Of course, being bullied is something you might want to forget and sometimes that already is enough to cause a lot of damage, but in this case it's only one small part of the things that lead Lue to get to this very moment, in which she thought about everything that did and didn't happen in her life.
She never had the intention to blame someone else for what happened, but at the same time she knew it wasn't all her fault.
To pick up where we left off, the next reason, a way bigger part of all those things, had to do with Lue's body as well. There was one person in particular who always watched Lue when sitting on the dinner table, bumping her feet on Lue's, so Lue would know, 'That's too much food, stop eating now.'
Of course Lue hated that, but in the beginning she did what this person expected. Lue didn't knew at the time why she had to eat less, despite being bullied (Though deep down she knew).
So she started eating secretly, when others weren't around. Lue knew it was wrong.
For a very long time no one seemed to notice, but then the person started to weigh Lue every once in a while.
Lue couldn't hide her gaining weight anymore, but she also couldn't give up eating.
So the person wanted Lue to workout.
When she was with Lue, Lue couldn't take shortcuts, but when Lue had to workout alone, Lue did use shortcuts.
But when the number on the scale only grew, the person noticed something was wrong.
But obviously she couldn't do anything to stop it, it had to be Lues decision to change.
Slowly, Lue began to feel worse and worse. She wanted to be like everyone else. She had to find a way to lose weight.
First, she started to really workout. But that didn't change anything, except that she felt a bit better in her body.
Unfortunately she didn't lose any weight.
That went on for some time, but Lue only felt useless and tired.
Then, one day, it was like something inside her mind changed.
From there on everything began to feel easier: doing sports, eating less, doing work for school.
She could run faster, longer and most importantly she felt happy.
She also began to eat less.
Lue began to lose weight.
It was like a rush inside her. She wanted to feel like that forever.
So she worked out longer, ate less and distracted herself with school stuff.
That all worked out perfectly.
The people around her started to notice her weight loss. They were happy about it too.
Lue felt stronger.
And she ate less.
She worked out all day.
At the same time she got better in school what made her even happier.
She felt like she belonged, like she had a purpose in life.
Lue kept on doing what felt good for her, not knowing it would change her life.