Olivia woke up the next morning and looked down at Amanda who was still sleeping in her arms, one hand still gripping the material of her shirt as she slept. Liv sighed. It had been a long night. Even holding Amanda while she slept didn't keep the nightmares away. She still woke up at least 2 or 3 times a night screaming for her, and it broke her heart every time she promised Liv she would be good and to please not send her back to the bad man. She wondered what the blonde had went through that made her so terrified of everyone around her except for herself, but Amanda just wasn't ready to talk about it yet. Liv new she needed counseling though. They couldn't continue like this. She knew today would be another long day. Even though Amanda had worked with Fin and the others for years Olivia was the only one she would allow to be close to her or touch her.
She was brought out of her thoughts by Amanda shifting in her arms.
"Hey there, baby," Olivia whispered as she kissed the top of Amanda's head.
"Hey Livy," Amanda said as she cuddled closer in response, and Olivia wondered how long big girl Amanda would remain with her. That would determine how their day went.
"Did you sleep well?" she asked and Amanda just shruged. "No, not really," Amanda said as she played with the sleeve of Olivia's sweatshirt. "I had bad dreams," she said and Liv tightened her hold on her in response. "I know baby," she said sadly. "They were pretty scary, huh?" "I don't wanna talk about it," Amanda whispered as a shiver ran through her small frame and Liv pulled her a little closer. "You don't have to," she said and Amanda relaxed a little. When they had finally found her in that basement, Amanda was naked and chained to a wall, shivering violently. It had taken Liv at least 20 minutes to convince her she wouldn't hurt her, but once she had Amanda wouldn't let her out of her sight. She had become so hysterical at the sight of the EMT's that she'd had to hold her just so they could check her out. Once they arrived at the hospital and the doctor had finished her exam it was revealed that she had been beaten, starved and sexually assaulted on a daily basis. Olivia knew there was more, but she wouldn't pressure her. Amanda would open up when she was ready. Right now they had to get ready for work. In no way was Amanda ready to come back to work, but her fear of being separated from Olivia made it to where she had to go into work with her.
"Are you ready to go to the station?" Olivia asked. Leaving Amanda home alone was not an option either. She had learned that after returning from work and finding her naked and shivering on the bathroom floor, as she screamed for Liv to help her. She was almost catatonic. It had taken Liv almost an hour to bring her out of her flashback and reassure her that she was safe and that she could wear clothes. They had found that Amanda's captor did not allow her to wear clothes. She was kept naked and chained to the bed or wall most of the time.
"Yes, I am. Can I stay with you?" she asked quietly, afraid Liv would say no. "Of course, honey," She said softly. "I'm not going anywhere."
Once they arrived at the station she lead Amanda to her office after speaking with her squad and got her settled on the sofa with a blanket. She had a lot of paperwork to get through but this way with the blonde being in the same room with her she was able to get some work done and keep her calm in the process. she wasn't sure if her friend would ever be the same. the horrors that she had gone through along with her abusive childhood had left their mark, and she was dealing with them the only way she new how. Amanda's regression was out of the blue. The slightest thing could cause her to become the mental age of a baby or a toddler. Liv had found that sudden sounds would frighten her and cause her to cling to her in Fear with a glazed over look in her eyes, only to come out of her thoughts a short time later with the mind of a baby. Liv glanced over to check on Amanda, who was still wrapped up in the blanket. She had toys as well as Amanda's pacifiers in her office just incase her little side took over. "Liv, I'm going to get something to eat," she said. "Ok, sweetheart," she responded, her attention fully on Amanda. "Are you sure you want to go by yourself?" she asked. "I'm sure," she said. "Ok, baby, text me if you need me." "I will," the blonde said before leaving the office.
A short time later, olivia was going through her paperwork when suddenly her office door was flung open. There in the doorway stood fin, with a terrified exspression on his face. "Fin, what is it?" she asked in a pannic. "Where's Amanda?" she had been worried when after 30 minutes Amanda had not returned. She was just about to go look for her when Fin barged into her office. "She's... under my desk, and she's... upset" he said softly. "apparently when she stepped out after getting her snack to get some fresh air some reporters started asking her questions about her kidnapping, since we are now working this new case and we haven't caught the guy who took her they seemed to think that she could answer their questions." he said. "They have the insane idea that its the same guy," fin angerly spat and Liv put a hand on his arm to calm him. "Easy, fin," she said. "What's going on with Amanda?" "She's crying and begging for you." "She wants her Mama," he said with a confused look on his face, and Liv knew if she didn't get to Amanda soon she'd have a baby on her hands. She was the only one that knew of Amanda's regression, and until amanda said it was OK to tell the rest of the squad she intended to keep it that way. "I've got it," she said as she rushed out into the bullpen where she could here whimpering coming from beneath Fin's desk. She dropped to her knees and there under the desk was Amanda, huddled in a ball as tears ran dowm her face.
"Hey, sweetheart, its Liv," she said as she crawled under the desk where Amanda was still shaking and trembling. She opened her eyes before quickly shutting them again as the terrifying memories continued to assault her. "mama," Amanda cried desperately. "Baby, I'm right here," Olivia said as she slowly reached for Amanda in hopes of comforting her. "No please, I'll be a good girl, just don't hurt me anymore," the young detective sobbed hysterically. "I want Liv," she screamed. "Liv please, help me," she cried louder and she swallowed the emotion building up in her throat and tried once again to bring Amanda back from her memories of that basement. "Baby its Olivia," she said. "You're safe," she whispered as she rubbed her shaking back. "Just open your eyes for me, I'm right here," she said and waited for the blonde to come back to her. Amanda looked around before realizing it was Liv who was talking to her and not the monster who haunted her dreams. She crawled into olivia's lap and cried into her sholder. "Shhhh sweetie," Liv said as her own eyes filled with tears. "You're safe now, I promise," she said as she slid out from under the desk with Amanda clinging tightly to her and sucking her thumb, and liv knew that big girl Amanda would not be returning for a while. "BaBa?" she asked. "of course, sweetheart," liv whispered.
She knew that once Amanda had gotten a bottle she would be asleep, wwhich is what she needed after the events of the last few minutes.
"Bad man not hurt me"? she asked, looking at her with wide, frightened eyes and Olivia almost broke down right there.
"No, my love," she spoke softly, rocking her slightly in hopes of calming her. "You're safe with me," she cooed.
After about 15 minutes Amanda finally began to relax and Liv placed her back on the sofa and returned to her desk. She glanced over at her friend a little while later and saw her calmly chewing on the nipple of the bottle and smiled. She understood this was Amanda's way of coping with the trauma and she would do whatever she could to help her. When she had first taken Amanda out to the store after her rescue and this had happened she was blasted for letting Amanda act like a baby, but she didn't care. This was what Amanda needed and if it helped her not be as scared then that was all that mattered.
I'm ending this here because it was already way too long. I got carried away. I did want to show her having a flashback and how the regression takes over as well as some of what she went through and a little about her being rescued. I will not just be focusing on the baby side, I will also be doing a toddler as well.Anyways, feel free to leave requests. I don't have to continue this storyline. I can write whatever you guys want. I can do one shots in regards to this story or just skip around. If y'all wanna see something specific though just let me know. I'm not sure how much I'm going to reveal about what she went through. I'm not very good with writing that kind of stuff. I'm better at writing the comfort aspect but if you guys have a certain request just let me know. feedback is more than welcome along with any ideas.
Thanks for reading.