, and without even asking, Seth, my driver accelerates.

My gaze falls on the hindsight, and there, in the middle of the street, he is.

Memories overwhelm me as he stares the car drive away, it's the best.

I close my eyes, holding my tears. I had cried enough.

I hug my belly and let Seth lead me to my new life, now I won't be longer be alone . There is a new life which needs me.