Note : English is not my native language. But i was so proud of this story that i have to translate it and share it with you ! Please, feel free to correct me, i will not be offended. Hope you will enjoy the reading anyway !
This is from Riza's POV and it is Royai of course.
This feeling
I don't understand why i get attached to this feeling. That everthing will be alright, one day.
How am i supposed to feel serene, if emptiness is the only thing i see in me ? I wish i could be what you hope. Did you already forget about me ? I wish i could spend more time with you. Those words you said, i think about it day and night. They become my reason to live.
How could i know that it was an illusion ? Reality caught me off guard, it's like jumping in the water without breathing in first. I spent dark nights not sleeping, haunted by horrors i have committed. Even memory of your smile wasn't enough to warm my heart.
A reunion that shouldn't be like this. The impression that our story is haunted by this heavy atmosphere of death. When will we live, fully ? I can't step back, right ? But you will pave my path, right ?
Because death would release me, i thought. But these years at your side give me back hope. Finally, i can see a future.
I didn't understand why i got attached to this feeling. But thanks to you, i understood. I trust this feeling that never leave me.
Everything will be alright, one day. Because i am no longer alone. You manage to ease the pain.
This is shorter than my original haha i love the idea of Roy paving the path for Riza. But sometimes, it's the other way around, don't you think ?